Beginning Our Life
Last Time: Sarah and Puck realized they need each other now more than other. Tina and Blaine both trusted their friends with a big secret. And that's what you missed on Beginning Our Life.
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Accept Yourself
Sarah's Point of View
I stared at myself in the full length mirror. I was dressed in the sexiest clothes I had; a tight black tank top and short jean shorts with red high heels. My hair was loose and curly, plus I had on bright red lip stick. Honestly, I looked disgusting in a way. This wasn't me. Sure I looked pretty awesome and Puck would love this, but I hated it.
"What the hell are you wearing?"
I jumped, causing me to trip and fall to the carpet.
Puck rushed forward, "Sarah!"
I laughed softly and looked up at him, "Hi."
He chuckled and helped me sit up while kneeling next to me, "What's going on? You look...wow, but really? You had a baby two weeks ago and it's the middle of January."
I shrugged and stared down at the ground, "I don't know. I don't really wanna go to school tomorrow, I guess."
Puck sighed, "I understand, but what does that have to do with dressing like a hooker?"
"What am I going to wear?" I asked.
He laughed, "Seriously? Alright, I'll dress you right now in appropriate clothes for a teenager in the winter." He stood and made his way over to my dresser. Puck pulled out a pair of jeans, some purple socks, and a long sleeve blue shirt. He tossed them at me, "This is what you're wearing tomorrow and for now," he walked over to his clothes where he pulled out an old sweatshirt, "You're wearing this."
I smiled, "Ok."
"I'm serious," Puck came to sit next to me, "You don't need to wear something even Santana wouldn't wear to prove to people that you're still you even after you had a baby. A baby that's soaking up all the attention in the living room and missing his mom right now, by the way."
I leaned into him, "I just don't even know anymore," I whispered, "Everything used to be so easy before you knocked me up, no offense, and then everything became easy while being pregnant because I got used to it, but now I don't really remember how to go to school normally."
He laughed, "I'm not offended, but you have to admit, Nate's pretty great."
I smiled and nodded, "Yeah, he is."
"So this is what you're going to do," Puck knelt in front of me. He brushed back a stray curl from my face, "You're going to take off those shorts and put on some sweatpants and then you're going to slip on my sweatshirt. Of course you have to take off these giant heels and put on a pair of slippers. Then wipe off the prostitute makeup because it's not you. Got it?"
"Yeah," I breathed.
He kissed me softly, "I'm so proud of you. You're amazing, ok?"
I hugged him tightly, "Thanks."
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
I avoided eye contact with everyone as I made the slow trek to my locker. I could feel people staring at me. Finally, I was at my locker where I quickly spun the combination and hid my face behind the door.
"What're you hiding from?"
I jumped and spun around to face Ryder, "Um, well, humiliation."
He chuckled, "Come on, look at you, you have nothing to be embarrassed about. You're awesome."
I laughed and gave him a quick hug, "Thanks."
Jake and Marley walked up, "What's up?" Jake asked while patting my back.
I shook my head, "Nothing much."
Marley looked in my locker, "Where are your pictures of Nathan?"
I picked up my backpack abandoned at my feet, "In here."
"Let me see, let me see," Marley begged.
I laughed and grabbed out the photos. She quickly grabbed them and looked them over with a smile.
"Aww, look at this one," Marley held up one of Puck holding Nate while being slightly bent so Beth could see as well.
"Yeah, that's my favorite too," I smiled softly.
"My favorite's this one," Jake grabbed a picture from Marley and held it up. I laughed; it was the one of him and Nate with their matching leather jackets on.
The bell rang making me jump again.
Ryder smirked, "That scare you? Come on, I'll walk you to class."
I nodded while grabbing out my history book and binder before stuffing my backpack in my locker along with setting the pictures on top. I shut the door and stepped back, "Alright, let's go."
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
I tightened my jacket around myself as I walked out to the bleachers with Sam and Brittany, "I hate this."
Sam shook his head, "Don't worry, I'm going to figure out how the Warblers cheated and then we'll get our choir room back."
"You're so smart," Brittany cooed, "I love you."
I stared down at the ground, "I miss Puck," I muttered.
Sam wrapped his arms around me and Brittany, "Well we're right here, so love us."
I laughed and leaned into him, "Thanks, that sounds like a good idea."
Tina and Sugar skipped ahead of us, "Come on!" Tina yelled over her shoulder.
"There's a big announcement!" Sugar added.
I rolled my eyes, "I bet Sugar got a new pony."
"I am so jealous," Brittany shook her head.
I glanced at her around Sam, "That was a joke."
Blaine walked up, "Hey."
"Why the sad face?" Sam asked.
Blaine shrugged, "No reason."
I gave him a small smile, "You sure?"
He nodded, "Oh yeah. I bet you'll all like Tina's announcement." Blaine turned around and headed over to Finn despite us being right at the bleachers.
I sat on the icy seats, "I wonder what's got him down."
"I don't like when Blaine's sad," Brittany said quietly while sitting between me and Sam, "Then it's like we're all sad."
Finn came to stand in front of everyone now gathered on the bleachers; Blaine having sat next to Unique which was also the furthest spot away from us, "Ok," Finn started, "So Tina had something to say. Take the floor," he sat down by Marley as Tina replaced him.
Tina smiled, "Alright everyone, I have a big announcement. McKinley High School is going to be throwing their first annual...Sadie Hawkins dance!"
We were all quiet for a second before everyone started whispering to each other; except for me. The air seemed to drain out of me. A dance. A public, school, dance. I couldn't go to that. Nate was just born, plus I'd never find a dress that could fit me; I had no idea what size I was now. I wasn't going. No way. Even though it'd be fun, no. I can't. It'd be humiliating. And it's not like Puck could do anything, Sadie Hawkins meant that the girls asked the guys, so everything's fine. As long as Puck didn't find out.
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
"Finn! Finn, Finn, Finn, Finn," I ran up to my brother.
He turned around, "What?"
I rushed into the warm school before beginning to walk backwards, "We need to talk."
"Alright," Finn led me to Mr. Schue's old office, "What's up?"
I smirked while plopping down in one of the chair's, "You're so professional."
He chuckled and sat on the desk, "I know, it's like I'm a real teacher."
"Let's get down to business," I crossed my legs, "You are to never mention the dance to Puck."
Finn laughed, "What?"
I leaned forward, "Don't tell Puck about the Sadie Hawkins dance, please."
"Do you not want to go?" Finn asked.
I shook my head, "No," I whispered, "I can't go to that. Have you seen me? I can't wear a dress in public at a school dance."
Finn looked me over, "You're not fat."
I rolled my eyes and sat back, "Well I'm not skinny."
"Come on, Sars, what are you doing?" Finn asked, "Please don't turn into Marley. I'm still kinda mad at myself about that and I know I'll feel ten times worse if it's you."
"You felt bad about Marley?" I said, "How come?"
He shrugged and slid off the desk to walk around the room, "I'm sort of her teacher right now. Teacher's are supposed to notice things like when their students aren't eating or when the gay kid's upset and love sick or when their baby sister can't even look at herself in the mirror."
I chose to ignore the gay kid thing-like what?-and focussed on the part about me and Marley, "Come on, it wasn't your part to know. Finn, Marley becoming bulimic was not your fault. It wasn't mine either or Jake's. It was Kitty's fault if we're pointing fingers."
Finn sighed, "I know that's the truth, but still..."
I stood and went over to give him a tight hug, "I know."
Finn squeezed back then pushed me off, "Stop before people get the wrong idea," he glanced out the glass door before heading back to the desk. He sat in Mr. Schue's chair, "I won't tell Puck."
I smiled, "Thanks."
"But I think you should tell him even if you don't want to go," Finn continued.
I shook my head, "No, I don't think that's a good idea."
"I do."
"I don't."
"Do it."
"No."
"Come on. For your big bro."
"Shut up."
"Make me."
"I hate you."
"You're adorable."
"I'm not telling him."
"Fine, don't."
"I won't."
"Ok."
"Good."
"Yeah."
"Alright."
"Go to class."
"Why?"
"Just do it and tell Puck."
"It's just a dance."
"That you're scared to go to."
"Says who?"
"You. Now out of my sight child."
The bell rang and I scowled at Finn, "I'll do what I want; you can't control me."
"Understandable," Finn nodded, "Later loser."
I smirked, "After while crocodile."
Once out of the office, I leaned against the door with the smile still on my face. I missed my brother.
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
I sat on my bed while gently setting Nathan between my legs so he could stare up at me, "Mommy missed you today," I smiled, "Yes, I did. What did you do with Grandma and Aunt Sammie today? Was it fun?"
The door cracked open and Puck stuck his head in, "Am I interrupting?"
I shook my head, "Nope, come on in, Daddy."
He chuckled and came to sit on the other side of Nathan. I smiled at him. I've managed to not mention the dance the past couple days in anyway to Puck. Finn seems to have done the same as well, which is good. I was nervous about Jake though, especially since he kinda blew me off when I asked him to stay quiet and he avoided my eye contact the rest of math.
Puck stared down at Nate, "We need to do something with your hair."
"No!" I reached across to gently push him, "It's a miracle he still has this full head of hair, you're not messing it up."
"I wouldn't dare," Puck smirked, "I'm just saying, this mess won't do him any good in the girlfriend department. How's he supposed to get a girl to ask him to the Sadie Hawkins dance when he looks like this?"
My mouth gaped, "Um, well, I think he's, you know, perfect the way he is."
"I know, Sarah," Puck said softly.
I understood the double meaning behind his words and looked down at Nathan kicking his legs against the blankets.
"So there's a dance at McKinley and you don't ask your boyfriend to go with you, that's cool," Puck muttered. He tilted my face up to get me to look at him, "I had to hear about the dance from my brother, but that doesn't bother me as much as what Kitty did."
I closed my eyes, "What'd she do?" I whispered.
"Kitty asked me to the dance," Puck stated.
Angry tears threatened to fall as I tore my face away from Puck.
"Why didn't you ask me?" he asked, "You like dressing up. You like going to dances. You like hanging out with your friends. You like when we go on dates like that. So why didn't you ask me?"
"I didn't think you'd want to go," I blinked rapidly.
Puck groaned, "Don't lie to me Sarah."
I bit my lip, "I'm sorry."
"No, you're not," Puck crossed his arms, "Why wouldn't you tell me there's a Sadie Hawkins dance at school that I know you want to go to?"
I carefully climbed off the bed and went over to the standing dresser Mom bought for my fancier clothes. I grabbed out my homecoming dress and looked at the tag. There was no way this would fit me now. My prom dress was the same.
A sob fell across my lips as I leaned onto the wall, "Because I'm fat."
"What?" Puck whispered. He picked up Nathan and quickly went to place him in his crib before coming back to me. He lifted me into his arms and went to sit on the bed, "You are not fat. Don't think that. Has someone said something to you?"
I shook my head and continued crying, "Have you seen me?"
"Yeah, I have, and you're pretty hot," Puck said against my hair.
I laughed softly into his shoulder, "Yeah right."
"Wanna know a secret?" Puck asked.
I nodded.
I felt him smirk, "Last night, I realized that we haven't done anything since Christmas Eve and that's a pretty long time, so I looked at you."
I glanced up, "What?"
Puck shrugged and wiped away my tears, "I sorta took your shirt off last night while you were sleeping; and let me tell you, you look exactly the same as nine months ago, alright? We're going to that dance. I don't freaking care if you have to get a dress two sizes bigger or even ten sizes bigger, though that's not what's going to happen because, well, look at you."
I blushed, "Are you positive?"
"Absolutely," Puck breathed before kissing me, "You're not fat. You're not overweight. You're perfect and beautiful. So go ahead, ask me."
I trailed my hands down his chest, "Noah Puckerman, will you go to the Sadie Hawkins dance with me?"
"No," he answered with all sincerity.
I gasped and hit his shoulder, "Jerk."
He laughed, "Alright, alright, yes I will go to the dance with you."
I hugged him, "Thanks...for everything."
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
I marched down the hallway towards Kitty's locker where she was putting on lip gloss. Just as she smacked her lips in the mirror, I snapped the locker close.
"Who the hell do you think you are?" I growled.
Kitty smirked while crossing her arms, "I don't know what you're talking about."
I rolled my eyes, "You asked my boyfriend to the dance and you asked if he'd take your virginity, skank. What is your problem?"
Kitty stepped closer, but I didn't back off, "I figured he needed to be taken care of since you're off the market for another couple weeks. Someone has to satisfy your boyfriend, why not me?"
My fists clenched, "Puck is perfectly happy with me."
"Really?" Kitty asked, "I doubt it. I think it's impossible for a guy to go that long without sex and your boyfriend's no exception. Now you tell me, why didn't you even ask Puck in the first place?"
"None of your business," I slowly said.
Kitty smiled while her eyes raked down my body, "You've gained like a hundred pounds since becoming pregnant."
"I've never heard such a ridiculous lie," I scoffed.
"Interesting because I haven't seen you wear any of your old clothes in a while," Kitty leaned against her locker.
"What do you know? You didn't even know who I was last year," I snapped.
She shrugged, "Whatever. I do know that you're fat and that your boyfriend's going to move on any day now because you're holding back."
There was a smack before I could register anything. I hadn't even realized what had happened until Kitty screamed and my hand stung.
"Bitch!" she dove at me.
I screamed as she pushed me into the lockers, "Get off!" I spun her around, "You don't know anything about me!"
Kitty reached and grabbed my hair, pulling it as hard as possible, "I'm pretty observant, fatty."
I tightened my grip on her shoulders and pushed her harder against the lockers, "Don't call me that."
"What are you going to do about it?" Kitty taunted, "Sit on me?"
Just as I was about to slap her again, I was lifted into the air, "No Sarah!"
I struggled in Blaine's arms, "Back off! I need to get her!"
Kitty screamed as Ryder dragged her away, "I'm going to kill her!"
I kicked against Blaine, "Put me down!"
He struggled and started walking down the hall, "Stop, you're going to get suspended and that's not what you need right now." I choked back sobs as Blaine carried me into an empty classroom. He set me in a chair and stared at me in disbelief, "What was that?"
I shrugged and looked at the ground, "She's a terrible person." Blaine passed me a tissue which I used to wipe my eyes, "She asked Puck to Sadie Hawkins," I continued. I took a deep breath, "Before me."
Blaine looked confused as he sat in the chair next to me, "You didn't ask Puck?"
"I didn't want to go," I whimpered, "I'm going to look terrible in a dress."
Blaine wrapped his arms around me, "You're beautiful."
I cried, "No, I'm not."
"What did Puck say?" Blaine asked.
"He said no to Kitty, but had me ask him because he knows that I really do kinda want to go even though everyone will laugh at me," I said softly, "He told me I was perfect."
"You are," Blaine whispered, "Sarah, you just had a baby which is a completely reasonable explanation as to why some of your clothes might not fit. And let's be honest, you're pretty skinny compared to half of America, like you're practically anorexic."
I laughed through my tears, "I'll take that as a compliment."
"Good," Blaine chuckled, "Because I think what I said sounded kinda mean towards everyone else."
"Oh it was," I smiled.
He shrugged, "No big deal."
I hugged him, "Thanks."
"So are you going to the dance then?" Blaine asked.
I nodded, "I'll need a new dress though."
"Doesn't matter," Blaine said, "You would have gotten a new dress anyways, now you'll just have to get one a size bigger."
I leaned into him, "Tina told me you guys are going to go together."
"As friends," Blaine corrected, "But yes."
"Don't hurt her," I told him, "She really likes you."
Blaine sighed, "I know, I just like someone else."
My eyes widened as I remembered my conversation with Finn the other day and when Blaine came over to talk, but ended up just telling Finn and Puck.
I sat back, "Tell me?"
He chuckled, "I don't know."
"Please," I whined, "I told you my secret."
"It's Sam," Blaine muttered.
I blinked before nodding and giving Blaine a reassuring hug, "It's ok."
He nodded and tightened his hold on me, "I know."
"We'll have fun," I said into his shoulder.
"You bet," Blaine whispered.
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
A/N: I really like this chapter and hope you do too! Like I'm really proud because I think it's one of the most central ones I've done. What do you think of Sarah back at school? Or even just unpregnant Sarah? PLEASE REVIEW with any questions, comments, concerns, or suggestions! I'd love to hear your thoughts on this chapter or even that crazy last episode!
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
Dance-sing-live - You make me so happy! I'm glad you loved it!
Tyra - Thanks a billion! I love hearing that since I'm not completely sure if what I write seems real enough if you know what I mean.
Gabby - I'm sorry, but you know they'll be back together! That last episode was one of the best Finchel episodes ever in my opinion.
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
Sneak Peak: "Are you happy?" "Yeah," I smiled, "I really am. You?" Sarah bit her lip, "One sec, I'll show you."
Dance time!
