Why is it when you have something planned time drags? It was only three days ago Amy mentioned about staying with her during the summer break. Yet it feels like a month has passed, maybe if I study more the time will fly by? Something has to help other than watching the clock that never moves. I tick the days off on my calendar. The thing is, I know time is dragging now, and at the same time I know the time will fly when I am with Amy. Kind of sucks!
It seemed like months before Tuesday came around, I need to give her my answer, I kind of forgot that part last week. I close my eyes slightly as I sit at our usual spot. I can hear the soft footfalls of people, only every now and again do the footfalls seem to drag. It makes me laugh slightly, the athletic people and jocks seem to drag their feet. I wonder how many pairs of shoes they go through a month?
"Hey sweetheart." I can't help the grin at takes over my lips as I look up at her.
"Hey." Her fingers run gently through my hair and I gladly lean into her before she takes a seat. "Everything okay?"
"You mean aside from time dragging?" I muse slightly. "Everything is good here." I pause slightly. "I've been thinking."
"Should I be worried?" I shake my head slightly
"No, are you sure you'll be okay with my staying with you?" I cast a glance her way. "For the whole of the summer?" Her arms wrap around me tightly as she pulls me close.
"I was hoping you would say that." She says as she blushes deeply. "Why don't you leave your clothes here, and I'll buy you some fresh while you're at mine." I can hear the lightness in her voice.
I nod slightly. "One condition." I say as I look in to her. I could drown in those eyes; they are the bluest eyes I have ever seen.
"What's the condition?" I watch as she bites her lower lip.
"That you either allow me to pay you back, once I am able to." She holds her hand up slightly to stop me, I shake my head slightly. "Or you let me treat you to a holiday."
She sighs slightly. "Okay, I know I'm not going to win this." She says in a slight chuckle.
"You've done so much for me Amy. I don't like feeling like taking advantage of you." I sigh slightly. "I have the money, but my mother controls it, but once I am twenty-five I will have full control." I state.
"I don't see it as you are taking advantage of me, like I've said before, it's nice to be able to spend my money on things that aren't material, my car, and the two houses I own, don't truly mean anything to me. They just give me the security if anything happens and I am unable to work."
"Why do you think something may happen to you?" I give her a concerned look as she speaks.
"How about once we are away from here." She pauses, "I will tell you what my job is, who I work for and what I do." Her fingers entwine with mine. "Then we can take it from there." I can only nod my reply; she seems to have gone shy slightly as I tug at her hand.
"Sounds fair to me." I give her a slight smile.
The rest of the week seemed to fly by, Amy would be picking me up late Sunday as she had somethings to wrap up at work. She sounded tired on the phone when she called Late Friday. I don't think I have ever heard her sad, as though the wind had been kicked out of her. I wanted to wrap my arms around her and give her some comfort.
The knocking of my door made me jump slightly, I placed my book down as I made my way to the door. "My god Amy. What happened?" I ask as I motion her inside, I can't help my arms wrapping tightly around her.
Deep circles surrounded her eyes, she looked like she hadn't slept in a week, she didn't seem to even have the energy to wrap her arms around me, her head rested on my shoulder as I pulled her close. "What happed darling?" I whisper as I feel her lips on my neck. I could feel tears running down her checks as they wet my neck, her body trembling against me. I rubbed her back gently as I pulled her towards the bed. Some days I wish we were able to fit a sofa in the dorm room. It would make things so much easier.
"I've got you." I whisper as I manage to get us on the bed.
I could feel her breathing slowing down, as her heart slowed, she had cried herself to sleep, her head resting against my chest as my fingers trailed up and down her spine. I don't know when I fell asleep, but the early morning dawn chorus woke me, I couldn't help the slight flinch as I felt a soft hand resting against my bare torso. For a second I forgot Amy was with me. I pulled her closer to me, the warmth of her body I tried to close my eyes asleep hoping to get some more sleep, but her hand seemed to snake around my body causing me to tense slightly.
It hadn't fully registered where her other hand was until I felt her fingers ghost against the inside of my leg. Gently I took hold of her wrist. As much as I want to be with her I am not ready for that step, I'm not sure what would happen with my gifts if I was to down that path with her. I chuckle slightly as she grumbled her protest slightly, her other arm getting tighter against my waist. I placed a soft kiss on the top of her head.
"Morning darling." I said softly as I felt her nod against me.
"Sorry." I heard her mumble slightly.
"No need for sorry." My fingers gently run through her hair as she pulls me closer to her. "You feeling any better?" I asked softly. Her fingers started tracing against my stomach her nails slightly scratching my skin.
She shrugs slightly. "I'll be fine." I can't help shaking my head as I place my lips against her head.
"Just know I'm here for you." I whisper as she places a kiss on my chest.
"I know, sorry for falling asleep." She paused slightly. "Wasn't exactly my plan." She chuckled slightly.
"Not a problem, although you do have wandering hands in your sleep." I tease slightly.
"Oh god Emily. I am so so sorry." She said in a rushed breath.
"It's okay, stop worrying." I say softly. "If you let me up I'll go make us both a coffee."
I can feel her eyes tracking me as I walk to the far side of the room. "Thank you."
I frown as I look at her. "For what?"
"For being there for me." I give her a soft smile.
"Always will be." I pause, "Do you want to talk about it?" I ask as I finish the drinks off.
"Maybe later." She mumbles slightly.
"While you finish your coffee, I'm just going to go for a quick shower if that's okay?" I ask looking at her.
She nods at me. "Take your time, I'll have one once we get to mine." I hear her say.
"Okay I won't be long." And with that I head out the dorm room towards the shower rooms.
It didn't take long for me to take my shower and get dressed before heading back into my dorm room. "You didn't need to do that." I said softly as I watched Amy tiding around.
She chuckled slightly. "You best dry your hair before your clothes get soaked." She totally ignores my comment as she straightened up the bed.
I couldn't help noticing that she looked slightly fresher. Once I had finished drying my hair and I had packed up a few things that I needed. I placed a few books in my bag, she frowned slightly. "It helps keeping my mind off, and away from people's thoughts." I say to which I get a nod.
"How many pain killers do you need?" her eyes slightly wide as I place around six bottles in my bag.
"A lot." I state. "It takes the edge off. And before you start I am not addicted to them. I wish I didn't need them but sometimes my headaches get that bad I struggle to see straight."
"Okay, maybe we can find you something better to take. I don't like the idea of you using that many pills Emily, forget the fact that you may become addicted to them, it's what they are doing to your insides that concern me."
I smile at her, "Trust me, my insides are quite fine." I say softly.
"You going to tell me you can see your insides now?" I can hear the amusement in her voice as she speaks.
"No. I don't have x-ray vision" I say raising my eyebrow at her. "Some days I wish I did." I tease back, which earn me a slap.
"Behave."
"You brought it up." I say through a laugh.
"Right, you all set?" I nod slightly.
I can't help the nerves setting in as I lock the door behind me. I hadn't been to her home, the one thing that scared me was, we weren't hidden which meant, her work colleagues could turn up at any point. Which unsettled me slightly.
"You live here?" I question as I take in my surroundings.
"Yeah, it's not much but it's a roof over my head." She shrugs slightly.
"Not much? It's huge." I state.
"I guess, when the team come around though I wish it was bigger." She says through a laugh.
"They are okay with you, about missing out one of your cookout this year?" I ask, part of me feels guilty. She has chosen me over her friends.
"They are fine with it." She pauses slightly. "Emily this, you are more important than them right now." She blushes slightly. "They understand, yes they want to meet you. But I've told them you are painfully shy."
I raise my eyebrow out at. "I'm not that bad."
"You are." She says as she laughs slightly. "You get all flustered when you meet someone. It's cute."
"She flirted with me. In front of you." I point out.
"Still, it was funny."
"They won't just turn up will they?"
"No," I watch as she shakes her head slightly. "I've told them all to leave me alone over the summer, and they respect me enough to listen."
I nod slightly. "I don't want them to feel like you're pushing them away because of me." I mumble slightly.
"Honestly, they are fine. As Peter's said to me the other day. It's nice to see me happy. You make me happy Emily. And if they can't cope for one summer without me, then there is something extremely wrong with them." She gives me a slightly pointed look.
It had been a long week, I never realised just how much she worked, she rang a few times telling me she wasn't able to make it back, and for me to help myself to anything I wanted. She sounded tired when she spoke to me, and I wondered just how much rest she truly got when she was working. Sometimes she would be back over the weekend other times she was gone for six days straight. She would apologise each time. Yet it didn't faze me.
"I am so sorry; I feel awful for disappearing." She said as her arm wrapped around me.
"It's your job Amy. I fully understand, so stop worrying." I hear her sigh slightly.
"If I tell you what I do, promise me you won't leave?" I can hear the unease in her voice as she speaks.
"As long as you're not a serial killer, I won't. I promise."
I feel her swallow hard. I can feel her skin becoming slightly moist as though it is waiting for the pain to come. "You can't tell anyone Emily." She states
I laugh slightly. "Who on earth am I going to tell Amy? You're the only person I talk to, I have no friends, kind of the social outcast. And besides I could never betray your trust in me." I say honestly.
She nods against me as her hand tightens around me as though holding me in place so I don't run.
"I work for the CIA and Interpol." I can't help but pull away as I look at her.
"You're serious." I say as she looks at me slightly worried.
"I promise you Emily, I will never tell them about you. I swear." Her eyes fill with tears; I can feel the blood rushing around her body as her heart rate increases.
"Calm down." I say softly. "I'm not going anywhere." I sigh slightly. "I promise darling." She nods slightly as she takes a deep breath. "Stop panicking." I say as I close my eyes. The sound if deafening, the blood pumping around her body, her veins pulsating against her skin, her muscles twitching as she tenses more. "Please Amy." I say as I shake my head slightly. "I'm not going anywhere. I swear."
"You're not?" I smile softly at her.
"No, I know you wouldn't do that to me Amy. You've had plenty of chances to do that. And you haven't. now do you think you can do me a favour and calm down before you give me a headache." I say softly.
"Oh god Emily, I am so sorry."
I hold my hand up slightly. "Its fine, you didn't know." I chuckle slightly as I feel her body start to relax. "So what exactly do you do?" I ask, my curiosity is peaked.
"We infiltrate known gang members and the scum of the earth, we train undercovers to get close and feed intel back to us, so we can catch them. Hence I got into a fight with a bloke that time. The raid didn't exactly go to plan."
"Do you go undercover?" I ask, I'm unable to hide my concern.
"No. I will never do undercover work, and neither do any members of my team."
"Your team?"
She smiles at me, "Yes, hence Sarah didn't ask too many questions when I asked her to hack into the security cameras that night."
"Wow." I mumble.
"Shocked a woman is running a team?" she asks me.
"No, impressed." I laugh slightly.
The knock at the door pulled us from our thoughts, I closed my eyes slightly. "Who's got brown hair?" I can't help ask. "With glasses." I hear her groan slightly.
"Sarah." She shakes her head slightly. "I'll get rid of her."
I take hold of her hand before she disappears. "She's worried about you." I pause, "I don't mind, I promise I won't go and hide." I say softly as I watch a bright smile take over her face.
"You're sure?" she asks as I give a slight nod.
"I'm sure."
