AN: And we are back! Sorry I took so long to update but this story made me hit a wall… but now I'm back better than ever with the ending in between my mind! This chapter is confusing I tried many ways to re write it but after the tenth time I found this to be the less confusing route so please leave a review and enjoy!


Ichigo opened her eyes to find herself in her house, standing at the end of the table in her kitchen. What was more shocking was that she was looking at herself as she fought with her parents.

"I can't believe this!" Ichigo's dad cried "please, tell me that you're not planning on keeping it?!"

Ichigo watched as her other self, blinked back some tears "I'm sorry dad… I do plan to keep it… I-I want your support…"

"My support?!" Ichigo dad scoffed bitterly "you won't even tell us who did this to you! And you want us to support you!? You… you are only a child Ichigo, you haven't even finished school!" he stood up from the table "I can't support this you are not keeping it! You're probably just sick, I'll take you to a doctor who can cure you."

Ichigo other self, stood up from the table as well "sick?! Are you listening to yourself?!" she screamed "I'm not sick! I'm pregnant!"

Ichigo opened her eyes wide, when she heard what her other self said. She didn't remember ever being pregnant or… any of this ever happening. On the next moment, she saw as her dad slapped the other Ichigo, making the girl run right through her. She watched as the other Ichigo ran toward her room and looked back to see her mother comforting her dad.

The moment the other Ichigo walked through her she understood, that she was reliving a long-forgotten memory, but how could she forget something like being pregnant? She tried to think back on this day but her head started to throb, making her cringed in pain. The next thing she knew everything went black.


Ichigo opened her eyes again but this time she found herself in her bedroom. Her other self was sitting on the bed, rubbing her belly. Memory Ichigo looked about six month pregnant and she also looked like she was crying. At that moment, she understood, she wasn't getting her full memories but bit and pieces of her pregnancy. She was also curious as to what had made memory Ichigo cry.

Moving to a corner of the room Ichigo looked at herself. Was this really her memory that she was reliving all over again? or was this just some twisted experiment that Kisshu and his brothers trapped her in? after all the last thing she remembered was seeing Kisshu…

"Hey…" Ichigo looked at up to see Kisshu, standing in front of memory Ichigo with a sad smile on his face, holding a rose on one of his hands.

Memory Ichigo looked up to see Kisshu standing in front of her. She quickly cleaned her falling tears "wh-what are you doing here?"

"I-I heard, that you told them… I just… because of who I am…"

"don't!" said memory Ichigo "you don't need to apologize for who you are Kisshu! I knew what I was getting myself in to when I told them… I just thought that they would still be my friends… even if they knew you were the father."

Kisshu took memory Ichigo in to his arms, when she started crying "I'm sorry" he said in a soft whisper.

Ichigo just stared at the couple in front of her, complete shock written all over her face. The father… the one that had gotten her pregnant was Kisshu?! Her heart started beating rapidly as she assimilated all this new information. Her head started to hurt again, as the memory in front of her became distant and dark.


This time she found herself in a hospital hallway. It was dark and silent, yet a light was shining from one of the closed rooms. She walked faster toward that room; her heart would beat wildly as she got closer and closer to it. When she finally opened it, the light blinded her for a second, before it died down, showing her an image of herself in a hospital bed holding a baby.

Ichigo gasped, as she stared at herself and the baby in her arms "this is… my baby" at that moment her other self, looked up straight in to Ichigo's eyes. It was as if her other self could see her…

"Come here, hold our baby!" said memory Ichigo with a smile on her face.

Ichigo was about to step forward, when she felt someone walk through her, it was Kisshu "for a moment I though, she was talking to me" thought Ichigo as she looked at her other self and Kisshu.

Kisshu took the small baby in to his arms "she is beautiful… my little kitty."

"Isn't she?" said memory Ichigo, taking the baby away from Kisshu "she is also normal…"

Kisshu frowned, but before he could say anything the door to the room open, making him teleport away.

Ichigo's parents made their way in, both had a big smile on their faces "now look at my beautiful granddaughter, as beautiful as you" said Ichigo's dad, giving memory Ichigo a kiss on her forehead.

It didn't seem like she was going to be pulled away from this memory this time, since her head didn't hurt. Ichigo looked around the room, to notice that Kisshu didn't exactly teleport away from the room.

"Look at her, she is as beautiful as her mother" said Ichigo's dad smiled at the small baby in her daughter's arms.

Memory Ichigo smiled, but in her eyes a total different emotion was evident. Her mother seemed to notice and made her husband leave them alone for a second. She grabbed memory Ichigo hand a worried smile on her face "Ichigo… what's the matter?"

Memory Ichigo stared at her mom, tears starting to form on her eyes from seeing the worried look on her mom. She looked at the small baby in her arms a small sob escaping her lips "I love her… But I'm so scared; I'm not ready for this, I-I don't blame her, she is so small but I don't know this feeling… I'm-"

"Shhh, it's going to be ok" her mother pulled her close "your father and I are here for you, through all of this we will always be here."

Ichigo just stared at herself and her mother. She drifted her gaze toward where Kisshu was but he was no longer there.

*Few hours later*

Ichigo stared at her other self, sleeping. It had already been a couple of hours since she been in this particular memory. This memory was much longer compared to the others she had lived. It was already dark outside, and she wondered when will this end.

Hearing a small whimper; she looked at the small baby next to her. She still couldn't believe she was a mom. The baby frowned, she was a minute away from crying. Ichigo tried to grab her but her arms went right through the small baby, she forgot that she couldn't really touch or grab anything here.

But just as she thought the baby was going to cry. She saw two arms go right through her, starling her for moment. Looking up she saw Kisshu smiling at the small baby.

"Hey, my little kitty. It's okay papa got you" He smiled, giving the baby a small kiss on her forehead. The baby immediate stopped her whimpering and snuggled closer to Kisshu. He stood there staring at his daughter before his gaze drifted toward memory Ichigo giving her a sad smile.

Ichigo just stared at him, wondering why she couldn't remember any of this ever happening. Was this really her memory? She felt the familiar headache and closed her eyes, waiting for the next memory to show.


Ichigo opened her eyes to see the familiar hospital room but this time a heavy storm was showing outside. It was the middle of the night but there stood Kisshu looking down at their child, while memory Ichigo just looked at him, with a wide smile.

"I can never stop her from crying as fast as you can" said memory Ichigo to Kisshu, who just gave her a sad smile, but she didn't seem to notice "you already starting to look like a great daddy" she giggled.

Kisshu gave the small baby to memory Ichigo, who cooed at the small bundle of joy. He just stared at the both of them without saying a word.

Ichigo just stared at Kisshu. She could see all the love in his eyes as he stared at memory Ichigo and the small baby. Her heart beat wildly as she stared at them; her heart screamed that this was what she was missing all this time. She felt her breath disappear as her and Kisshu locked eyes, but that couldn't be right because nobody here could see her.

Turning around she saw Pai standing behind her. She had never seen Pai show any kind of expression other than his cold one, so she was surprise to see the sad expression on him, as he nodded toward Kisshu as if to silently confirm something and disappeared again. She looked back at herself, who seemed to be oblivious to all the interaction that just happened; while Kisshu was looking down slightly trembling.

"Is everything ok?" asked memory Ichigo as she laid the small baby to sleep.

He stared at her for a second, before bending down and capturing her lips "you would have been a wonderful mother."

Memory Ichigo just stared at him confused, when she felt something stab her neck; looking up she saw Kisshu holding a needle in his hands "wh-what?"

Ichigo just watched wide eye as Kisshu stab a needle on memory Ichigo neck. She tried to stop him on reflect but she just went right through them.

Pai appeared again, but this time he was next to Kisshu "Kisshu are you sure about this? You can still turn back."

Kisshu nodded, taking the small baby in his hands "This is the best choice for all of us" He looked at memory Ichigo who was struggling to keep awake "erasing me and our baby would be the best choice for her…" he made his way toward the door, when he heard her voice.

"Kisshu please don't do this" memory Ichigo pleaded, before she fell completely under the drugs spell.

"I-I'm sorry" said Kisshu stepping out of the room "I love you."

Ichigo stared after Kisshu as he left the room. This was why she couldn't remember anything, because he had made Pai delete her memory. She looked at Pai who was preparing to erase her memory "Stop it!" she screamed, but he couldn't really hear her. She was helpless; she ran out the room to fin Kisshu. She had todo something maybe if she screamed or hit him, maybe then he would sense her and maybe stop all this. She wanted to keep her memory.

But as she step outside the room she found herself with a crying baby and a desperate Kisshu.

The baby seemed to be crying her lungs out, while Kisshu tried desperately to calm her down "Shh my little kitty, papa here, shh please calm down" as he tried to calm her down, tears started to form on his eyes "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry my little kitty. I bet your mad at papa for taking you away from mommy" his tears started to freely fall down his cheeks "I did this because I love you, because I love you and mama" he held the baby close to him "I'm sorry, I'm sorry I had to take you away from mama. It hard for me too, it-it was best for mama so she can be happy… so please don't hate me… please don't hate me Ichigo…"

Ichigo held a hand to her mouth, to hold down the small sobs; tears uncontrollably falling down her cheeks "I don't hate you Kisshu, I-I could never…" she extended her hand as if to touch him, fully expecting to go through him but what happened completely shocked her. Her hand rested on his cheek but it was like if he couldn't feel her; and for a moment all the memories she lived with him came back like a wave, hitting her all at once. Closing her eyes she let all the memories play out on her mind "I-I remember…" opening her eyes, she noticed that Kisshu was no longer infront of her nor the hospital walls. She was now in a black room.

"Find them."

Said a voice from behind her. Turning around she saw herself looking back at her. Tears were falling down the other Ichigo face "I lost them so long ago. I knew that he had heard what my mom and I talked about. I regret it, I never wanted to forget them!" the other Ichigo fell to the floor crying "I love him, I love our daughter, so please don't forget them not again!"

Ichigo just stared at her other self on the floor, when a light started to shine; every moment becoming brighter than the other. She closed her eyes slightly trying to adjust to the shining light, when she found herself in a room; machines hooked to her arm and the only thing going through her mind was the word 'find them' over and over again.