Izaya's point of view
Warm breath tickled the back of my neck, with a small grunt I tried scooting away but a arm around my waist stopped me, only pulling me closer. My eyes shot up, Whose in bed with me? I slowly looked over my shoulder, Shizu-chan? I rubbed my eyes with one hand, then blinked a few times.
"Shizu-chan..." I sat up, lifting Shizu's arm and putting it beside him, he stirred for a moment then rolled over his back to me. I leaned over him, his face looked so cute when he was asleep, reaching out I went to stroke his hair, but I stopped myself.
No...this doesn't feel right standing up I grabbed my clothes and got dressed This isn't normal...
I thought it was the only relationship you want... my inner voice said
Shut up I snapped, I know what I said...It just seems different now...
...All because he stayed the night over? it asked
I shook my head You don't understand... the voice was silent. Thank god, I turned to leave but a tug on my jacket stopped me.
"Hey...Where ya goin flea.." Shizu's voice was groggy with sleep, as he spoke.
flea... usually I'd be happy that he call me that...But right now I felt sad..."Well that's not very nice Shizu-chan~," I forced myself to smile "Considering I let you stay that night~,"
He snorted "Yeah I know," reaching down he grabbed his pants, pulling out his cigarettes from the back pocket.
"No smoking allowed, Shizu-chan~" I teased, he just glared at me ignoring what I said.
"You leaving?" he asked, looking me in the eyes, I stared back then I looked away. Usually I'd be able to hold his gaze...Why can't I now? I rubbed my temples with a small sigh. "Everything alright, flea?" I felt a slight tug on my jacket again.
No...something's wrong.. "Aww~, is Shizu-chan worried about me~?" I settled myself into his lap. Grinning at the flash of anger in his eyes.
"Shut up," he growled, putting his cigarette to his mouth then blowing the smoke in my face.
I coughed waving my hand in front of my face "That wasn't very nice Shizu-chan," I whined, giving him a pouty look. He glared at me "Get off me," he snapped slightly.
I felt the sadness rising up inside my chest, but I forced it away getting off his lap "You're so cruel, Shizu-chan," I grabbed my knife, ready to leave but I felt arms wrap around my waist, pulling me back "...You seem off today.." I felt The ex-bartender's warm breath on my neck, causing me to shiver slightly.
"I'm fine maybe I'm catching a cold or something," he's holding me... I leaned back, This isn't normal... I turned my head, looking at him over my shoulder.
"Izaya?" why do I love it when he says my name? Why does it sound so right when he says it? I turned, fully so I was facing him. Why do I want more of him?...Leaning up I kissed him; his lips respond immediately moving perfectly against my own, I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling his body against mine. Why?...Why do does fit me so perfectly... his tongue licked my bottom lip, causing me to shiver and allow him access to my mouth.
Wasn't I alright with us hating each other, do I not want that anymore? my hands glided over his body, feeling his toned, hard muscle. Wasn't us just being fuck buddies enough for me? he pulled away, lust clouded in his eyes as he slid off my jacket, dropping it to the floor.
"Izaya..." he lifted my shirt off my body, then dropped it on top of my jacket.
My name...Why?.. I took his hand leading him to the bed then pushing him gently onto his back. Please...say my name again... I begged silently, as I unzipped my jeans then sliding them along with my boxers down till they pooled at my ankles Please just say my name! I climbed on top of him grabbing both of our erections, and rubbing them together.
"Fuck, Izaya," Shizu moaned, quietly reaching up with one hand rolling a nipple between his fingertips, then doing the same to the other nub.
Planting a kiss on his lips, I slid my hand under my pillow, pulling out a bottle of lube, unscrewing the cab I poured it over my fingers. It was cold as I rubbed my wet fingers together then I slid my fingers down my hip, then to my entrance.
Shizuo... I rubbed my middle finger around the ring of muscle, wetting it with the lube, then I slid it inside me. "Why do you do this to me?..." I murmured softly.
"What was that, Izaya?" I jumped alittle Did I say it out loud? I added a second finger bending down nibbling his neck.
"It's nothing Shizu-chan," he didn't look convinced but didn't say anything. Removing my fingers I grabbed Shizu's hard dick and placed the tip at my entrance, then very slowly I lowered myself.
"Izaya..." there was my name again...Why? I didn't move for a second, but then very slowly I moved myself up and down in his thick rod.
"Shizuo..." I whispered softly, as I quickened my pace, I could feel my climax approaching, leaning down I kissed Shizuo. Why are you making me feel this way?...Everything was just fine until this morning...
Was it really? I mentally groaned, goddamn it my inner voice was back, maybe you're feeling this way because you love him,
Love him? I almost laughed I don't love anyone certainly not him... to be honest I think my inner voice was...right. I was too deep in though to notice I've cummed until I felt, Shizu-chan's warm seed fill me. The room was silent except for our heavy pants.
"Izaya..." Shizu leaned up and kissed my neck gently, I smiled, cradling his head gently as he rested his forehead against my shoulder. His breathing slowed and I knew he had fallen asleep, I laid him down gently, pulling up the blanket over his naked body, and up to his chin
Shizuo.. grabbing my clothes I redressed, then I left, right when I stepped outside I felt a wetness on my nose then more, lifting up my hood over my head, I walked down the block, the raining pouring down onto me soaking my jacket, but I didn't care, I glanced back at my apartment. Even if I do love Shizu-chan...there's no way in hell he'll ever feel the same...
