Yeah, I know, very late updating but recently all the teachers think they have to write tests and have to give us homework...:(
So, now here´s the 12th chapter:
HungerGamesOwl
Emotions
Waking up I groan. I remember the events of yesterday: this damn hurricane and these damn gamemakers...
I climb the tree down to make breakfast. Suddenly I hear steps and froze at the spot I´m standing but my axe in my hand. Not now, I think.
The steps get louder and now I can see the person to which them belong.
"Benjamin!" I cry out surprised.
"Johanna, thank goodness" he greets me and lowers the bow he was holding.
I invite him to eat some breakfast with me. The situation is ridiculous: here we´re sitting like we weren´t in an Arena with children who try to kill us but like we were in 7 in the forest talking like 2 good friends who haven´t seen each other for a while.
"So you haven´t been killed yet." he tries to joke but seems really confused why the hell I´m alive. Good thing: he also has fallen for my act.
"Yeah" I reply with a small smile. Then we fall in silence again.
When I look at him I can´t imagine killing him but the problem is I have to, at some point.
I break the silence "What has happened to you in here?"
"Not much" he replies, then he sighs "I miss home, district 7, the woods..." he stares into nothing and I can see the tears which he tries to hide.
"I know" I say quietly. "I miss my family, especially my mother"
He looks at me with pity. No, you mustn´t pity me, you can´t kill me when you do. I don´t know why but I think he´s a bit like my brother.
"Do you have any siblings?" he asks me.
"A stepsister" I answer shortly.
Suddenly there´s a rustling. We stare at each other for 5 seconds than I whisper:
"You´re looking at the right, I´m at the left, okay?"
He nods and I turn left.
With my axe in my hand I´m ready to kill whoever is hiding in the bushes because face it:
we´re only 6 tributes and I can´t murder Benjamin so every other tribute: no mercy.
I walk more and more away of my place. Suddenly I hear a scream and froze. Benjamin!
I run to help him but I´m too late: a spear is in his chest and the girl of 6 stands 5 metres besides him.
"NO!" I scream, take my axe and without thinking throw it at the girl. She goes to the ground but that´s not interesting for me at the moment.
I turn to Benjamin who is now lying and kneel down next to him.
"You can´t die" I say in small voice. Tears are running down my cheek.
I haven´t cried since the death of my brother which was 5 years ago.
"You have to win" Benjamin murmurs "I know you can do it. I don´t know how you have made it this far but I believe you can win these Games."
He stares at me intensively. "Promise me, you´ll win"
"I promise" I answer slowly. And now I know I have to win. For Benjamin. For Eric. For my father.
A canon fires. I stand up and say my last goodbyes to Benjamin.
Shortly after that the girl of 6 is also dead.
I feel guilty. Benjamin deserved to live, not me. He was so innocent, 12 years old!
Suddenly I´m angry, very angry.
I cry frustrated.
On my way back I cross ways with the boy of 6. Without thinking and with a cold look in my eyes I take my axe and cut his head from his body. I don´t feel anything.
It´s like all of my emotions have vanished. The only thing I know is I have to win and kill as many tributes as possible.
A big spider appears. And when I say big I mean enormous. She has the size of an elephant. I´m not afraid. Not in the slightest.
I fight a while with her and then- I have no idea how- she lays dead in front of me.
I go ahead.
I have to kill, I have to kill. It´s like a mantra in my head.
Probably I have a very crazy look in my eyes but at the moment I don´t care what the audience think of me.
I don´t feel anything but anger. I throw knifes at trees with all my strength and also axes but it doesn´t get better.
I don´t know how long I do this but after a while all things in an area of 5 metres are destroyed and slowly I begin to calm down.
My eyes closed I take a long breath, then open them and collect my things which lay around.
I go to my tree and climb on it.
2
Only 2 children I have to kill, then I can go home. Home. I think about my mother and even about my stepsister. Probably only one day left before I´m out of this Arena and will be celebrated as the victor of the 68th Hungergames.
I can see it in front of me: Johanna Mason – the girl who fooled them all.
Nothing and nobody can stop me now. Nothing.
So sorry again for updating so late. What do you think?
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