Kiki's ratchet P.O.V

I woke up from recharge early. The night before was like some dream; a very bad dream.

Kiki was asleep in the corner of the room with nothing more than a pillow and blanket. She was so mad at herself she refused to sleep with me on the berth and wrapped her self in a blanket. I know how depressed she gets but I hate it how she beats herself up during time like this.

I couldn't help but give out a sigh knowing the best thing is to give her some space. Kiki would feel better most likely by the end of he day and would be back to her happy normal self.

Walking out of our room, i made my way to the main room to hopefully keep my thoughts elsewhere while I worked on the monitors. But as I finally came into the main room, Primus behold there standing their was none other than my counterpart. "Well. looks like we had the same idea." I called out, causing my counterpart to jump from my sudden outburst. and I have to emit it, Kik was right when i do jump i do look rather odd

"w-what! Oh, I guess the term 'Great minds think alike' is in order... that and we are the same mind." He spoke out like he was trying to be friendly but when he shot me a dirty look, the same one I give Wheeljack, i could already think of what was going on through his processor.

"Look I know what you think. That I'm must be nuts for being with a human like Kiki but you don't know her like I do. She's... she's different." My counterpart only rolled his optics at my words. Another trait Kiki said I did a lot and she was also right about me being a little stubborn.

"Please don't hate her, I don't think she could take it knowing that someone else is hating her and we haven't been here no more than a few days." I leaned against the hallway wall, thinking about what I was leading to in this conversation. My counterpart walked over to me and stopped a servo's distance away with a dead serious look in his optics. "What possibly could of happened to her to make her act as murderous as a Decepticon?"

Giving off a sigh, I figured the best place to start was right from the beginning. "She isn't that dangerous. I know your just being over protected of your Skylight but it the same thing for me with Kiki," I snap back but i was trying my best not to turn this into a full our verbal battle. My counterpart huffed angrily and crosses his arms; waiting for me to continue.

" I don't know her whole story," I began, "but that is mostly because of her blocking out her memories from others. Though what I have gotten out of her makes even my protoform cringe of how cruel her world has been. Kiki from a very young age was different; She was constantly dragged on as a third wheel in her family and then continuously stabbed in the back. Because of this, she then thought that to be loved you must be hated by others."

My counterpart suddenly dropped his arms and the glare in his optics lessened. At least now i knew i had his attention. "She was called so many awful things and hurt oh so many times. Her grandparents hated her because they blamed her for being born; her parents weren't married at the time and her grandparents were full on Christans. Her aunt and cousins treat her like trash, saying how they have the beter life and have the perfect family." I had never met Kiki's Aunt and cousins but at the same time i hoped to Primus i never would have to.

"Her older sister has also done something. One time, when Kiki caught her sister and her boyfriend sleeping together her sister threatened her with a broken bottle of whisky. At one point I think her only friend was her stray dog, Nacho. She had a whole classroom that hated her and that was in elementary; even the teacher thought she was useless." I was by now fighting back tears; i hated everyone who had ever made Kiki's life a living hell and I knew Kiki did to a degree.

"Later on, she has a labeled with leaning disability that wasn't discovered till she moved to a different city at the age of seven. This made people think she was stupid because she was unable to write legibly. When she moved it got a little better but not much. She was really bright but that didn't change the kids minds. In middle school she found two friend who she still keep in touch with but something happened to one of them. Tera and Erica were out with Kiki for a drive with Erica's older brother when a truck hit them dead on."

My counter part didn't say anything but with the flux in his optics i could tell he was shocked. "Tera and Kiki made it with only a few broken bones, Erica and he older brother... not so much." Kiki had told me that after loosing Erica, her friends parents blamed her and Tera for the accident, not even blaming the truck driver who was the real cause. "Then a few years later she lost the one thing that kept her sane those years, she wont tell me what it is but this drove her into a depression. This mental illness apparently runs in her family so it was no shock."

"She became a very quiet girl but she still was loving never the less. The people in her church rejected her when a rumor broke out that she had slept with her teacher and was stabbed in the back once again. This life Kiki has not only left mental and emotional scars on her, but physical that she left on her own self." I tried holding back the tears even more but sadly one slipped past me and rolled down my face.

"So why did she act as she did when almost killing Starscream?" My counterpart asked but looked away from me, hopefully giving me a moment. "That was something left before the depression. Like I said she was stabbed so many times and deicided to be loved you must be hated. She has had anger issues from that or at least what I have gathered to be the cause. She does well to control it most of the time, but when she gets so stressed out or extremely angry she can't control it or any bit of her mind." I stared at the ground. "So... this has happened before," My counterpart asked. "Yes ," I nodded, "once that I have seen, but last time it was Knock Out who dealt with Kiki's wrath. "

(flash back)

Kiki and I where working on the synthetic energon on afternoon, trying to get her mind off other things. She had been stressed out from visiting her family and her sister had left a few bruises up and down her arms.

The rest of the team where out on missions, leaving us to hold the base up. But when we get a call that a certain hot shot mech, Smokescreen, needed medical aid we both stopped what we were doing went went off to help the younger mech.

When we finally found Smokescreen, let's just say he stepped on a very weaken grounding. Smokescreen's pede stuck in the ground while at the same time a large pile of rocks covered his leg. I constructed for Kiki to go first sense the floor was most likely unable to support me. She nodded and ran over to aid Smokescreen when, with a swat at Kiki, Knock Out captured her and held her in his servo.

"Awe, looks like I caught the Autobots little organic trainee. Tell me fleshy, are you as good with a buffer as you are with medical tools,?" Knock Out laughed. I stood there helplessly for I knew if I went out to safe her, the rocks underneath could give and up offlining all of us. How Knock Out was standing there without the ground giving out on him I didn't have a clue.

"Kiki was it? I have heard that sorry old medic call you that a couple of times. So sad that your Autobot cant save you now. And with what I have planned for you, He'll wish he was offlined." Kiki gave Knock Out a pure look of fear and anger mixed together and I just simply stood there. What could I do? I wanted to help Kiki so badly but... Oh just seeing that Crazed 'Con holding her just made my blood boil.

"Soundwave, I need a bridge and I have a little surprise for Lord Megatron." Knock Out gave Kiki a devilish grin as he twirled her in his servo. As Kiki spinned around in his hold, I watched as her demeanor change. The look she gave Knock Out told me that the Kiki I knew was no longer present; this Kiki was someone totally different.

I had never seen such anger and hatred in any humans eyes before and if I didn't know better I think Kiki's eyes turned a firery red. "LET ME GO YOU FRAGGING IDOT 'CON!" Kiki screamed out as she broke free from the Knock Out's grasp. as she activated her suit's flight ability, she punched him over and over again. His frame soon became littered with dents and his left optic went complete dark meaning he was blind in it.

Soon the beatings were brought right in front of me but still out of my reach. "Kiki what in the name of Primus is wrong with you!" I called but it did no good. Kiki's mind was lost to the world as she continued to dent up Knock Out's frame.

Soon the beatings came to the point of where the 'Con's red paint and finish were starting to chip. "No, not the paint! ANything but that!" Knock Out cried as he soon fell to the ground and was backed up into a corner. Kiki began to laugh, a laugh that was not her own. This laugh was purely evil and heartless. "I'm going to do more then that... I'm going to extinguish your spark!"

As Kiki activated her gun, she aimed it right at Knock Out's chest. I knew I had to do something, even if Knock Out was a Decepticon no one needed to end like this.

Quickly grabing a pebble, or a medium size rock to a human, I flicked it right at her. The rock managed to bump into Kiki's gun but sadly it turned towards me and grazed my helm.

clutching my now bleeding helm, I watched as Kiki's eyes turned back to their normal coloring. Kiki's suit deactivated and she sat on the ground in shock; giving Knock Out time to retreat into a ground bridge that appeared next to him.

Looking at Kiki, I watched as a figure popped up next to her and lifted her up in a gentle embrace. "You okay Key?" Smokescreen asked using the nickname he had come up for Kiki, he must have dug himself out while Kiki delt with Knock Out. She didn't respond him as he walked over to me and placed her in my servo.

"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry Ratchet. I didn't meant it." I heard threw her sobs. I nodded and placed her close to my chest as the three of us left this place.

(End of flash back)

"When we got back and when Kiki had calmed down, she forced me to put the shock system in her suit just incase that ever happened again. I was against it but Kiki pleaded with my say that she never wanted to harm anyone else like that again. She was afraid that if she ever went into that kind of state again that it would be with one of us instead of a Decepticon. As you can see it un frontally came in handy." I shock my helm in shame, no matter what Kiki said i was and would always be against the shock system.

"She is not dangerous from what you told me. She just doesn't have totally control a hundred percent of the time." I looked my counter part in the optics and gave him the same dead serious star he gave me earlier. "She tries to control it but it's like something else takes her over. I try my best to keep Kiki as calm as ever but even i have my limits."

My counter part nodded and turned to the hallway I had just from. "I may not take a liking to the fact that you care for that human more than a friend but the care you show is just as strong as the way I care for Skylight. But i only have this to say. If that Human of yours ever lays a digit on Skylight, if she even scratches her paint, i swear by Primus himself I will not hesitate to find a way to put her in her place... and that place will be under my pede."

Kiki was right, when i gave a threat it was truely a scary sight to see.

As my counter part left me alone in the main room and walked down the hall, I watched as he never looked back or even glance at the room I share with Kiki.

"I need to keep a closer optic on Kiki. If I know myself better than anyone else, I will most likely keep that threat."