Andrew watched his ex-girlfriend leaning on his self-appointed enemy number one, making his hate against him grew even bigger. They were sitting like this since he entered the control room, not moving an inch away from each other. Andrew wondered what they were talking about, he saw their lips move but couldn´t understand a word. His prisoners were really smart, they knew he watched them and so they talked as quietly as they could be.
Andrew clenched his fist; this wasn´t what he planted. He thought the Captain would avoid her if he knew she was his girlfriend, but this turned in a way he didn´t expect. He stared at the scene and all he wanted to do was to kill this man immediately, but this didn´t fit in his great plan. He would let him suffer till tomorrow; even if this would mean he wouldn´t get her back.
Suddenly Andrew felt someone kissing his neck and a hand running threw his hair. He didn't need to turn around to understand Natasha was back. He didn´t let her actions bother him; he could tell from her fast and loudly breathing, what she wanted from him. The woman continued to kiss his neck and her free hand was making its way down his torso, to the edge of his pants, she didn´t even care about the others in the room. As he recognized her fumbling on the button to open it he turned around and shot her an angry glance.
"What? Aren´t you happy to see me?" She asked him, lust swinging in her voice as she tried to kiss him on the mouth.
"Have you bought what I told you?" Andrew didn´t answer her question and pushed her away, earning a disappointed look.
"Of course I have." She stated and tried once more to get his attention back, wrapping her arms around one of his, nestling against it.
"Good! Stay here and watch the Captain!" Andrew pulled his arm out of her embrace and opened the door out of the room.
"Wait! What are you doing?" She asked him getting even more disappointed.
"I´m getting my girlfriend back!" Andrew answered without turning around and left the room.
Natasha stayed back first paralyzed of the words he had said but as the meaning of them crossed her mind she started to scream in anger, throwing a cup, the first thing she could grab, on the closed door, making it burst into thousand pieces. Her action earned confused looks from the men which were still in the room but as she glanced dangerously at them they turned their attention back to the work they were up to. Anna sighted, took a seat and watched the screen. As she saw Julia and Soap still leaning against each other she started to smile. She had found something more interesting to do when Andrew was busy with sweet-talking to his former girlfriend.
"What do you think he´s doing next?" Soap whispered in Julia´s ear, still holding her hand.
"I don´t know. He´s a psycho, this is all a game for him." She shook her head.
"I´m sure he´s still watching us."
Soap looked up and scanned the room; the camera was really good hidden. If Andrew hadn´t revealed they were watched, by repeating the words Julia had said to Soap before he fell asleep, he wouldn´t have waist only one thought about being controlled. Soap squinted his eyes; there on the ceiling was a little black box, almost too small to see it with the naked eyes. You only recognize it when you´re searching for something like a camera.
Soap turned his gaze away from the small box as he realized Julia was fumbling on the rope his arms were bond with.
"What are you doing?" He asked her bewildered.
"You see that. I´m trying to loosen the rope." Julia answered, deeply concentrated on her work.
Soap shook his head lightly and smiled weakly.
"Have you almost forgot that I tried this too and you were the one telling me to stop ´cause it has no use? I´m sorry to tell you but I don´t think you can open the knot."
"Well, we´ll see. My fingers smaller and slighter than your big shovel-like bear paws. Plus I don´t bite my fingernails." She replied showing him an amused smile.
"I only bite them when I´m in deep thoughts."
"You must be thinking a lot then."
Soap inspected his nails and for the first time he recognized he had bite them much more the last few months than he ever did before. Julia was right, he was thinking about so many things the last time, things he never agonized about. He even couldn´t get his mind free when he was around other peoples. He realized how rude this behavior must work on other people.
He wondered if his preoccupation in thoughts would affect the way he acted around others. He also asked himself if this thinking about unimportant stuff had made him an easy target for Andrew. If he had his mind free that day Andrew stood in front of his room, he would be care fuller. He would have thought twice before he trusted him, but his thoughts were too self-obsessed. He only wanted to satisfy his own curiosity, his feelings that he forgot to think about what his actions would cause to his teammates. He wanted to know the truth about his survival so badly he forgot his teammates wanted to know it with the same intensity.
"Hey John? Do you listen?" His thoughts got interrupted as he felt Julia´s breath on his ear.
He looked at her puzzled, what had she said? He didn´t know, again he was lost in his thoughts.
He shook his head. "I´m sorry what have you said?"
"I told you I loosened the rope a bit but it´s not enough for you to slip out of it. I´m sorry." She whispered obviously disappointed.
"It´s okay. It´s better than nothing. Maybe if I move my hands the rope stretches out more." He whispered back, moving his hands slowly and tiny.
"You look crestfallen. What´s wrong?" She asked him silently, watching him in his movement.
Soap sighted heavily and stopped in his actions.
"I was just thinking about how selfish I was." He said looking down.
"Why?" She asked worried.
"I did go with Andrew without thinking about the others. I just thought about me and my feelings. I didn´t think about their wishes and sorrows. I was so excited to meet you, my live-saver, that I forgot the others wanted to meet theirs too. I never was the one who just thought about himself, I always cared for the others and now look at me. My biggest sorrow is what Andrew´s doing to me, but it should be what he´s doing to you. You´re just a prisoner in here. Sure you´re part of a Task Force but you're just a Nurse and I´m a Captain. I´m higher ranked and it should be my only desire to get you out of here save." Soap whispered still looking to the floor, laughing sardonic.
"Look at me. Even now I´m complaining to you about my hurt feelings without asking you how you feel." As he spoke the last words he looked up to her.
He expected her to look puzzled at him. He was even prepared that she would yell at him, telling him how mean he was, but she just sat there still the same expression on her face. He studied her with an eye brow raised. What was she going to do?
Julia just shook her head, smiling. "It´s okay."
"What?" he answered in disbelief.
"It´s okay that you're selfish. You can´t always just think of others; it would kill you some day. Of course you´re a Captain and you´re responsible for the soldiers who serve under you but right now you´re just a prisoner like I´m.
If it wouldn´t be allowed to think selfish in this situation when else would it be? I know you expected me to explode in anger and tell you what big jerk you are, but I only stay calm ´cause I think more about you being save than me and don´t tell me to stop thinking this. I always cared more about others than about myself. A lot of people told me to be more selfish sometimes and I tried but I can´t. That´s the biggest weakness I have so please keep this selfish attitude. Sometimes it´s the best thing you can do." She said with a big grin.
Soap let the words sink in and wanted to answer but couldn´t find the right words. She told him he should keep this ability? He never thought about selfishness as an ability, he more thought about it as a bad attitude. He shook his head smiling. Just as he thought her wouldn´t surprise him anymore she did it again.
Women! When you think you understand them, they show you how wrong you were. Man, I want to meet a single man who understands the world of a woman.
Soap took a deep breath and was about to say something as he heard someone unlocking the door. He turned his gaze away from Julia, who was standing up as she heard the door getting unlocked, to the door. His first guess was that Andrew had come back to continue his torture on him but as the door opened just his two soldiers from before stepped in, making Julia walk back to the wall.
"Come here." One Soldier yelled at Julia, making her twitch in fear.
"Why?" She tried to sound confidence but her shaking voice revealed how afraid she was.
"Andrew wants to see you." The Soldier answered her loudly.
"I told him I won´t come with him." Julia stated now with anger in her voice.
"He said if you´re not coming voluntary we should make you." The Soldier nodded to his Partner, who stepped up to Soap and bunched him with the back of his shotgun in his stomach, making Soap crash to the floor once more.
"Stop it!" Julia yelled at him and run over to Soap to check if he was okay.
"I´m fine don´t worry." Soap answered her and pushed her away from him.
"We´ll leave him alone if you come with us, but if you refuse Andrew told us to beat the crap out of him. It´s your choice." The Soldier next to the door told her.
Julia looked down at Soap, seeing his face wreathing in pain. She swallowed hard, what should she do? Should she act more selfish, like she told Soap he was allowed to in this situation? She shook her head. No, she couldn´t. She saw in Soap´s eyes that he was pleading to her to just think about herself and not about him, but she couldn´t and he knew it.
"I´m coming with you." She stated still looking at Soap as the one Soldier dragged her out of the room, leaving a headshaking, frantically Captain behind.
