Arizona was feeling numb. She was used to being rejected and to shut down her feelings, to hide her hurt. At least she said what she had to say. She knew she would cry for a couple of days and then she would start to feel better. She went through a fair share of hurt during her life, she was dumped by her first big love after a year because he fell in love with someone else, and she got through that, it wouldn't be a fling for a stupid girl to destroy her.

Hell, she thought I just wanted to get into her pants. She really doesn't know square about who I am.

Arizona slept with only two persons in her whole life, the first being this infamous big love who dumped her, Jackson, and then the second being a German guy she met when she was abroad the previous semester. That was not exactly something she would have normally done. She waited for her first time because she wanted it to be perfect, and so she waited until she was almost twenty, she did it with Jackson on their fourth month anniversary, so she couldn't exactly be defined a whore. She slept with this German guy because she kind of just wanted to confirm her theory that she could make love only with somebody she loved. It wasn't bad but it wasn't the same as with Jackson, it was pure sex, no feelings involved. And for a while she felt ashamed for what she did, but she got past it and swore she would only sleep with people she loved.

And here I am thinking about how much I want to sleep with her.

Yes, I really want to sleep with her. Even though now I hate her.

I would give away everything I have just to feel her hands on me.

But it's not just the sex, I want to be with her. We should definitely get to know each other first.

Oh, no, she hasn't feelings for me… Bear that in mind, Robbins.

But I can't stop feeling that she likes me too. She has to, I'm sure.

Exiting her bedroom for the first time since she got back home from Callie's house the night before, Arizona went in the kitchen to make coffee. She knew her eyes were puffy and red and she was a mess, but she couldn't care less. Her flat mates were two good guys but they didn't really talk to each other. Entering in the small kitchen she spotted Owen sipping coffee and looking at the screen of his phone. He looked up to her and asked:

"You okay? I'm sorry, I don't want to pry but I heard you crying and I just want to let you know that if you need anything, just say the word", he offered.

"Yeah, thanks… And sorry for my crying… I'll be okay…"

And with that the conversation was already over.

After drinking her first coffee of the day, Arizona went back to her room and called her mother, last night she pretended to be out with their friends, but now she had to call. They talked every day and she knew her mother really missed her even if she didn't call for just one day.

"Hey, my love, how are you? How did last night go?", her mother perkily answered her phone.

Here we go.

"Yeah, fine, we just went out for a drink… To celebrate the end of courses…"

"Oh, okay. So today you start studying, don't you?"

"Yeah, that's what I should do…"

"You okay? You sound a little bit off…"

"No, yes, I'm good".

"Okay… If there's anything going on just tell me, please?!"

"Yeah, whatever…"

"Little miss, don't answer me like that… Do you want me to go to Seattle to you?"

"What? No, are you kidding?"

"Why? You are always happy to see me and daddy…"

"I know, but now I really don't have the time…"

"Okay… But call if there's something wrong, right?"

"Yeah, okay mum… Thanks…", she felt on the verge of tears again. "Look, I've got to go, talk to you tonight, okay?"

"Okay, have a good day, honey. Love you, so much".

"Love you too… Bye".

And she hung up. A new flood of fresh tears started rolling down her cheeks. She kept shutting people off and there she was, alone, crying, a mess and yet wanting to deal with it all by herself. Her mother was catholic, quite the conservative type. They talked about homosexuality and stuff and she knew her mother was no homophobe, but it's different when your own daughter realizes she likes women.

She sat at her desk and took out her notes. She tried to focus on what she was reading but her eyes kept filling with tears and she couldn't even see. She took out her phone, she needed to talk to Mark about this whole situation. Mark knew the situation because he himself was gay and had his heart broken more than once, besides, he was her best friend, he could sure help. Scrolling down her contact list searching for his name, she stopped because the screen turned black and a second later Callie's name appeared on it. She really didn't feel like answering but she knew how it feels like when you really need to talk to somebody and they don't pick up. So she waited a couple of seconds and then answered, aware of her shaking voice.

"Yes?"

"Hi… I thought you weren't going to pick up", Callie said, sounding so insecure.

"Well, I picked up… I'm not you… What's it?", Arizona replied, harshly.

"Listen, I really tried to find out where you live and show up at your place but I wasn't able to find your address…"

"No need to…"

"Yes I need to! Please, tell me where you live…"

"No, really, don't show up, I don't want to see you!"

"I know you don't… I wouldn't want to see me either, if I were you… But I really need to talk to you, like I can't go another minute without saying what I need to say, please, Arizona, just this once, then I'll be gone out of your life forever if that's what you want".

"Okay, fine, I'll just text you my address…"

"Thank you, Arizona, thank you… I'll be there as soon as possible".

She hung up and felt all kind of emotions swirling through her body. She knew deep down Callie wanted to apologize and tell her she liked her back, but she didn't want to have her hopes too high. She shot her a text with her address and only a second later Callie answered with a kiss emoticon.

What?

So now this is it. Now she comes here, she apologizes, she says she likes me too, I try to play a little bit hard to get, and then we kiss.

Arizona was dreaming with open eyes. She then realized she looked a mess, so she ran to the bathroom and tried to make herself look presentable. After something like three seconds she heard the bell ringing and opened without even bothering to ask who it was.

She opened their front door and waited for Callie to walk the two stairwells to their apartment. When the brunette came into sight, her heart started beating impossibly fast and her palms were sweating. Callie looked tired and fried, her eyes were still swollen and red, she wasn't wearing any make-up and she was dressed casual, but she still was so beautiful. At a loss for words, Arizona just moved aside to let Callie in. She motioned for her to follow her to the bedroom and then to sit with her on the bed.

Nobody was saying anything. They were sitting, looking at each other for what seemed an eternity, then Callie moved her upper body slightly towards Arizona and cupped her cheek with her hand. She softly caressed her with her thumb and then leant in painfully slowly. Their lips met and their eyes closed simultaneously. The kiss started slow, loving, but then Arizona moved her hands to the back of Callie's neck, and Callie's hand that wasn't on Arizona's face came to rest on the blonde's hip. Arizona felt Callie slightly parting her lips and gazing her lower lip with her tongue. She parted her own lips and gave the brunette permission to deepen the kiss. It was simply perfect. Right in that moment everything was perfect. But they knew they had to talk. Callie sure needed to explain the actions of the previous night and say her feelings for the blonde out loud. But while their tongues were dancing in between their mouths, nothing other than that existed.

Callie pushed Arizona's body lightly, so that she was lying on her back and bent over her, not breaking the kiss for a moment. Her hands started roaming the blonde's body gently. Arizona kept her eyes closed and let the sensations sink in. Her hands still wrapped around Callie's neck, unable to move. She really wanted that and for that once she thought she was not going to be the one to stop whatever was about to happen. Life was too short and she had been craving the brunette's touch for way too long. So she moved her hands from Callie's neck along her sides and started caressing her skin under her t-shirt. She reached her flat stomach and the brunette moaned at the sensation of the cold hands on her skin. They still had to break the kiss.

They were both moving softly and lovingly, even though they both just wanted to rip off each other's clothes. Now the most important thing was to make the other feel loved. Arizona was still hurt and she knew they needed to talk, but she had stopped herself from feeling so many times before and then regretted it, that now she was not going to.

So she delicately started lifting up the brunette's t-shirt. Callie broke the kiss in order to let Arizona slip her t-shirt off from her head and then throw it carelessly on the floor. Before leaning in again to meet Arizona's lips, Callie looked in her blue eyes and saw them darkening from lust but also shiny with all the emotions she was feeling. She felt her heart bursting with love, but at the same time she had to hold back the tears forming in her own eyes thinking how much she hurt the blonde with her words the previous night.

"Arizona…", she breathed out. That was the first word said since Callie got there.

"Callie…"

"Are you sure you want this?", she asked, concerned.

"More than anything, if that's what you want too…", Arizona answered in a breath.

"I'm so sorry for what I said… I don't mean any of that… And I have feelings for you too, Arizona… Believe me, I have for quite a lot now and I'm so sorry but I was so scared and…"

"Stop talking", Arizona stopped Callie's rambling putting a finger on her lips, "we will definitely have to talk about this, but now shut up and just make love to me, Calliope…"

Callie motioned for Arizona to lift up her upper body so she could take off her shirt. Then she unclasped softly the blonde's deep purple bra and threw it on the floor with the rest of their scattered clothes. She took a second to admire the bare pale upper body lying under hers and then connected her mouth with the blonde's collarbone, starting to leave open-mouthed kisses. Meanwhile the blonde unclasped Callie's bra and took it off, then boldly moved her hands to the brunette's full breasts and started caressing them. It felt so good. So good. She threw her head back into the pillow and enjoyed the sensation of Callie's mouth kissing her everywhere.

"Callie, I… I've never done this before…", she said, unsure, but not stopping her hands.

"Neither have I… But you said it yourself, shut up!"

They both giggled and then Arizona flipped them over, so now she was on top. She kissed Callie's lips and then moved to kiss her jawline and her neck, reaching a soft spot behind her earlobe, which elicited a moan from the brunette.

As much as she was loving the blonde worshipping her body, Callie needed more, but the blonde was on top and was so gentle and loving that she didn't want to stop her or make her feel like she was not dominating. So she boldly moved one hand from Arizona's back to the hem of her yoga pants and started moving her fingers further south slowly, as if she was silently asked for permission. Without ever stop kissing Callie's neck, Arizona helped Callie removing her yoga pants and then proceeded removing Callie's jeans. They were both now lying in just their panties, their mouths exploring each other's necks and their hands roaming on the other's stomach.

Arizona started lifting up the hem of Callie's panties and moved her head to look in the brunette's eyes, to make sure she was comfortable with what she was doing. Callie just nodded slightly, so Arizona started pulling Callie's panties down her tanned legs, keeping herself steady hovering upon Callie's body with the other elbow, while the brunette lifted her back to help Arizona removing the last piece of garment she was wearing.

As much as she loved being naked underneath Arizona, she wanted to make Arizona feel good before thinking about her own needs, so she pulled the blonde's body to lie completely over hers and with a quick move she got rid of her panties. Their centers where now touching and both moaned at the sensation. Their lips met again and their tongues danced with each other, both of them just enjoying the sensation of the other girl's naked body melting together with theirs. There was no rush and they were loving every second of it.

"I want to make you feel good, Arizona… So tell me, where do you need me?", this time was Callie the first to voice her insecurities about her skills. She really had no idea where to go from there, she never did that before, she just had some quick lays with guys who were just interested in their own pleasure. That right there with Arizona was something completely different.

"I want your fingers inside, Calliope…", Arizona whispered.

So Callie flipped them over once again and stared at the beautiful naked body lying underneath her. She moved her fingers where Arizona needed them and slipped them through the blonde's wet folds.

"You're so wet, Arizona…", she breathed out before starting kissing the blonde's neck and softly biting on it.

Arizona enjoyed every second of that, the sensations given by Callie's hand and mouth were almost too much to take.

"Inside, Callie, please…"

Callie did what she was told and softly teased Arizona's entrance before slowly slipping two fingers inside. Arizona let out a throaty moan.

"Shhh, your flat mates are going to ear you, you have to be quiet, Arizona", Callie warned, just before starting to thrust in and out of Arizona and come to kiss her mouth. She already felt Arizona's walls tightening around her fingers, so she pressed her clit with her thumb. She moved again to kiss the blonde's neck and with her other hand she caressed one of her breasts.

"Let go, Arizona…", Callie whispered softly in the blonde's ear, before biting on her earlobe.

All those sensations were too much and Arizona felt her stomach burn and her orgasm hitting her. She closed her eyes and felt a hot tear slipping down her cheek. She felt the need to scream in pleasure, but right in that moment, Callie's mouth was on hers and stopped her from screaming, kissing her instead and helping her riding out her orgasm, before removing her fingers. She kept kissing the blonde allover her face.

"God…", was all the blonde said after recovering from her moment of pleasure. "Now let me make you feel this way…", she demanded whispering.

So she flipped them and started kissing down Callie's body, paying particular attention to her nipples, and then stopping when she reached her clit. She lifted her gaze and locked eyes with the brunette. They didn't need to say anything.

Arizona softly slipped two fingers in Callie's soaked entrance and then started moving her tongue up and down her folds, licking in the brunette's juices and then coming to suck delicately at her throbbing clit.

"You taste so good", she breathed out.

Everything about those actions was so loving that Callie felt her orgasm hit her almost right away. Arizona looked up and their gazes locked once again, before Callie took one of Arizona's pillows and bit on it to stop her mouth from screaming Arizona's name while her orgasm hit her harder than she ever had experienced before. She closed her eyes and the blonde kept massaging her sweet spot to help her ride out her orgasm.

She never felt that good, ever in her whole life. She let go of the pillow and felt Arizona's head leaving her center and coming to rest next to hers. She moved her arms around the blonde's smaller body and hugged her tightly. They kissed hungrily and Callie moaned tasting herself on the blonde's tongue. Then they lied back, both spent by their love making.

They were into each other's arms and even though they both knew they had to talk eventually, now they felt such at peace that they both fell asleep within a couple of seconds.