Sam Winchester was tired, tired of fighting, tired of Demon's killing his family killing the people he cared about, he was tired of traveling tired of looking, he wanted to go home, the only home he had left Bobby's he wanted to stop to finish school to find a road that lead him to the one person whom he wouldn't see not until he was dead. He would gather the pocket sized Angel up and hold on until the world ended. He had loved people before the Angel, Jessica sweet kind normal Jessica she didn't deserve what the demons did to her and he prayed that's she was in heaven and happy. He had even loved Ruby in a way, Ruby had saved him after a fashion helped him survive until Cas saved Dean from hell. Thinking of his Brother's Angel made him grin a little He missed his Angelic friend but thinking of Cas made him think of eye's of gold almost liquid like in quality Sam could have melted into those eyes and been happy how he had loved looking down into them and seeing his tall frame reflected there. He had loved the damn nosy trickster and wanted to scoop him up and tuck him up into his arms and kiss that damn grin off his lips and replace it with the softer real smile He knew Gabriel kept locked up for only Sam's eyes.

Sam knew he had loved the Archangel the moment he had seen the Archangel's eyes soften after looking deep in Sam's soul and heard his soft voice no teasing and serious say.

"You poor kid such a soft sweet soul you have its strong because of your pain oh Sammy you hold on to every hurt so easy. It's so beautiful even with all the scars it carries." and then the Archangel cried he had teared up for Sam Winchester's soul and Sam did the only thing he could think of and scooped the tiny Angel up and held him while he cried into Sam's shoulder.

And now wandering thru this small store looking for first aid supplies he wished he could have thanked the angel for his tears now after Gabriel died and after being in Hell he knew he didn't deserve the Archangel's tears ever... But he was thankful for each and every tear Gabriel had shed for him for the demon. That was truly how he saw himself he had done bad things to people some of them were very good people just living life but Gabriel had taken away those feelings from Sam. He reached the bandages and grabbed several boxes just because He was a hunter even if it wasn't what he wanted or what Dean wanted for him its what he was period it was what he born to do hunt the bad things to keep the innocent people safe it's what he owed the world. God willing or whoever was in charge these days he'd redeem himself enough to get to heaven he owed Jessica a conversation he also owed his mother a hug and kiss and He owed Gabriel his soul. He just hoped he would be allowed to give them the things he owed them because without them he would have not existed. The three people had loved him so much they willingly died for Sam well His mother and Gabriel had Jessica by mistake and he owed her the reason she died. He was so lost in thought he paid for the bandages and walked to the Impala on automatic pilot he'd even gotten in the drivers seat. And sat smelling the leather a fond smell from his childhood on the road with his Father and Dean. His eyes were so focused on the steering wheel feeling the groves worn into her from the three Winchester's hands, rubbing his long fingers over her he didn't see the very Angel that filled his every thought. Gabriel was silent watching the giant of a man lost in thought. Sam sat for a while thinking about his father and Dean and Cas and Gabriel he started talking to the Impala softly.

"Hated Dad for so long he never saw us as his Son's Dean and Sam He saw the next Winchester hunters it pissed me off so much when he didn't have the answers I wanted. I wanted out from the beginning funny how now I cant get out it's ingrained into me now. He got me so mad I left went as far away from the life as I could get collage and meet Jessica I should never have gotten involved with her I should have known anyone who gets involved with Sam Winchester Dies. Mom, Jess, Dad, Dean, Gabriel,Jo,Ellen,Cas,Bobby Everyone and only Bobby and Dean came back. And I went to Hell I still get nightmares which is why I try not to sleep much the only thing that keeps them at bay are memories of him. How I miss him those damn eyes of his how tiny his vessel was for being a Archangel's vessel he barely came to my shoulder so small but so insanely powerful. Ah old girl sorry your probably tired of hearing about our pathetic life but you have been the only constant in our life other then Bobby. I'm so lost right now guess I just needed a little Impala therapy sorry lets get back to the hotel Dean will have my head for being gone so long." Sam smiled shifting to reach in to his right jean pocket for the keys he saw someone sitting in the passenger seat looking at him with a small smile on his face.

"Hi Sammy." The archangel said softly looking at Sam's awestruck face.

"Gabriel." Sam began unsure of what to say. "I'm dead aren't I i flipped the Impala and Dean killed me?" Sam asked thinking it was the only explanation for the Archangel appearing to him Gabriel shook his head no smiling.

"No Sammy I'm home that is if you'll let me stay with you." Gabriel said softly he saw Sammy's jaw drop when the trickster said home to stay in his I'm not joking voice.

"Home you think I'm home?" Sam managed to get out

"Sammy your the only home I've had in my entire existence. You, Dean-o, Cassy, are my home and I wont wait in heaven for the rest of your life I want to spend eternity with you not just your life or your afterlife I want every second every day every moment I can share of your life with you and then when your life is over we'll retire to heaven and spend eternity their eating your mom's pie with Dean and playing tricks on your old man with Cassy, Drinking beer's with Bobby. What do you say Sammy?" Gabriel smiled softly up at the large hunter. Sam reached over with one large hand and brushed Gabriel's cheek softly with his thumb then shifted foreword pulling the Archangel closer to him and meet the angel's lips softly reverently. Sam Winchester was in that moment whole Gabriel filled the hole left in Sam's heart and soul that no other being human, or demon ever filled the hole belonged to Gabriel and everything the archangel was. They shared the soul searing kiss lingering lovingly slowly pulling away when Sam needed to breath.

"Welcome Back Gabe." Was all the young hunter could say a beautiful real smile spread across the angel of mischief's face he looked at heaven on earth Gabriel was everything he could have ever wanted smart, witty, funny, busted Dean's balls constantly, made Sam's life more liveable made life fun again filled the brooding man with sunshine and candy corn. And Sam was grateful to whomever decided he the demon boy deserved his very own pocket sized Archangel.

"Good to be back lets go back to the motel and bug Dean-o and Cassy." The trickster smiled plan forming already.

"You got it Gabe anything when you annoy the hell outta my brother he's gonna be so pissed I chose to mate with you. And is Cas is back to?" Sam laughed already knowing his angel would mark him and then they'd be a bonded pair like Cas and Dean were. He started the Impala Archangel riding shotgun.

"Yep just for Dean-o think, Will Dean will get his head out of his ass and finally tell my little brother how he feels?" Gabriel shot back happily slumping into the warm leather seat.

"Oh he will Dean has been so bitchy without Cas He'll do anything to keep him around for ever even if that means a 'Chick flick moment'." Sam chuckled happily pulling out of the parking lot deciding he was starved he happily drove to the best drive thru with his Archangel laughing in the seat next to him and for the first time since before his father died he was completely and utterly blissfully happy...


Hey all sorry its so short these are just lots of fluff I know but I will eventually get to a point I want them to and they are painfully slow coming out of my head.. Thanks for reading..

~ Thatz ~