Never Forgotten Past

Last Time: New Directions went to homecoming together. Rachel hosted the after-party where everyone hung out and slept over. That's what happened last time on Never Forgotten Past.

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My Girl

Puck's Point of View

My eyes jumped open to the feeling of sheets being pulled off my legs. I glanced down and saw Sarah tossing and turning which had moved some of the blankets around.

I couldn't help but smile at the small brunette under my arm and curled against my chest. Her dark curls were spread out against the pillow and kind of tickled my arms. It would be the first time we woke up to each other as an official couple.

I watched Sarah sleep for another minute before someone called my name.

"Puck," Finn's voice whispered.

I turned around and saw Finn leaning on his elbow over Rachel like I had been doing just seconds before over Sarah.

"What?" I whispered back.

"What time is it?"

I rolled my eyes at Finn's innocence, "I don't know."

"Oh," Finn looked over at the small kitchen clock, "I think it's 7:30."

"Is anyone else up?" I asked.

Both of us glanced around the small tv area. No one else was moving around or talking. It was just the two of us awake.

I looked back at Finn. I couldn't really think of what to say to him while I was 'snuggled up' to his sister.

"I can't believe Sarah told everyone about the CPR thing at the river," Finn muttered.

"I can't believe I said I'm not going to sleep with her," I muttered back.

The rest of the night after that stupid question, I couldn't help but notice how she sort of seemed upset when she would look at me. I knew the words might hurt, especially considering my past, but that was just it. I didn't want to ruin Sarah's future with a simple mistake like with Quinn. Beth kept me trying to become a better person, but still, Quinn changed after Beth was born. She became more mature, nothing like the sophomore girl I had knocked up. I didn't want that to happen to Sarah so I was determined to wait.

"As I much as I hated hearing about you and Sarah like that, I kinda felt bad. It wasn't fair that Santana asked that question," Finn said softly.

"You understand my answer?" I asked.

"Quinn?" was Finn's explanation.

I just nodded, "Not gonna go there again, even though I got Beth, not doing that again."

Finn nodded gravely, he didn't want that to happen to Sarah either, "It's for the best."

"Puck," I looked down at Sarah. She was moving slightly against my chest.

"I'm right here," I said softly.

"I'm cold," she muttered at the same time she tried to move closer to me.

I chuckled, "Well, then let's fix that."

I could feel her smile against me.

In the background, Finn cleared his throat, "Please not in front of me," he groaned.

"Yeah, same for us too," Blaine's sleep deprived voice said from the corner.

"Keep it down morons," Santana's voice rang out.

"Alright, alright," Rachel announced, "Since we're all up, let's have some breakfast."

Like the leader she acted like, Rachel jumped out of bed and made her way to the kitchen area and started pulling breakfast stuff from the cupboards and fridge.

"What are ya serving Berry?" I asked.

"There's cereal, bagels, doughnuts, bread for toast, oatmeal, milk, juice. All the normal breakfast items," she answered.

We all sat around eating our various foods talking to whoever was nearest.

Mike and Tina stood up from where they were sitting across from us and went to go throw their plates away, so I turned to Sarah.

"We need to talk, I have to explain-"

"I don't really want to talk about what you said last night," Sarah interrupted.

"Sars," I pleaded, "You just have to listen, to hear my explanation. I promise I wasn't trying to hurt you in anyway, you need to know that."

"Fine, but not here, later," with that Sarah got up and walked over to where Quinn was sitting and sat down.

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"Thanks again for letting us come over, Rachel," Sarah said as she put her coat on.

"It's no problem, I hope you enjoyed yourself," Rachel replied. She handed Sarah the hanger with her blue and silver dress hanging from it.

"Thanks Berry," I nodded.

Sarah and I walked to Mom's mini-van. She went in on the passenger side while I went in on the driver's. I pulled the car out of the driveway and down the street. I planned on going to the river bank to try and talk to Sarah there where we couldn't get interrupted. It was silent for the first ten minutes.

"Ok, talk," I paused at Sarah's words. They sounded harsh and almost as if they were on the edge of tears.

"Sarah-"

"Am I not good enough for you compared to every other girl in the world? Am I just another girl that you plan on doing just to add to your list?" Sarah was full-blown crying now. Her voice shook with every word.

I slowed the car as I came up to the river. I turned and looked at her as I undid my seatbelt.

"Do you really want to know why I said I would wait for you?" I ran my hand over my hair. I felt just as nervous now as I had been when I asked her out for the first time.

Sarah rolled her eyes and scoffed, "Yes because apparently-"

I kissed her, well more like slammed my mouth to hers. It was a spur of the moment thing but felt right. She needed to know that I loved her more than I've ever loved anyone. I moved myself gently on top of her without ever breaking the kiss.

Sarah started fighting me. Her hands found themselves on my chest as she tried to push me off. The more she pushed, the harder I kissed her. I held her hands to my chest and tried to calm her. Eventually she stopped fighting and started kissing me back, but I had had enough.

I pulled away, "I don't want to ruin your life like I had done to Quinn's. That was when I really realized that I had hurt someone I actually cared for because I did something that they weren't ready for. And I made a promise that I would not do that to you."

Sarah began crying again and I groaned, "Sarah come on, please forgive me. We should have had this conversation before last night."

I wiped her tears from her face lightly as she took a deep breath.

"I'm crying because that was really sweet and I really don't know what else to do right now after you just smashed my face forever and made me put my hands on you..."

I watched her tears slow down and a smile quickly form on her face as her words drifted off. Before I knew it, she was laughing. Her face bent down into my chest as the laughter erupted from her.

"What the heck?" I muttered.

Sarah looked up, "I'm sorry, I just thought what I said was kind of funny since it's you and everything."

I chuckled lightly and began kissing her again, "You are so weird, you know that?"

I felt her smile against my mouth. Suddenly, she did something that made me stop.

"Are you sure?" I breathed.

She nodded with a small smile. I took a deep breath before beginning what I had done many times before, only then it was with women that I either barely knew or didn't care for.

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I watched Sarah close the front door behind her as she walked into her house three hours later.

After we...well...yeah, we went swimming in the river then made out back in the car before getting dressed and heading home.

I drove home in silence thinking about what had just happened. I had started off trying to apologize for not wanting Sarah and then ended up doing her in my car.

When I walked through the garage door, the first thing I heard was a booming sound from the living room. I went in there to see Grace sitting on the couch with a blanket over her head and her eyes barely sticking out.

I snuck up behind my ten year old sister and grabbed her shoulders. Grace jumped and screamed. I jumped over the couch and sat next to her.

"What cha watching?" I said as I put my arm around her shoulders.

"Harry Potter," Grace grunted as she punched my arm.

I started laughing and looked at the screen. I think it was the fourth one, but I'm not sure. I saw the movies, but that was it, I didn't really think about them after besides the fact that it would be so awesome if I had powers.

Grace looked up at me, "How was homecoming?"

I shrugged, not wanting to tell her about the river part, "It was fun."

"You slept with Sarah."

I stared down at my sister. She was supposed to be innocent and not know about this kind of stuff.

She just shrugged, "I'm not stupid."

"My business, not yours," I muttered.

"So that's a yes," Grace stated.

I felt like I should hit her upside the head, but I didn't.

"Where's Mom?" I asked.

Grace looked away and I could hear her take a deep breath, "She said she won't be back for a few days. Said she was going out with friends for a while."

I was hit with another wash of anger, only this time it wasn't sent towards my sister, it was sent towards my mom. The past year it seemed like Mom gave up a little or something. She's stopped being around as much, going on weekend getaways like now.

I took a deep breath to steady myself before quietly asking the question I wasn't sure I wanted the answer to, "How long has she been gone?"

Sarah looked at me and I could tell it wasn't going to be good, "I don't know. She was there when I went to bed, but not when I woke up this morning. There was a note though."

She was scared; for Mom, for herself, for me, for us. The tears started coming down her face and I grabbed her.

"Hey now, come on," I whispered into her hair. I could feel her tears soak through my shirt as the sobs racked through her.

Grace pulled away, "Why does Mom hate us? Why does she leave? You've been good since Sarah came home. I haven't gotten any bad grades lately. Why?" Her voice quickly turned from upset to anger and I knew she needed to punch something...or me.

I handed Sarah a pillow and she started twisting it in ways that should be illegal, "I don't know why she leaves, but she doesn't hate us, that's for sure. And until she comes back, it'll just be the two of us, which is cool, right kid?"

Grace nodded and wiped her face, "Just Noah and Grace Puckerman against the world."

I nodded and patted her shoulder, "I'm going to go take a shower then we can do something for lunch or dinner or whatever."

"Ok."

I walked upstairs to my bedroom. I started pulling out fresh, or at least not-bad-smelling, clothes when I noticed something on my bed.

It was a picture in a dark blue frame with a note taped to the front. I moved the piece of paper to look at the photo. In the picture, Finn, Sarah, their dad holding Grace, and I were standing on a dock in front of a lake holding fishing poles. I smiled at the photo, it was taken just a month before Mr. Hudson died. He had promised us one last camping trip before he left again for a few months.

I dropped the picture back to my bed and looked at the note. It was in Mom's handwriting and even though I had an idea what it said, I still read it.

Noah,

I know you're probably mad that I left your sister all by herself in the middle of the night, but I had to. I left for my own business. If I hadn't, you would have come home to a disaster. Don't worry, I'll be home soon, maybe just a few days, definitely by Friday. Take care of Grace and yourself.

Mom

P.S. I found this as I was packing, thought you might want it.

I groaned and put the paper in my pocket. "Definitely by Friday," God, this sucks. Taking care of Grace is easy enough; she takes the bus to and from school, eats little, but still, a whole week of taking care of her though will be kind of time consuming.

I picked up the picture and put it on my side table before grabbing clothes that smelled decent and going into the bathroom to take a shower.

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"So are you going to marry Sarah or not?"

I chuckled and glanced up at Grace before looking back to my own sub, "I don't know, we'll see what happens in the future."

"I mean, she's already like my sister so you don't have to worry about me not liking her," Grace said through a mouth full of turkey and bread.

"I told you, we'll see. Now stop eating with your mouth full, it's disgusting."

Grace rolled her eyes then stuck out her tongue.

"Your guys' babies will be cute."

I choked on my sub. A flash of Sarah kissing me went through my mind followed by a memory of her holding Beth.

"What?" I choked out after taking a swig of pop.

Grace rolled her eyes again, "Allie showed me the website her mom used to see what her little sister is supposed to look like so I did it to you guys."

"And what are my future children supposed to look like?" As weird as I thought this whole thing was, I was still kind of interested in what my future could very well look like.

"Three boys and one girl had hazel eyes and chocolate curls. Then there were two boys and four girls that had blue eyes and dark brown hair."

"Are you saying I'm going to have ten children with Sarah?" I had a hard enough time with one now and I just saw her on the weekends.

Grace shook her head, "I just clicked on ten to see what they could look like."

Now was my time to roll my eyes, "You clicked on ten because that's how many kids you want me to have."

"Whatever," Grace muttered, "We should do something with Finn and Sarah this week."

I smiled, "Sure, whatever you want."

"Yes! So you'll play dolls and barbies with me?"

"Yeah, not going that far," I scoffed.

Grace laughed, "I know, it was worth a try."

I considered how the rest of this week could play out and figured it wouldn't be that bad in the end.

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A/N: Alrighty, so I figured I would need something for future references to fall back on which is now the Puckerman family issue. Hope you guys don't mind. Everyone's in the next chapter again! Also, if anything seems way off, don't be afraid to tell me. I'm always open to any questions, comments, and concerns so PLEASE REVIEW!

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Shout-Outs: TheAwkwardTurtle13 - Thanks for the review!

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Sneak Peak: I looked up from my papers and my eyes went wide at the red drops leading to the choir room. I prayed it was just a paper cut gone bad and not what the school considers to be a glee club initiation.

There will be more POVs than this one (which is completely new so I hope I do it justice), but I don't want to give anything else away.