When nothing goes as planned


Week 9

"God damnit!" Emily threw her shirt back in the closet and slammed the door closed. "What the hell am I going to do now?" she asked herself with a deep sigh as she leant her forehead against the door. She shut her eyes tightly and let her right hand run over her stomach, which was already too big for her to hide. Emily could not even fit in any of her blazers that she wore for work anymore. She could not button them over her chest or her stomach for that matter. Emily grabbed her cell phone with a deep sigh and sank down on the end of her bed. She pressed speed dial 2 and waited for the person on the other end to answer.

And after five rings a tired voice said, "It's way too early to be calling, Em."

"I'm sorry JJ I thought you would be up by now."

"Henry is sick, so I have been up all night with him."

"Is he okay? And why didn't Will take care of him when you have to be up early for work?"

"Yeah it's just the flu, and Will tried but Henry is just a real mama's boy. He only wanted me and every time Will tried to touch him he would just start to cry and scream," JJ explained with a sigh. "Sometimes I just feel like selling him to the highest offer."

"You know JJ; you are not very good at selling the whole parent thing to me. What you are saying is kind of freaking me out!" Emily said lying black on the bed looking up at the ceiling.

"Sorry I'm just tired and you know I don't mean it."

"Yeah I know." Emily ran her hand over her exposed stomach. She wondered if she would someday want to sell her baby if he or she was just as impossible. Emily grinned. She probably would and then it was good that Hotch would be there to stop her from doing so. But would he be here with her? In her apartment? Or in his own with Jack? They never really talked about that or what they were going to do after the baby was born.

"Emily? Are you still there?" JJ asked.

"Sorry, I was just thinking about something."

"Okay, but you still haven't told me why you actually called me."

"I'm calling because right now I'm lying on my bed in nothing but bra and panties."

JJ grinned. "Emily, you do know that I'm not into girls, right?"

Emily rolled her eyes. "I can't fit into any of my work clothes anymore and I thought you might have something I could borrow."

"Sure, I will be there in about half an hour."

Emily sighed happily. "You are just the best," she said and then hung up the phone, while getting up from the bed. She threw the phone on the dresser and grabbed her dressing gown from the top drawer. It was quite wrinkled, but after lying in a drawer for months that was to be expected. The dressing gown had been a present from her mother and Emily usually never wore it. She did not like the fabric it was made of and it was too glittery and girly. But right now Emily actually thought it was nice to have on the gown. She felt kind of free, like she was not wearing anything at all.

Emily waked to her full length mirror and stood looking at herself. She still could not quite believe that there was a baby inside of her and that she was finally going to be a mom. A mom. Emily smiled at her reflection. Next year she would actually have this little child that someday would start calling her mommy. Her smile grew wider and she let her right hand slip under the dressing gown and lay it on her bare stomach. Emily could not wait till she would be able to feel the baby move, but then something else moved around in her stomach and Emily's left hand flew to cover her mouth as she ran to the bathroom.

She fell to her knees in front of the toilet just as her breakfast left her body. Emily wondered why she even ate breakfast when she would end up throwing it all up anyway. When she was done throwing up she grabbed some toilet paper to wipe her mouth off with and then flushed the toilet. Emily got up from the floor on shaking legs and quickly closed the toilet lid and sat down on it. She closed her eyes. "When is this going to ended?" Emily mumbled to herself just as there was a knock on her door.

She groaned and got up and walked to the front door. "Why didn't you use your key?"

"Does it look like I have any free hands to open the door with?" JJ asked holding up the bag of clothes and a coffee mug.

"Oh God!" Emily gasped when the smell of coffee hit her nostrils and she ran to the bathroom again.

JJ walked into the kitchen and laid the bag of clothes on the counter on her way over to the sink where she poured out the rest of her coffee and got a glass of water hoping it would make the smell of coffee go away. JJ placed the glass by the sink and walked over to the closed bathroom door. She knocked and then opened it. "Are you okay?" JJ asked and rubbed Emily's back.

Emily pulled her head out of the toilet. "How long till this is over?"

JJ gave her a sad smile. "You still have about two weeks of throwing up left."

Emily groaned and grabbed the piece of toilet paper JJ was holding out for her. "Will you please help me up?" Emily asked holding one hand out for JJ to take and wiped her mouth off with the other one.

JJ grinned. "Come on let's get you up and dressed," she said and grabbed Emily's hand.

"Don't mock me," Emily said as she threw the paper in the toilet and flushed. "It's not my fault I'm pregnant and big."

"It actually is," JJ said with a laugh.

"No it was the alcohol's fault and Hotch's little things."

"And your egg." JJ shook her head. "Can we just talk about something else?"

"Yeah I think that is best."

They walked out of the bathroom and JJ grabbed the bag of clothes before they headed up to Emily's bedroom.

JJ poured the clothes out on the bed and picked up a white blouse a thin, red silk lace that ran under the chest and would be tied in the back. "You can wear this today and along with these pants," JJ said and held her hand out with the blouse and a pair of black dress pants for Emily to take.

Emily looked skeptical at the blouse. "Don't you think the others would remember you wore this when you were pregnant? And will it even cover my stomach?"

"First: do you really think they will remember a blouse I wore over two years ago? And second: the lace will make the bottom of the blouse hang loose and therefore cover your stomach."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes I'm sure! Now take this and go change, so we can see if the even fits," JJ said and laid the clothes over Emily's shoulder and pushed her towards the bathroom.

"Okay, okay," Emily said with a laugh as she hurried out into the bathroom. She laid the clothes on the toilet and removed the dressing grown so she once again stood in only her underwear and she could not help but let her hands run over her stomach. She did not think that she would ever get tired of doing that.

"Sweetie?" JJ asked from the other side of the door.

"Yeah?"

"Can you please hurry a bit? We have to be at work soon."

"I will be out it a second." Emily had not realized how long she had been standing there in the middle of her bathroom completely still and just touching her stomach, so she quickly put on the clothes and walked out to JJ. "So what do you think?"

JJ smiled. "You look really pretty and no one will notice your baby bump."

"Are you sure?"

JJ rolled her eyes. "Yes I'm sure, but they will notice that you are getting bigger very soon, maybe even today and by the end of the week they will have figured it out."

"I know." Emily took a deep breath. "Hotch and I will have to tell them today, we will just have to figure out how to tell them." She sighed. "Let's just go now and I will figure something out in the car." JJ nodded and then they left for work.