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I am still trying to wind it down and Hound will be the last that I write about. Thank you Kimmie98 for picking up so quickly on my first hint. I was doing the happy dance and squeal that you made that comment. Enjoy!
It had been a week since Raven had come out of stasis and Mirage was being the ever patient and proper mech that he was. Raven kept to herself and quiet during the day content to visit with Allie or any of the young femmes that had sparklings. She was fascinated with how each carrier was so protective and their instinct so developed and she hoped that hers would be the same when it came time to spark her little one.
The nights were different since she was forced to share a berth with Mirage. It was different in the sense that he did not pressure or force her but he did insist on spooning against her so that his EM field would mesh with hers and sooth the sparkling. In all honesty Raven liked the warmth which was such a contrast from the coldness that Shockwave displayed but Raven was still tense and scared every time she had to lie down on his berth and she couldn't stop the awful fluxes that plagued her recharge.
Many times Mirage had to wake her because her thrashing would be so severe he feared she would harm herself or the sparkling only to have Raven shift away to the far edge and cry until she fell back into recharge. She wanted them to stop but did not know how to control them and she thought about going for counseling but then she was so tired from the constant checkups and medical scans that were required for her to take since she had come out of stasis.
She knew that Doc and Ratchet were concerned for her since her spark still ached for its other half. Raven would be out in the atrium and see a couple cuddled or holding each other and it would take her breath away with longing so fierce that she would retreat to her berth and cry. It made her angry that a monster could reduce her to a whimpering crying sparkling but she could not stop herself and it hindered her return to her duties.
She heard the door open and saw Mirage standing there quietly as he watched her a moment until he walked into their quarters.
"Hey Raven, patrol is over and I thought we could go to the rec room together for supper." Mirage said to her as he sat down and looked at her with patience and concern mirroring in his optics.
"That is fine with me my lord." Raven said as he eyes dropped to the floor. Mirage stepped closer and kneeled down to take her chin in his hands. He raised her head so that he could look in her eyes.
"I am not your master, Raven. I only want what is best for you and our sparkling." Mirage told her in his smooth fluid voice and Raven shivered. She feared what he could make her feel. She was already experiencing the initial twinges of desire from her body letting her know that the sparkling needed its nutrients from its sire but she fought the urges. She knew that it was inevitable but she wanted to hold out as long as possible.
"It is not your sparkling but mine and Shockwave's." Raven insisted. "Just because I was forced doesn't mean that this sparkling is some beg a bond's offspring. You have not made your claim yet and the sparkling has not bonded with you."
"Would you rather see it die?" Mirage asked softly. "Just because it was conceived in violence doesn't mean it will not be wanted."
"I know that! I just don't like being passed from one mech to the next!" Raven snarled at him and jumped up but quickly sat back down as a dizzy spell overcame her. "Damn this feeling! I hate being weak." She cried softly as Mirage tried to soothe her but Raven was decidedly in a sour mood and it didn't sit well that Mirage could smell the faint scent of her oily musky scent realizing that the triggering mechanism of her mood was from the needs of her body.
"Raven, you can't keep putting this off." Mirage told her carefully. She looked at him startled and then anger overcame her.
"You have no right to tell me what I need." She cried as she tried to pull away and then turning her head to face the back of the couch when he wouldn't let her go.
"I do. You accepted me as your donor and the adopted sire to your sparling. It is my job to care for you." Mirage tried to pull her back towards him but she refused.
"I accepted you but I don't have to like my situation." Raven said finally looking at him and then softening. "I do appreciate what you are doing but this is difficult for me. I will probably have the fluids injected because I am just not comfortable with this."
"What about the bonding? You can't deny that you like the warmth of my berth. You may start out away from me but every morning you wake up in my arms and you can't deny it." Mirage told her and Raven looked away again in shame.
"It is the cold season and you can't blame me if my body seeks the warmth. I can't help what I do when in recharge." Raven huffed and Mirage smiled.
"If you can't help your body's needs then I can't help but comment on the delicious odor that emanates from you." Mirage purred as he shifted Raven closer. He pulled her into his arms and Raven gasped in surprise. Her pulsed increase in rapid speed and Raven knew she was fighting a losing battle but if she was going to give in then it would be on her terms.
"Mirage, please I need more time…." She started.
"…time is not an option in this case. You need my coding and the sparkling needs the stability of a sire." Mirage argued. He nipped at her neck and Raven shuddered at the tender caress. It was so different from her bond mate and Raven found her fingers curling around his armor absently tracing a pattern along his smooth beautiful blue armor.
"Mirage I am not comfortable. What if he comes back?" Mirage knew who she was referring to and it angered him that even with Shockwave in stasis he could still inflict fear into her spark. He would have to talk to Ratchet about that. Could she still feel Shockwave? Mirage was led to believe that with Shockwave in permanent stasis that his park would be too weak to press on the bond that he had with Raven but what if she was feeling some kind of feedback from the mech or that their bond was stronger than Prime or the Lord High Protector thought? Raven was fighting him and it posed a serious problem for Mirage because he did not want to become the very thing that Raven had escaped from. He held her as she trembled against in him need and Mirage made his mind up. She was going to have to come to him but he was going to have to push her to her limit.
Mirage stood suddenly and picked her up in his arms.
"Mirage, what are you doing?" She both scared and excited about his possible answer.
"You'll see." He said mysteriously as he walked them to their berth. Raven's spark pulsed stronger and faster as she saw where they were heading and she buried her head into his chest as she held onto him when he laid her down in the cool soft sheets. He nuzzled her neck and Raven clung to him as he sat down next to her.
"You need the nanites and the CNA that I can offer for your sparkling but you are going to have the control." Mirage told her as he gently stroked down her arm until his hand rested next to her hip. He then leaned back on the berth and settle with his hands under his helm as he watched the confusion and insecurity wash through Raven's EM field.
"Mirage, what do you want?" She asked as she looked at him questioningly.
"I am at your disposal. What do you wish?" Mirage replied relaxing into the berth as he waited for her to decide.
"I don't know." She said honestly. "I have never had a mech give me control." She started to touch the joint where the bend in his leg was but she stopped.
"Go ahead. I don't bite." Mirage told her softly. "This is normal between two bots that are in a relationship."
"We don't have a relationship." She stated.
"We do. You need me because I can give your sparkling what it needs and I want to help you." Mirage wanted to say that he wanted her but didn't want to frighten her any more than necessary. He continued to watch her as she slowly touched his leg and felt the smooth warm metal. Mirage hummed in approval as he dimmed his optics in appreciation and let his circuits sing in tune to her touch.
Raven slowly caressed Mirage's armor as she studied and noted what made the mech hum in appreciation. She stroked down to Mirage's peds rubbing the kinks out of wires that had supported the mech's heavy armor and weight. Mirage slowly brought his hands to her hair and massaged her head as she looked up at him and halted her touches.
"It's okay. I just wanted to see your face." Mirage told her seductively. Raven smiled. She had never had a mech give her such control and praise and it felt strange yet pleasing that Mirage was so gentle. She continued to explore his legs as she found wiring beneath the armor.
"Mirage, I have never been given control." She whispered to him as she leaned her body against his bent legs her hair tickled some of the sensitive wiring that was exposed and Mirage smiled.
"I want you to enjoy this." Mirages told her as he felt her lean her elbows and rest her head on his knees. He petted her hair as she laid there resting against him.
"I am not a femme that interfaces even though it was popular on Cybertron. I mean, I guess what I am saying is that I tried it on Cybertron but I tended to get emotionally attached when my partners only wanted to have a good time. This isn't easy for me." It was the most she had ever said to Mirage and he liked that she was trying to be honest.
"I like interfacing but I am picky about who I choose to be with." Mirage said to her. He continued to stroke her hair as she watched him curiously.
"You chose to be a donor to my sparkling. Why?" She asked him.
"I saw you twice before. I wanted to know you then and I want you now." Mirage quietly but boldly told her. He hoped his honesty would not scare her but he did not want a relationship based on lies and deceit. Shockwave had deceived and hurt her enough.
"If I don't interface with you then you will go to Ratchet." She said it more as a statement than a question and Mirage nodded in the affirmative. She looked down a moment and then back at him. "I will do it but I want you to take control. I am not comfortable being the dominant partner. It doesn't feel right to me."
"How about we keep our pace slow and learn about each other." Mirage suggested as he pushed her hair back out of her face. He liked that it was kept shorter than the other femmes but the top layers remain long so that it was appealing for him to run his fingers through.
"What do you want me to do?" Raven asked. She was not new to interfacing; her sparkling was proof of that, but she felt new to this type of partnership. Raven's spark still ached and it confused her about Mirage. She was afraid that his intentions were not true and it would kill her after finding herself in this situation.
"I want you to relax and let things progress naturally." Mirage told her softly. "You are so wound up when you should be enjoying carrying. Your body is fulfilling Primus' most amazing gift. You are carrying life." Raven thought about his words. She was still having trouble believing that the sparkling even existed but when the nauseous started the other morning Raven had resigned herself that it was true and that she would be holding her little one in about eight months.
"You have a strange way of looking at things." Raven said and smiled. She suddenly realized that she was not nervous with Mirage anymore and his voice actually was relaxing her.
"It is not strange. We are such a fortunate race. Most races only have one way of producing but we were gifted with the Allspark and the ability to carry life within our own bodies." Mirage kept his voice smooth and soft and Raven smiled the first genuine smile that Mirage had seen since she had onlined. It made his spark sing and he suddenly pulled her close.
Raven felt his lips softly on hers and she found her limbs straddling his waist as he moved his mouth over hers. Mirage kept it light and as soon as he initiated the kiss he pulled back and released her. He looked to see if he had scared her but Raven just returned his gaze shyly.
"I need…I… oh Mirage, please." She finally stated softly, pleadingly and she touched him to let him know but her soft cry of help was unneeded since her smell had become so intoxicating. Mirage once again pulled her closer but before kissing her he looked her in the eyes one more time.
"I will never hurt you and you only have to say stop and I will." He wanted her to know that he would do the honorable thing no matter the price and that she could trust him.
"I don't love you." She whispered.
"I know."
"I will be using you." She whispered again.
"I chose to be here."
"Okay." She whispered and shuddered as he claimed her mouth passionately.
This is a shorter chapter but I had to finish the beginning of the story between Mirage and Raven. I hope I did not disappoint.
