"I want to lose myself in you. I want to blur the lines of where you end and I begin.-Unknown"
I wanted him more than life it's self.
I knew that turning around was taking a risk that I would probley pay for in the future; but I knew I had to face him.. I was yet again draw to him. I didn't want to be, but I was.. And that's something my heart has chosen over the constant nagging of my brain. I was pushing aside my better judgement of the situation, as I slowly began to spin around, praying to god that he would take his hands from my waist before I did something I would really regret.
Kissing him.
I probley shouldn't be having thought's like that, with a cheater.. But I couldn't help but think about the possibilities that he didn't cheat.. That maybe she fell onto his lips.. Or she tripped and he fell into her lips? Jesus, none of these equations worked out for me.
My eyes were squeezed closed as I sat in front of him, his breath on my face. He was so close, yet we felt so far.. We had hardly knew each other, and we are stuck in this awkward situation of being mates. It wasn't all that awkward.. But we weren't ready..
I wasn't ready to settle down yet, and I knew he wasn't neither. By the rebellious look in his eyes as we swept across the boardwalk just hours before showed me that he wasn't ready for a steady relationship. Maybe in years to come.. But not yet. I was going to take time; and we had tons of it.
I slowly began to open my lids to come face to face with non-other than the man himself.
David.
I didn't need to look at his clothes to know what he wore, because it was a constant reply of the night before. Black trench coat half zipped to expose the start of a V-neck leather jacket, tight dark jeans and biker boots to match. I knew this off by heart; all I needed to look at was his eyes.. I loved his eyes. They were magnificent.. I have never seen anything like them before. The shade of blue with a hint of sparkle gave you butterflies the moment you looked into them.. But those butterflies weren't directed at me any more, as much as I wished they would be.. They were for her.. His girl.
"What." I answered weakly, looking into his eyes for a mere moment before looking to the ground. I avoided contact with not only his eyes, but his hands as well. They still sat firmly on each side of my waist.. Sitting as though they belong there.
I knew he could read my thoughts, but yet, he didn't remove his hands. I honestly didn't care.. As disgusted I am with him at this very moment, I didn't want him to take his hands away. This is the most physical contact I've ever had with him; I wasn't about to ruin it over my utter disgust. He was my mate.. Or so I thought.
"I am your mate." He breathed, taking a single step closer. I shivered momentary as I let that thought run through my mind, before stepping away for his hands.. I didn't want too, but I knew it was time. As much as I wanted to stay in that position, I had to play hard to get.. He is a fucking cheater. There is no 'She fell on his lips' or vice versa.. This was real, I seen it with my own eyes.
And than..
Missy falls back to reality.
Reality being; a cheater is trying to touch me.. A cheater is standing straight in front of me.. A cheater.. That's all he is.. A cheater.
"I'm not a cheater.. We didn't even establish that we were in a relationship.. If I was cheating on you, we would have to be together. Which we are clearly not."
My heart sank..
Was he serious?
"Dead." He replied to my unspoken question. His voice was quiet, but not soothing.. He was really serious.. What does this mean?
I bit my lip, feeling more hot tears brimming my eyes. My vision began to become distorted as I looked at the ground once more; feeling my heart shatter for a second time tonight. I didn't understand.. We were mates..
"Yes, we are mates.. And we are clearly not together.. But that doesn't mean I can mess around with other girls, and that's why I'm staying faithful too you, Crimson." He began. I could tell by the sound of his voice he wanted be to look up at him.. But I couldn't.. I wasn't going too.. Idiot.
"Don't call me that." I whispered harshly, taking a short intake of breath as he answered.
"You are my mate.. I will call you by your birth name, and nothing more."
"You've called me Missy this whole time.. I don't see why you have to stop now."
"I've called you Missy because you would have thought it was freaky if I started to call you Crimson.. Am I right hun?" He asked in a mocking tone. Fuck him. Stupid-
"Don't even try an curse me down in your head Crimson.." He growled in a warning tone. My emotions.. Shit.. Wait, why should I care?
"Never sweetheart." I finally replied in a mocking manner. I heard him chuckle for a moment, but not long before we met the eerie sound of silence once more.
We stood in silence for about a minute or two before I looked up into his eyes. The eyes that held no lies. Or so I thought..
"I'm staying faithful to you Crimson.. Weather you like it or not." He replied to my unspoken statement. I decided to ignore him for the time being.. I've said enough, and so has he. I don't want to believe him.. And I want proof.. Duh. Wouldn't any girl!?
"You want proof I wasn't cheating?" He asked as though he were sure of himself. I gave a bearly noticeable nod before I heard his jacket ruffled and out came something I could not identify.. I was looking at the ground.. The only thing I could identify is the grass beneath my feet and the darkness surrounding us. Other than that.. I had no clue.
"Look." He instructed. I sheepishly raised my head to see what lay in his hands.. A tattered dress, with blood... Lots of it.. Oh my..
That was her dress.. The girl from the boardwalk.. That was her dress..
I clamped my hand over my mouth, and turned towards the lake.. And without another explanation I lost every snack Mike had gave me that evening.
A/N: SOOO.. This was a quick little chapter. Sorry for grammar/spelling/punctuation mistakes:3 So what do you guys think? What do you want to happen NEXT!? Let me know, review!:))
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