Shizuo's point of view

I yawned, shifting under the covers, as I lifted my cigarette to my mouth and blew another puff of smoke in the air.

"Why do you do this to me.."

What did that flea mean? I growled grinding my cigarette into the ash tray, almost cracking the glass.

I wanted to press the topic further but I was too horny to really care at the moment, but now it was driving me crazy. I stood up stretching, the bones in my back cracking loudly, picking up my pants I digged through the pockets pulling out my phone then flipping it open. I clicked the contacts button then hit C, immediately Celty's name popped up.

Celty we need to talk, meet me at the park I clicked the send button and waited, there a was a small beep a few moments later.

Already here.

I shook my head setting my phone down on the bed slipping on my boxers, I stopped for a moment then looked down at my phone. I don't why but I picked it up and scrolled down right to Izaya, the damned flea thought it be funny to steal my phone one night and put his number in it.


"We're almost there, Shizuo," Tom said glancing back at me, sometimes this guy really knew when I was getting impatient or pissed. I didn't say anything and just blew a puff of smoke in the air.

"Mom can we go to the festival, please?" I heard a little girl beg her mom, I glanced at them the little girl was tugging on her mom's wrist looking up at her with big blue eyes. The mother sighed in defeat looking at her watch.

"Fine but not for too long, it's almost 10," the little girl smiled, grabbing her mom's hand and pulling her toward the the noise and lights.

"You plan on going?" I heard Tom ask, I shook my head.

"Festivals aren't my kind of thing," I said, my mind turning to Izaya for a moment.

"Who knows Shizu-chan it might be fun~," I whipped around toward the voice, that little flea's filthy scent in the air. The informant stood not too far way, a smirk plastered onto his damn face.

"Izaya, what are you doing here?" I growled clenching my fists.

He gave me a pouty look, his bottom lip sticking out slightly "I just wanted to go to festival," mischief flashed in his eyes "You act like I'm going to do something bad Shizu-chan," he purred my name taking out my brand new phone from his pocket.

"M-my phone!" I stuttered in slight surprise but recovered quickly "Give me it back to damn flea!" I roared, charging at him.

He sidestepped to the side, "If you want it, come and get it~" He cooed, turning tail and running into the festival. I snapped my cigarette then threw it onto the ground, that flea's in for a world of hurt I thought furiously grabbing a stop sign and pursing the informant.

Izaya weaved smoothly through the crowd without any problem while I on the hand had to practically force people out of my way, just so I could keep up with the brunette. Suddenly something bright was thrown onto my head blinding me as I struggled to get the fabric off. Once I pulled it off I through it to the ground looking frantically for the informant.

"Over here~" his voice rang out, he stood by the Ferris wheel at the very end of the line, waving his hand in the air, a smirk on that damn...sexy...face...

I growled, angrily, shaking my head Focus Shizuo! As I ran toward him he snaking his way past the people, who gave him annoyed glares some snapping at him but he ignored them his eyes meeting my own as he continued making his way to the front of the line, then into an empty passenger car. I followed shortly the door shutting behind me.

"No were to run now, Izaya-kun," I cracked my knuckles grinning.

He narrowed his eyes a smirk playing on his lips "Who said I wanted to run Shizu-chan~" He purred the cart jerking as we made our way to the top of the Ferris wheel.

I glared "You planned this didn't you?" the informant stood up, leaning his weight on one leg.

"Maybe," he sat down next to me looking out the window "Now just shut up and enjoy the view, Shizu-chan~" his hand brushed up against mine slightly but made no other move. I just stared, I wanted to hold his hand...just to feel his hand with mine...I shook my head looking out at the sun, I had to admit it was pretty...


That same night I had found Izaya's number in my phone a heart right next to it. I never bothered deleting his number I knew he'd found another way to put it back in. Shutting it I stood up putting on the rest of my clothes, then left the apartment and made my way to the park. When I got there I saw Celty sitting in the shade of a giant oak, reading a small book. She looked up closing the book and setting it on her motorcycle, then took out her phone

What did you want to talk about?

"It's about Izaya..." I leaned against the tree beside her, pulling out a cigarette and lighting it.

Did he do something wrong?

"I guess you could say that..." she stared at me waiting for me to continue, "I..I think I'm in love with Izaya..." I felt my cheeks get hot as I said it.

Then what's the problem? Just tell him.

I scoffed "This is Izaya we're talking about, I just can't ok,"

...Who knows maybe he feels the same way...

I stared at her "Do you know something I don't?"

she didn't say anything and just put her book into a small bag on her bike and hopped onto the seat, revving the engine. I got to go

"Wait, Celty-" her bike drowned out my voice as it sped away, a neigh hidden in the roar of the engine.

What is she hiding? I coughed, waving dust from my face, with a sigh I walked away Does she know something I don't? A flash of fur caught my attention, Izaya? I looked over, my jaw practically hitting the concrete below me. Izaya was holding hands with a pretty good looking guy with black hair slicked back, a few strands hanging in his blue mouths moved but I couldn't hear what they were saying, but something the guy said made Izaya smirk, the man grinned lust clearly visible in his eyes,as he led Izaya into a building.

Izaya was was no it couldn't be! I stumbled after them looking around but didn't see them "Hey sir did you see a guy in a fur jacket with a guy in a business?" I asked the man behind the counter my heart pounding.

"Um yeah room A36," I gave him a winded thanks as I hurried down the hall. I stopped at the door a small noise behind the door, I pressed my ear to the light brown wood another moan filling my ears. That guy was touching Izaya, MY Izaya, my blood boiled angrily. Pulling back my fist I punched the door right down, putting a hole in it as well.

"Shizu-chan?" The guy was on top of Izaya both naked "What are you doing here?"

I ignored his question "Who is he?" I pointed to the man "And what the hell do you think you're doing with him?" I snarled, rage filling my veins.

"This is Mr. Sasaki, we're doing business..."

Sasaki looked at me then Izaya "I'll be outside," grabbing a robe he tied it around his waist then stepped outside onto the balcony, but I knew he would still be able to hear us.

Izaya stood up next walking up to me "...Why are you still here?" that took me by surprise, the anger dieing down.

"I just-"

he looked up at me his eyes watering just a bit "Did you really think I was just sleeping with you?" I nodded I honestly did think that, " Well you were wrong, I sleep with alot of people beside you Shizu-chan...You're not special, I just used you for my own personal pleasure," I swear I could hear my heart break, he was just using me? I clenched my fists, I should have known...We weren't together or anything why would I care if he sleeps with other people I shouldn't care one bit...But I did, I wanted Izaya for myself I wanted no one else but me to be able to touch him...I wanted him to be mine...

"Y-you were never special, Shizu-chan..." the flea's eyes water even more, tears threatening to spill "If even thought just for a second I cared about you or even loved you...You were wrong.." his voice wavered "Now leave, I'm done talking to you.." he turned away, walking out to the balcony.

No Izaya! One side of me wanted to grab him and tell him how much I cared about him, how much I loved him, the other side just wanted to walk away and forget his words...The words that crushed my heart...numbly I set the door back into place and walked away. I was defeated...the Monster of Ikebukuro was defeated...

Izaya's point of veiw

I laid there watching with blurry eyes as Mr. Sasaki dressed himself then set down a envelope on the bed by my feet. He was pretty decent but he could never compare to Shizu-chan...

"Pleasure doing business with ya," Sasaki smirked closing the door behind him. The tears that I've been holding in the whole time poured down my face as I sobbed into the sheets. I felt so dirty, why am I such a whore!?...

You ruined your chance...

I know that!... I sobbed harder, gasping for air I ruined everything! Shizu-chan will never speak to me again...I've lost him... I lifted my fur jacket up pulling one of Shizuo's bartender vests from one of the pockets. I could still smell his scent...I clenched the fabric between my fingers tightly my knuckles turning white.

"I love you, Shizuo Heiwajima..."