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Words in italics are flashbacks!

Sam's POV

I held my little girls close to me as if I'd never let go. We got to the apartment where they had then woken up and I grabbed them into a hug. "Baby girls…I missed you so much. I love you so so so much." I kissed their heads

"Mommy…did that mean man have you?" Maddie asked

"Yes he did…but mommy got away from him…it took a long time, but mommy had to go, she needed you. And Freddie very much. Did Freddie take good care of you? Did he do anything for your birthday?"

"He was the best, mommy!" Bethany said

"He invited all our school friends and gave us a big birthday bash! It was soooo much fun there was cake and ice cream and healthy snacks too of course." Maddie went on and on

I heard a shrill cry from the baby monitors that Freddie had brought over along with some bassinets and he was going to bring the cribs over tomorrow. "Want to meet your baby brother?" I asked the girls

"Yeah." They said

I walked up to the nursery/Carly's former room. I picked Alex up out of the pink bassinet and held him close of me, one thing that puts him to sleep. "This is your baby brother Alex. You have a little sister too. Her name is Zoe; she's with daddy right now though." I explained to them

"Can I hold him?" Beth asked

"Sure." I set her up on the rocking chair and put a few pillows around her to stabilize her. I handed over Alex and told her to support his head. She held him carefully, and cooed over him. She was the perfect big sister…so was Maddie.

"SAM!" I heard Freddie call. I took Alex from Maddie, who had been holding him after Beth and headed down the stairs to see Freddie with his hands full of grocery's and Zoe holding on his leg.

I grabbed my camera and with one hand took a few pictures. "Sorry it's too cute." I smiled and kissed Freddie

"Zoe, come here." The toddler came over to me and crawled into my free arm

"Ma!" she clapped

"What?" I gasp

"Ma!" she put her hands on either side of my face. "I am your mama!" I hugged her

Once the kids were all in bed for the night, Freddie and I took a seat on the couch… "I've missed you so much." I told him

Freddie's POV

"I've missed you too, baby." I kissed her

"I'm so sorry…" she started to cry

"Why baby?" I asked her

"I did things…things for him…things with him…and I hated it…I'm so sorry…" she sobbed

"Sammy…I know you didn't cause any of this…none of this is your fault. I love you no matter what happened…" I pulled her into my arms

"He….he was horrible Freddie…he did so many things to me….

Flashback. (Sam's POV)

"Kyle…I'm so sorry…it's a girl…" I told him

"YOU STUPID SLUT! YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO GIVE ME A SON NOT A DAUGHTER!" he screamed at me and threw glass at me

"I'm…I'm so sorry! We can try again after she's born…Please…just don't hurt us!" I begged him

"So you'll stay and keep trying until I get a son?" he asked the anger fuming in his eyes

"Yes…just please don't harm our daughter…" I pleaded

He stormed out of the house and didn't return for 6 hours. I remained handcuffed to the bed. When he returned he hit me and beat on me for at least an hour.

The next few months were horrible…Kyle treated me like I was nothing. He hardly fed me at all, so the baby wasn't getting many nutrients at all.

"Kyle…" I tried to wake him "Kyle please wake up." I begged panicking

"Forget it…" I mumbled struggling to reach the phone. I dialed 9-1-1.

"I'm in labor, my water just broke." I told them. They told me an ambulance would be there soon. When the ambulance got there they rushed in and saw me struggling out of the bedroom. They rushed me too the hospital. I was so weak from not eating they had to set me up on an IV to give me enough strength to give birth.

Zoe was born only 2 hours later, she was so small…too weak. They hooked her up to a feeding tube so she could gain more weight.

I was in the hospital with her for 3 days, never once did Kyle come and see us, I called him and told him where we were, because I knew if I didn't he'd flip.

Once I took Zoe home, Kyle waited 2 weeks before he was at it again trying for a son.

I soon found out I was pregnant. I told Kyle, he told me if I was pregnant with another girl he was going to kill me. 3 months he told me when we went to bed "Remember what I said."

I went to my doctor's appointment at the beginning of my second trimester, so afraid. They did the ultrasound and told me I was having a boy. I rushed home.

"Kyle…I'm having a boy…" I told him while standing in the doorway of the bedroom

"Really!?" he jumped off the bed

"Yes." I said

"Come lay down. You need all the rest you can get! Let me take that." He took Zoe from me and laid her carelessly in her bassinet waking her.

I put her back to sleep and for 2 months it went on with this pampering. Then he started forcing me to sleep with him again. He did this for the next 4 months. We did almost nothing else. He fed me great meals, took me to the spa but that was about all. When it was time for Alex to be born it was a quick birth, seeing as he was my fourth child and the smallest of them all. The doctors said he wasn't sick but he was just small. I liked to think of his as the runt of the litter. It makes me smile.

Freddie's POV

"Sammy…I'm so sorry you had to go through all this..." I hugged her tight

She looked really really pale… "Sam are you okay?"

"Take care of them…" she whispered before passing out in my arms…

"Sam, wake up. They need you." I panicked. I called my mom and then 9-1-1.

A/N: Is Sam gonna be okay!? Of course she is. Or is she? Review and tell me what ya think! Love hate? Review!