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It was almost the end of the day and I still hadn't seen Eliza around. She hadn't replied any of my texts and calls. I had no idea where she was and I swore I would go crazy if I didn't hear from her by tonight. Heading into the attendings' lounge, Bailey was there and she was apparently freaking out.
'Has anyone heard from Dr Minnick?' Bailey asked.
'Um, no. Why?' A few of my colleagues answered her.
'Bailey, what's going on?' I furrowed my brows.
'I sent Minnick to an emergency surgery in Washington and that hospital has admitted a terrorist suspect. That's all I have got right now and I can't reach Minnick.' Bailey was panicking.
What? That was why Eliza hadn't shown up at the hospital? For work? I thought she had left because of me. I was somehow relieved but freaking out at the same time. She was now in the same hospital with a terrorist suspect? No way! This was not happening. My girlfriend was in danger. Yes my girlfriend.
I couldn't believe what I heard from Bailey and I needed to calm myself down to know what to do next. I immediately left and went to my favourite on call room. My heart was pounding and I didn't know what I should do. Whether I should call Eliza, text her or think of any friends in Washington that I could call. I knew that I wouldn't be able to reach her if Bailey couldn't so I decided to send her a text and wait for her to get back to me.
A: Hey, reply me asap! Let me know you're safe. I miss you. I am sorry baby.
I couldn't do anything but think about Eliza. Would she be held hostage? Or had died already? Oh God, I couldn't think about that anymore. Nothing else was important but my girlfriend's safety. Lying down on the bunk bed, I remembered I was holding her in this room three weeks ago, promising her that I wouldn't go anywhere and that I wouldn't leave her. And now? What was I doing? Arizona, how could you ever think that you could break your promise to Eliza? I couldn't do that to her. I decided to go on this journey with her and now there was an obstacle. I couldn't just walk out and leave her. I wouldn't let myself do that as I missed her so much. Sigh. I wished she had been here with me, lying in my arms. I couldn't lose her. I knew we had been going out for a few weeks only but I had been really happy with her until the whole personal space thing happened. Having someone with me and knowing that someone cared about me were the greatest things so far since my divorce. I had just realised that how stupid I was thinking that my personal space was more crucial than my relationship with my girlfriend. I swore she would still need to be my girlfriend when she came back. I wouldn't let her go no matter what she would say.
Scrolling my phone for hours now and luckily I hadn't been paged so I could actually have some alone time to wait for my girlfriend's reply. I knew I wouldn't be able to concentrate on my work now so I decided to rest for a bit. Eventually I fell asleep. When I woke up, it was already five o'clock in the morning. I was on call tonight but I had been hiding. I still hadn't heard anything from Eliza and this had gotten me more worried. I was scared but I couldn't do anything so I decided to go for a walk inside the hospital. Walking along the bridge outside the chief's office, it was almost dawn now. I had stayed in the hospital all night as I was on call. Stopping in the middle of the bridge, I put my elbows on the rail and appreciated the view. The sky was orange as the sun was coming out soon. I sighed. How wonderful this would be if Eliza was by my side! If I hadn't had the fight with her, she probably wouldn't have gone to Washington. I could have taken her to holiday or whatever. At least I could have said goodbye before she left for work there. What if she died and she would be mad at me forever? I really hated myself. Why was I so stupid and inconsiderate? I should have been grateful that my girlfriend cared about me!
Pulling out my phone to check if I had any news from her. Nothing. I closed my eyes and a tear dropped. I regretted so much that we were not in good place now. Even if she could come back, I was sure she wouldn't forgive me for being such a bitch. I would still respect that if she decided that she wanted to go. I put my phone back in my pocket and put my hands back on the rail.
Suddenly, I felt two arms surrounding my waist very tightly and a warm breath on my neck. 'I miss you too.'
I knew who that was but I was completely caught off guard so I moved away right away.
I turned around and saw Eliza standing right in front of me. I opened my mouth but couldn't say anything. 'Eliza? Why… why are you here? Bailey said you were in Washington with a terrorist suspect in that hospital…'
'Well, I was. But the surgery went better than the original plan so I decided to come back earlier. I read your message when I landed but I was coming to find you anyway. I knew about the terrorist suspect after I left the hospital and I immediately wanted to come back to you. I know how important you are to me and I know I shouldn't have pushed you. I was rude to you that morning. I'm sorry. Will you forgive me?' Eliza stepped closer to me and held my hand.
'No… no I mean you shouldn't apologise. I should. I was such a bitch and I should be thankful for you. I swear I would never forgive myself if you died or just left without saying goodbye.' I dropped my gaze and Eliza was still holding my hand.
'Baby, I am not going anywhere and I won't die.' Eliza laughed.
How could she be so perfect? I was apparently the wrong one here and she was apologising to me. She just made me feel guilty. Looking at my adorable and considerate girlfriend, I couldn't help but needed to pull her into my arms. 'I am not letting you go anywhere. I am so sorry. I know sometimes I want some space but I promise I will learn and get used to having you around. I do enjoy being with you. So much. But I sometimes feel different as I usually do because I had always been alone.' Eliza's hand was stroking my back and I loved her touch. I had missed that.
'You just need to be yourself and you will be okay eventually and I swear you won't want me anywhere far from you very soon.' Eliza giggled and I heard her smirk though I couldn't see her face.
'Oh really? Someone is confident huh? I swear you'll feel the same for me then!' I loved how she teased me and my girlfriend was such a sassy lady.
'Well, let's see. I don't really think so though.'
'Haha, what did you say earlier?' I asked.
'What did I say? I said why I came back early.' She sounded confused.
'No. Before that.' I needed to hear that again!
'The part where I wrapped my arms around you?'
'Yeah.'
'I didn't say anything.' She giggled and apparently she knew what I was referring to.
'You did! Say it again! Don't say that you don't want to be near me!' I laughed.
'Nope. I'm not gonna say that again and I can't talk to you anymore. I need to leave a message for Bailey and let her know that I am safe.' Eliza released herself from my arms and turned around to walk away. I could see that she blushed and tried so hard to suppress her laughter.
'No no no! You can't just walk away!' I quickly followed her to wherever she was going. The sun was out now and the whole atrium was so bright. I didn't imagine my shift would end like this. As I was catching up my girlfriends steps, I knew I would follow her no matter what would happen to us.
Thanks for reading. Let me know what you think! Thanks for all your support! I am super grateful for you all. Apologising again for the slow update.
