A/N:
The Avengers, Loki, Iron Man, or anything of the like. Just the thoughts inside my head. And taking some personal freedoms with mythology and lore.
Tony ran his hand through Loki's hair as he kept his head in his lap. They were in a private room at the hall as Pepper had talked Gabby and Steve into making an appearance so that the press didn't make a story out of something they didn't need to know about. Balder was in the in between man right now, and had promised to keep them update on Loki. Tony sighed thinking about how the two would remember their reception.
Lanhr had been tied up with enchanted ropes and thrown into a closet that was warded. Thankfully he was still unconscious too. Tony had roughly been filled in and was just waiting for Loki to wake up to find out all the facts.
"If you're trying to wake me up, perhaps you shouldn't use such a soothing motion," Loki said quietly and Tony blinked.
"You know I do that when I'm worried or thinking." Tony rubbed his temples a little and Loki opened his eyes. He helped Loki sit up on the couch they were on. "Do you want me to ask?" Loki shook his head no and Tony waited.
"I told you before that I had dealt with the Fae, then I knew what you had been through." Loki glanced at Tony. "No one knew until now, but I was on Alfheim and got lost. I was younger, still stupid, and had told no one where I was going. I was found by a powerful Fae and he wanted to make me his pet. At the time is wasn't unusual for Thor or Balder to be gone for months at a time on adventures, Father said it was just boys being boys, and that he would know if something had happened. I was gone for four months." Tony reached his hand over and rested it on his knee. "He had never come across someone with powers as strong as my own and wanted to see what would happen, I'm sure he hoped to harness the power."
Loki leaned back and rubbed by his eyes a little. "I didn't think about it at the time, but he let me leave, letting me think that I had been able to escape. For years I avoided Alfheim, too afraid to go back, tried to ignore the way that my magic felt. Told myself that the whispering I heard in the back of my mind was just nightmares, something I could ignore. It wasn't until we started to learn about the different types of Fae that I realized what had happened. I had a Master, and he would always know where I was." Loki glanced over at the door, saw that Balder had been standing there listening, but didn't say anything. "I went back to Alfheim, I was furious. I found him, and I killed him, but the power didn't go away. It had been too long, the influence of the fae had hooked itself to my magic, to my very being, changing me forever. I taught myself to hide it from those that could sense magic."
"Why didn't you tell us when you came back the first time?" Balder stepped into the room more and Tony glanced up at him. "Father or Mother could have helped."
"I was scared Balder, I was young, and I had just been tortured by a Fae," he looked at Balder but didn't raise his voice. "I wouldn't have wanted to go back and admit that I had been defeated when you and Thor came back with tales of victory." He shook his head a little. "The signs were all there you know, and they became even more obvious after finding out I was Jotun."
"How do you mean?" Balder frowned.
"How many others do you know that can shapeshift without a item to call upon the power, or a spell at their hands? I can do so with merely a thought. And I was suddenly able to do so when i should have known all of my powers." Loki held up his hand, moving his fingers slowly, letting green power jump from fingertip to fingertip. "My power used to be gold, not green. And how many Jotun are shapeshifters? I believe that I was the only one who paid attention in our classes, so I can tell you that the answer is none." He sighed and leaned back and Tony pulled him against his shoulder. Loki tried to move away but Tony wouldn't let go.
"I am part Fae, that is why I was able to use my magic, that is why I was able to tell who Lanhr was all those months ago, and how I was able to remove his magic and influence. It's how I knew that doing a soul bond was the only way to be sure that he would never be able to do it again." Loki looked at Tony and frowned. "I have lied to you about it, and I could have put you and our children in danger."
Tony scrunched his brows together a little, then made a little 'o' with his lips. "The kids are part fae." Loki nodded.
"Loki," Balder started quietly. "The soul bond you did with Tony,... Is-"
"No," Loki said quickly, tone getting harsh. "No, I would never do that. The part of my soul in him is that of which I was born with. He is not fae." Loki closed his eyes a little and Tony started to rub his neck. "It took me years to separate the Fae inside of me. I knew I could never get rid of it, not ever, but I would not let it control me wholly. I have no master, I belong to no one. That is a small blessing that I can give to the kids, that because they were born that way they will never have to go through that."
"I'm sorry about the spell." Loki shook his head a little at Balder's apology.
"No, I didn't tell you so you couldn't have known. And if you hadn't we might not have been able to catch Lanhr."
Balder nodded and put a hand on Loki's shoulder briefly. "Then I shall go and tell Gabby and Steve that you are awake and doing fine They've been quite worried." Loki nodded and Balder left.
Tony watched Loki for a few moments. "I know I'm no expert on magic yet, but I have come to a couple of theories about it." Loki raised an eyebrow slightly. "At some points it works like chemicals, on an exposure basis. I should know, I expose my heart to different elements because of the reactor. It's not Entirely true about me not being fae, is it?" Loki didn't say anything, but also didn't look at Tony. "I'm not angry about it, you can be sure that I'm going to be thinking about all the information that you just gave me, but you don't have to worry, Loki." He took both of his hands and squeezed them lightly. "this isn't just something that you mention on a first date, is it? Oh by the way I was tortured and made into something else when I was younger, so hey how'd you almost die?" Loki snorted a little.
"This is one of those rare moments when I think that you are too good for me," Loki kissed the back of his hand. "To hear that I'm one of the things that did the same to you not too long ago, it's behind me how you digest it all."
"Well, it doesn't suddenly change who you are as a person," Tony shrugged a little. "It doesn't change the man I've known for the past 20 years. And maybe I don't mind so much belonging to you in a sense. Just one more reason that I'll never get away." He smiled at Loki a little, bumping his shoulder gently.
"You're a foolish man filled with sentiment." Loki rolled his eyes. They heard some banging coming from the closet and they both looked over. "Oh good, you didn't deal with him yet." He cracked his fingers a little and Tony took his arm.
"No, not at the reception," Tony shook his head. "We're taking him back to the Tower, and you can deal with him after the kids have gone to sleep." Loki look at him and Tony saw that glint in his eye, the one that had promised devastation to the Earth when he had gone mad. Tony felt no shame in admitting that it might have turned him on a little because it wasn't directed at him.
"Perhaps a room that blood will be able to easily cleaned up from?" Tony just kissed his cheek.
