Another chapter! Hope you all like it!
Speaking of cheating, I couldn't say I was an expert though doing it once was enough to make me regret for the rest of my life. What happened between me and Callie was complicated but I wanted to be honest with Eliza. I had to let her know what kind of a person I was in reality even though she might walk out.
'What?' Eliza widened her eyes.
'You heard me right. I was a cheater but let me explain.' She didn't say anything. 'I lost my leg in a plane crash and I assume that you have already known. Callie, my ex-wife, made the call to cut off my leg and all of a sudden, I was another person. I felt crappy and useless. Losing a leg was disastrous to me so we had not been in good terms since that accident. We tried so hard to get back to where we were but nothing really worked. Then I met this doctor, Lauren, who came here to perform a surgery. I was so attracted to her, not simply by her appearance, but the fact that she made me feel me again. I was lack of confidence after losing my leg. Although I could get back to work after a long recovery period, I didn't feel the same anymore. I lost my glam. I stopped glowing. My marriage changed as well. It was Lauren who brought back the old me. She made me feel like I was still the roller-skate girl. She treated me as if I wasn't disabled at all. I slept with her and I regretted the second after I did that. I still do regret and I swear I will never do that again.' I was waiting for Eliza to snap at me. I was prepared for whatever she was going to say.
'Arizona, I am not here to judge you. I told you I like the current you, not the old you. Whatever happened in the past cannot be changed. As long as you know you will not do that again, that's fine.' Seriously? Was that it? 'For the sake of being honest, I have heard of different versions of your marriage and divorce in the hospital before so your past isn't completely new and shocking to me. But seriously, I don't care what you did in the past if you know what you are doing now.' Oh, she was too kind to me. To be honest, I didn't think I could handle that and trust my girlfriend if I was her who had crappy relationships. 'I meant it when I said that you relieved my pain. The story didn't just end there.' She took a sip in her tea which was probably cold by now.
'What are you talking about?'
'After my second long-term relationship ended, I really reflected where I went wrong. The conclusion was that she was probably right. I was the one to blame. We all have physical needs. If I gave her that, she wouldn't sleep with my best friend. We would have married each other and started our happy family.'
'Oh Eliza, you told her before you two started. It wasn't your fault.' I tried to convince her that she wasn't the wrong one here though I personally was surprised that the flirty and sexy Dr Eliza Minnick had a dating history like this.
'At least to some extent, I was responsible for that. So I decided to change and hoped that my relationships would end up better. I had been with two more people before I met you. I spontaneously gave them both what they needed physically. They didn't cheat on me but the problem was that I didn't feel our affection, the love that I was supposed to share with my girlfriend. Physically both relationships were awesome but they turned out only sexual. There were not enough mental connections. Apparently they were not what I wanted. My new approach didn't work well and I thought I would be alone forever until I met you. Five months ago, I was still this pathetic woman who just split up with her ex-girlfriend. I felt like a loser who could never figure out a good way to build up relationships. Then you came into my life. I didn't want to make the same mistake again so I wanted to feel the love first before we get there. I don't know if you have realised that I have tried to be careful but you are just so irresistible that I almost did wrong again. Arizona, I need you to know that you are amazing, inside out. I just need some time to get ready.' Her beautiful green eyes almost killed me. They looked into mine with reassurance. I knew my girlfriend was worried that I thought I was the problem here.
'Not a problem.' I gave her a peck on her lips. 'Promise me, don't ever force yourself to do anything you don't want to okay?'
'Okay.'
'Thanks for being so honest with my about your history. I really appreciate it. By the way, you do have a thing for peds surgeons, don't you?' I laughed.
'I guess I do. Don't worry though, I am not interested in Karev at all.'
'Hahaha! Look Eliza, I love hearing more about you and I think there's still a lot for us to find out about each other. The best way I would suggest we do it is to take some time off of work and spend more time together but only if you were up for it.' Please say yes!
'That's a good idea. How long do you want me to be off?'
'Two weeks?'
'Two weeks? You sure you won't get tired of me?' Seriously? She looked like she really meant it.
'I don't know. We'll see. People often say going on a vacation is the best way to know whether a couple will work in long-term. Are you up for this challenge which will mostly take place in another continent?' I teased her with an arrogant voice.
'You know who I am? I am Dr Minnick who is used to being challenged and is always the winner.' She played along with her confident smirk.
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