A/N: I know I had apologized too many times but my life is really too busy this last few months. I hope you are still enjoying this story. Oh and I just love the "dancing" scene in Season 1

How thin is the line between love and pain?

All I ask is if this is my last night with you, hold me like I'm more than just a friend

Give me a memory I can use

Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do

It matters how this ends, coz what if I never love again.

(All I ask)


Chapter thirty: Fantasy Life

"HAHAHAHA! AHHHHHH! St…Stop, I mi…might pee in my sh…shorts!" I heard Kim saying in a shrill voice.

"I'm sorry. Do you want to go to the comfort room?" Piper asked with concern in her voice.

"No but can we pl...play again?" Kim asked with excitement in her voice. I walked hurriedly to see what they are doing.

"What are you two doing?" I asked when I come near where they are having fun. Both the two looked at me with shocked in their eyes. The two are holding water hose and dripping wet from head to toe. The two looked at each other and guiltily grinned at me.

"You're early. " Piper said with mirth in her eyes.

"The last meeting was canceled." I said with one of my eyebrows up. "So what is keeping you two busy?" I asked again looking at the water hose in their hands.

"I'm so…sorry. I'm the one who st…started it all." Kim said with apologetic voice.

"No. I'm the one who did it to her first." Piper said.

"Okay. So who should I punish first?" I asked then rolled my sleeves with serious face. Piper walked towards me with bowed head. I looked at Kim and winked at her. I gestured for her to aim for Piper and I abruptly hugged Piper when she is nearing me. Piper yelped with the sudden move.

"Now!" I said full of mischief. Kim being young aimed the water sprout not only to Piper but to me also.

"Okay! Stop! Stop!" Piper said wiggling out of my hug.

"I hope you learn your lesson" I whispered in her ears. I felt her shivered against me and all of a sudden I could feel a cold rush of water in my back.

"You nasty little sneak!"" I said then release her from my hug. I grabbed Kim and aimed her water sprout to Piper.

"Ahhhh! So both of you decided to team up against me." Piper said then aimed her water sprout to us.

The laughter filled the house for a few more minutes.

"What do you want for dinner, Kim?" I asked her while I rubbed her hair with towel softly.

"Hmmm…Can I have pa…pancakes please?" Kim asked shyly.

"Of course. Do you want to put chocolate chips on it?" I asked again. I saw her eyes glint with glee.

"Yeah, a little and can we put ba…bananas?" Kim asked excitedly.

"Yup. Do you want to help me cook it?" I asked her.

"Yeah." Kim said then yawned.

"Maybe next time, sunshine. You should take a nap." Alex said then lifted Kim in her arms to put her into the bed. Kim immediately closed her eyes and Alex pulled the covers to her chin.

"I think I will be the one helping you to do the pancakes for dinner." Alex said then offered her right hand to me. We walked to the kitchen hand in hand.

"I'm sorry if we messed up your garden." I said apologetically.

"It's fine. I should be thanking you for making Kim this happy. I can't remember the last time she laughed like that." Alex said then she stop and tug me to her. I automatically wrapped hands to her waist to savor the moments like this. We are still walking in thin lines and honestly I can't deny anymore that I have feeling for Alex but as of the moment I still don't want to acknowledge it for my own benefit.

"So you think you could still escape what you are feeling right now?"

I just ignored "it" because I don't want to deal with "it" right now.

"We can't put too much chocolate chips to the pancakes. Sugar and the two of you are not a very good combination in the same room." Alex said after placing a soft kiss in my crown.

"I promise." I said remembering the time when Kim and I had chocolate fest and Alex was all alone dealing with us. Alex peek a kiss to my lips.

"Hmmmm…Is that all I'm getting today?" I asked seductively.

"So demanding." Alex said then sloppily kissed me. We shared a hearty laugh after the kiss. After an hour of goofing around and cooking the pancakes with more chocolate chips than intended, Alex fetched Kim in her room to have dinner with us.

"Thank you for the di…dinner, Piper." Kim said then kiss me in the cheeks.

"Aw. Your welcome, sunshine." I said then put some smooches in her cheeks.

"Eeeewww….your lips are sli…slippery." Kim said then pushing me with a laugh.


I can't stop smiling from the scene I'm seeing right now. Piper is proving that not all people will laugh and make fun of Kim and she never showed pity in her actions. Kim is already living with us for a month and I could see how fond the two with each other are. After making sure that Kim is already sleeping, I went to our room and was greeted by a sight to behold. Piper is wearing a boy short with only a lacy bra on top and her hips are rolling to the music while organizing the things on top of our drawer. I lean on the door frame of our room to watch Piper some more.

"Are you enjoying the show?" Piper asked without looking at me.

"Absolutely. Can I sit on the bed to enjoy it some more?" I said then walked to the bed and sit on it and lean on the headboard with my legs stretch properly.

"Yes. You may." She said then faced me with her back still leaning on the drawer and arms spread on it while swaying down sensually. I could not take my eyes off her hips and I know if I look at her eyes, I could see the same fire I'm having right now in my eyes. I motioned for her to come to me with my forefinger and she slowly sauntered to me, she stopped in the bed post to use it as a pole. She protruded her ass out and rolled her hips in time with the rhythm of the music. I could feel the vibration of my moan in my throat with the show Piper is giving me.

"Do you like what are you seeing?" Piper asked me then she crawled on top of the bed from the foot of the bed to hover above me. I could not take of my eyes with the amount of skin I'm seeing right now. I nodded vigorously and patted my lap for her to sit. She obediently sit on my lap and continued the slow dance she is doing. I tried to touch her but she slap my hand. I look at her with shock.

"No touching until I said so." Piper said whispering in my ears then she purposely rub her body to mine.

"Fuck! So soft..." I moaned when she roll her hips to my thigh.

"Do you know how turn on I am right now?" she asked shakily. She get my hand and put it inside her shorts without a warning.

"Ahhh…" She moaned without hesitation when I touch her wet core then removed my hands. "Suck it." she added and then place my hands to my mouth. I shamelessly suck on my fingers while maintaining eye contact with her. She stand in the bed with shaky legs and remove her shorts in front of me.

"Whoa! Fucking shit." I said in a hoarse.

"Is that a good thing?" she ask with a throaty laugh.

"Definitely." I said not taking my eyes to her womanhood. I cannot resist anymore. I hold her thighs firmly and flat my tongue on her womanhood.


"Ahhhh…Fuck, Alleexxx…" I moaned. I'm not really a brave person but I can't stop myself from doing something bold just to please Alex. I could sense that my aggressiveness is a welcoming change for Alex and it definitely excites her. I almost buck my hips to her when I felt her tongue trying to get inside of me.

"St…Stop… I want you naked now." I moaned forcefully. Though I wanted her to continue the wonderful thing she is doing, I still wanted it to be a two way pleasure. As Alex hurriedly get naked, I lay flat in the bed.

"Now what do I do?" Alex asked hastily while looking at me with hunger.

"Come here." I said. She hovered above me and I intertwined my legs to her waist and my arms to her neck, kissed her hard while making sure that our chest is rubbing to each other.

"Fuck, Piper!" Alex moaned when I released her from the kiss and untangled my legs to her waist. She aligned her wet core to mine and started grinding hard to me. Her bouncing chest is irresistible, so I reached for them and palmed it to her delight. Because of what I've done, she grinded harder to me, causing us to both moaned louder from the pleasure.

"Don't stop…I'm so close…"I said then I palmed her breast harder.

"Then cum for me." Alex said hoarsely then kissed me hard. With her urgent grinding and kissing, my body shake to its core and a blissful fire spread to my body. I could still feel her shaky body. She rolled to my right and breathed heavily. I scooted closer to her and she wrapped her arms round me.

"Good night, Alex." I said then peck her on the lips.

"Good night." She return the kiss with the same manner.


I wake up a bit earlier than Piper, so I had the chance to gaze at her beauty without a care in the world. After a few minutes of looking, I removed myself carefully from Piper's firm grip to freshen up and start my day. After taking a bath and making sure that I'm properly dress, I called Gina to bring me coffee in my study to do some documents while waiting for the two to wake up and have our breakfast together. I chuckled lightly when I remembered how I can't eat breakfast alone anymore. After a few minutes of reading my emails, my phone ring loudly.

"Good morning, Alex Vause here." I answered professionally.

"Good morning, Vause! How are you doing right now?" Nicky said.

"Fine." I answered briefly.

"Oh…I could sense that you are doing more fine than usual." Nicky said with mischief. I just grinned at the phone but didn't said anything. "Anyways I heard from your secretary that you are not anymore accepting meetings beyond five in the afternoon as much as possible." Nicky said. I just hummed to confirm what she told me. I definitely want to spend more time in the house than in the office. All the people I want to spend my time with is in the house, so why would I stay in the office?

"Oh…so you are really domesticated right now?" Nicky asked.

"What?" I asked uneasily.

"I called last night but apparently you were cooking dinner with your wife. How is that for a bad ass Vause?" Nicky teased me. I just groaned to avoid digging my own grave with Nicky's teasing.

"I just hope it will continue like that and you fall hard for her, so you would stop with your plans." Nicky said seriously suddenly.

"No! I would never fall in love with her and all of these are just part of my plan. She is still a Chapman." I said with closed eyes and pounding heart.

"I just hope karma will not slap bitch you in the face, Vause." Nicky said with a heavy sigh.

"It won't." I said trying to be strong. I ended the call without any warning. I slam my face in the table and tried to ignore the pounding of my heart.


Meanwhile outside Alex's office, a steady flow of tears is coming out from blue eyes.

So it was still all part of her plan.

I tried to muffle the sound of my crying by covering my mouth with my hand but the sound I'm hearing in my ear gets louder and louder. I tried to focus my senses where the cracking sound is coming from but I can't really pinpoint where it is.

Piper, get your grip! You need to move before Alex sees you!

I scolded myself so I won't be seen by her but my feet won't move. I could feel my hands are already shaking from what I'm feeling but I don't want to focus on it.

How can I just fall into her trap like that and believe everything that is happening to us is because she somehow care for me?

Wait!

Oh Yeah!

She never even told me that she has feelings for me. All she wanted to do is to have sex and nothing more!

Of course! What is the best way to destroy a person than to play with one's emotion? But I don't deserve this! I don't fucking deserve this!

With that realization, I could feel my whole body going numb and the cracking sound that I could hear is thundering to my ears. I tried to look at my body to see if the sound is coming from me but it was all blurry and hazy from the tears flowing in my eyes. I tried to do a breathing exercise I had learn from the yoga sessions Polly asked me attend too but it didn't help because the air keeps clogging my throat and a vile taste keeps coming up to my mouth. I tried to breathe again but I could feel my chest tightening more when I released it slowly. And because I was so focus on the things I'm feeling right now, I didn't hear the door opening.

"Piper?" Alex said looking at me.


All I wanted to do now is to hug her tight and whisper comforting words to her but my whole body can't move as if it is nailed to the floor. I wanted to wipe the steady stream of tears flowing in her beautiful eyes but my hands can't seem to reach for her. I could feel my chest tightening harder and harder but I don't want to look away from her.

"I'm sorry for eavesdropping to your conversation." She said shakily then breathes hard. "It won't happen again." she said then tried to turn around but I could see that her body is a bit wobbly. I walked near her and tried to hold her and help but her hand stopped me.

" . ." She said in a low voice but firmly.

"Piper, whatever you heard…" I tried to explain but she interrupted me.

"I have heard enough, Ms. Vause." She said coldly then wiped her eyes with the back of her hand.

"But…" I said then reach out for her again but she docked me.

"Don't worry I'm used to being a tool for everyone." She said to me in the eyes with a pain I can't describe then run towards our room.

I clutched my chest tightly to stop the pain I'm feeling but it's like it won't stop. I go back to my study and try to drink water but it just spilled because of my unsteady hands. I can't even lift my hands properly so the glass slip and it gets broken when it hit the floor. I wanted to thrash the place but I cannot find the energy to do it. All I could think of is the pain I saw in Piper's eyes. Every breath I take is just clogging my chest and like a thousand needles prickling it. I tried to hold on to the table but I can't stop myself from falling to the floor and soundlessly cry like I have never cried before.

Why do I feel this so much pain? Why do I have to be so stupid and hurt her like this?

Why can't I just tell her how I feel?

Why I'm so coward?!

"Are you ready to forget that she is a Chapman?"

Then all of the things that her family came back to my mind.

The look of my grandfather when he was telling me that my mother was missing… The nights my mother had nightmares and almost lost her mind…and the face of Kim…

I tried to shout but my voice is failing me. The steady flow of tears is making my eyes blurry but a new goal sweep to my mind. I willed myself to stand even using my hands to stand. After a few minutes of composing myself, I walk to our room and open it but what I see makes my blood boil.

"You will not leave this room right now, Piper." I said with a firm tone.

"Can we just please use a separate room from now on?" Piper said while packing her luggage. I walk near here luggage and thrash it to the floor.

"What is fucking wrong with you?" Piper said then kneeled to her things to pick it up. I clutched her arm to make her stand and tugged her to me. I hug her to the waist tightly so that she can't easily escape me. She wiggled and tried to push me but I stand firmly.

"I said do not touch me!" Piper said after the futile attempt to remove herself from my hug.

"You are my wife and I have every right to you and your body remember that, Piper." I said firmly and kissed her hard. I lick her lips to open it for me but she won't budge, so I just keep kissing her hard. After a few seconds, her mouth slowly opens and she is returning my kisses. I take advantage of this and tried to nip her upper lips but to my surprise Piper bite me. I suddenly release her and hold my lower lips which is a bit swollen and has a cut. I could see concern on her eyes and reach for me but I dock it. I stand with confidence though I could taste the blood flowing in my lips.

"You are my wife and you will fulfill every duties of my wife even in bed. You might want to remember that you are part of the collateral damage of your family." I said coldly. I don't want to say it but I want to ensure that she will stay with me.

"Coward!"

"Don't worry, I don't forget that." Piper said not looking into my eyes.

"Then I expect the best from you and fulfilling your duties." I said then snaked my hands to her waist.

"I thought you were different but you are just like everyone." Piper said with a low voice but I could still feel the pain of what she said.

"I'm sorry to burst your bubble, Piper but I'm no different from your evil family." I said with same low voice she has.

"No, you are crueler than them because you can fake emotions." She said back without breaking eye contact.

"Who said I can't play with emotions? Didn't I tell you I had acting workshop to perfect my plan for your family?" I said without breaking a sweat while maintaining eye contact with her and trying to remember the acting points I needed right now but my mind is going blank from the things I'm saying to her.

"Fucking Liar!"

"I should have known." Piper said with tears threatening to flow again.

"Oh please, stop crying, it wouldn't change the fact that you are in my mercy and you are mine just like any toy I have right now." I said with a little chuckle to put effect.

"Fuck you!" Piper said vehemently.

"Oh don't worry, I know that and I intend to do that to you because I must admit I cannot resist your delectable body." I said licking my lips.

"Fuck you!" Piper cursed me again for the nth time.

"Is that you are all going to say?" I said but every curse word she said to me is stabbing me like a double edge knife. She glared at me but said nothing.

"So here's the deal, my wife, you will stay in my room and keep it warm for me when I needed it and don't forget that you are mine." I said then sealed it with a kissed and to add weight to it I bite her lower lip a bit then lick it to soothe her pain.

"Let's have breakfast after you compose yourself and let Gina arrange your things. Don't keep me waiting downstairs." I said then released her from my clutch.

"Fucking coward!"

I ignored whatever I'm feeling right now because of the reality that I can't have feelings for her because she is a Chapman. I cannot forget what her family had done to mine.

Yes. I'm definitely absofuckingly coward.