Hello.. :)
It's been a while, isn't it?
Well.. It's almost November and finally, I updated the new chapter (Hooray!). But, I haven't got any review (yet), even just one. I feel worried about my story. Who knows it is actually boring because the lack of reviews (There is nothing, actually). But then again, why did I worry about it? I write because I want to! (Yeah! That's the spirit!)
Okay.. That was weird.. -_-
Here's the next chapter! Wait.. There's something more! I just re-edit the previous chapter (But, it doesn't affect the plot) and that's it.
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Chapter 2 How Stupid I Was
As the time went by, all the classes, including my class, were doing the usual daily routine. Studying, teaching, nodding the right answer, asking questions even though it's just a simple question such as "What is the meaning of 'an apple'?". Well, today was an awkward day. Why? It wasn't because of Gray's stripping action, he used to wear nothing other than an underwear when the math class began and he was punished for his action. However, he hadn't stopped his bad habit even after many punishments. At least, Gray doesn't have the same bad habit as Natsu's.
And thus, my hands were trembling
The real reason why my hands were trembling because of a certain person. And he sat right in front of me. He sat right in front me and doing nothing because the teacher was giving us a speech about the history of art. Her speech was rather boring because I'm not interested in history. I need a real art class, not a history class. But, thanks to the person in front of me, I didn't feel bored at all.
At least for now...
The pink haired boy ,who sat beside me, suddenly fell asleep without noticing the teacher. He covered his head with his book, rather big one so that no one, except me, didn't notice that he was sleeping rather quietly. I think it was a good signal for me to do something I never do secretly. "I hope Natsu won't notice it" I took my white eraser and the size of my eraser was small and clean because I just bought it 2 days ago.
Yesterday, after I had finished the first volume of the series, I came to conclusion to try my love luck by following what Sakura, the main character of the manga , did. The manga said that if a girl writes her crush's name on an eraser, which is the white one, and she hides it as a secret for about more than 2 months, her crush would return her feelings as a "Yes" answer. I thought it was a good idea for me, who knows the one who sat in front me has the same feelings as mine.
I giggled as quiet as possible before Natsu woke up, he still looked as if he didn't alive, otherwise he would find out my secret about my crush. I wished Levy sat beside me, it seems she looked so concentrated with her speech. She didn't even dare to talk to anyone even her friend, who turned to be her seatmate too, had been already talked to her, about how bored the teacher is, however, she decided to ignore her.
So, I took my pencil and started to write his name on my beloved eraser. I could hear my heart beat faster than usual. I was scared about Natsu, who knows he just pretended to sleep and he secretly peeks at me through his huge sized book. I looked at my right side and there was nothing changed at all. Natsu fell asleep, Gray didn't sleep instead he was going to take off his pants but his seatmate prevented him to do so, Levy kept staring our teacher, and etc.
While on the other side were the same too. Except for Loke, he was very busy with his girl issues by poking his own classmates-who sat in front of him. Come to think of it, despite his young age, Loke is one of the most attractive kids at my school. He is cute and his hairstyle is unique too, though Natsu's hair is more unique due to his natural pink color, but Loke isn't my type. I know how cute he is, it's just that.. I prefer someone that has a cool aura like him, of course.
"Should I write it? What if it's just a fraud for the readers? Maybe it is a stupid thing to do"
I felt doubt for myself. My right hand suddenly stopped before the tip of my pencil had touched my eraser. This was the moment where sometimes I'm not sure whether writing his name on my eraser is a smart thing to do or not. I wanted to confess my feelings but I was afraid he would reject me and his other admirer would find out the truth within a day due to his popularity. Do you know how scared I was? Especially when you started to make a problem toward the girls since they have more sensitive side. Because most of them don't like to say "I'm sorry". The word "Sorry" seems the hardest word for them.
For every second that just passed, I kept thinking. "Am I sure about it? I want my wish come true even just for temporary. But, what if Natsu finds out my secret?" I looked at my right side again. "He does look like a dead tree. Maybe I should do it now, who knows what would happen, right?"
After thinking and facing my doubtful feelings, I wrote his name right away.
Currently, I was copying a math homework from Levy who sat besides me. As for Natsu, went away with Gray to continue sharing their arguments...
"Ice Queen!"
"Flame head!"
"Ice freak!"
And that was the only words I could hear before both of them ended up fighting to show who's the strongest, so, why did they argue about fire and ice first? Because the answer is quite simple. Natsu likes fire, he almost burned the whole class when attempting the science experiment 6 months ago, while Gray likes ice, because he likes frozen foods, no, wait... It's because he likes ice cream a lot especially the vanilla one.
As you know that fire and ice never ever get back together, like them, except for certain circumstances. Despite their differences, both elements also have the same weakness and their weakness is a steel, which is the pseudonym for Erza. No one including Natsu and Gray would brave enough to face Erza's deadliest wrath.
About my math homework, I actually had done it but I wrote it in the wrong book. It was a simple mistake lead to a bigger mistake. And I only had 5 minutes more before the bell singing its song and I was still at the halfway. "It isn't normal for me to see you like this. What did you do last night anyway?"
"I read a manga"
"You read a manga and forget your homework?"
I nodded. "Recently, I do my homeworks every late night until I forget that there's still one more homework"
"You shouldn't do your homework every late night. You still have a plenty of time beside the night. Plus, the homework was given a week ago" Levy gave me a very beneficial advice. But, it sounded very useless to me because it wouldn't work out. It wouldn't work out either.
"I would do that if he didn't show up every day!" I gripped my pencil as if I want to break it into many pieces. So many small pieces. Then, Levy raised one of her eyebrows, while Natsu and Gray hadn't stopped their fight yet. "Do you know how destructive he could be? He often barges into my room when I suppose to do my homework. And he always made a mess along with his cat"
"Yeah.. Natsu could be so destructive. I still remember the day when he almost burned the whole class 6 months ago. I never expected that would happen to us" Hearing the word "Destructive", which came out of Levy's mouth, is also one of many words I could describe about my seatmate despite his likeness to steal my pen.
"Me too. But, hey, can we just forget about him for a second? I need to continue copying my homework, first" I said as my right hand moving around the table. Somehow, I didn't notice that Levy was attempting to open my pencil box where I put my white eraser as its primary safe house. But, I just let her do that because I knew I could trust her, especially about my crush toward the most assertive boy at school.
"Lucy? Are you kidding me?" Levy covered her mouth so to prevent her from laughing of embarrassment. "Did you really write his name on it?" she asked and I had no choice except answering her question and later questions about my eraser.
I nodded. "I want to test my love luck. Who knows it would work for me. The manga said that if a girl writes her crush's name on her eraser and then she hides for more than 2 months, her crush will return her feelings"
"It sounds a good idea, if it does work! You know it's just a manga, right?" she asked again.
"You'll never know if you never try, right?"
"Oh well.. I hope your 'love spell' would work this time"
The school bell rang. And people started to continue their daily routine.
As for me, I sat on my chair from the start so I didn't have to run back to the class like my classmates just did. They have always been like that, keep running like a river. I wished I was one of them if I have done my math homework. "I'm sooooo tired" Natsu groaned as he sat on his chair. "Luce, what are you doing?"
"I read a book. Why did you ask anyway?" I tried myself to hide my face behind the novel I borrowed from Levy a week ago. Because I was so tired to see his face. It wasn't because I hate him, it's because I don't want to. That's all. Plus, everytime I see his face, it always reminds me of destruction and other destruction.
"Is that another sappy novel? Geez, Luce. You're still young"
"So, what if I'm still young? At least, I never steal my friend's pen"
"Are you still talking about that?"
"Of course. Have you ever considered to buy your own pen?"
"Nope. I don't have to. I still have pencils. Why do I need to buy a pen?"
"If you did have pencils, why did you keep borrowing my pen?"
"Because our teacher never allowed us to use pencil, that's why"
"Okay. I gave up. I don't want to talk with him anymore"
The teacher had just come, which means we went back to study again. As for the subject, now is math and I felt relieved that I did my homework even though I did it at school. At least, I had done it before the math subject started. Unlike Natsu, he got another same punishment for the same crime. He forgot his homework and his reason was the same too, he forgot because he was busy taking care his family. Since Natsu's foster father was gone 2 years ago and he never heard any news about him until now, Natsu must be the leader of his family.
There is another side about Natsu that I like-as a friend. He is a responsible person and caring towards his family even if they weren't blood related. Even though he is 11 years old and never give my pen back, he has this leader aura. And I rarely meet a person with that aura.
"Now go back to your seat, Natsu" said the teacher.
Natsu went back to his chair with a frown on his face.
"Are you okay, Natsu?" I asked.
"Man.. I don't want to rewrite my homework again"
"It's your own fault. You should learn how to manage your own time"
"Okay, class. Now, open page 54. Today we will study a new lesson" said the teacher as she wrote numbers because she is a math teacher, not a biology teacher. Math is actually fun if one learns it very seriously and likes the subject. As for me, I like math because I don't have to memorize the whole book except if I'm a high school student, my mother told me that being a high school student isn't easy as it looks like. Formula, thick books, and algebraic are everywhere. Wait.. What is algebraic anyway?
Never mind that. I think I should write in my notebook.
"Luce, may I borrow your eraser?" asked Natsu. He had just made a mistake of writing a number. When he supposed to write the number "5", he wrote "S". Both of them are quite similar and they fooled Natsu everytime he writes either "5" or "S". And sadly, he forgot to bring his beloved eraser and decided to ask Lucy, the only one he could count on.
"No" I gave him a very straight answer.
"Why?" he replied my question with the simplest question.
"Because you haven't given my pen back"
"Does it even matter? You have a bunch of pens there" said Natsu as his left hand was approaching my black eraser and luckily, I noticed it right away. "Don't you ever touch mine, Natsu" I took my black eraser right before he accomplished his mission. "Okay..." he showed his frown on his face and I didn't care about it no matter how long he would frown besides me because I know it's just a lie. And it was a lame one.
Then, I continued my job as a student for about 5 minutes.
5 minutes later...
The pink-haired boy beside me suddenly asked something. Something I never expected.
"Hey, Luce. Is this yours?" asked Natsu while his right hand is occupied with my eraser and it was the white one. Wait.. The white one?!
"What the? How did you-? " I checked my pencil box once again and I found nothing besides my black eraser and its friends. Now, my heart bumped like a sport car. I was afraid that something worse would happen sooner or probably later. "Oh my god.. I forgot to hide my white eraser. Oh my god.. Oh my god.."
"I found it near my book. I wonder, why did you write his name instead yours?"
"It is none of your business, Natsu. Just give it back!" I demanded.
"Nope. Why should I?" There it was, his trolling eyes were shown. I knew what's going to happen next. "You wrote a love spell, didn't you?" Most people thought that Natsu is very dense including myself too except for now. And... Did he just say 'love spell'? So, does it mean he knows about writing a crush name on an eraser means a hidden confession?
"Just give it ba-" I cut my words when Natsu poked my crush who sat in of front me and then he showed my white eraser or should I say, my hidden love spell. "Hey, do you know that Lucy write your name on her eraser?" he whispered and showed him my eraser but before my crush could see it, I stole it and then I ran away from the class even though there was a teacher but luckily, my math teacher was busy teaching one of my classmates who couldn't even count his own money.
I ran away as my right hand holding something I shouldn't make from the beginning.
"How stupid I was.." I kept thinking how stupid I was every time I closed my eyes. I imagined the time when I wrote his name and Levy told me that it might lead to a worse result. So, today was the worst day for me. I felt like a Bad Luck Brian, his life was full of unluckiness yet his smile is very bright like a sunshine.
Unlike me who now was sitting on the school's rooftop alone, since it is the only suited place for me to cry of embarrassment under the bright sunshine which reminds me of Bad Luck Brian's smile, and then I bent my knees so that I could hides my face—literally, it was a sad face plus tears.
Much much later...
"When are you gonna sit like that?"
I heard a familiar voice. It was Natsu's. And he was there, right in front of me. I swept my tears away for i don't want him to ask whether I'm okay or not. Because I'm not okay and why does he come? Does he want to say sorry for his act?
"Until the school has ended, of course. Just leave me alone, please"
"No, I won't" said the stubborn Natsu as he sat beside me for he might want to talk more with me under the bright sunshine. I made a distance for him but then, he kept following me until I stopped because I gave up and tired-both physically and emotionally.
"I told you to leave me alone, Natsu!" I pushed him but thanks to his perfect reflection, Natsu held my both hands and now our eyes met in a close distance. Very close one but not that close. My heart bumped again, Natsu never held my hands like a couple usually do.
"We are just 11 years old but how does he learn to hold my hands like this?' I thought.
"D-d-does it matter to you?" asked Natsu about probably my eraser. But, why would he ask me? Should he suppose to say "I'm sorry for sharing your confession, Luce"?
"Wh-what do you mean? Y-you d-don't make any sense" I looked away because... Do you know how awkward the situation was? He gripped my hands as if he doesn't want to let me go until he said so. "I never expect that you'd be crying because you like him. I think it is normal for us to like someone, right?" said Natsu.
"So what? It isn't like you ever like someone"
"I do. I do like someone. You think I don't?"
"Who is it then?"
And then, I faced him again to make sure whether he is serious or just pretending he ever likes someone only to comfort me. "Everyone! Including you and the whole class except for Gray, he isn't worth to like him as a friend" As for the dense Natsu, his answer is categorized as the right answer. But for me, his answer was the wrong one and I had expected that.
"Your way of liking someone is different. You like them because they are your friends" I said, though I wanted to tell Natsu how dense he could be. But, he wouldn't know what dense actually means because I think so. "I-Is there another way of liking someone?" Natsu looked a bit confused as if he was given a hard question.
"Yeah. And this one means more than "Like". It is called Love"
"Love?"
"Uh huh.. And you just ruined it!" Suddenly, I was angry and freed myself from his grip.
"How?"
"Because you told him"
"Told him what?"
"Can he just stop asking me questions? What am I to him? A teacher?"
"Can you just stop pretending like you don't know anything?!" I yelled at him even though our distance was close enough. I couldn't run away from him because he would chase me and his speed is higher than mine. "Just leave me alone!" Right now, I couldn't help but controlling my emotion was the hardest thing to do on my own.
"Stop acting like a coward, Luce!" Now, it is his turn to yell at me and his eyes looked very serious as if he wanted to kill me for being so annoying and probably noising. I did yell at him more than once. "If you keep avoiding like this, what would you know? Does avoiding give you an answer? Does.. Crying ever solve a problem even just a little? Are you really afraid of.. Rejection?"
"H-h-how does he know?"
So, this is the end of the second chapter. What do you guys think? Is it bad? Good? Better? Delicious? Sweet? (This isn't a food -_-)
The next chapter will be published later (You don't say..). I have made a summary for the next chapter but I wouldn't show it as long as I don't want to.
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