Yeah, I know, very late updating but recently all the teachers think they have to write tests and have to give us homework...:(

So, now here´s the 12th chapter:

HungerGamesOwl

Emotions

Waking up I groan. I remember the events of yesterday: this damn hurricane and these damn gamemakers...

I climb the tree down to make breakfast. Suddenly I hear steps and froze at the spot I´m standing but my axe in my hand. Not now, I think.

The steps get louder and now I can see the person to which them belong.

"Benjamin!" I cry out surprised.

"Johanna, thank goodness" he greets me and lowers the bow he was holding.

I invite him to eat some breakfast with me. The situation is ridiculous: here we´re sitting like we weren´t in an Arena with children who try to kill us but like we were in 7 in the forest talking like 2 good friends who haven´t seen each other for a while.

"So you haven´t been killed yet." he tries to joke but seems really confused why the hell I´m alive. Good thing: he also has fallen for my act.

"Yeah" I reply with a small smile. Then we fall in silence again.

When I look at him I can´t imagine killing him but the problem is I have to, at some point.

I break the silence "What has happened to you in here?"

"Not much" he replies, then he sighs "I miss home, district 7, the woods..." he stares into nothing and I can see the tears which he tries to hide.

"I know" I say quietly. "I miss my family, especially my mother"

He looks at me with pity. No, you mustn´t pity me, you can´t kill me when you do. I don´t know why but I think he´s a bit like my brother.

"Do you have any siblings?" he asks me.

"A stepsister" I answer shortly.

Suddenly there´s a rustling. We stare at each other for 5 seconds than I whisper:

"You´re looking at the right, I´m at the left, okay?"

He nods and I turn left.

With my axe in my hand I´m ready to kill whoever is hiding in the bushes because face it:

we´re only 6 tributes and I can´t murder Benjamin so every other tribute: no mercy.

I walk more and more away of my place. Suddenly I hear a scream and froze. Benjamin!

I run to help him but I´m too late: a spear is in his chest and the girl of 6 stands 5 metres besides him.

"NO!" I scream, take my axe and without thinking throw it at the girl. She goes to the ground but that´s not interesting for me at the moment.

I turn to Benjamin who is now lying and kneel down next to him.

"You can´t die" I say in small voice. Tears are running down my cheek.

I haven´t cried since the death of my brother which was 5 years ago.

"You have to win" Benjamin murmurs "I know you can do it. I don´t know how you have made it this far but I believe you can win these Games."

He stares at me intensively. "Promise me, you´ll win"

"I promise" I answer slowly. And now I know I have to win. For Benjamin. For Eric. For my father.

A canon fires. I stand up and say my last goodbyes to Benjamin.

Shortly after that the girl of 6 is also dead.

I feel guilty. Benjamin deserved to live, not me. He was so innocent, 12 years old!

Suddenly I´m angry, very angry.

I cry frustrated.

On my way back I cross ways with the boy of 6. Without thinking and with a cold look in my eyes I take my axe and cut his head from his body. I don´t feel anything.

It´s like all of my emotions have vanished. The only thing I know is I have to win and kill as many tributes as possible.

A big spider appears. And when I say big I mean enormous. She has the size of an elephant. I´m not afraid. Not in the slightest.

I fight a while with her and then- I have no idea how- she lays dead in front of me.

I go ahead.

I have to kill, I have to kill. It´s like a mantra in my head.

Probably I have a very crazy look in my eyes but at the moment I don´t care what the audience think of me.

I don´t feel anything but anger. I throw knifes at trees with all my strength and also axes but it doesn´t get better.

I don´t know how long I do this but after a while all things in an area of 5 metres are destroyed and slowly I begin to calm down.

My eyes closed I take a long breath, then open them and collect my things which lay around.

I go to my tree and climb on it.

2

Only 2 children I have to kill, then I can go home. Home. I think about my mother and even about my stepsister. Probably only one day left before I´m out of this Arena and will be celebrated as the victor of the 68th Hungergames.

I can see it in front of me: Johanna Mason – the girl who fooled them all.

Nothing and nobody can stop me now. Nothing.

So sorry again for updating so late. What do you think?

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