Jeff's P.O.V.

I wake up on Saturday morning, wandering into the kitchen. Thad and I were woken up by Sebastian and Hunter fighting, but I never found out why. Thad said that he would talk to them and to just stay in bed. I had fallen back asleep before he came back.

Hunter's sitting at the kitchen table, a strange, heart wrenching sadness written all over his face. I grab a cup of coffee and sit down across from him, "Hey," I greet him gently, "Are you alright?"

He shakes his head, "No. Not at all. But it's me you should be worried about."

"What happened?" I ask, "If you don't mind."

He explains the fight that he and Sebastian had, a weak vulnerability that I've never heard from him before. At first I think that he might break down or cry, but he doesn't.

I put my hold consolingly on his, "I'm so sorry..."

He shakes his head, "It's all my fault. I'm just so paranoid about him running off and getting hurt, but it turns out that I was the one hurting him."

I sigh sadly, "It's not entirely your fault, Hunt. I mean, of course things got a little bit out of hand, but your heart was in the right place?"

"Was it?" he asks, a harsh tone in his voice, "I just, I wasn't fair to him. It was like I had to control every move he made, but I wouldn't dream of having to answer to him. I don't know what it was, exactly. I guess I just got too possessive over him and started treating him more like my property than my boyfriend. I just, I fucking hate myself so much right now, Jeff. He left me. And I deserved it. And now I don't think he's ever coming back..."

It breaks my heart to see him like this. I still feel so much for him. I just want to hold him, to tell him that I'm still here for him, that he still has me. But that's not what he wants to hear. I don't believe that he ever had any honest feelings for me, it had always been Sebastian...

I get up and walk around the table to hug him, "I'm so, so sorry Hunter. I know you probably could care less about this right now, but I'm here for you. Anything, whatever you need. I'm here."

He glances up at me, petting my arm, "Why? I mean, I'm the one that was in the wrong..."

"Maybe, maybe not," I reply, stroking his hair, "But that doesn't make a difference as to whether or not you're hurting. Just because you did some things you're not proud of us doesn't make you a bad person, and I could never see you any differently."

He stands up and pulls me into his arms, "You're, you're an amazing person, Jeff. I don't know what I'd do without you. Just...thank you."

I look up at him, a painful smile on my face, "Well, I owe you my life, so don't even mention it."

He kisses me on the head, "You know, I haven't forgotten about-"

His sentence breaks off when Thad walks in. He looks over at us with a sympathetic smile, "Are you guys alright?"

Hunter sighs, letting me out of his arms, "I, I don't know. Thank you, though. You haven't heard from Sebastian, have you?"

Thad shakes his head, "I'm afraid not. He'll probably come around, though. I'll let you know as soon as I hear anything."

Hunter nods, "Thanks." He then walks into his bedroom, shutting his door.

Thad looks over at me, "What about you? How are you feeling?"

I shrug, "I don't even know, to be honest. I feel so bad for Hunter, he's hurting so badly. I can only imagine what Sebastian could be going through right now."

He nods, sitting down on the couch with me, "I'm worried sick about him. I mean, he's probably alright. He has a lot of friends and I guess he could be staying with whoever. I'm just praying wherever he is, he's safe. I can't blame him for walking out last night, though. I probably would have done the same thing. Hunter just seems so difficult to be with."

I frown a little bit, "You're not blaming this all on Hunter, are you?"

"Well, I don't know," he replies quietly, "I guess not entirely, but most of this is on him. He was the one accusing Sebastian of all kinds of stuff, he was the one who got physical, I mean..."

I immediately get a little bit angry, "Sebastian was the one making sketchy phone calls in the middle of the night, and being evasive. He was obviously hiding something, I'm not the slightest bit surprised Hunter thought that something was going on."

"You're blaming this on Sebastian now?" He asks in disbelief.

"Partially, yes!" I answer, "It takes two, you know. You're wrong to be so hard on Hunter, I mean, you can see what he's going through!"

"It was his own fault!" he retorts, "He's just upset because he royally screwed up!"

"Exactly! He screwed up!" I reply angrily, "He made a mistake, and he feels horrible about it! But he's not the whole problem!"

"Why are you so hell bent on defending him, anyway?"

"Because you're attacking him and that's not what he needs right now!"

He shakes his head in frustration, "I didn't even say anything to him!"

"Yeah, so I'm defending him because he's not even here to defend himself! I can't believe you would treat him like that!"

He gets up, calming down a little bit, "Whatever, Jeff. We just...we never should have moved in together." He grabs his jacket and walks out the door before I can say anything else.

I curl up on the couch, starting to cry a little. I'm not even sure what to think anymore. The truth is I don't know who's right and who's wrong. All I know is that we're all hurt and angry and our relationships are crumbling beneath our feet and we have no one to blame but ourselves. I know I'm plenty guilty, but maybe not for what someone might think. I just feel guilty for getting involved with Thad when my heart's been with Hunter this whole time. I still have intense feelings for Thad, but I don't think they've ever matched my feelings for Hunter.

Hunter walks into the room and curls up on the couch with me, "Are you alright, kiddo?"

"I don't think so." I whisper, tears running down my face, "It's just, we've ruined everything. We've all just destroyed everything."

He kisses me on the cheek, pulling me up against him, "This isn't your fault, Jeff. It's my fault and I'm sorry that things are falling apart with Thad because of it."

I wrap my arms around his neck, "It's not your fault, either. It's just that Thad and I were so tightly bound to you and Bas that as soon as you guys fall apart we do, too. It's everybody and nobody's fault at the same time."

"Fair enough," he replies, stroking my cheek, "Do you think they'll ever come back?"

I bite my lip, "I don't know. I hope they do, but if they don't, it'll be for the best, right?"

He sighs, "I don't know..."

"But if they don't come back, it would just mean that our relationships couldn't be fixed, so they're choosing to end them. And it would just save us all time and energy in the end. I love them, and I'll miss them if they don't come back soon, but we can't let ourselves get destroyed over this."

"Yeah..." he agrees wistfully, "You're right. But it sure as hell won't be easy. When I met Sebastian, I felt something that I had never felt before, I don't even know how to describe it, but it was intense. We had something really serious, and I don't know if I'll ever completely get over him, you know?"

I nod, hugging him tightly, "Just give it time. I really hope they both come back, he might just need some air. I don't know..."

We both lie there together, doubtful yet hopeful at the same time. Of course I really do want Thad and Sebastian back, but I'd probably be in the best shape if they never do. I like the idea of having Hunter to myself, as wrong as I know it is to feel that way. I won't make any kind of move on him, but if he decided that he might want me, I'd have my arms wide open.

We don't talk all that much, but we spend the majority of the day snuggling on the couch, silently comforting each other as we mull over the disaster that we're in. I sigh, adjusting my head a little bit, staring painfully out the window at the city that once looked beautiful. But without Thad and Sebastian here with us, it's just a collection of buildings without life or meaning.