Hello kittyBerries. i am so so so so so sorry for taking so long to update! ive been swamped with collage work and not had time to update. i am sorry. thank you to everyone who has stuck with me while i have been writing this. i promise i will get this fic finished!
Warnings: Language,smutt, lemon,fluff
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters
Three weeks had passed and Grimmjow was able to get his staples out of his chest. He winced as they were pulled away. Once the last staple was out he breathed a sigh of relief, he pulled his shirt over his chest to hide the newly raised pink scar. Ichigo had gone back to his place the day after he had the nightmare, ignoring Grimmjow's calls making him worry. For the past three weeks, Grimmjow had been plagued with terrible thoughts of getting a phone that Ichigo was dead or missing. That was until he got a phone call off Isshin as he was walking back to his home.
"Grimmjow, its Isshin. I need you to come to the house, it's about Ichi"
The sentence had bearly left Isshin's mouth. Grimmjow broke into a dead run to the Kurosaki household. Grimmjow ran to the door and opened it; he walked into the living room, his chest heaving and his lungs burning. Isshin turned to the blue haired man,
"that was fast"
"it's Ichigo" Grimmjow replied breathlessly earning a nod off Isshin.
Grimmjow and Isshin sat across from each other; he noticed that Isshin looked exhausted. He had dark bags under his eyes and his well-kept stubble had begun to grow out. Isshin took a swig of an amber colored liquid, Grimmjow guessed, from the smell of it that it was whiskey.
This is bad, really bad Grimmjow thought as his heart rate began to speed up, his palms had become sweaty and his throat was suddenly dry, Isshin opened his mouth to speak.
"Grimmjow. Ichigo, he's been…."
Grimmjow felt his heart almost stop as he thought of the worst.
Killed.
Murdered.
Kidnapped.
Raped.
"Arrested" Isshin finished with I sigh.
Grimmjow let out a surprised laugh making Isshin raise his eyebrow at him and Grimmjow blushed in embarrassment. He swallowed thickly, his heart rate falling back to normal. He ran a sweaty hand through his hair, he reached over and took the glass filled with whisky off the table and necked the rest off it, wincing at the burn in his throat, putting the glass down he asked,
"what was he arrested for"
" He was arrested for assault"
"who did he…" Grimmjow trailed off as he locked eyes with Isshin, he could see anger burning in them and he instantly knew, Grimmjow's hands clenched into fists as he spat out the name.
"Renji" this earned him a nod off Isshin.
"Ichigo was arrested some time in the last two weeks; he had refused to call anybody until today. Apparently, it was bad Grimmjow"
"Bad? How bad?" Grimmjow asked
Isshin swallowed "Apparently when the police got there, the scene was a mess. There was apparently blood everywhere, they found Ichigo sat on the floor leaning against the wall, just starring at his blood covered hands"
Grimmjow swallowed at the news, he slouched in the chair digesting the information that he had been told, he knew that his berry had a temper but nothing like this, the next piece of information shocked him more.
"The doctors say that Renji was half dead by the time he got to the hospital. His left cheek and eye socket was shattered; he had a broken jaw, teeth missing. And don't get me started on the rest of him. Broken ribs, punctured lung, and his right shoulder were dislocated. He was a mess Grimmjow, I think," Isshin took a breath and put his head in his hands "I think he will do time for this"
"Damn" Grimmjow muttered and for a while they sat in silence, not knowing what to say to each other. Grimmjow couldn't be prouder of Ichigo, Renji deserved what he got but Grimmjow couldn't help the sinking feeling in his gut, something was fishy about this. He knew Ichigo was mad at Renji but he did not want the man dead, he just wanted him hurt so he would have known when to stop, unless he really did want him dead.
What the hell have you gotten your self into Ichi. Grimmjow thought as he sighed.
Two days after he was told about Ichigo, Grimmjow went to see him at the police station where he was being held. For Grimmjow to see Ichigo in handcuffs should have been erotic as hell but this was different, for the first time in a long time, Grimmjow was scared. He was scared to loose Ichigo. The officer dragged Ichigo to the chair and pushed him into it, which made Ichigo send the man a death glare. Once they were alone, Grimmjow grabbed Ichigo's hand and ran his fingers over the bruised and scabbed knuckles, the action made Ichigo pull his hand away and place them in his lap. Grimmjow cleared his throat and Ichigo looked at him. Grimmjow examined his face and saw that he had a bruise over his left cheek and jaw, a split lip and a black eye.
"What the fuck happened Ichi?" Grimmjow asked.
"I fucked up Grimmjow, he made me so angry" Ichigo replied and looked down "I didn't mean to go that far, he mentioned my mum and I lost it. I remembered everything that he did to me and what he did to you and I couldn't stop my self" his voice had become thick with guilt and tears ran down his cheeks and landed on his jumpsuit pants.
"Ichigo, look at me"
Ichigo lifted his head and looked at Grimmjow "do you know when you'll be released" Grimmjow asked.
"Yeah, when my bail has been paid for"
"how much" Grimmjow asked and Ichigo shook his head "your not paying for my bail Grimm, I deserve to be in here so don't you dare pay for it"
"im paying for it so suck it up Kurosaki!" Grimmjow snapped making Ichigo drop his jaw and nod
"so ill ask again, how much"
"Five thousand"
" ill be back in a hour with your bail" he said and stood as he began to walk away he looked over his shoulder and grinned at the berry " oh and Ichigo"
" yeah" Ichigo locked eyes with his lover
" I love you" Grimmjow said loud enough for people over the other side of the room to hear, this made Ichigo laugh and reply " Love you too , baby".
The hour seemed to take forever to pass. Grimmjow returned and once the berry was released, he pulled Ichigo into his arms and Ichigo buried his face in the crook of Grimmjow's neck, taking in Grimmjow's scent. Ichigo kissed Grimmjow's neck making him purr slightly. They pulled away from each other and Grimmjow took Ichigo's hand and pulled him out of the station. When they finally reached Grimmjow's home, Ichigo showered and was now dressed in one of Grimmjow's shirts and a pair of boxers. Grimmjow had changed into a pair of sweats and a wife beater and was sat on the bed waiting for Ichigo to come join him. Ichigo waked into the room, crawled onto the bed, sat in Grimmjow's lap, and nuzzled his neck. Grimmjow ran his hands down Ichigo's back making him shudder.
"I missed you, I thought you were dead Ichi," Grimmjow said quietly
"Im sorry Grimm, Im so sorry" he murmured into his neck
Grimmjow tightened his arms around Ichigo and held him to his chest, he slid down the bed, still holding him to his chest, and this was how they fell asleep. Grimmjow with his nose buried in the orange locks and Ichigo with his head buried in the crook of Grimmjow's neck.
When they woke, it was dark out, Ichigo shifted on Grimmjow's chest, kissed his neck, and whispered into his ear,
"Make love to me Grimmjow"
Grimmjow brought his hands up, cupped Ichigo's face, and brought his lips to his. Grimmjow ran his tongue over Ichigo's lips and he opened them moaning as Grimmjow's tongue rubbed against his. They kissed for what seemed like a lifetime, they broke apart panting. Ichigo looked over Grimmjow's face with lust blown eyes. Sitting up they both peeled the clothes that they were wearing off each other until they were skin on skin. Grimmjow rolled them over and he rested in between Ichigo's legs, his hips resting on Ichigo's drawing a small moan as there cocks rubbed together. Ichigo dragged his nails down Grimmjow's back, leaving red welted scratches on the tanned skin, the action made Grimmjow thrust his hips down, grinding there cocks together and making them both moan loudly. Grimmjow began to suck on Ichigo's neck, leaving a bright red mark that would bruise by morning. They teased each other for what seemed like hours, nipping, licking and sucking on the exposed skin of there respective lover. Grimmjow reached over to the bedside draw and pulled it open; he rummaged through the messy draw until his hand grasped the bottle of lube. Popping the cap he slicked his fingers up and brought them down to Ichigo's entrance, he ran one lubed finger around the puckered hole, earning a mewl off the berry. Grimmjow slowly pushed middle finger into the constricting heat, he slowly pumped the finger in and out, twisting it. He pushed the second finger in, scissoring them to make the tight muscle stretch,
"Grimm, that's enough, please," Ichigo begged
Grimmjow pulled his fingers out and slicked up his aching arousal, he shifted so Ichigo's legs were bent at his sides as he lined himself up. He pushed in slowly, earning a loud moan off the willing berry. Once he was fully seated he rolled his hips slowly, striking Ichigo's prostate with deadly accuracy making the berry cry out in pleasure. Grimmjow ran his hand up Ichigo's arms and laced his fingers with the berry's that were resting above his head. Sweat beaded on there body's, rolling down chests and backs. Loud cries left Ichigo's mouth each time his prostate was struck; Grimmjow's name would leave Ichigo's lips like a broken prayer and the same with Grimmjow who chanted Ichigo's name.
"I love you Grimmjow," Ichigo panted out and tightened his legs around Grimmjow's waist, pulling him deeper into him. The coil in there stomachs had began to tighten to the point where it was almost unbearable, Ichigo began to beg,
" Faster….please…Nggn…Grimm" and he got his wish.
Grimmjow thrust into the berry faster, harder, making Ichigo cry out in pleasure, his head was flung back against the pillow, and his knuckles were white from gripping onto Grimmjow's fingers. The coil in his stomach finally snapped. Ichigo's vision went white, his back arched off the bed and his cum landed on his and Grimmjow's chest. His voice broke when he screamed out Grimmjow's name. That was the first time anyone had made him cum from just hitting his prostate, and by God did he love it. Grimmjow came moments after, the tight heat constricted around his cock and he spilt his seed deep into the berry, a gasp of Ichigo's name leaving his lips. He collapsed onto Ichigo, not caring that there was a sticky mess between them, they both panted harshly in each other's ears, trying to come down from the intense orgasm.
Ichigo grunted as Grimmjow pulled out of him and grimaced when Grimmjow's cum followed. Grimmjow collapsed next to the berry in an exhausted heap, he pulled the berry to his chest, not caring that they were sweaty and dirty, he just wanted to hold his berry. He murmured into Ichigo's ear sleepily, his voice gruff,
"I love you Ichigo, so much"
Ichigo felt his chest tighten painfully he turned in Grimmjow's arms to face him. Ichigo gasped when he saw tears falling from the blue eyes,
"Grimm, baby, what's wrong" Ichigo asked, fully awake
" Im scared Ichi" Grimmjow replied. His voice quiet and child like " I don't want to loose you, I cant loose you, I love you too much to loose you" Grimmjow tightened his arms around Ichigo and buried his face in Ichigo's neck and cried quietly. Ichigo ran his hand through the longer blue locks, hushing Grimmjow.
"You won't loose me Grimm, I promise you." Ichigo reassured him "I love you, I love you, I love you," Ichigo repeated over and over into Grimmjow's ear, he did this until they fell into a deep sleep.
The next few weeks were strained between the young lovers. They had bearly even spoke and when they did it would end in an argument then they would have rough make up sex. Ichigo loved Grimmjow but he was becoming tired of the blue haired man being off with him so he decided to confront Grimmjow about it.
"Have I done something wrong Grimmjow"
" No why"
"Well all we seem to do is argue and have angry sex. We don't talk. You bearly touch me anymore, and when you do its quick and angry then you get up and leave" Ichigo could feel the lump rising in his throat at the question he was going to ask,
"Is there someone else?"
Grimmjow's head shot up and he saw the look on Ichigo's face, he could see pain in the brown eyes that he loved, he stood up and walked over to Ichigo and wrapped his arms around him,
"No, baby, No there's only you. Im sorry for being a dick. I would never do that to you. I Love you and only you," Grimmjow said into the orange locks
Ichigo buried his face in Grimmjow's chest feeling the tears that had built up roll down his cheeks. The pent up emotions of the past month and a half had finally made the cracks show. Guilt ate at his insides every day; he had become an expert at hiding it from Grimmjow and lying about it when asked. At night when Grimmjow was sleeping, Ichigo would sit up all night, unable to sleep because of the guilt. Ichigo didn't mean to almost kill Renji but he couldn't stop himself, the anger boiled in his veins when he made the first hit on Renji's soft skin, causing his mind to go blank. He felt Grimmjow tighten his arms around him and hold him tight to his chest, whispering words of love in his ear, this made him sob harder,
"I can't do it any more Grimm," he said through sobs "the guilt, its killing me"
Grimmjow held him close and kissed his head "it will be fine Ichi, it will all work out, I promise"
A few weeks later the letter for my trial came, looking at the white envelope made me feel sick. My stomach lurched and I ran to the bathroom and fell to the floor leaning over the toilet, the very little food I had eaten came from my stomach. This was how Grimmjow found me when he got to my place. I could see the amused look on his face as he looked over me sat on the floor hugging the toilet as if it was my best friend; I shot him a small scowl. I stood on shaky legs, walked to the sink, and splashed my face with cold water. I looked into the mirror and grimaced at my reflection, I looked awful, I had dark bags under my eyes, my skin looked greasy and pale, my hair, that I had finally got cut looked limp and had lost its shine. I sighed and turned to Grimmjow who looked at me with sad eyes, the amusement gone from his face,
"You look exhausted, you not been sleeping" he asked
I shrugged off the question and walked past him, I knew that ignoring him would make him go into fretting mother mode but I didn't care. I walked back into the kitchen, I could hear Grimmjow following, I reached the table and grabbed the letter and turned. I held the letter out for Grimmjow to read. I watched his eyes bounce over the words on the white page. When he got to the bottom of the page he looked up at me, his eyes mirrored my own, dread, fear and hints of anger flowed through. He put the letter on the table and walked over to me and wrapped his arms around me, I felt my body lean into the welcoming touch. Grimmjow rested his chin on top of my head, I wrapped my arms around his waist and gripped his jacket tight, I could feel my body shaking, and my legs were the worst. The muscles were protesting from trying to keep my body upright, my stomach suddenly lurched again; I pulled away from Grimmjow and bolted to the bathroom, slamming the door behind me.
GrimmjowPOV
I waited for Ichigo to come out of the bathroom; worry gnawed at my stomach, Ichigo's trial was in two weeks time. Renji had pressed charges against Ichigo for attacking him. I believed that Ichigo did it out of self-defense. I also know that there were something's that Ichigo didn't tell me about his past with Renji and he was sick with worry because he might have to talk about them. I lent against the wall and crossed my arms over my chest; I could hear Ichigo dry retching behind the bathroom door. I could tell that he hadn't been sleeping or eating for that matter, I hadn't seen Ichigo in two weeks, he said he needed space and I gave it to him, now I wished I hadn't I hated seeing him looking weak and frail. It reminded me when he slipped into his 'drinking to stop the nightmares' phase. I heard the bathroom door open and I glanced at him, he gave me a small smile and lent against the doorframe, a sheen of sweat covered his face. I cleared my throat and pointed to his bedroom and he followed my finger with his eyes.
"go sleep Ichi" he shook his head and I gritted my teeth " Listen Kurosaki, if you don't get that fine ass in that bed in the next 10 seconds I swear to God I will drag you in there and lock the door. Now move it"
I loved the man to death but he was a fucking stubborn ass. He looked at me with those big beautiful brown eyes and I could feel my self caving, so I closed my eyes and kept my hand pointed to the bedroom, I heard a shuffle of feet and I opened one eye to see him looking over his shoulder giving me the puppy eyes which I tired to ignore until he said.
"Lay with me, please Grimm"
I felt my chest tighten at the request, I pushed off the wall and followed him into the bedroom, we climbed onto the bed and he laid his head on my chest before my head touched the pillow, his hand tightened on my t-shirt and his leg wrapped around mine. I tightened my arms around him and kissed his hair, I felt him nuzzle into my chest and sigh contently. We lay there together forgetting about ex's, trials and the world. All we knew was each other, and I wanted it to stay that way. If Ichigo was sent down for this, then this could be one of the last days we had to just be in each other's company. I could feel the tell tail burn of tears in my eyes.
I wouldn't cry
I won't cry
I can't cry, the first tear ran down my cheek at the thought of loosing the man lay beside me, I was glad that Ichi was sleeping peacefully on my chest. I lay there in the quiet, listening to his quiet breathing, I said quietly into the room.
" I love you Ichigo, more than anything"
I felt him tighten his grip on me as if he could hear me; I sighed and closed my eyes.
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