Rose kissed Finn. How does Finn feel about this?
Rose had kissed him. Had actually kissed him.
That was definitely not what he was expecting her to do.
That's not to say it wasn't a good surprise, because it was. But now that he had time to think, to process after getting her to safety, getting her the medical help she needed, he felt confused, conflicted.
He liked Rose, he really did.
But…
There was someone else he liked too. How could he feel this way for two very different people?
Okay, he amended, they weren't that different. They were headstrong, willing to do what was necessary in the fight for what they believed in, they both saved him more than once, even knowing who he was.
Rose was small, but she was scarily fierce and didn't hesitate to take him down when he was going to try to get to Rey. That wasn't his best moment, he'd admit. Rey was strong, she would be safe regardless, he was just worried for the safety of his first friend, the second person to show him kindness. Rose was pretty, she had straight jet-black hair, her bangs just above her bright eyes. In the short time he had known her, she was fiery and didn't take crap from anyone. She made hard choices and family was the most important thing to her. His heart broke for her, she had just lost her sister and that was tearing her apart. Yes, he decided, he definitely liked Rose.
Poe was tall and thin, his short dark hair slightly curled. To Finn, Poe was usually a pretty open book, his emotions displayed in his stormy eyes. He tended to clench his jaw when he was angry or upset about something, and Finn definitely preferred it when he smiled widely, the corners of his eyes crinkling. He was loyal to those he cared about, to the Resistance, to General Organa most of all, and it had surprised him at first, but Poe was loyal to Finn as well. His bond with BB8 was impressive, his droid was one of the most important things in his life. When they met he had been nothing but kind, had even refused to call him by a number, FN-2187, had given him his new name. Poe made him feel human, even as he left everything he knew behind and was thrown helplessly into the unknown, to Jakku. Finn had thought he lost Poe in that crash, and was surprised by how devastated he felt when he had only known the man for minutes really. It was the biggest relief to come face to face with Poe at the Resistance base, BB8 in tow. Yes, right from the start he had always liked Poe.
How did he choose? Did he have to choose? His thoughts tumbled around in his head as he watched Rose rest. True, he hadn't known either for very long, but he already felt a strong connection to both of them. With a sigh he rested his head in his hands for a moment, running a hand along his face wearily before his eyes traveled to find Poe, watching from a window with General Organa. His heart was heavy as he thought about what he would do if he had to make a choice. If it came down to it, could he make a decision? Poe or Rose? His heart clenched at the thought.
Poe looked back and met his eyes, a steady smile formed on his lips and Finn found himself smiling back. Later, he decided. He didn't need to make a decision yet, he could deal with this turmoil after they got to a new base safely.
