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Epilogue: Hermione's Diary
Many years passed since the return in time, the quests and the fighting. People had grown old and some had ended up dying of old age. Shortly after his mother's funeral, Harry packed up her belongings before finding her diary.
Dear Diary,
I do not even know how I can write this, it's insane but it seems that I travelled back in time and I managed to save Sirius Black. I can't believe it, when I think that some time ago I took Harry in my arms to console him for the loss of a man he had so much appreciated. I could not save Lily and James and I hope he'll forgive me for that! I do not have a clear idea of what I am going to do but it is certain that what I want more than anything in the world is to save all those lost lives where I come from.
Ah, if Molly saw me, she who regarded me as her daughter and whom I saw die, the one I saw inert in her husband's arms. Arthur, I could never forget his face full of tears, anger and sadness. Molly I sincerely hope that I can save you just like Ron, your son I loved for the little time I could show him. I too would save him, I would protect him, I give you my word. Fred also will be under my watch, without him George seems so alone, like half of himself.
Remus, you too if you saw me ... I saw you just a few days ago alive and yet so alone, I would do anything for you and your wife to survive. You have been such a good teacher for me that I hope one day to be able to teach as well as you. Finally I say that but I do not even know how long I will stay here, maybe even I should die to allow my child version to live. I do not know where all this will lead me but sacrifice myself to save people to whom I agree to be a way of losing my life.
I must also save Snape, there I really do not know how to go about it because he will not want my help ... I could not save the only woman he ever loved then why would he believe me? Harry had told me everything about this man who, in the end, was different from what he was letting out, he deserved to live ... I would save him I swear ... My little Luna,I must also allow the world to enjoy your beautiful madness that I miss so much today.
Oh and then you Sirius! You have not left me since I found you in front of the house of the Potters. I give you my word that I would not let them smear your name as it had happened to me. The Blacks need you, your person, your character to restore their name. I swear to you, you could enjoy your godson and see through him his father as you repeated so often. I am so tired ... Tomorrow we go hunting for the Horcrux, I have already done this once I'm afraid I do not have the strength to start all over again from the beginning ... Harry, Ron if only you were by my side today '...
Harry turned the pages, he was crying, his mother had been so alone. Too much had depended on her at one time, too much pressure on the shoulders of such a young woman! It hurt for her just by reading these words written yet so long ago.
Dear Diary,
I feel so lost today ... Harry called me Mom for the first time and I could see Sirius's face dazzle with such joy. I should have been her best friend, her confidante, help her with her homework and throw her black looks when I saw her not listening to it. I miss those times so much, I can't talk to Sirius, who would think I'm not happy to have been accepted by Harry, of course that's not it!
I love Harry as my own son and I'm afraid to forget the memory of MY Harry and when I see Ron the same fear takes me in the stomach. I am supposed to teach children to defend themselves against evil but I myself would never have managed to fight it without my friends, without them ... Harry, Harry, what would you do in my place? You said to me that I was the brain of the group and Ron laughed but you were our strength, how to continue...
I weep to write this lines and I hope that the ink of my pen will not fade, if I can't talk about my feelings, writing them relieves me anyway.
The young man had sat down to continue reading, his legs trembled. He had always seen his mother as a strong woman without any flaws even in the worst moments of her life. He saw today another facet of her, more melancholy, more sincere, and more honest with herself. Never would he have thought that she had lived such torments in her heart. He then continued reading until the last page Hermione had written.
Dear Diary,
I am not fooled, I have only a short time left to live and I want to write a little more to free my mind. To see all the lives saved from the war, which for them had been nothing but a battle, is a thing that fills my heart with joy. Remus, Tonks, Fred, Molly, Snape, Sirius, Luna, Ron all I managed to protect you from the shadows, I managed to keep death away from your lives. I could never forget Severus who had thanked me for an end of life when he had been able to get rid of his guilt before he went out with a smile.
I would never forget Molly's beaming face that had her children around her at the end of this fight, I would never forget all that. I'm so happy that the prospect of dying does not even scare me, I'll join Sirius who has been gone for two years now. It is in the order of things after all, I have had the chance to see my children grow up, my grandchildren and even great-grandchildren. I am a woman, a filled witch who can leave this world with a gentle soul knowing that I leave behind me a world free from imminent fear of death and filled with love and magic.
Harry finished these lines, leaving all the tears he had kept from the funeral going out, he would give the diary to Olivia, she too had to read those lines. He then went to the tomb of her mother.
"Mom, I never told you how much I loved you, I would never have been so happy without you in my life. You are the most brilliant witch and the best mother that ever existed."
He then took her diary in his hands and noticed that a small engraving was present on the back: To my two wonderful children who sparkled my life with the most beautiful magic.
END !
