Chapter 5

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"I'm sorry" was all she said. I tucked her into the bed and she grabbed onto my wrist. "Stay" She could have asked me 50 thousands things and I would have told her yes but right now I couldn't do it.

"I'm sorry but I can't right now" was all I could say as I bent down kissing her forehead and walked out closing the door behind me. I heard the sniffle and could smell the tears start before the door was even closed.

God I was such a fucking idiot. A total fucking failure.

Bella's POV:

I cried myself to sleep not knowing how I should be feeling. I had hoped Peter would spend the night with me, but I shouldn't have asked. I knew he could tell what had happened. I really needed to talk to the guys, and actually have a full conversation about what the hell was going on. I didn't want to go and do stupid shit like this, I hated having either of them angry with me.

I would be even happier if I could just move out and leave, well not move out since I wasn't living here but just not be here. That was it, fuck this. When I go home I am leaving. I am going to pack up what Anthony and I need and we are going to move. I am going to go and get far away from here, I won't have to deal with these guys anymore. I am done with fucking vampires, and I am done with the supernatural I won't have to deal with the drama. I just had to get somewhere where Edward wouldn't find me, and couldn't find me.

I grabbed my things from the night before and walked downstairs. I was hoping to get to the door without anyone stopping me. There was no real reason for me to talk to them. I felt like crap and was hung over I just wanted to be left alone. Somehow, I am not sure how but I got out the door that morning without so much as seeing either of the guys.

Peter's POV:

I felt like a total ass for walking away from Bella last night but smelling what had happened while I was gone was bad enough but seeing her in the tub made it even worse. The handprints on her hips were not from me which really only ment one thing. I had already known, but god damn it I didn't want to know at the same time.

I spent the night sitting in my room, not moving and not really thinking. I defiantly liked her, but was it all worth it? Did she like me, or was it all just a booty call to her? I heard her breathing change in her room but couldn't bring myself to go and talk to her. If she wanted to talk to me she would come over.

Jasper's POV:

Well this has sure been one interesting night in the Whitlock household. Fuck, I slept with Bella. I am such an idiot. I slept with the girl that my brother told me not even 24 hours ago that he liked. But god damn did she smell good, and I know it was what she wanted. She had basically asked me too, verbally and emotionally. I couldn't say no to her.

I could feel her emotions swell as she woke up. Guilt and regret were the main ones I could pick out. It made me feel like such crap knowing I had made her feel this bad. I heard her walking towards the door and part of me wanted to go and get her, the other wanted me to give her space. I felt her relief as she opened the door and decided not to go after her. She obviously needed this.

I felt anger coming from in the house and knew this conversation was coming eventually. After my attack on him when he drove Bella home I had a feeling I might be having a painful afternoon.

I walked out of my room knowing Peter was standing outside my door. He had been for about 10 minutes now, the rage, anger, and hatred flowing from him were enough to shock me out of my mini coma laying on my bed. As soon as the door opened I was punched square in the nose. It would have been broke if I was a human.

"How could you man?"

"She was- fuck – I told you how I felt – what the hell – why did you do that? It was fragments but I got what he was saying. I sent him over as much sympathy and regret as I could.

"Fuck – god damn it" he let out a growl.

"I don't even know if she cares about me dude, and now what the fuck" he sighed "Major I care for her deeply, I really do." I could feel his love for her, I wasn't sure what type it was yet but he wasn't just in it for the sex. He did care about her.

"I know you do, I can feel it. I care for her too though and I think we need to talk to her tonight and see what she wants from this" I pointed between us " and from us"

"You know I wouldn't mind to share if that is what she wants" he said. Well fuck I wasn't' even thinking about it that way. I'd do whatever would make Bella happy. She had been fucked over too many times by Edward for me to turn my back on her. I had noticed she was into both of us, but I didn't think Bella would be into that. Plus, she had her son to think about in this. It might be a bit funky to explain why she has 2 guys at her call all of the time.

"Well she was happy when she left this morning, I think she needed space" I told him, looking at the door. I had really wanted to talk to her. "We can just give her a call later?" I asked. I figured why not, it would give her some space.

"Yea might as well, I have a date with her tomorrow too, and I have to make sure she isn't going to stand me up" he smirked.

Peter walked back down the hallway. I was glad the only thing hurt was my nose in this conversation. It wasn't too bad.

Bella's POV:

I got home and packed up 3 bags. One for each of us and the 3rd was basic things we would need. I had saved up a few thousand over the past few months and thankfully, but sadly it was now going to go to buying a car. Lucky for me I found a nice used Mustang for sale. Yes it was a V6 but with only 73k on it, and for $4,000 I could deal with it. I went and picked it up and they drove it back to Renee's with me so I could drop her truck off. It was the start of another new life for me. I wondered how many of these would I have by the end of my human existence.

I hopped in the car, grabbed some breakfast and got onto I-25 S, with no end in site. I drove for about 5 hours and we had to get out and take a break. We were right outside of Albuquerque, NM. I didn't know why but I wasn't far enough away and we got back into the car and kept driving.

By the end of the day I ended up in Las Cruces, NM. I found a hotel for the first night and then went outside for an apartment finder book to look around. I found the Omni-Centre Square for $459 a month, and they only needed a $300 deposit. Yes it was only 1 bedroom, 1 bath and 625 sq ft, but it was a place to live and we could make it work. If I could find a job that paid well I could always see if we could move into one of the 2 bedroom apartments, they were only $539 a month.

The next morning I took Ant to the local library and I hoped onto some local Nanny sites. Thankfully Renee had made me get all of my certifications and clearances done in CO so I had them ready to go. All I had to do was think of a reason for the last month and 3 addresses and I was good.

I found a family looking for a fully time nanny, Nanny wanted for 2-month-old baby boy. Hours vary, but any where from 6:30 a.m. to 6:30 p.m.. Must be CPR certified, pass a background check, and have references. I could do this. I knew it wasn't right but I had a few friends in Forks pose as references for me before since it was hard to actual have a real child care one. Plus they were willing to pay $10 - $15 per hour, and with 12 hour days I could make it work. I just had to hope they would let me bring Anthony to work will me. It was only for 1 child though, a 2-Month-Old In Sonoma Ranch.

I sent over my email resume, with my contact information and was happy to hear back from them a few hours later. That night I had a interview, it went great and I would start on Monday. They had no problem with me bringing Anthony, they thought it would be great for there son to have a friend to play with as he got older.

I went back home, I had found a babysitter to watch Anthony while I was at the interview. I had done that math and after taxes, I would still be bringing home around $700 a week, that was more then I was making all month in CO. Figure in cable, internet, gas, phone, electric, rent, and food, my bills were around $1250 a month, $2800-$1250 = a comfortable living for Anthony and me. I let out a long sigh and took another deep breath. I could do this. I called over to the landlord asking to get the 2 bedroom apartment. Next month I would get a nice set for myself and Anthony. I wanted to put away a few hundred a month too while I could. I knew the way my life had been and I knew I would need money to make sure we could be safe and comfortable.

The next few weeks flew by without a care in the world. I still was checking over my back but it was less and less every day. Shane (the sweet boy I watched everyday) was 5 months old now and still working on learning to crawl. I had set up Anthonys room and my own. Thank god for Ikea because I actually did it for much cheaper then I had thought. Then again with my tendency to just up and move without packing lately it wasn't worth it to spend major amounts of money on anything for rooms. Life was good, and Life was simple. It was perfect.

Jasper's POV:

It had been 3 months since we had heard or seen from Bella. Peter was losing it, and so was I. Then you throw in Alice being Alice who refused to look for Bella still hung up on Edwards whole don't look for Bella rule. She admitted yes she had broke it but that was since she had seen Bella getting hurt. She somehow had kept it now but she just knew when she saw me and Bella and that Edward saw that thought that things wouldn't be good.

What she left out was the worst part, Edward had killed Bella and Anthony in her vision. That was the only reason she had texted me. She hadn't even asked who the child's father was saying she didn't want to know and humming. I had a feeling her hands where in her ears as she was doing it like a little child. I hung up that phone call right after knowing nothing was getting accomplished.

We were useless. Both of us felt horrible, I could feel Peter's emotions on top of mine and it was driving me crazy. Part of me wanted to move out, while the other half said Bella knows we are here and if she wants us she will find us.

Our days were spent the same. We started feeding almost daily, well at least I did. Peter couldn't or it might draw some attention.

The worst day would have to have been about 4 weeks after Bella left. The dealership called for Peter to come and pick up the car he had bought for Bella. Thank god we couldn't cry or else I think both of us would have been a mess. We brought it home and Peter then spent the next few days on a slow clay, wax, and polish before wrapping the car in a bow and putting it in this giant car storage bubble he had found. It was temp controlled and had a whole dehumidifier attached. The thing was awesome I just wished we had no use for it.

The worst feeling of all is the fact we had no idea why she had left. We didn't know where she was, or if she was safe, but the guilt we had knowing, or at least thinking that we were the reason she had left Renee was the worst of all.

Unknown POV:

I had been told to find this human, I wish my maker would have told me why though. I have spent 3 months now searching the US for her. She had made it easy though, keeping her first name, and keeping her sons full name. I was shocked though to find she had changed her last name though, to Whitlock. I had only once heard that name before and it was from the Vampire Wars, the Major had that last name and part of me was worried about going looking for a human, even if the vampire whose surname she had was dead.

It had taken me about a month to find information about her new location. Her job was private, however her apartment was not under Swan, but her sons health care was. I found her address on there data base and went to good look around.

She had a nice set up, she worked long shifts, but took the child with her. I wasn't sure what my master wanted me to do about the child, if I should bring them both or just Isabella. I hadn't been told what to do after I found them, just to find them. I knew I had to make a call now.

"Hello" she answered the phone

"I found Isabella, and the child. They are living in Omni-Centre Square apartments, in Las Cruces, NM. She takes the child to work with her but is home at 7pm, and leaves at 6am. Apartments are not gated, she is in apartment 102. End unit, first floor." I told her. I hoped she would be happy.

"Do you see any others with her?"

"There have been no other humans or vampires in her apartment in the past 4 days" I had been keeping an eye out. Besides her landlord on the 1st to get rent no one had been around.

"Good work" was all she said before hanging up.

Well great now I was stuck here, watching a human with no idea what to do. Was I supposed to stay around or could I leave.

Bella's POV:

I got done work a little early and went home. It was an early night to bed as I had plans with Anthony to go to the park tomorrow. The forecast was great and it was my little boys 4th birthday. We hadn't really made any friends around here, so I had told him I had a fun filled day ahead. We would start off at the park then go to the aquarium. He loved fish and anything animals, but with working 60 hours a week we didn't have much free time then to go out.

The park was going great, Anthony loved fishing in the pond. No we didn't catch anything, but I was doing my best to show what Charlie had taught me and to pass it on to my son. I wanted him to learn things that my father had taught me.

We packed up after eating out picnic and headed off to the aquarium. It was great, the place was busy but it was wonderful. Anthony was looking at the giant shark tank for what seemed like forever when we finally finished up and went over to the tunnel. It was a staircase walking through a fish tank full of sharks and various other creatures.

Before I could stop myself I tripped falling down a few steps to a landing. I looked up and couldn't find Anthony anywhere. Where was my child. Oh god, what happened.

I ran to the missing children desk as quickly as I could.

"Hello, I seem to have lots my son, I feel in the tunnel down the steps and when I turned around he was gone" I ranted to the women at the desk

"Name, Age, description, and last wearing please" she asked almost void of emotions

"Anthony, 4, wearing blue jeans, and a black Ramones t-shirt, black converses, pail skin, brown eyes, a coppery brown hair" I told her trying to not get angry at her attitude.

"Can't you look at a video to see who took him" I asked hoping she could just reply areas and find him

"I am sorry mam, but we can't do that. You are more then welcome to wait here for a while to see if he shows up"

"What- how is that going to help?" I ran back into the aquarium searching for Anthony but couldn't find him anywhere. I hated to have to do this but I needed help.

Unknown POV:

As soon as I got back to my car I pulled out my phone.

"I have the child"

"Good, bring him to us"

She hung up the phone and I packed up the child for the drive to Texas.

Peters POV:

"Peter" I heard a soft voice almost ask when I answered the phone. Oh god it was Bella.

"Bella are you okay?"

"Anthony –" she sniffled "He is missing" I heard her break out into sobs.

"Where are you we will be right there" I needed to get to her, oh crap.

"I'm at the aquarium right now, oh god he is gone."

"Bella are you going to stay there? Or should we meet you somewhere?"

"Omni-Centre Square apartments, in Las Cruces, NM"

"We will be there in a few hours" I told her, "And Bella, I'm, well we're both sorry"

I hung up the phone and saw Japer standing behind me. I knew he had heard the phone call and we got into the car and sped off to New Mexico. I had grown to love the crazy flat highways, it made high speeds so much easier. We got to Bella's house quickly and ran to her apartment. It was easy to find between the emotions she was projecting and her smell.

I opened the door and was shocked to see Bella curled up into a small ball on the couch sobbing. I ran over and picked her up onto my lap.

"It will be okay, we will find him"

"Why am I such a horrible mother, I couldn't even keep my own son safe. What will happen to him, who has him, oh god" she cried into my lap.

"Bella I am sorry" was all I could think to say. She looked up at me.

"For everything" and I bent down and gave her a quick kiss. She looked almost confused, but then just relaxed into me.

"We will find him, no matter what"

As I was saying that my phone started to ring. I had no idea the number but knew the area code to be texas. Texas who the fuck from there would want to get a hold of me.

"We have the child" I heard a women say. The voice sounded familiar but I couldn't place it. Then again being irate wouldn't help me to figure it out. I was fuming I could hardly keep myself from screaming murder at this bitch on the phone. Who the hell takes a fucking child?

"Who is this?" I growled

"I would keep your temper in line. What would you do for the child?" She asked

I heard a low growl from behind me, and looked over at Jasper.

"Who is that!" the women on the phone yelled. Jasper reached over taking the phone from me. I don't know why but I didn't even fight him. I was to busy trying to comfort Bella.

"Put him back on the phone"

"No" I heard Jasper growl at the phone

"Who do you think you are!" she screamed at him.

"You're past" was all I heard Jasper say "We will find you" was all he said as he hung up the phone

"What the fuck are you doing hanging up! What did they want for him back!" Bella was screaming at Jasper. I saw the look in his eyes and knew it wasn't good.

"Bella do you remember my story, I told you about my past?

"What the hell does that have to do with my Son!" She was angry and I couldn't blame her but this wasn't helping.

"Bella screaming at him won't help" here goes me being the voice of reason when I really wanted to just flip out at him too. What the fuck was he thinking!

"Peter, it was Maria"

That was all he had to say for my world to come crashing down. The sick fucking bitch had taken Bella's son.

"Why the hell would she do that?" I couldn't think of a reason.

"Peter- Charlotte" was all he said and I had to get up and walk away. I needed to cool off, I needed to breath. I needed to kill something.

I saw Bella's pleading eyes and walked back over to her. I couldn't leave her like I had done back at my house. I wrapped my arms around her and saw Jasper do the same.

"Bella we will find her, and we will get your son back" he said as he gave her a kiss on the temple.

She passed out a few minutes later and Jasper and I both started to make phone calls. We both agreed I would call Alice this time.

"Look you god damn mystic fucken pixi where is he!" I wasn't playing nice today

"Who – What –When –Where – Why –How?" She asked back.

"Anthony Masen Swan, aka Edwards fucken son, who was taken by Maria and my fucken bitch ex wife, to somewhere in Texas, sometime yesterday, why well God damn it if I know, and how because Bella fell down the steps at the aquarium and they took it to take him!" I figured that would answer everything she would have to say.

" - - - - " The scilence wasn't helping

"Well that sure helps a lot" I growled at her.

"Tell them I am sorry"

"Well Sorry doesn't bring back Ant to me and Bella does it" If looks could kill and the pixi wasn't on the phone she would probably be dead.

"Peter you know I hate you, but I told Jasper the last time I saw Bella getting hurt. If I had seen it this time I would have told you!" Well now she was yelling at me. "And to top it off, I just tried to look for the boy I had seen in my last vision and he is gone" she let out a long sigh. "They must have a shield with them, I am sorry"

Fuck – Shit – Ass – Cock –Balls

"Can you find a way to find out where in Texas they are?

I felt Jasper tap my sholder.

"I got a number from the cell phone, traced it to outside of Fort Davis. It is about 50 miles from the Mexican boarder"

"Thank god" I looked over at a sleeping Bella and I heard Alice talking on the phone.

"Do you guys need help?"

I looked over at Jasper. This was his ex wife, not mine. Mine would die sooner rather then later the next time I saw her.

"Ali I am not sure" was all he told her, god this was such a mess.

"Jasper I see her being angry no matter what, if I come she is mad at me for leaving, if I don't she will be angry at me for talking to you both but not coming to help. So what should I do?"

I had never heard the pixi this confused.

"Alice, if you come you have to realize things are a bit different"

"How so?" She asked.

"Alice just you have to understand, we just got Bella back to us yesterday. She had ran away months ago after the Edward thing" I figured that would be enough.

"Um okay…"

"Look we havn't gotten to talk to her about anything that happened in Colorado so we can't tell you what is going on yet, but look you just have to promise to not flip the fuck out no matter what you find here"

"I promise to do my best, how's that?

"Fine"

We gave her the address and she was on her way. It would take her till morning to get here, she was about 8 hours of vampire speeds away from us. I was hoping Bella and I would have time to talk before Alice got here.

Jasper and I both took showers and then sat down and looked at each other.

"I need to talk to her alone"

"So do I" was all he said back

"Please" I almost begged. I had missed her so much, and now to have her back only to be stuck in this position just killed me.

"Fine, Im going to go and feed" he said walking out the door. I heard him run away and started looking over at Bella. I hoped she would wake up soon and I laid down next to her on the bed. Probably an hour later she started to stur. It was only 5:30 though so I didn't want to wake her up yet.

"Peter" she said looking over at me. I saw tears start to form in her eyes.

"This wasn't a dream" she said in between sobs. I pulled her into my chest holding onto her.

"I am sorry, but no" I leaned down kissing the top of her head.

"I should have just stayed away from him, why didn't I listen" she cried. She thought this had to do with Edward? Crap I hadn't even thought that he would go to my ex in this but maybe he could have. I more or less think it was Maria and Charlotte being phycotic bitches because of our past.

"Bella, I honestly don't think Edward had anything to do with this" I told her "Maybe he called Charlotte to get this started but I really think it was more Charlotte and Maria seeing you around us in Colorado and then jumping when you moved away. You were a perfect way to get back at Jasper and I. I'm sorry" I told her. I didn't want her mad at me about this but I had a feeling she was right, if she hadn't been with us this wouldn't have happened.

"I hate your whole fucking world right now, but right now I don't care about hating you as much as I want my son back" Well that was great, she hated me, but at least she would be nice until we got Anthony back for her.

"Where is Jasper?"

"Feeding, Bella can we talk about Colorado please?" I figured being nice was the best chance I had at not getting my ass lit on fire, or some other painful option right now.

"No"

"Bella, why did you leave?"

"Did no not make any sense for you, I do not want to fucking talk about it!"

"Well sorry to tell you Alice will be here soon and I would like to know what the fuck made you leave us?" I was getting snappy with her but she had started it. I wanted answers before Alice got here. I knew Jasper would to, Alice and him might have been divorced but both being single we could still have fun. Shit so could I, Alice and I had messed around in the past.

Having Bella gone these last few months were not easy though, I still cared for her and I hated our reunion to be such horrible terms.

"What do you mean Alice will be here soon? Are her and Jasper back together? Peter what is going on?"

"Well what do you want me to say, you won't answer my questions so you know what no, I will not answer yours" I hated being a child about this but I hoped it would work.

"Fine- I left because I wanted to get away from your world. I left because I hoped it would save Anthony from growing up into a life of constant mess, and before you even ask I left because I felt like crap about what I had done the night before. I cared for both of you, you are wonderful guys but then I went and fucked it up by sleeping with both of you. I know we all joked about the 3 of us but that was only a joke and then I went and fucked it all up." She ranted on and on then let out a sigh.

I figured I would answer he questions first then go into my own.

"Alice is coming because she saw a vision of what happened, she is how we knew about Edward at your house that day. She figured out Maria and Charlotte have a shield as she can only see quick flashes, and what we are doing here. "

"Oh" was all she said

"No Jasper and her are not back together officially, they actually haven't seen each other or anything since you left us dear. We have both been hung up on you, and Bella we both missed you terably. We are sorry for letting you feel so bad, we are sorry we let you leave. We both talked and realized we both had been thinking you needed time to cool off and we let you leave that morning. If we would have known you wouldn't come back we would have went and talked to you then" I figured why not just put it all out. "Bella we were not joking, we can share just fine if it is what you want. We both care about you a lot, and I can't speak for Jasper but I was falling for you when you were in Colorado. I wont' say I loved you because I had just met you but I had hoped it would turn out that way"

"Okay" was all she said. I figured it was a lot for her to process at the current point. "I am going to go and get a shower" she said getting up and walking into the bathroom.

Bella's POV:

"Fine- I left because I wanted to get away from your world. I left because I hoped it would save Anthony from growing up into a life of constant mess, and before you even ask I left because I felt like crap about what I had done the night before. I cared for both of you, you are wonderful guys but then I went and fucked it up by sleeping with both of you. I know we all joked about the 3 of us but that was only a joke and then I went and fucked it all up." I almost yelled at him.

I waited for him to answer my questions.

"Alice is coming because she saw a vision of what happened, she is how we knew about Edward at your house that day. She figured out Maria and Charlotte have a shield as she can only see quick flashes, and what we are doing here. "

"Oh" was all I could say. So we were going into this as blind as we would if we didn't have her. So why is she coming. I guess her and Jasper are together. I was a bit shocked at how this upset me.

"No Jasper and her are not back together officially, they actually haven't seen each other or anything since you left us dear. We have both been hung up on you, and Bella we both missed you terribly. We are sorry for letting you feel so bad, we are sorry we let you leave. We both talked and realized we both had been thinking you needed time to cool off and we let you leave that morning. If we would have known you wouldn't come back we would have went and talked to you then" I figured why not just put it all out. "Bella we were not joking, we can share just fine if it is what you want. We both care about you a lot, and I can't speak for Jasper but I was falling for you when you were in Colorado. I wont' say I loved you because I had just met you but I had hoped it would turn out that way"

"Okay" I said, I needed to think. This was much more honestly then I had planned and not at all what I really wanted to hear. "I am going to go and get a shower" she said getting up and walking into the bathroom.

I got into the bathroom and turned on the tub pouring in the body wash. I had a feeling this would be the last nice bath I got in a while and until I found my son it was the last one I planned to have. I needed to reset and stop worrying about the two guys outside of this room. I needed to worry about the 1, my son, who needed me. I was glad they were not both mad at me, I was glad to know I hadn't caused any problems between them, but I had to get my mind back on track.

I finished up my bath and got dressed. I walked downstairs and saw Jasper had gotten back. I walked over and give him and hug and a kiss, and then walked over to Peter doing the same.

"Okay" I breathed "Right now we will not talk about the 3 of us, we will deal with that when my son is back safe and sound. I am sorry for how I left, it was childish of me. I am glad you both do not hate me, I am sorry again, but I will not talk about this until Anthony is back with us"

I saw the door cracking open and before I could notice Peter was in front of me wrapping his arm around to push me behind him and growling at the door

I heard her before I saw her. "It's just me you moody bastard" Alice groaned at us.

He stood up from the crouch he had lowered into. "Hi Alice" he said and I saw her raise her hand up in a hello. Jasper walked over and gave her a hug.

"I'm sorry to be here only because of such a bad situation" she said looking over at me.

"I can't say I am happy to see you. It has been 4 years, but anyone here to help me get my son back is more then welcome" I told her. I really hated the whole family, but right now I could overlook that for someone to help me with my son.

"Bella I you really mean that I can call the rest of the family. I am sure they would come and help us get, um crap in my 3 second phone call I didn't get your sons name." she looked a bit sad and uncomfortable saying that.

"Anthony" I smiled at her, "Anthony Masen Swan" I told her. She smiled back at me.

"Well I can call the rest of the family, I am sure they would come in a second to help"

Jasper's POV:

Emotions had been running around the room like crazy since Alice had gotten here. At first I felt so much disspointment from Bella I worried about how this would go. I was shock at the lack of anger and rage. There really wasn't any at all, it was so shoved in the back.

As Alice was talking I felt guilt, and then realized as I listened she didn't know Anthony's name yet. She felt bad about that.

I heard Alice ask Bella about bringing the rest of the family to help, and I almost fell over at the amount of pain and longing from Bella. I knew she was going to miss us when we left, I had felt how much she loved out family when we were all in Forks. I also knew her anger when she saw Peter and I that first day at her house.

"Well why the fuck now, Edward already wants me and my son dead since Jasper found us, might as well fuck everything up" I heard her say. I was a bit shocked at her additude about it but I felt the worry and fear and knew the words were just a front.

I walked over and pulled her into a hug feeling the confussion from Alice.

"Bella it will be okay" I said kissing the top of her head "We will get him back safe and sound."

I saw alice glance at me and I wasn't sure what to say. Peter had gotten time to talk to Bella but I hadn't yet. Plus adding what Bella had said after her shower, I couldn't really bring it up until we had found Ant and got him home safe and sound into his mothers arms where he belongs. I would have to get some time to quick ask peter what she said.

Peter looked over at me as if knowing what I was thinking. "Jasper lets go talk and figure out strategy" he said and I knew what he ment. Or at least I hoped I was right.

"What did she say" I asked him as soon as we were out the door.

"Well I quote… "Fine- I left because I wanted to get away from your world. I left because I hoped it would save Anthony from growing up into a life of constant mess, and before you even ask I left because I felt like crap about what I had done the night before. I cared for both of you, you are wonderful guys but then I went and fucked it up by sleeping with both of you. I know we all joked about the 3 of us but that was only a joke and then I went and fucked it all up."" He laughed as he quoted her word for word.

"Isn't vampire memory great." He smirked. Fricken idiot.

"So what did you tell her back?" Well okay tell me what she says and no what you say back, that is helpful.

"Well she had asked me a few other things before she told me that, so besides telling her that you hadn't seen Alice since you guys separated, that you and Alice were not back together, and that you didn't love Alice" he said. Well as glad as I was that Bella wanted to know that I was more interested in other things.

"What else?"

"I told her the truth, that we" he did air quotes again, "both been hung up on you, and Bella we both missed you terribly. We are sorry for letting you feel so bad, we are sorry we let you leave. We both talked and realized we both had been thinking you needed time to cool off and we let you leave that morning. If we would have known you wouldn't come back we would have went and talked to you then." He paused, " and that" great more air quotes "Bella we were not joking, we can share just fine if it is what you want. We both care about you a lot, and I can't speak for Jasper but I was falling for you when you were in Colorado. I wont' say I loved you because I had just met you but I had hoped it would turn out that way" and then he did end air quotes.

"You are a fucking idiot"

"What?" he asked, "you told me"

"No not for what you told her, for the god damn air quotes" I laughed.

"Oh" He smirked. Well I was glad he found this as funny as I did.

We both sat there talking about what could and couldn't do when it came to getting Anthony back. We really had no idea what Maria and / or Charlotte wanted. We knew Maria was with Charlotte but did she even have anything to do with this? We both thought so. It was just too much of a mess, and having a child being shoved into it as the leverage made it all even worse.

We both got up and walked back inside, not much had been decided but we would need the rest of the family, well not counting Edward to help us with this. It was going to be a mess.

AN- Again sorry for the funky of this chapter, my brain really is not here as I was writing this, but I didn't want to not write while sick because then I wouldn't be writing again till march.