Spencer's POV

I was so mad. And sad. I secretly liked Toby. I thought the girls would understand. I mean, Aria is dating her teacher for crying out loud. And no one is judging Emily for being gay, but suddenly when I like someone they have to judge him and me. I am never going to hear the end of this one. I just kept running and crying. I didn't even know where I was going. I was going so fast I didn't see where I was going. I knocked right into someone.
S- I'm so sorry!

T- Spencer?
S- (stops crying) Toby?
T- what are you doing? I thought you were with Hanna and the rest of them.
S- I was.
T- what happened?
S- what about you? You look all beat up!
T- yah.
S- are you ok?
T- not really. Are you?
S- not even close.
T- c'mon I want to take you somewhere. Do you trust me?
Did I trust him? I really don't know. I barely know him. But the more I thought about it the more I realized I couldn't really trust anyone else. So I said yes and he smiled. He held out his hand and I took it. I had no idea where he was going but I just followed him.
T- we're here.
S- where is here?
T- it is some park I found one time when I was planning on running away. I come here a lot.
He sat down behind a tree. I debated whether or not to sit next to him. I finally decided to.
T- so why were you crying?
Now I felt stupid for crying. That's what a guy is for. To make a girl feel stupid. Hehe.
S- it's kind of stupid. But-
T- but?
I sighed. And told him. Everything.
Everything. Stuff about how my family doesn't really pay attention to me, it's all about Melissa and her new fiancé Wren. After I explained everything he just nodded.
T- I understand.
S- you do?
T- of course! Ever since my mom died, my dad ignores me.
S- really? What about Jenna?
T- he treats her like a princess. Literally.
S- I'm sorry. That is awful. And your dad?
T- beats me.
After he said that his face started to crumble a little bit. I felt really bad for him. His mom is dead and his dad beats him for no reason. I had to do something. I hugged him and let him cry on my shoulder. He hugged me tight and I held onto his shoulders.
S- I'm so sorry Toby.
Toby just nodded and buried his face in his hands. I patted his back.
T- I'm sorry, I just really lose it sometimes.
S- it's not your fault. I would lose it to.
T- (laughs) yah. You wouldn't last one day in my life.
S- hey! (playful hits him)
T- but anyway, what about you?
S- what do you mean?
T- I mean, why were you crying?
S- I don't know if I should tell you...
Then he held my hand. I have no idea why he did that.
T- I promise I won't get mad. Whatever it is, I want to be there for you!
S- ok. I told Hanna, Emily, and Aria that I like you and they all freaked out.
T- they did?
S- yah. Then I got upset.
I probably shouldn't have said that. Toby looked disappointed. Oh my gosh what if he really DOES LIKE ME?!
S- Toby? What is it?
T- it's just- I like you Spencer!
S- you mean, more than a friend?
T- yah. I was worried you wouldn't feel the same way. I haven't really had a real relationship before.
S- well, all the relationships I've had have been Melissa's ex or her current boyfriend. So I guess I haven't really been in a serious relationship before either.
T- but do you like me?
This was the question I had been dreading to hear. I do like him, and he likes me. But what will other people think?
S- I think I do like you Toby, honestly I do.
T- really?
S- but-
T- but what?
S- I'm worried what people will think.
T- of me and you?
S- yah.
T- why?
S- because if we are together people will think I had something to do with Ally's murder or something.
T- so you don't want to be with me because you are worried about your "image"?!
S- that sounded better in my head.
T- (laughs sarcastically)That is so typical! Ok, first, I didn't kill Alison! I might have hated her, but not enough to kill her.

S- but what do you mean it is so typical? What is typical?

T- it is so typical for people to push me away or throw me away because they are afraid of what people will think. Do you know how hard that is? You are little Miss Perfect! How could anyone ignore you?

S- that is not true! My parents don't care about me remember?! They care about Melissa! I thought you said you understood.

T- I thought you were one of those people who didn't care what other people think! Now I am not so sure I understand you. And what do you have to be complaining about? At least you HAVE parents!

S- you have your dad!

Oops. I forgot that his dad beats him and ignores him. Oh god. I really am a bitch.

T- right. The dad that is drunk all the time, barely notices I am alive, and beats me! You call that a dad?! (runs away)

S- Toby wait! (quietly) please, don't leave me.

Why was today so complicated? I started crying again. I don't even know where I am. Toby never said where we were. I was too tired to try and get home. So I just lay there, crying softly.