Sebastian's P.O.V.

Attending Cooper's funeral is one of the hardest things that I've ever done. I've never been to a funeral that I actually understood, and now that I am, it hurts like hell. I walk into the chapel quietly and alone, not speaking to anyone. No one recognizes me, of course, but they don't pay any mind to me.

I sit quietly and watch all the people in his life that I never got the chance to know mourning over his casket. I barely even move throughout the entire service, still suffering from the loss.

I stand to the side as he's buried in the cemetery and watch as his little brother nearly breaks down in front of everyone. Some people make an attempt to calm him down, but he's inconsolable, sobbing hysterically over his brother's grave. He eventually moves backwards so that they can finish burying him, still crying heavily.

Even as the funeral comes to a close, some people stay behind, including me and his brother. I walk closer to the grave, putting a comforting hand on the boy's shoulder. He glances over at me, a little surprised to see a total stranger, "Were you a friend of his?"

I nod somberly, "Yeah. I never got the chance to know him as well as I wanted to, but I really cared about him."

He sighs, petting me on the back, eyes shiny with tears, "I just can't believe he's really gone. It was just so sudden. There were so many things that I never got to say him. So many wrongs that I was never able to make right."

I nod understandingly, "It's just so hard to accept it...I can only imagine what you're going through, you must have been pretty close to him."

He shakes his head, wiping tears from his eyes, "Not really, to be honest. We kind of went our separate ways as we got older. We didn't really get along a lot of the time. But he was my brother, and I never told him how much I really loved him."

My eyes drift down to the ground, now holding back tears myself, "Yeah, I can understand how that is. It's just so, it's just unfair."

He takes my hand and gives it a light squeeze, "So, um, how did you know him? If you don't mind me asking."

I force a smile, "We were friends. I met him a night club not all that long ego. He kind of liked me, and to be honest, I liked him back. I never told him that, though. I have a boyfriend and I never wanted to complicate things. But he never knew that if we met when I was available, I would have been in a heart beat."

He nods, a sympathetic look on his face, "That must be really tough. Especially now."

"Yeah, it is," I mutter mournfully, "You get so caught up in all these complicated relationships, you never even think to tell someone how much you really care. You don't even fully realize it yourself until they're gone and it's too late. And that's where the guilt sets in, all the 'what ifs' and 'if onlys', you start to forget the sun even rises."

He looks up at me, "That sounds like a pretty perfect description, actually. Have you lost someone close to you before this?"

I shake my head, "No, not really. That's all just how I'm feeling right now, how I've been feeling since he's been gone. I can barely cope with it some days."

He pulls me into a hug and instantly hug him back. Getting this close to a total stranger might normally seem strange to some people, but at times like this, it makes perfect sense. We're both feeling the same exact way, and it's easier to feel comforted by someone when you know they fully understand how you feel and what you're going through.

He gives me a shy smile as we let each other go, "Sorry, I hope that wasn't weird."

I shake my head, "Not at all, I actually kinda needed that."

"I'm Blaine, by the way." He mutters awkwardly.

"Sebastian." I reply, appreciating his friendly gestures.

He sighs heavily, "Well my parents are probably waiting for me, I should go."

He give him a weak smile, "Yeah. Well, it was nice meeting you, well, as nice as it could be under the circumstances."

He nods, "Yeah, you too."

We wave goodbye as he walks off through the misty graveyard. I stay at the grave a while longer, kneeling down next to his headstone, "Hey, Cooper. It's me, Sebastian," I'm already starting to cry as I try to say goodbye to him, "I just wanted to say I'm really sorry that this happened to you. And I'm gonna miss you, so much. I'm sorry that I wasn't a better friend to you. I cared about you so much more than I ever got the chance to tell you. God, I should have told you. I really love you. I was just afraid to say it, you know? I'm just so sorry that I never had the guts to tell you. I hate myself so much right now."

I'm sobbing heavily, slowly drifting closer to the ground, "I'm just so sorry! I'm so sorry..." I stay there for a long time, weeping and unable to speak. When I eventually find the strength, I get to my feet and rest a hand on the head stone, "I guess I'm just trying to say that I love you, and I'm sorry I never told you before. Goodbye, Cooper." I feel myself start to tear up again at my last phrase. I quickly walk away from his grave, taking one last look before it's out of sight. I cry my whole way home, still unable to come to terms with his passing.

When I get home, I look for Hunter first thing. He's sitting on the couch watching the sun set over the city. I climb under his arm, still dressed in my black suit and tie from the funeral. He pulls me close to his side, rubbing my arm, "Hey sweetie, how are you doing?"

I exhale slowly, trying to keep my cool, "I'm okay. Better now that I'm with you, though. That was really tough. He had a brother, probably around my age, I got a chance to talk him."

He nods quietly, just listening intently as I ramble on.

"He seemed like such a sweet kid. I just, I feel so terrible, you know?"

"Yeah," he mutters, stroking my hair, "Don't feel too bad, though. It wasn't your fault. Sometimes things happen for a reason, you know?"

I nod, "I guess so. I hope so..."

"I promise they do." he reassures me with a light kiss on the cheek.

He holds me for a long time as we watch the sun fall and the city light up. I stare into the sky and take a moment to just appreciate that I still have Hunter rather than cursing everything everyone because I lost Cooper. I close my eyes and breathe his scent in, trying to turn my thoughts off and fall asleep.

.The End.