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I should have known that this dream could never last forever.

Yes, my secret affair with Bellamy was just like a dream that I never wanted to wake up from. And even though the circumstances with me in the Sky Box should have been enough to realize things couldn't go on like they had forever, I still believed in the tiny possible that things were going to be all right. That was totally foolish of me.

It didn't strike her as odd when Bellamy didn't show up to escort her to the shower area. He probably had other commitments or simply a day off, nothing that was worth worrying about. Not unless you have to pretend you're okay with having hormonal kid watching you shower, who can barely keep himself from drooling like I'm some sort of porterhouse steak.

But then he didn't show up the next couple of days either, which caused her to grow concerned but settled with that he was unable to see her at the present time. However when days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months all rational thoughts and excuses were discarded. Something was wrong; something had to be cause he wouldn't leave without saying goodbye. Right?

Clarke suddenly stopped moving the charcoal in her hand when she noticed a small wet pool in the middle of her drawing. At first she thought that there was a leak or something on the ceiling, but then she realized that it was her own tears soaking her artwork on the floor.

"Stupid…" She tried to brushing the tears away, but the kept on streaming down her face like endless waterfalls that she had always dreamed of seeing. Ever since I was a little girl I always dreamed about Earth, being down there on the ground and seeing the blue ocean up close. To smell the salty water, feeling the sand and the water between my toes. Most recently that dream included having Bellamy by my side and finally being happy without the rules and laws of the Ark. But I guess like everything else that was clearly not going to happen.

After several attempts to stop her tears she finally gave in to her feelings and just cried out of heartbreak and loneliness. She didn't care if anyone heard her, not anyone did or even cared since they would only assume she was finally losing her marbles.

So after what seemed like hours her tears finally stopped and calmed down, but still felt the numbing emptiness inside. Sighing defeated, Clarke reached down to her front pocket of her pants and retrieved a small tin object. It was a silly little thing, nothing lethal or dangerous, just a thimble that Bellamy had given her the last time she had seen him.


(Flashback)

This was the same week they had argued earlier about whether they should continue staying together or not, but unlike that particular meeting they just sat on the floor and cuddled, with him having his arms wrapped around her and with her head resting on his chest listening to his heartbeat. It was warm and soothing and despite the fact that neither of them was saying anything it was one of those moments were everything seemed all right with the world.

"So the Unity Day masquerade party is tomorrow?" Clarke asked, not realizing how much time had passed since she had been locked up until he mentioned Unity Day before. It has been about six months since her father was floated and she was put in solidary confinement. For most people being locked up in solidary confinement would have drove them to insanity, but she was apparently an abnormally in this case. It's funny how time has flown so fast being locked up inside, with only Bellamy to give me an actual and intelligent conversation. Well, that and among other things.

"Yeah, it's going to be great." Bellamy said, with an insecure smile on his face. It was clear that he was excited, but it almost seemed like there was more to it than what he was letting on. "But I can't help wishing you would be there with me."

She tilted her head up and pushed herself forward in order reach his lips, which he met half way when he leaned down to kiss her as well. Then quickly pulled away before letting out a happy and satisfied sigh. And it was then an idea struck her mind.

"How about this, I'll let you borrow my watch." Clarke said. Then proceeded with taking off the watch that her father had given her just before he had been floated. "It will be like I'm there with you."

Bellamy was completely taken by surprise by her decision and tried to protest it. "No, Clarke, I can't accept this."

"Oh, don't get your pants in a twist." Clarke chuckled, and almost forcefully put the watch on his right wrist. "You're borrowing a watch, not accepting a proposal." Although that last part wouldn't be so bad if life would have allowed it.

"But what if I am?" Bellamy argued, which shocked her immensely. She looked at him dumbfounded, like she first misheard him or something, but quickly realized that he was being serious. And honestly couldn't believe what he was saying. "Are you kidding with me, Bellamy? You know we can't get married! I mean, come on, I'm in solidary confinement and is waiting for a trial that will determine whether I get floated or not, and you want us to do this despite the cruelness of this situation?" That's completely insane.

He shook his head and just silenced her with a kiss that literally took her breath away. When he finally pulled away he sighed heavily and said, "Okay, fine. Then don't see this as an official proposal. See it as a promise, a promise of a future."

He wants a future with me? Before she had the chance to he began searching his pockets until he pulled out a tiny thimble, took her hand, and put it in her hand. "I know it's not much. I mean my mom must have forgotten to take it out when she was stitching up my jacket, but it's something that will remind you of me. And it will remind you of the promise that I want to give you in order to have hope for the future."

The revelation made her so happy that she couldn't keep the smile on her face, so in a euphoric and impulsive she accepted the thimble and smacked her mouth right back on his lips. "Then I accept, Bellamy Blake. I accept the promise of a future with you."


Clarke just stared at the thimble, smiling sadly at it. Honestly, she wasn't sure what to think about Bellamy's absence. Anything could have happened that made him unable to show up to see her, but her biggest fear was that it was just a subtle way to break up and disappear from her life. Not that it would be difficult cause I don't exactly have a lot of life left until I get floated. But that's not the kind of person Bellamy is. I know it, even if anyone else would tell me otherwise.

"It would have been easier if he had just left me rather than disappear into thin air." Clarke murmured. "But the funny thing is that I can't even bring myself to say that I hate him or that regret our relationship, even now when I'm here alone once again. More heartbroken than I was before I was put in here." No, I don't regret our relationship. I could never ever regret even though I wish it were. The thing I regret the most was the fact that not once did I tell him the words that were in my heart, at the tip of my tongue.

I wish that I told him that I love him.

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Okay, I really hope that you guys liked this third chapter of the story. It's probably a little different and unrealistic compared to other Ark AU stories. The reason for this is that I didn't want use 'Clarke getting pregnant' scenario to play out cause it wouldn't really surprise anyone if I did so. Another reason why is that I want the ending to this story to end with the pilot with the delinquents on the ground.

And honestly, I find this twist of mine to be a good different in the way that while they are not officially engaged they are promised to each other, there is a promise of a future together. Which I for one finds very romantic.

In other news, I have been working on another the 100 story lately and I'm happy to say that I'm soon ready to publish it. Once I do I hope I'll receive such great response like I have on this one. And while I won't give away what it is about yet, I can tell you that it is a 'Grounder Bellamy' story with a different twist.

Clearly I don't own either the series, they belong to their respective owners.

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