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To all of you who don't know Keiko's age, she is around the five at this moment. Enjoy the (newest) chapter of 'So not happening!'.
Edited 11/04/2013 - Thomas Drovin, thanks for showing me the grammatical mistakes! I appreciate it a lot! :D
So not happening!
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By Angelbloodlover
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~ They can't hurt you until you let them.
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Chapter 1: Shattered Innocence
I didn't know how long I was in this cursed place but it seemed like infinity. My every day routine was the same; get up, shower, eat, brush my teeth, run until I couldn't run anymore, chakra exercises and sleep.
It was boring as hell and the pain was so much. Every single night, I would cry myself into sleep. No one was there to comfort me, no one was there to talk to me. I was getting crazy being stuck in this small room with nothing but walls to see...
Orochimaru was the only one who I could talk to but I didn't like him, especially his slithering voice. It made me uncomfortable just by being near him.
If I didn't wake up on time Orochi-teme would make me run and run while he threw kunai and shuriken at me. I was hit so many times that my body was full scratches and bruises. The freak would even summon snakes to charge at me and if there was one thing I hated with every fibre of my mind it was snakes. He changed from a Michael Jackson-pedo to a slave-driver, not even my P.E.-teacher was this mad.
Sometimes I wished for death only to be ignored. Anything would be better than this.
Something was dropped in front of me, making me almost shriek.
Almost.
Thankfully I held in otherwise I would've been punished again.
…
Ew! That sounded so BDSM. Bad thoughts, Keiko, bad thoughts!
I poked the things and wondered what they were. "Sensei… what are those?" I murmured softly, knowing full well that he would hear me.
"Weights. Wear them, you can only take them off when you take a shower."
I gasped in shock, looking at him and not knowing what to do or say. Was he out of his mind? Seeing him narrow his eyes made me sigh. No, this was snake-man and he was completely insane. I strapped the weights around my wrist, legs and waist. It was so heavy that it made me fall backwards and that was so humiliating. I pushed those annoying tears back and clenched my teeth as I slowly got up.
…but to no avail.
"You won't leave this area until you run five laps." Orochimaru said without looking at me as he walked away. "I'll be watching you..."
I was left there, crying and struggling to get up. All alone.
I fought tooth and nail as I finished the last lap. My mind begged me to continue and my muscles begged me to stop but I couldn't. I would get hurt if I didn't obey his command. I had to finish it, if not for him, for my sake. When I saw the end of the lap I dropped on the ground, trying to gulp in as many breaths as I could take. My whole body was aching all over and this time I let the tears flow. There was nobody to see my pathetic excuse of a human. I tried to use chakra to make the pain less but I was too tired to concentrate.
"Get up." A cold amused voice ordered.
My fingers were twitching and as I tried to get up I could feel air around me move quickly. And then nothing but silence. Black onyx eyes locked with purple slit eyes that belonged to none other than Orochi's snake. "Aah!" I shrieked loudly as I crawled away from the snake.
Well… more like struggled to crawl away.
"Run." Orochimaru said again with amusement in his tone.
If I could I would've spit on him.
If I could I would've killed him but I couldn't.
Yet.
As I was running like a klutz away from the snake I could hear Orochimaru chuckle madly at my situation. Fucking snake! I spat in the safety of my mind. When a kunai whizzed past my left cheek I closed my eyes and ordered my mind to run faster. That stupid snake wasn't happy with my progress.
Did he really think a child, even though I was mentally twenty, could keep running?
"Use chakra to climb that tree if you want to live." He said in his amused tone, making another set of seals.
Poof!
My eyes went wide like saucers when I saw the clearing being filled with crawling snakes and …they were all looking at me.
"Kuso!" I cursed softly as I tried to climb a tree with my chakra but it wasn't working. I was too scared and my mind wasn't focused.
Shitshitshitshit!
What did Kakashi say to Team Seven? Think…
Aha! Keep the chakra floating around your feet soles. Not too much or it would backfire and not too less or I would drop dead from a tree. What a way to die…
Concentrating I let the chakra glow around my feet and when I opened my eyes I climbed the tree with renewed energy, feeling the tingling – also known as chakra – move to my feet. It felt great, it felt awesome until… - Argh! I lost my focus when I saw one of those snakes slither up the tree. I looked around and saw a branch left to me, using chakra I jumped towards it.
Almost..
My fingers grazed the branch and using willpower alone I scrambled up the branch. When I tried to steady my breathing I saw the snakes climb up the trees. There were so many snakes. Poisonous snakes. I was frightened, I was scared and I hoped I wouldn't be snake-food. I turned around and saw another tree, again using chakra I hopped from tree to tree with my short legs, although they were getting stronger.
This was getting easy and if it weren't for the fact that the trees were so close to each other I would've fell already. Chakra was awesome! It enhanced my muscles and massaged them. I wonder if I could use it for a message too? And get money for it..?
Hmm.. mental note; use chakra to earn money.
When I glanced behind my shoulders I saw snakes everywhere. "Holy shit!" I circled around the clearing where the river was and hopped down, using chakra to soften my fall but I didn't mastered it completely so I rolled like a bowling ball, making it far less painfully. "I suggest you start water-walking." He drawled out in a monotone voice that screamed bored! Well excuse me if my near death experience wasn't funny enough. Next time I'll try making jokes and get killed at the same time.
Asshole!
I looked at the water and gulped hesitantly. There was no way back for this. I had to do it or I would become snake-food, something I wasn't keen on. I had to be relaxed – not that it was working, snakes were after me! Snakes! – and let the chakra flow in a steady hum.
The tingling was becoming clear as the second ticked by and since chakra was so foreign I could detect it and use it very easily. Step by step I walked on the surface of the water with my eyes closed. I shut down everything around me; the snakes, Orochimaru, the soft breeze, … I felt so calm and tranquil, never in my life did I feel so relaxed like now, excluding the snakes and Orochi-teme of course.
Poof!
Another poof made me open my left eye to see if the freak sent those summons back and it seemed we had a winner. He sent them back but what's up with that creepy grin? Oh man, what will he have up his sleeve now? If I didn't know better I would think he was enjoying this- Fuck him! He was enjoying this.
"Starting tomorrow you will keep training your tree and water-walking. I want you to use them subconsciously. Now start running."
And it was raining kunai again. Merciless…
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The next step was the most scary experience in my life. I was exposed to Taijutsu, freaking Taijutsu. He was mad, not like Gai but it was close! At first I had to memorize my stance perfectly and let me tell you that snake wasn't happy with mediocre. He was obsessed with being perfect all the time; a damn perfectionist. As if it wasn't enough he would let me fight Genin and sometimes even Chuunin, sometimes even with a blindfold…
I had to admit in the beginning it was hard to fight with much smaller arms and legs but I fought with everything I had and achieved victory with a lot of bruises and pain.
Much much bruises and pain.
"You're so weak!"
"A nobody."
"A stupid child!"
"A wannabe-ninja!"
Laughter was enclosing me. I didn't want to hear those nasty things about me. I didn't even want to be here. But if I stopped they would hurt me, they would kick me without remorse; they were trained to be cold-blooded murderers, I was not. Something I didn't even want to become and I prayed to God, Kami, …whoever was up that I wouldn't become crazy and murder innocent people.
...But I was getting afraid, I really was. What if I lost my moral beliefs from before, what if I lost my other self and became an evil kunoichi, killing without remorse?
What then...?
"Use chakra to strengthen your kicks and punches." Orochimaru drawled out lazily as he observed me closely. "And kill those who are not strong enough to survive." He commanded ruthlessly, not caring about my innocence, not caring about anything but himself. "Kill."
That was when reality hit me once again. This was no game, all of this was no illusion. It was real and oh-so terrifying…
I didn't want to obey him but if I had no choice... I had to... I wasn't fragile the moment I started training under his tutelage. I punched and kicked with all my might with closed eyes. I didn't want to see them when I would break their bones, ribs, arms, legs, …
"Open your eyes!" He barked angrily.
Out of fear, my eyes snapped open.
The sounds penetrated my ears and I forced my attention on the chakra around me, anything but the moaning shinobi's and kunoichi's in front of me.
There were still five left out of the ten. I could feel my strength grow every time I fought those Sound shinobi's. Did Orochi-teme even had a village at this time? No, he only had followers and poor slaves used for experiments.
I tried to shake those images away from my mind.
A small child was seeing bodies everywhere. Dead people, maimed people.
No, go away! Punch. Kick.
"Keiko-chan, behold my power." Orochimaru said in triumph. His voice made me so sick.
Back flip. Punch. Punch.
The girl was looking with wide eyes as a small boy around her age was crying near a dead body from a woman? It was maimed beyond words.
"GO AWAY!" I screamed loudly as I ruptured the grounds with my fists.
When their eyes locked with each other the girl held in her breath.
"Leave me alone!" I shrieked again as I punched one of the men in the gut. I felt something sticky on my face and I hoped it was not what I thought it was.
Without another word the small boy ran straight for Orochimaru and before the girl could do anything or say something it was too late.
Orochimaru observed the surrounding with a pleased expression on his face, handing me a sharp kunai, "Finish them off."
My hands were shaking as I held the kunai in my hand, watching the frightened shinobi and kunoichi's crippled on the floor. I could literally taste their fear as they watched me with pleading eyes, begging me no to kill them.
"Keiko-chan, kill them." He repeated. I could hear the annoyance in his voice.
I gulped, walking towards the closest ninja who was watching my every move. Oh God, his eyes...
I glanced behind my shoulder, watching Orochimaru with his arms crossed and eyes narrowed into angry splits as he observed my every move. He was getting impatient and angry. This was not a good sign, not good at all.
Turning back to the shinobi who was still watching me with wide eyes, I closed my eyes, trying to keep my shaking hands at bay.
Breath in and out.
...
Inhale.
Exhale.
I could do this...
I had to...
It was them or me...
Them or me?
Them?
Or me?
The decision was so easy and yet I felt disgusted.
...So disgusted.
…I'm so sorry. Forgive me...
Crying pitifully, I let the kunai fall down. One by one the life doused out of their eyes as the snake's eyes glinted maniacally.
I couldn't see anything but red and it was killing me from the inside… I couldn't breath properly. It was like my heart was being crushed from the inside. Dear God what did I do..?
"I'm so sorry…" I mumbled throughout the crying. "So sorry…"
Blood splashed everywhere, coating the crying girl as she looked horrified at Orochimaru who had killed the small boy with his hands.
Blood was splattered everywhere and dead bodies were trapping me.
Dead eyes.
Death.
Breathing was getting difficult as my tears mixed with blood I had shed today.
"No!" She screamed helplessly, seeing the life being drained from the boy's eyes. He smiled weakly at her, blood dripping down his face as he watched her hit the snake-man with her tiny knuckles.
I had killed them. I killed people. My innocence was gone. Gone! White replaced red.
I crouched down and vomited on the ground, clutching the ground underneath me.
My sight was getting blurry.
More tears fell down. "I'm so sorry.. Please, forgive me.."
The girl was kicked harshly against her abdomen and slammed hard against a wall, letting the blackness engulf her along with that mad laughter that never ceased to stop.
Orochimaru chuckled darkly, "Good riddance. Now start running and use chakra to punch and kick those trees." Something was dropped near my face and it looked like black fingerless gloves. When I didn't budge he kicked me harshly, making me cough up blood.
Blood like those men I had killed. I deserved those kicks. I deserved pain. I deserved to be dead.
He didn't feel an ounce of sympathy. He didn't care if I killed people or not. He didn't care about me at all.
I got up and started running, punching and kicking the trees along my way.
Even though my body wanted nothing more than to rest I didn't comply with those wishes.
Even though my knuckles and my feet were hurting like a bitch I kept going.
I should've done something. I should've let them live. I should've died instead of those nins.
But in the end I was a selfish woman-turned-girl who didn't care about morality… All I cared for was to live… But was this a life worth of living?
After three hours a lone little girl was left all bloodied in a clearing full of dead bodies where the rain cried blood, letting the river become blood-red instead of the crystal-clear blue.
A voice echoed around the clearing, repeating the same phrase all over again. "Ku ku ku …Keiko, you'll become someone special, my little flower."
