I'm sorry it's been so long, school's started again and I've been so busy with homework and being in a new school T.T But anyway enjoy :)

Izaya's point of view

I never knew losing someone could hurt this much. Every time I see Shizuo my heart breaks a little more, even he doesn't chase after me any more...but sometimes when we meet eye contact I can see the hurt in his eyes, I want to run into his arms and tell him how sorry I am, but I know I can't take back what I said and that it's too late. I tapped my pencil against my lip as my eyes started watering, a tear slipping out before I could stop it.

Don't cry, Namie will see... I wiped my eyes with my fingers as though something was in my eye, but the way Namie was looking at me I could tell she had seen the tear.

"If you're so sad about it why don't you just go apologize," she said, it like it could really be that easy, but it wasn't...She doesn't understand.

"Did I ask for your opinion, no I don't think so," I snapped, usually I would have made some little joke about how she cared about me, but I was in no joking mood.

"Tsk," I knew she wanted to say more but didn't, good I wasn't in the mood to hear her annoying voice. I swivelled my chair so I faced the window, then stood up looking out the glass. There was so many people, some had looks of boredom, some with irritation as they had to wait to cross the street.

Must be somewhere special,I thought bitterly, tonight Shizuo would be coming...but I know he's not coming, as I continued looking I noticed him standing among the crowd across the street waiting to cross. My heart lifted. Maybe he is coming... he had his shades on and a cigarette in his mouth, it was the usual look but it still excited me. The crossing sign changed immediately everyone poured onto the streets some running across, others taking their time, Shizuo was one of those people, his head lifted I knew he was looking at me. As he reached the other side I waited for him to into the building and right up to my apartment doors. But he never did, instead he took a right his attention focused on a girl who ran up to him, smiling and hugging him. I clenched my fists.

Who is she? Jealously burned, as shizuo hugged back putting his arm around her shoulders. The girl was pretty no doubt she had flowing blonde hair, that framed her heart shaped face perfectly and big hazel eyes that were filled with excitement.

He's already moved on, my inner voice said.

Shut up... it couldn't be right, it wasn't! But as the girl reached up on her tippy toes and pecked his cheek I knew it was true. Pressed my hand against the window, I want to be in her footsteps, where I have to reach up on my toes to kiss Shizuo, and then he laugh and smile like he is to her. I turned away sitting back in my chair, and noticed Namie had stopped what she was doing and was staring at me.

"What are you looking at?" I snapped.

She looked away, putting a stack of papers away in the file cabinet "Nothing,"

Bitch my phone suddenly buzzed, the screen lighting up, I picked it up looking at the name.

Mr. Sasaki.

It was tempting to just ignore the message but I looked at it anyway.

Meet me at the Sakura hotel, room A36

Is he really trying to torture me?... I sighed, grabbing my jacket, "I"m going out Namie," she didn't say anything and continued to clean, but I knew she heard me. I stepped outside, walking with the flow of the crowd, I heard a giggle and a similar chuckle and looked. Shizuo and that chick were at sitting at a small Cafe, I couldn't help but watch as he smiled so causally and wasn't looking angry for once. His eyes met mine and immediately the smile was gone, his eyes hardening. I could see the anger building in his eyes but he didn't make any more to throw anything at me and then start chasing me.

The girl looked at Shizuo her eyes concerned and confused, then she looked at me then back at him. Her lips moved and then his; his eyes leaving mine. I stared for a few moments longer hoping that his eyes would come back to me...They never did.

I guess he really did move on..I walked up to the Sakura hotel, opening the doors and walking up a young guy, behind the desk.

"Welcome how-,"

"Room A36," I cut him.

"A-are you sure that's-"

" Mr. Sasaki's, I have a meeting with him,"

"Oh ok the room's-," I didn't let him continue and just walked away, he had no idea how clearly I remembered that room. When I got to the door I knocked waiting, no one answered for a moment but then the door knob turned and opened. There he stood there smirking, his hair slicked back, some strands hanging in his face.

"How nice to see you, Izaya," he purred opening the door more, allowing me to step inside the apartment.

"The pleasure's all mine~" I purred, time to play nice, his chest pressed up against my back, as he kissed the side of my neck then scraped his teeth slightly.

"You get ready, I'll be right back," the body against me disappeared as he walked around me, then walked into the bathroom.

Probably going to grab one of his toys... I thought, when I first slept with I never would have guessed he liked using toys. I bent down tossing my shoes to the side then my socks, I then made my way to the bed, still standing as I dropped my jacket onto the floor. CLINK I froze as I felt the cold metal of a gun pressed to the back of my head.

"Don't move, Izaya," he growled, his hand reaching into the front pocket of my pants taking out my spare knife. "You won't be needing this," I closed my eyes as I heard him cock the gun, pain exploded through out me as he hit me in the back of the head, I went down barely catching myself on my hands in time, but right as I landed, he struck again my vision fading in and out. Then every went black.