Never Forgotten Past
Last Time: Finn found all of Sarah's pregnancy tests and thought the worst. He told his fears to Sarah who lost it. Sarah left the house after a huge blowout to stay with Puck until everything calms down. And that's what you missed last time on Never Forgotten Past.
Disclaimer: I don't own Glee or any songs that I may put in here.
A Fight to Remember
Sarah's Point of View
Puck and I walked into the choir room holding hands. I had stayed at his house for the night. He didn't let go and let me cry out all my fears and worries onto his chest the entire time.
We walked over to the front row and sat down. Kurt came in behind us and gave me a sympathetic look.
"Is this," he pointed towards Puck, "Where you went last night?"
Puck tightened his grip on my hand, "So what if she did?"
I glanced at Puck and smiled softly, "It's ok," I looked towards Kurt, "Yeah, I did. Sorry I left, I couldn't stand it there anymore."
"I understand," Kurt said before sitting next to Blaine in the row behind us.
Finn walked in with Rachel. He gave me a look that said 'Please come home,' but didn't actually say anything. Instead, he just gave Puck the dirtiest, most hateful glance I've ever seen. Puck softly growled.
"Calm down," I whispered in his ear.
"Alright, we need to come up with some songs for sectionals, any ideas?" Mr. Schue announced.
"I actually have an idea," Puck said.
I looked at him and raised my eyebrows, "Really?"
Puck nodded and stood up. He walked over to his guitar in the corner and picked it up.
"I think for sectionals we should bring summer music," Puck strummed his guitar, "To winter."
I smiled and rolled my eyes at how dorky Puck was. He smiled back at me and started strumming his guitar to the beginning of Bruno Mars's The Lazy Song.
Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone
So leave a message at the tone
'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything
I'm gonna kick my feet up
Then stare at the fan
Turn the TV on, throw my hand in my pants
Nobody's gonna tell me I can't
Everyone was laughing as Puck ran around with his guitar, acting out the lyrics when possible.
I'll be lounging on the couch,
Just chillin' in my snuggie
Click to MTV, so they can teach me how to dougie
'Cause in my castle I'm the freaking man
Oh, oh
Yes I said it
I said it
I said it 'cause I can
Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone
So leave a message at the tone
'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything
Nothing at all
Ooh, hoo, ooh, hoo, ooh, ooh-ooh
Nothing at all
Ooh, hoo, ooh, hoo, ooh, ooh-ooh
My mouth went slightly slack when I realized what verse was coming up.
Tomorrow I'll wake up, do some P90X
Meet a really nice girl, have some really nice sex
And she's gonna scream out: 'This is Great'
Puck stared at me to say the words. Everyone sat quietly as I tried to get them out of my dry mouth.
Santana groaned, "Oh my God, this is great," she said.
Puck nodded and gave me a weird look as he continued to play his guitar.
Suddenly, Finn came out of no where and jumped Puck, pushing him to the ground in an instant. Rachel screamed as Finn punched Puck in the face.
"How dare you get her pregnant!" Finn said with each punch he threw.
Puck yelled and flipped Finn over, "What are you talking about?"
"You go and get my sister pregnant and then have her sing a line about sex, you're the worst!" Finn managed to flip Puck back over and punch him again.
Everyone watched in horror as Finn tried to do as much damage as possible to Puck. Mr. Schue tried desperately to pull Finn off of Puck. I felt the tears come from my eyes as I watched it all play out. This couldn't be happening.
Mike and Blaine jumped in and tried to grab Puck away as he was starting to throw punches himself. After a minute, Mr. Schue, Mike, and Blaine had Finn and Puck by the arms and were trying to hold them apart from each other.
"What is your problem?" Mr. Schue yelled at Finn.
"He got Sarah pregnant!" Finn screamed and pointed at Puck with his free arm, "He deserves to pay! Especially since he promised me nothing would happen!"
I stood up. All eyes were on me as I slowly walked towards my brother and boyfriend. Tears soaked my face as I stood in front of Finn.
"Where did you get that from?" I choked out.
"The amount of pregnancy tests under your bed!"
I winced from his tone and another round of tears left my eyes. Puck growled for the second time in ten minutes and tried to get free of Mike and Blaine's grasp.
"Let me go!" he yelled, "He doesn't know anything! He's just making it all up!"
I walked over to him and put my hands on his arms to try and calm him. Puck stopped shaking after a second and looked at me.
"Tell them what's going on, tell them what Finn's putting in their heads is all wrong," he quietly said, but there was no mistaking the angry undertone.
I nodded, almost forcefully, and turned towards everyone else. Mike and Blaine let go of Puck at the same time Mr. Schue let go of Finn.
I stood between the two of them and tried not to pay attention to the glares they were giving each other.
"After homecoming," I started, "Puck and I... Anyways, I've been feeling weird and stuff so Quinn suggested pregnancy. We didn't do anything to prevent it," Finn tried to jump around me but was pulled back by Mr. Schue, "Which made us think the worse. Puck bought me different pregnancy tests Friday and I put them under my bed for safe-keeping, we decided not to use them until today though since it would be easier to get rid of them here than at our house where people could find them."
"They were all open though," Finn defended himself.
"Because she can't fit all the boxes in her backpack dummy," Puck said.
Everyone stared at us for a minute before anyone spoke.
"So are you?" Santana finally asked.
"I don't know yet, I didn't take the tests yet," I said quietly.
"Well, what are you waiting for?" Rachel whispered.
Finn made his way over to her and sat down. Rachel looked him over and when seeing no real damage, turned away from him. Blaine and Mike too sat back down without any scratches.
Puck on the other hand had a small bruise where his old one had just gone away. He flinched slightly when I wrapped my arm around his waist. Puck looked down at me and shrugged, earning himself another wince.
"Um, well, I guess I could do it anytime now," I said softly.
Puck squeezed my waist tightly, "Whatever you want."
I nodded then walked over to my backpack and pulled out the bag I had packed Friday night.
"Holy crap," Artie muttered when he saw the number of tests.
"You guys can be excused if you would like," Mr. Schue suggested.
I walked back over to Puck, "Now or never right?" I whispered.
"Ok," he smiled softly then grabbed my hand, "We'll be back in a little bit," he told our teacher.
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
"That's the last one," I said to Puck as I left the stall.
He looked up from where he was sitting on a choir chair next to the sink. He was reading the instructions so we would be sure we got the right results.
Puck put down the paper and patted his knee. I sat and leaned back against his chest.
"What are we going to do?" I asked softly.
"I don't know, keep it?" Puck suggested.
"That's not what I meant," I turned to face him, "I don't think I'm going to be very fond of any result."
Puck looked confused, "Are you saying you want to be pregnant?"
"Maybe, I mean, I know that if it said positive I would be scared but I would also be happy because we would be having a baby together and that's what I've wanted since I saw you with Beth for the first time."
"What if it says no?"
"Then that would be ok, I guess, because we could go on with our normal lives, right?"
Puck nodded then kissed my forehead, "I love you. No matter what happens, always remember that, ok?"
"Ok," I said softly.
There was a loud beeping noise and Puck grabbed his phone from off the paper towel dispenser.
"It's been five minutes," he said slowly.
I stood up and grabbed his hand, "Ready?"
"Are you?"
I thought about the question, "Yeah."
"Then so am I," Puck stated as stood up.
We slowly walked towards the far sink. I closed my eyes and turned in to Puck's chest.
"I changed my mind, I don't want to know. Let's just wait nine months then see if a baby comes out of me then," I muttered into his body.
Puck chuckled, "Can I look then?"
"Sure because then you can prepare me for whatever the result is."
I heard Puck take a deep breath then felt him lean towards the sink. He breathed out after a minute and rubbed my back.
"What do they say?" I quietly asked.
"How about you look for yourself?" Puck turned me around so I was facing the sink, but I kept my eyes closed, "Sarah, come on, you can do this," he chided softly.
I opened my eyes then looked down in the sink. There, on five different pregnancy tests were five results, only each was said differently. Three had a small red minus sign while two had a black 'No' staring up at me.
I felt a tear leave my eye as a sob ripped through me.
"Come on Sarah, talk to me," Puck said as he led me back to the chair.
I held desperately onto his shirt as he lifted me onto his lap.
"Are they happy or sad tears?" Puck asked quietly.
"I don't know," I sobbed, "I don't know!" this time it came out angrily and I bit my lip.
Puck started rubbing my back and I calmed a little, but I still felt angry and upset, yet there was also a sense of relief and happiness deep in me.
"I'm relived that we don't have to worry about another human being, a child, but I'm upset that we're not getting the chance to experience the joy of having one."
Puck nodded, "I know, but you know something else?"
I shook my head.
"Now we can actually graduate and go to school and live our lives normally as high-schoolers. We can enjoy this time just us and then when we do have kids in the future, we'll be ready."
I understood every word that he said. Being pregnant really would have set us back, even if we could get through it.
"Should we go back?" I asked quietly.
I looked up at Puck who smiled softly before wiping my stray tears, "If you want to. I know they're probably all waiting for us to tell them, but we don't have to today if you don't want to."
I thought about it. They would eventually find out, even if we don't tell them, it'll be pretty obvious whether or not I'm pregnant in five months or so.
"Let's go," I said as I stood up and walked over to the sink to dispose of everything we had done.
Puck grabbed the chair and stood by the door, waiting for me to finish washing my hands.
We walked in the choir room and everyone looked up. All talking stopped instantly.
"So?" Mercedes asked.
"Do we need to prep the house for a baby?" Kurt said.
I stared at them all, they really were some of my best friends who all wanted whatever made me happy. I leaned into Puck's side, he looked down at me and I nodded, I don't think I could say it out loud.
Puck looked back at everyone, "She's, um, not pregnant," he said softly.
There was a collective sigh throughout everyone. They seemed as if they didn't know what to say.
"That's good, right?" Quinn finally spoke up.
"I guess," I replied, "We would have been happy if it said 'yes' but this way we can be normal now."
Mr. Schue walked over to us, "You guys can leave if you'd like, go be alone for a little bit, you've had a long day."
"I'd like that," I whispered.
Puck nodded, "Meet me in the car? I have to do something first," he said to me.
"Sure."
"I'll just be a minute," Puck passed me the keys.
I started walking towards the door but turned around and looked at Finn and Kurt, "I'll see you guys tomorrow. After Finn's little stunt today, I don't know if I ever want to go back home."
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I opened the passenger side door and threw my bag in the backseat before sitting in the seat. I leaned over to put the keys in, promptly turning on the radio and heat after doing so.
I sat back in the seat and closed my eyes. I had no idea this was how my life would be when I came back to Lima, but for some reason, I was happy with it.
The radio started playing some annoying song so I opened my eyes to turn the channel. I searched the different stations before finally finding a station that was playing a decent song. I leaned back and was about to close my eyes when a piece of paper fell down from above me and onto my lap. It must have gotten loose when the door opened and wind blew in.
I figured it was just an old receipt for gas or something, but then something on the paper caught my eye. The word, or more so name, 'Noah' stood out and I smoothed out the paper.
Noah,
I know you're probably mad that I left your sister all by herself in the middle of the night, but I had to. I left for my own business. If I hadn't, you would have come home to a disaster. Don't worry, I'll be home soon, maybe just a few days, definitely by Friday. Take care of Grace and yourself.
Mom
P.S. I found this as I was packing, thought you might want it.
After reading the note, I put it back where it came from. When was it from? Ms. Ruth was home yesterday and this morning when I was over there, so it must be from before. Homecoming by the sounds of it since that's the last time Puck had been gone over night. Him and Grace could have been alone for the past week and he didn't say anything.
There was a knock on the window. Puck was standing outside, he smiled and jumped in when I unlocked the door.
"Thanks, it's getting cold outside now," he said as he started up the truck and backed out of the parking lot.
I nodded and stared at him. Did Puck really just take care of his sister for a whole week without saying one word about it?
Puck turned and glanced at me, "What's up? You're really quiet, I mean, I expected some, but not this much. You're not-"
"Why didn't you say anything about your Mom leaving you and Grace?" I interrupted.
Puck stopped his babbling and looked at me, "What are you talking about?" he whispered.
I reached up and grabbed the piece of paper that had fallen out earlier, "This fell when I got in the car a little while ago."
Puck pulled the car over to an empty parking lot. He stopped the car and stared forward, not saying anything.
"Puck," I said quietly and reached over to grab his hand, "What's wrong? Come on, tell me," I pleaded with him.
He continued looking forward and staying silent.
"Please, if something's wrong, you need to say so. I can't stand the fact that you and Grace were left alone in a house all by yourselves for an entire week. Look at what we just went through with a maybe pregnancy. Look at what we started off with, nobody thought we should actually be together, but we showed them wrong and now we are so happy. You know you can tell me anything."
A tear slipped down my cheek as I spoke. It scared me how quiet Puck was staying. I couldn't remember a time where Puck was quiet for this long, he was always saying something no matter how stupid or funny or real, there was always something coming out of his mouth.
I stared at Puck. We both sat unmoving and silent for five minutes before Puck spoke.
"You don't understand," he whispered.
"Then tell me," I pleaded.
Puck took a deep breath, "Ok."
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A/N: Cliff hanger! I almost cried when writing the end. Next chapter will be what Puck was doing while Sarah was in the car and then what's happening at his house and stuff, it might get intense. I'm welcome to any ideas that you want so PM me or add a comment. Sectionals and stuff will be in a few chapters. Does anyone know if there is a way so I can see everyone who's added a story alert, favorite, or something like that? Thanks! Feel free to ask any questions, or say any comments or concerns so PLEASE REVIEW!
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Shout-Outs: BerryLover - Thanks for the review! I love them too!
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Sneak Peak: I took a deep breath before spilling everything to Sarah. The late nights, the leaving, the alcohol, the occasional hitting, it was all about to be laid out on the table and I wasn't going to be able to take it back.
Woah, I don't know how next chapter's going to be, but I'm getting ready to cry because I hate even thinking about Puck upset, even though I like reading and writing that kind of stuff. I know, I'm weird since I like that for some reason. They should definitely have a date night soon for some more fun, but this first.
