Author's Note: I'm back everyone! Chpter two is here! First off, thanks to the readers who followed and favorited the story. That really made my day. Second off, since the first chapter is over, I can explain the AU a little more: it starts off from the moment Tobias kills Reid in "Revelations", the difference is that JJ and Reid don't break up this time. It continues with their lives following that, still somewhat keeping to the canon (no changes to the cases, etc.). Thirdly, sorry for the wait. I meant to post last night, but I got held up at a high school football game and by the time I got home, I was worn out and couldn't really do anything.
Also thanks to those who reviewed the story. Hearing your feedback made me really happy.
A note to xs18: Thank you for the review. It definitely brought up a number of things I never even considered for the original story. To be honest, I intended to rush it a little bit because the story following the canon is barely half the story and the original story is what I focused on getting to. You do have some good ideas though. I'm planning on using them in the missing chapters fanfic I mentioned, as the structure of the story won't work with adding much more. I hoping to explore some more aspects of the relationship during Seasons 1 and 2 with the missing chapters fanfic. Thanks for your feedback, it really does help me out a little, this being my first fanfic.
Anyway, I left a little summary at the end of the last chapter: JJ and Reid wake up to a little bit of a surprise. It didn't say much but it also said everything. I worded it in a way where it was obvious, but it also wasn't. Anyway, this chapter will explain what it means.
Enjoy!
February 20th, 2008: Quantico, VA
JJ woke up with the worst hangover she had ever had. Morgan had thrown one hell of a blowout party with the team. He had "accommodated" Rossi's mansion while he was out of town, and got the entire team drunk. She didn't rember much about the party other than that she had battled Spencer in a drinking competition to see who could drink more shots. She had also remembered something else with Spencer, but she couldn't figure it out at that moment. Then she realized something was different. She realized that she was naked under the bed sheets. It now became apparent to her that she had sex with someone that night. From what she could now remember, she really enjoyed it. She looked next to her when it became apparent someone else was in the bed as well. When she saw who it was, she was absolutely shocked.
She found next to her Spencer Reid, also unclothed, in the bed. Then she realized what had happened. She had sex with her best friend/ex-boyfriend. The memory started coming back to her.
The Previous Night…
Spencer and JJ ran up the stairs drunk as could be and giggled the entire way.
"I love you, JJ. I freaking love you, JJ," Spencer said slurring his words.
They reached one of the guest rooms and she pinned him to the door. "Good. Because I love you too."
She opened the door and dragged Spencer inside. She closed and locked the door. She immediately started making out with Spencer. Their lips were engaged in a battle for supremacy. JJ eventually broke the kiss.
She leaned up to Spencer's ear and whispered, "Make love to me, Spence. Please, just do it." And he decided quickly what his answer was going to be.
"Whatever you say, Jenny." That was it. He had just called her Jenny. She was seriously turned on now.
The two quickly stripped and engaged in a heated affair of love. When they both reached their high and came down, they spoke for a little while. Then, Spencer had a brilliant idea.
"JJ, let's do it again," he told her.
"You are a genius," she whispered to him.
They made love again. After they were finished, both were tired as could be. JJ snuggled in closer to Spencer's unclothed body while he kissed her lips passionately.
That was where they were when they fell asleep.
She wasn't exactly complaining, considering that she remembered that the sex that took place satisfied her and she enjoyed it. The thing is she wouldn't just have sex with anyone. Up until that point she was a virgin. She wanted her first time to be special. And from she could guess having sex with Spencer Reid was her special first time. She still loved him, despite her relationship with Will. In fact, she was sure that she loved Spencer more than Will.
She started trying to wake up Spencer. He moaned a few times, but eventually woke up.
"Ugh," he moaned. "What happened last night?"
"Look next to you and you'll see," JJ said.
Spencer jumped a little when he heard JJ's voice, but was quickly calmed. He looked next to him to see JJ sitting on the bed naked, the sheets covering her chest. He started putting the pieces together.
"JJ, did we…?"
"Yes we did Spence."
He was shocked, but quickly started apologizing until JJ shut him up.
"You don't need to be sorry. I enjoyed it. You are definitely a genius: a genius in the books and in the bed."
"Really?"
"Yes, Spence."
Spencer was silent for a moment.
"I guess this makes you my first," he said.
"Good," JJ replied. "Because you were my first." Spencer was stunned. Honestly, he didn't believe it.
"I'm honored to be your first." He paused. "JJ, despite all of what's happened, and the fact that I love you more than anything, I can't in good conscious let you be with me. I'm a recovering addict. I'm not good enough for you honestly. You need someone like Will."
JJ's eyes widened. "How did you know about me and Will?"
"JJ, I'm a genius and a profiler. I could see it in your eyes every time you took a weekend off. But, right now, you're not telling me something about you and Will, since you have a hint of regret or sadness in your eyes. Not to mention you asked 'How did I know', not 'How do I know'."
"He broke up with me last week."
"Why?"
"Because I haven't told you guys yet."
"JJ, I'm sorry."
"It's okay. I think, honestly, I love you way more than I could ever love him." She reached for his face and cupped his cheek in her hand. He pulled away, his heart almost breaking as he spoke.
"Jennifer, I can't let you be with me." JJ started tearing up a little. He never called her Jennifer. He had called her Jen or Jenny a couple times when they were dating, but never Jennifer. "Don't forget that I will always love you. I'll just have to love you from afar." He leaned in and kissed her cheek. She wrapped her hands his neck and passionately kissed him on his lips.
"Don't forget that I will always love you too, Spence," JJ said, her voice cracking slightly.
"I won't," he replied. "We'd better get dressed before someone comes in and sees us together in bed naked."
JJ giggled a little bit. "Yeah, we should." Spencer closed his eyes as she got out of the bed. She turned her head and said, "Spence, you don't have to close your eyes. You've already seen me naked. No new territory here." He opened his eyes and watched as she got dressed. He climbed out of the bed, JJ watching, and got himself dressed as well. Once they were dressed, they both left Rossi's mansion and headed home, but not before giving each other a kiss goodbye.
"JJ," Spencer called out as he left. She turned to look at him. "Let's just keep this whole thing between us and not worry about it." She nodded. They both turned back the way they were each walking and strode forward.
The next day, Will appeared at JJ's door.
"Will, what are you doing here?" she asked.
"I wanted to apologize. I've been overreacting about everything. I do love you JJ, it's just that I don't want there being a secret you're keeping forever."
JJ's heart tugged a little at what Will was saying. "I love you too, Will." She hugged him tightly and led him inside.
Will was able to bring her guard and seduced her. The next thing she knew, she was waking up in the morning next to Will. She admitted Will was decent, but nowhere close to Spencer's finesse at Morgan's party. They continued dating. It was enough to make her forget the party.
When Will's old partner was found dead in Miami, Will came up to ID the body. JJ and Will broke up again, but Emily had encouraged JJ to "go for it". She did and made out with Will in front of Emily, Morgan, and Spencer.
"I thought that she would never admit it," Emily said.
"Yeah, it's been, like a year," Spencer said, hiding the hurt he felt. Spencer's heart was slightly crushed, but he kept it together. Then came the real heart crusher.
JJ revealed that she was pregnant. Spencer was happy for her, no doubt about it, but he was destroyed. He no longer had any chance with JJ. She was having another's man's baby; at least as far as he knew or cared about. He stole occasional glances at her from time to time, but he knew that they would never be together again. But something kept him confused. He wasn't sure what, but he didn't ask. He just tried to move on.
I think this will be the only time I ever write anything "romantic" with JJ and Will (not just because of my JJ/Reid ship; it was really difficult). Speaking of which, please tell me I'm not the only one who thinks they never should have brought Will back! He's a boring character and I kind of hate his relationship with JJ. It's seems like it's more based on obligations of being Henry's parents than anything else. Besides, that wedding in season seven was absolutely ridiculous and made me want to punch the writers for it. They were fighting about her hours all the time. And why didn't they get married before that episode? I believe the reasons were still there! They should just write him out, since most fans prefer JJ with Reid.
Anyway, now that my opinion/rant is out of the way, I hope you enjoyed this chapter. Now you see where the title comes from. I pray that you understand what's being implied in the chapter. If you don't, I can't help you. Anyway, thanks for reading, please review the story (I would love to hear some feedback from you guys), and here's a peek at what's coming up next chapter:
Reid meets a new friend who becomes a light in the darkness surroung him.
Who is this new friend? Check in next time to find out. See you next time!
- D.C. al Coda
