When Nothing Goes as Planned
A/N - Sorry for not updating quicker, but I had decided to update 'Only Human' and 'The Girl in Red' before this story, so I wouldn't forget the others totally. Also the 2011 Profiler's Choice CM Awards nomination ballot is now up. So everyone, please go nominate all your favorite stories and writers. http : / .net / topic /74868 / 48350094 / 1 /
Week 16
Emily froze. Had Hotch really just asked her to marry him? Was he crazy? "Are you seriously asking me to marry you?"
"Yes I am."
"Are you crazy? We haven't even had a date yet and you are asking me to marry you." Emily said shaking her head and looking down. "But I can't marry you."
Hotch walked up to her ans laid his hands on her shoulders. "Why not?"
Emily looked up and into Hotch's eyes. "Because..." She sighed. "Because I don't love you and you don't love me either. Marrying me just seems like the right thing to do," Emily said in a sad voice. Then she shook his hands of her shoulders and walked to her car. She got in and drove away, leaving Hotch alone in the rain. She did not even look back as she drove down the street. She could not bare to see Hotch's face full of sadness. Emily felt tears running down her cheeks, but she did not know why she was crying. She did the right thing. She could not marry Hotch when she did not love him. But maybe she did love him, she just did not know it yet. Emily sniffled and wiped the tears from her face. No, she did not love Hotch, at least not in the right way.
Emily did not feel like going home and sit in her apartment alone, so she turned to the right instead of to the left on the main road and drove till she reached the familiar two storey yellow house with white doors and windows. She parked her car and walked through the rain to the front door. Emily rang the doorbell as the rain mixed with the tears that had started to fall again. For a moment Emily thought that maybe no one was home, but the lights were on and both cars were parked in the driveway, so she rang the doorbell again and a few seconds later the door was opened.
"Emily."
"Hi Will." He looked kind of shocked at her and she knew she must look awful – all wet and red eyed. "Is JJ home?"
"She is upstairs giving Henry a bath," he said as Emily stepped over the threshold and he closed the front door behind her. "I will go get her for you."
"Thank you." Emily sat down on the couch and watched as Will walked up the stairs and a moment later JJ came down. When she saw Emily she gasped. "What happened?" JJ quickly walked over and hugged her. "Sweetie what happened?"
Emily let go of JJ and saw that the front of her shirt was now very wet. "Sorry," she mumbled and pointed to JJ's shirt.
"Oh that's Henry," she said with a small smile and sitting down beside Emily, "but now tell me why are you all wet and why have you been crying."
Emily sighed. "Hotch asked me to marry him."
"And you said no."
"How did you know?" she asked surprised.
JJ tilted her head to the side and smiled. "I know you, you wouldn't have said yes and if you did, then you wouldn't have been sitting here crying. You would have been overly happy."
"I'm not crying."
"You have been crying then."
Emily sighed and covered her faced. "I feel so bad. I think I really hurt Hotch by saying no."
"He shouldn't have asked you in the first place."
Emily leaned back in the couch. "It's just, I don't think I love him and I can't marry someone I don't love."
JJ wrapped her arms around Emily in a sideways hug."Maybe you will someday and then you can get married and have some more H/P babies."
"H/P babies?" Emily said with a laugh.
"Yeah well, I was going to say Hotchner/Prentiss babies, but it got too long."
"Oh." Emily smiled and laid a hand on her stomach, but her smile quickly faded. "I just hope he isn't too mad at me."
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Hotch walked back inside. He felt completely lost. How could he have been so stupid? Asking her to marry him? Of course she had said no. Hotch sat down on the floor next to Jack and watched him play with his dinosaurs. "Jack, are you mad at me?"
Jack looked surprised up at his father. "Why would I be mad at you, Daddy?"
"You were mad at me earlier."
"I wasn't mad, I just miss mommy." He turns back to his toys, but only for a moment, then he looked to the side and asked, "Daddy, why are you wet?"
"I was talking to Emily out in the rain."
"Is she still here?" Jack asked excitingly and was just about to run out of his room to go look for her.
"She isn't here."
"Why don't? Auntie learned me a new song and I want to sing for the peanuts." Hotch looked down and away from Jack. "Daddy what's wrong?"
"I think Emily might be mad at me. I asked her something I probably shouldn't have and then she left."
Jack got up and hugged his father. "She can't be mad at you forever."
"Maybe she will, she is a girl." Jack laughed and it made Hotch smile. "I asked Emily to marry me, but she said no and left."
Jack thought for a moment, then asked. "Daddy, do you love Emily?"
"I don't know."
"Then you shouldn't get married, because then you will just do things the wrong way."
"Do things the wrong way?" Hotch asked confused.
Jack sighed. "Auntie says that when two people love each other they get married and make babies or they make babies and then get married. And if you and Emily make babies and get married and then don't love each other, then you are just doing everything the wrong way!" He looks at Hotch with big eyes. "Daddy, I think I'm making myself confused."
"I get what you are saying, buddy. You don't think Emily and I should get married."
Jack shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know what I'm saying daddy, I'm only 4 and I think girls are gross."
Hotch smiled and ruffled Jack's hair. "You want to go watch a movie with me?" He nodded and ran out of his room into the living room. Hotch followed slowly after him. He hoped he had not ruined everything he had had with Emily. He knew he had asked her for the wrong reasons, just like she had said. When he had asked her his fight with Jack had still been fresh on he mind. 'Why do the babies get to have a mother, when I don't have one?' Jack had asked him and if he married Emily then Jack would get a mom. Hotch sighed and shock his head. He had to figure out what to do now. Apologize or just never bring it up again?
