WOW HI KittyBerries... I can see that its been a very very long time since i updated! IM SO SORRY! im sorry for keeping you waiting for so long! Ive had so much college work that its been spewing out of my eyes and then a massive writers block!. to make up for this i will be posting this chapter and...the epilogue...the last chapter T-T
A MASSIVE thankyou to EVERYONE who has Reviewed , Followed, Favorited and even Read this Fic, it means the world to me that people are willing to read this.. so thankyou!
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters, they belong to the original creators. but i do own the plot :)
Warnings: Language, fluff, angst, suicidal thoughts(for like 2 minutes), Bad spelling and grammar
So on with the story i guess...
Lightening cracked outside the bedroom window, Ichigo looked over to Grimmjow to see if the man was still sleeping, and smiling slightly finding that he was, he looked back to the window. He pulled his feet under him he watched the rain pelt window, with each drop hitting the window he counted how many hit it before the next lightening strike. He sat like this, staring out of the window at nothing, the days to his trial were drawing nearer and he began to feel the strain of the guilt that was on his shoulders. He was becoming cranky, he just wanted this over with, if he was going to be sent down for kicking the living shit out of the redheaded prick, so be it. Ichigo ran his hand over his face, feeling stubble scratch against the skin of his hand he sighed, he got out of the bed and walked to the bathroom and opened the door. He walked in, flicked on the light, closed the door behind him, and locked it. He looked in the mirror and picked up the can of shaving cream and his razor. He unconsciously dropped the can in the sink and sat on the bath, staring down at the razor in his hands; thoughts ran through his head at a million miles a hour. His eyes flicked from the razor to his wrists.
One quick slice and it will be over he thought.
Ichigo's heart sped up in his chest; he felt his mouth go dry as he thought about what he was contemplating. There was a sudden knock at the door, this made him yelp and drop the razor, his hand shot out and caught it causing the blade to cut deeply into his palm, cursing loudly he grabbed a towel off the rack, threw the bloody razor in the skink, and wrapped it around his hand, he walked over to the door and opened it to find a not very awake Grimmjow dressed in sweats and a tank top, on the other side.
Grimmjow looked down and saw the blood staining the towel that was wrapped around Ichigo's hand, now he was awake.
"What the hell" he asked and grabbed Ichigo's wrist
Ichigo sighed and tried to pull his hand back towards him but Grimmjow held onto his wrist tightly. Grimmjow walked forward causing Ichigo to back up, he pulled him towards the sink and pulled the towel off his hand, blood poured from the wound, staining the white sink red. Grimmjow turned the hot water tap on and put Ichigo's hand under it, the action made the orangeett hiss and glare at Grimmjow.
"Gotta make sure it's clean," Grimmjow mumbled,
"well it hurts asshole," Ichigo snapped back at the blue haired man
They stayed quiet while Grimmjow cleaned the wound, it would not need stitches but the wound was still deep. Grimmjow disinfected the wound and wrapped a sterile bandage around Ichigo's hand and they walked back into the bedroom. Ichigo sat on the bed and stared out of the window, he was pissed at himself for even thinking about doing that, he couldn't do that to Grimmjow. The guilt may be killing him but killing himself would not get him anywhere but dead. He felt Grimmjow sit next to him and he flinched. He could feel Grimmjow's eyes on him waiting for him to talk, instead of talking he sighed. They sat in silence until Grimmjow broke it,
"Talk to me Ichi, I hate seeing you like this"
" Im fine Grimmjow" Ichigo muttered
"That's fucking bullshit Ichigo!" Grimmjow exploded and stood up from the bed making Ichigo look up at him "ya can lie to yerself but ya can't lie to me. So don't you fucking dare try! I can see it in yer eyes that yer scared. Hell, im scared" Ichigo stared at him with watery eyes "ya gotta let me help ya Ichi, yer can't take all this on yer shoulders, ya gotta let me take some of the weight. I can see it in yer eyes that yer thinking of ending it" Grimmjow locked his eyes with Ichigo's "But that's the pussies way out and that aint you, but if yer wanna do it then go, I aint gonna stop ya" Grimmjow stepped back and lent against the wall near the window "But think about yer dad and yer sisters, think about how disappointed they'll be in ya if you do that." Grimmjow swallowed " I love you Ichigo, but this aint you, an im not gonna stick around and wait for ya to off yer self" Grimmjow pushed off the wall and went to get his shoes , until he felt arms wrap around his waist,
"Please" Ichigo begged, "Please don't go Grimmjow, I can't do this on my own, I know this isn't me. But I can't do it anymore. My trial is in five day's and im fucking petrified" Tears leaked from his eyes " I cant take the guilt that's eating me from the inside out, I- I wanted it to end, I hate myself for thinking it but I cant stop Grimmjow" he was becoming desperate " I need you to stay, please stay, please"
Ichigo buried his head in Grimmjow's back, taking in the mans scent, Ichigo was petrified of the man pushing him off and telling him to get fucked. Instead, he felt the man turn in his arms and pull him to his chest; he wrapped his arms around his shoulders and kissed the top of Ichigo's head. Ichigo sagged in his grip, his tears soaked into the shirt through to Grimmjow's tanned skin. Grimmjow ran his hands down Ichigo's back while he sobbed into Grimmjow's chest, Grimmjow could feel his throat become thick with emotion, he swallowed the lump that had formed in his throat, he knew he had to be strong for his man. They parted after what seemed like a lifetime, Ichigo looked up at Grimmjow with puffy red eyes and gave him a small smile, which Grimmjow returned. They walked to the bed and Grimmjow pulled him down onto it and he tucked Ichigo's head under his chin and encased the shaking man in his arms, he felt Ichigo sigh contently against his chest and snuggle into him. Grimmjow kissed his head.
"I love you, more than anything, I love you, I love you, I love you," Grimmjow repeated over and over into the orange locks, he did this until Ichigo fell into an exhausted sleep.
Five days passed and it was time for Ichigo's trial, to say he was nervous was an understatement, he was shitting him self. Grimmjow could feel shaking as he pulled the knot of Ichigo's tie to his neck. Grimmjow framed Ichigo's face with his hands, forcing the man to look at him.
" Calm down Ichi, you'll be fine"
"what if im not Grimm, I – I cant go to jail, I cant" Ichigo mumbled
"If you do then we'll deal, like we always do, I promise" With that Grimmjow kissed the orangeett on the lips, he ran his tongue over the seam and Ichigo moaned and parted his lips for his lover, their tongues stroked and caressed each other. Ichigo pulled himself closer to Grimmjow by taking handfuls of his suit jacket; he basked in the warmth of the bigger man. Grimmjow's hands tightened in Ichigo's hair, drawing a moan from the younger male. A loud knock on the door broke them apart, both men panting looked towards the door, Grimmjow reached down and grabbed Ichigo's hand as they walked to the front door. They opened the door to reveal Isshin stood with a neutral look on his face.
"Hey dad"
"Hello son" he looked to Grimmjow and nodded "Grimmjow"
Grimmjow grunted his reply and they walked out of the door. They walked to the courthouse, Ichigo held onto Grimmjow's hand for dear life. They stopped at the steps that lead into the courthouse, Grimmjow turned to Ichigo who looked like he was about to pass out, the color had drained from his face and he was sweating. Grimmjow pulled his hand from Ichigo's and placed them on the side of his face; this made Ichigo jump at the contact.
"Hey, calm down Ichi" Grimmjow said to him
"Grimm, I cant, I can't go in there"
"You have to Ichigo; if you don't you'll be arrested for skipping out on your trial"
Ichigo could feel his heart speed up in his chest. "Grimm…" Ichigo closed his eyes and tears that had built up fell from his eyes, he felt Grimmjow pull him to his chest,
"Take a deep breath Ichi, its time, ill be there with you and what ever happens, we'll deal"
"I love you"
" Love you too, Ichigo, Always"
The two men separated and they walked up the steps, Isshin followed behind them. They walked through the revolving doors into the high ceiling waiting room. Heels and shoes echoed on the marble floor, Ichigo's hand tightened on Grimmjow's as he spotted shocking red hair walking towards them. Renji's face was heavily bruised; he was walking with his shoulders slightly hunched. Grimmjow had to suppress a grin when there eyes locked, Renji and his lawyer stopped in front of them, the lawyer was someone who Ichigo recognized, it was the bald headed man who has smacked his ass the day he had met Grimmjow.
"Lookin' pretty there, Arial" Grimmjow said with a smirk, this got him an elbow in the ribs off Ichigo.
Renji bared his teeth at the comment, growling slightly in the back of his throat he took his eyes off Grimmjow and looked over Ichigo, noticing how sexy he looked in his fitted suit and tie, he licked his lips hungrily. The action made Ichigo glare at Renji; he turned on his heel, pulled his hand out of Grimmjow's and stormed off the courtroom. Grimmjow looked over his shoulder and followed Ichigo with his eyes. He heard Isshin clear his throat, he looked at Isshin through the corner of his eyes and Isshin nodded his head slightly to the door and Grimmjow nodded and he turned and walked away. Isshin looked at Renji,
"You stay the fuck away from my family that means Grimmjow too. When this trial's done, move on, you understand Abarai" with that, he turned and walked to his son and Grimmjow.
Ichigo sat on the bench outside the courtroom, he ran his sweaty palms over his pants and his leg bounced nervously. He had met his lawyer once or twice to discuss what could happen and the repercussions of the choice that was made by the jury. During the last week up to his trial he had managed to fit in some time to look up how a trial worked, he knew that there were twelve people on a jury and they decided if he was guilty or not. He knew the evidence against him was high but he had to hope, just a small sliver of hope that he would get off unscathed. He looked down at the floor and said a silent prayer in his head to his mum asking her to watch over him. His eyes were closed but they shot open when they felt a hand touch his shoulder, he looked up into the grey eyes of his lawyer, KiskueUrahara. The man was about six foot tall with light blond hair; light stubble lined his jaw and chin. A black suit with a dark green dress shirt and a white tie covered lean muscles,
"Ah, Kurosaki, how are you feeling" Kiskue asked with a smile.
"Sick, scared, nervous"
Kiskue sat next to Ichigo, placing his briefcase between his feet his grey eyes locked with brown,
"Listen, Ichigo, you're a good kid and I know your scared, but you've gotta be brave. Your dad and Grimmjow are going to be there and you have to be brave for them, they'll stick with you despite what happens." He placed a comforting hand on Ichigo's knee, turning his head as he heard footsteps approaching he said "now, square that jaw and put on a brave face and be that fearless kid who we love and adore okay"
Ichigo smiled at the man he classed as his uncle, Ichigo's farther and Kiskue had been best friends since high school, as soon as Kiskue had heard about what had happened he offered to be Ichigo's lawyer. Ichigo stood and watched as his farther and Grimmjow walked over to them.
Grimmjow walked straight to Ichigo and placed his hands on his face and placed a chaste kiss on his mans lips, his stomach knotted painfully as he thought that this may be the last time he may get to kiss his berry for a while, his body forced him to deepen the kiss. He swiped his tongue over Ichigo's lips, hearing Ichigo sigh and part his lips, he slid his tongue into Ichigo's mouth and there tongue's caressed each other. After what felt like hours they broke apart, Grimmjow placed his forehead on Ichigo's and whispered against his lip's,
" I Love you, IchigoKurosaki"
" I Love you, GrimmjowJeagerjaques"
They walked into the courtroom after waiting another half a hour. Grimmjow and Isshin sat in the benches behind Ichigo, who sat in front at the table. Grimmjow could see how tense Ichigo was, his shoulders were stiff and his leg was bouncing uncontrollably. Ten minutes passed and the room filled with people, the twelve jurors and the judge were the last to appear, the trial could finally start.
The routine questions were asked; Kiskue presented Ichigo's defense the best he could but Renji's lawyer, IkkakuMadarame, was good, he played Renji to be the victim from the start, one comment that was said made him seethe in anger, he had made it out that Ichigo was beating on Renji. Isshin placed a restraining hand on Grimmjow's shoulder as he began to stand, before he could say anything Ichigo beat him to it as it was his turn to defend himself,
"What Abarai's lawyer just stated was a lie. I never hit Renji. He was the one who beat me, he didn't have to go through the broken and fractured ribs, he didn't have to hide the bruises from his family" tears had built in Ichigo's eye as his eyes locked with Grimmjow's "He didn't have to spent five years… of his life scared that one day he wouldn't wake up because Renji had" he takes a deep breath "had enough of the man he supposedly loved. And if you still don't believe me I can tell you every broken or fractured bone that Renji had caused" the tears ran down his cheeks as he looked at the jury, " fourth rib right side, two fractures, left collar bone fractured. Broken pinkie finger right hand, fifth and sixth rib left side broken, "his eyes drifted to his fathers, he could see anger flooding through the mans eyes "do I need to continue"
Renji's eyes grew wide as Ichigo listed off all the bones he had broke and he snapped,
"SHUT UP ICHIGO!" he roared across the courtroom, this made Ichigo look and glare at him
"Bite me Renji, you didn't want this to come out, well to bad, you brought this on yourself you bastard!" Ichigo shouted back and lifted his chin defiantly
The judge's voice broke through the argument between the men,
"That is enough, Kiskue, Madarame, take your clients outside. Return here in half a hour to hear the verdict" with that the judge slammed his hammer down and Kiskue grabbed Ichigo's arm and tugged him towards the exit.
Isshin waited outside for his son, as soon as he saw the shocking head of orange hair he strode up to his son and pulled him into a tight hug, to which Ichigo accepted greatly and the barrier on his emotions broke. Isshin tightened his grip on Ichigo as he sobbed into his father's shoulder,
"Im sorry dad" Ichigo got out through the sobs
"Shhh, Ichi, its okay shh" Isshin comforted.
Isshin's eyes locked with Grimmjow's he could see pure hate brimming in the mans eyes, Isshin knew Grimmjow felt the same about what he had heard in the courtroom. Grimmjow watched as Ichigo took comfort from his dad, he wished he could make Ichigo forget what he had been through with Renji, he could feel tears stinging at his eyes as he thought of all the pain that Ichigo had been through, he thought of the brave face Ichigo would of put on even if the pain was agonizing, sudden anger flared through his veins and he whorled around and slammed his fist into the plastered wall, ignoring the pain that shot up his arm, he only turned his head when he felt a hand touch his arm, his eyes locked on the tear streaked face of his lover as the stared at each other. Grimmjow felt a dull throbbing in his hand as Ichigo placed his hand over the fist curled into the wall, without a word he pulled him towards the men's bathroom to clean up his fist.
Luckily for them the bathroom was empty, he walked over to the sink and ran the cold water and placed Grimmjow's bleeding fist under it, the cold water hitting the cut made Grimmjow hiss, this made Ichigo smirk slightly,
"its your own fault" Ichigo murmured
"Yeah, I know"
"You okay"
Grimmjow chucked a little "shouldn't I be asking you that"
"you're the one who just pretty much broke a couple of fingers, mine are old wounds, so no not really, so answer Kitty" the last comment made Grimmjow growl
"Did you just call me Kitty?" Grimmjow growled
"Maybe"
With the look that Ichigo gave Grimmjow, Grimmjow pounced on the orange haired man, forgetting about the pain in his hand he gripped the orange locks and smashed Ichigo's lips on his, instantly pushing his tongue into Ichigo's mouth, he pushed the man back against the wall and slid his leg between Ichigo's. and deepened the kiss further, Ichigo moaned and ground his hips down onto Grimmjow's thigh, the action made Grimmjow pull back and groan, he rested his forehead on Ichigo's and sighed,
"As much as I'd love to take ya into a stall and fuck you till you can't walk-"
"But we cant I know" Ichigo finished for him
They stood like this for a long moment. They caught there breath and Grimmjow pulled back and grabbed Ichigo's hand and they walked out of the bathroom. When they got back to Kiskue and Isshin they were whispering to each other, they moved away from each other when the men came closer and raised there eyebrows silently asking what took them so long. Isshin looked at his watch and swallowed thickly, Ichigo's verdict would be ready in ten minutes, clearing his throat to catch Ichigo's attention, he locked eyes with his son,
"Ichigo. Come walk with me" Isshin asked.
"Sure"
The two Kurosaki men walked side by side, Isshin stopped and turned to his son and raked his eyes over him, he could see how much Ichigo had grown, he felt a lump raise in his throat and he swallowed around it.
"Ichigo, im so proud of you" Isshin stated out of the blue "I just want you to know what ever happens im proud of you son"
Isshin reached over to his son and pulled him into a tight embrace, he kissed Ichigo's temple,
" I love you son"
"I love you too. Dad"
with that the two men broke apart, Ichigo cleared his throat and Isshin wiped his eyes and they turned and walked back to the two men waiting for them, Ichigo walked back over to Grimmjow and snaked his arm around his waist and kissed his jaw. A bell chimed signaling that the half an hour break was over and it was time for the verdict, Ichigo felt his palms begin to sweat and his heart thudded in his chest as they walked back into the courtroom.
Ichigo sat at the desk, his leg bouncing with nerves, he felt Kiskue give a calming squeeze to his knee as the judge and the jury filed in. Ichigo looked over to his left and spotted the red haired male and his heart clenched painfully in his chest at the thought of going to jail because of him. The judge's hammer clashed against the wooden block making Ichigo jump. The judge turned to the jury and asked,
"Has the jury made the verdict"
A young woman with long orange hair and brown eyes stood with a piece of paper in her hand,
"yes, sir"
Ichigo stared at the paper, his heart thudding at a million miles a hour in his chest, he licked his lips nervously and his leg bounced uncontrollably, he sucked in a deep breath.
" The Jury find, the defendant IchigoKurosaki…"
So... im just gonna hide under my bed before you all kill me... *runs away and hides under her bed*
I promise all will be resolved...promise... I have half of the Epilogue ready to write in my head so it will be done.
Thankyou for sticking with me!
Till next time KittyBerries
Meesh^_^
