Never Forgotten Past
Last Time: The Hudson-Hummel-Puckermans (along with Rachel and Blaine) went to Kalahari for spring break. Sarah almost told Rachel everything, but was stopped by Puck. The two agreed that they shouldn't say anything to anyone until all the details are figured out. And that's what you missed on Never Forgotten Past.
Disclaimer: I don't own Glee or any songs that I may put in here.
Talking
Rachel's Point of View
I climbed down from Noah's truck and landed on the balls of my feet. We were taking a quick bathroom break, along with getting some lunch and gas on the way home from our trip. It really was a lot of fun and I was a little sad to leave the hotel.
Finn grabbed my hand, "Come on, let's go get something to drink."
I nodded and looked back at Sarah to see if she wanted to come since Noah was filling up the gas tank, "Sarah."
She looked up from her conversation with Noah, "Yeah?"
"Do you want to get something to drink with us?" I asked.
Sarah looked at Noah who nodded, "Ok," Sarah smiled and started walking towards us.
Once Sarah was even with me and Finn, the three of us started walking into the gas station.
"I could really use a slushie," Finn said and took off towards the back.
"Can you come to the bathroom with me?" Sarah asked.
I nodded with a smile, "Sure, gas station bathrooms are gross and slightly scary."
Sarah giggled and led me to the bathroom, "Thanks."
"I might as well go too seeing as this is our last stop before home," I said mostly to myself since Sarah had already gone in the stall.
A minute later, I stepped out and started washing my hands, "Sarah?" I asked, "Are you ok?"
"Yeah," Sarah replied, "Sorry, just taking a minute."
"I understand." I stood still and tried not to be touching anything. The stall door opened, but before Sarah could step out, she turned back around and started gagging. "Oh no," I whispered as I hurried to grab Sarah's curls.
After a minute, Sarah took a breath and stood up, "Thank you," she muttered and pushed past me.
I watched as she put water in her hands and rinsed out her mouth, "Want me to go buy you a tooth brush?" I asked.
Sarah shook her head, "No, it's fine, just a little motion sickness."
I nodded, "Oh, ok. Do you want some mints then?"
Sarah pointed towards her purse, "Got some."
"Ok," I said softly and waited for her to finish washing her hands.
"Alright, let's get something to drink," Sarah smiled and walked out of the bathroom.
I paused before following her, "Shouldn't you be more concerned that you just threw up?" I asked as I caught up to her.
Sarah shook her head, "Nah, it's fine," and walked back to where Finn was filling up slushies for us.
Noah came through the front doors and I hurried over to him, "Noah!"
"Rachel!" Noah replied with a smirk, "What is it?"
I pulled him off to the side so no one would hear us, "You need to talk to Sarah! She is not doing so well."
Noah's face automatically went into concern, "What happened?"
"She threw up in the bathroom and acted as if nothing happened," I told him.
Noah's nose scrunched up, "Oh...I...ok."
I felt my eyes grow wide, "Noah! Sarah just threw up and all you can say is 'ok'?"
"Well, is she not ok?" Noah asked.
"She said it was just motion sickness," I repeated for him.
Noah shrugged and started walking away, "She's probably fine."
I grabbed his wrist, "You don't understand! Throwing up is a big deal!"
"Yes, Berry, it is. I'll talk to her about it, ok?" Noah stopped and faced me.
"Yes, that is all I ask for," I nodded.
"Good," Noah said and walked away.
I watched Noah start talking to Sarah who looked at me and rolled her eyes. She then stood on her tip toes and whispered something in Noah's ear. He nodded and gave her a hug.
"Rach, you ok?"
I turned to see Finn standing next to me, "Yeah, I'm fine."
Finn followed my gaze then quickly looked back at me, "Are you falling in love with Puck?" he stage whispered.
I laughed, "No, no, I love you. It's just that Sarah threw up in the bathroom and neither she nor Noah seemed to care."
"Is she ok?" Finn asked with wide eyes, "Maybe I should talk to her."
"Thank you! Finally, someone giving the right reaction!" I said.
Finn gave me a weird look, "Ok, but don't look excited about my sister throwing up."
"I'm not excited," I rolled my eyes, "I'm just glad that you're actually concerned for Sarah."
Finn nodded, "I'll talk to her, usually she feels better if she just changes from the back to the front seat."
I watched Finn walk away and sighed, Sarah better be ok because I am not looking forward to a trip laden with motion sickness.
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"Here you go," Finn set down mine and Sarah's subs on the table before sitting next to me.
"Thank you," I smiled at him and took a sip of my water.
Noah slid in next to Sarah, then Grace after him. Kurt and Blaine were eating at their own table a little bit away from us.
"Noah, are we sharing a drink? Because you didn't get me one," Grace asked her brother.
Noah groaned, "I'm sorry, yeah, we'll share a drink."
Grace nodded and grabbed his drink from his hand, "Thanks."
Sarah opened her sub and took a bite. Her face quickly turned pale and she set the sub down, "Finn, what is this?"
"A ham sub," Finn said through his lunch.
"Is something wrong?" I asked.
"Does this have Italian dressing on it?" Sarah asked quietly.
Finn nodded, "It's exactly what you always get."
Sarah started pushing Noah, "Out, I have to leave."
Noah's eyes went wide and he set down his own sandwich, "Ok, Grace, move." He lightly shoved his sister who fell from the booth.
"Noah!" Grace yelled and stood up.
Noah slid from the booth with Sarah right behind him. The four of us watched her run off to the bathroom.
"I'm sorry Grace," Noah said before running off after Sarah.
"That wasn't nice," Grace muttered as she sat down.
I met eye contact with Kurt across the restaurant. He raised his eyebrows at me and I shrugged, I had no idea what was going on.
"I didn't know it would make her sick," Finn whispered.
"It's not your fault, she's just not feeling well," I said gently.
Finn shrugged, "I still feel bad though."
I ran a hand up his arm, "Want me to go check on her?"
Finn nodded, "Please."
I stood from the booth and went to the bathroom. As I pushed through the door, I could hear Noah and Sarah's voices coming from the far, handicapped stall and stopped.
"Shh, it's ok," Noah said softly.
"I'm so sorry," Sarah whispered back before a round of gagging was heard.
"Don't be sorry, this is all my fault," Noah replied.
"I'm the one who-" she was cut off my her getting sick.
"Almost done. Do you have a hair tie?" Noah asked.
"No," Sarah cried.
"I do," I announced and slowly made my way to them.
Noah emerged from the stall, "Rachel."
"Let me," I told him while pulling a hair tie from my wrist. I grabbed Sarah's hair as she threw up, this definitely wasn't due to motion sickness, it was worse. I quickly put her hair in a ponytail and rubbed her back, "It's ok."
What was happening? The throwing up, but not being concerned. The small mood swings. The hating certain foods. Noah blaming himself for it all. She was-
I quickly turned back towards Noah, "We need to talk," I whispered.
He nodded from where he was standing still and quiet in the stall doorway.
Sarah let a long breath out, "Stupid Italian dressing."
I helped her stand up and led her to the sink where she started washing her hands, "Are you feeling better?"
Sarah nodded, "I'm sorry."
"Sarah-" Noah started, but was cut off from the glare his girlfriend gave him.
"You don't have to apologize," I told Sarah gently.
"Can I have a few dollars?" Sarah asked Noah quietly, "I'm going to buy another sub."
Noah nodded and silently reached in his pocket to grab his wallet. He pulled out a five dollar bill, "Here you go."
"Thanks," Sarah whispered and walked out of the bathroom.
I waited for the door to fully close before turning on Noah, "How could you?"
Noah's eyes widened, "What?"
I walked closer to him, "You got her pregnant," I whispered.
Noah's face paled, "We said we weren't going to tell anyone yet," he muttered more to himself than to me.
"She didn't tell me," I stated, "I figured it out myself."
Noah spun on his heel and ran a hand over his face, "How?"
"She throws up, can't eat certain foods, mood swings, you blame yourself. It really wasn't that hard," I told him.
"How long have you known?" Noah muttered.
"A few minutes."
He turned around and looked at me, I was shocked to see that his Puck shield had dropped and Noah had emerged, "Please Rachel, you can't tell anyone."
"I...," I didn't know what to say, he almost looked...scared.
"I feel terrible for doing it, I'm ruining her life, she's going to end up like me," the last part came out as a whisper.
"Ending up like you isn't a bad thing," I said softly.
Noah's eyes widened, "Really? I ended up in juvie because I lost it over Beth. I'm barely holding on in school. Think about it, she's going to have a kid to think about while still trying to get good grades. How will she not end up like me?"
"You're not a terrible person, Noah, you have to understand that if you two are planning on keeping the baby. You love her more than you can say. You love Beth more than anyone ever thought you would be capable of. Grace is the center of your world. And lastly, I know that this baby already means so much to you," I finished.
"Thank you," Noah muttered, "I have to go check on Sarah and make sure she can take all the questions she's bound to get."
I stood still as Noah passed me. Everything I said, I meant it and I wanted him to be happy. I just couldn't believe he was going to have two kids before he was twenty.
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I stared out the window while Finn drove the last stretch home. I could hear Sarah and Noah softly talking to each other while sharing one of their iPods. It sort of easy to think of Sarah being pregnant, but it was hard to imagine her actually having and raising a baby, even if Noah was there.
My phone vibrated and I looked down at it to see a message from Sarah.
He told me ~ Sarah
I turned around and looked at Sarah, but she was giggling and trying to grab her iPod from Noah's hands.
"Hey, you ok?"
I looked back at Finn and put a fake smile on my face, "Of course."
"You've been really quiet since lunch," Finn added.
"I'm fine," I gave him another smile, "I just don't like the thought of leaving the hotel where everything was perfect."
Finn nodded, "Yeah, but don't you miss your dads?"
"A little, but still, I don't like leaving," I told Finn quietly.
He gave me a side smile while still facing the road, "Just imagine what's it's going to be like when you leave for New York."
I bit my lip to hide the smile of excitement, "It's going to be crazy, all those feelings at once."
"I can't wait to see you deal with it all," Finn smiled.
There was a tap on my shoulder and I turned around, "You have gum?" Noah asked.
I nodded and opened the glove compartment to hand grab him a pack of gum, "Here you go."
"Thanks Berry," Noah smirked and took a piece before holding the pack out for Sarah, "Want some?"
Sarah nodded, "Sure," I watched as she took a piece of the spearmint gum. She caught my eye and gave a small, almost shy, smile.
I smiled back before grabbing my phone.
Can you tell me the details? ~ Rachel
At home ~ Sarah
I turned slightly in my seat so Sarah could see me and nodded.
"What was that?" Finn asked.
"What?" I replied.
"You just, like, shook or twitched or something," Finn said.
"Oh, that was nothing, I'm good," I smiled to prove it.
Finn smiled back, "Good, I wouldn't want you to get sick too."
I bit my lip, knowing that I definitely didn't have what Sarah had.
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I softly knocked on Sarah's bedroom door and waited for it to open.
When it did, Noah stepped out, "I'll give you two some time."
"Thanks," I said quietly and walked past him. Sarah wasn't there, so I turned to ask Noah, but he was gone.
"Rachel, I'm in here."
I walked towards the closet, and sure enough, there she was sitting in the middle of her closet floor, "Hi."
"Wow, Rachel Berry speechless, that's something I never thought I'd hear, or rather, not hear," Sarah smiled and laughed lightly.
I sat across from her and smiled back, I honestly didn't know what to say to her.
"I don't have a disease," Sarah muttered.
"No, you don't," I said slowly, "But you are pregnant."
"They are two completely different things," Sarah replied as she started brushing her hair with her fingers.
"Yes," I answered.
"What do you want to talk about?" Sarah bluntly asked.
"How?" I started.
Surprisingly, Sarah gave a full hearted laugh, "Geez, didn't you pay attention in health class?"
I rolled my eyes and smiled, "Of course I paid attention. I guess I just want to know the whole story, without the dirty details."
Sarah nodded, "It was three days before my birthday, a few hours after we heard about Karofsky," I winced at the memory, "Anyways, everything just went on normally after that, well, with the symptoms. Not last week, but the week before on Tuesday, after our double date, Puck said that he thought I was pregnant. I was angry at the thought, but couldn't help but think he could be right. That Saturday, I went with Blaine to Target to buy some pregnancy tests then we went to Walmart to take them."
I put a hand up, "Wait, Noah didn't come with you?"
Sarah shook her head, "We sort of got in a fight that day because I didn't know whether he wanted the possible baby or not."
"Oh," that surprised me a little, maybe it was just a misunderstanding, the Noah I knew wouldn't act like that, "Ok then, move on."
Sarah gave a smirk very similar to the one that Noah gives, "Yeah, so they all said positive," I opened my mouth to ask a question, but Sarah put a finger up, "Yes, Blaine was the first to know besides me, but we came home and I told Puck right away. I'm pretty sure we're keeping the baby, that is, if Mom and Burt say so."
"Why does it matter what they think?" I asked, sensing her story was probably done.
"Because otherwise we have no where to live," Sarah said softly and ran her hand over the carpet to distract herself. She seemed scared or upset at the possibility.
"Don't worry," I put my hand over hers, "They are very understandable people."
Sarah looked up and nodded, "I hope so. And if not, we could find an apartment or even move back into Puck's old house."
My nose scrunched up, "I know I'm not completely in the loop on the Puckerman drama, but I really don't think Noah would want to move back into the house where he was abused."
Sarah sighed, "I know and that's the sad part. If we had to, we would go live there, but he would be miserable. However, he would put up an act saying he was fine-"
"But he wouldn't stop trying to earn enough money to move away," I finished softly.
Sarah nodded, "He's too strong for his own good."
I smiled, "I don't think he would appreciate you saying that."
Sarah let out a small laugh, "It just occurred to me that you two dated, too."
I nodded, "Yes, Puckleberry, probably the shortest lived relationship that ever went through McKinley."
Sarah giggled, "I'm glad it didn't last because now he's mine and you have Finn and we're all happy."
I laughed lightly and nodded, "We have a lot in common."
Sarah smiled, "Parts of us, but in a way, I'm more like Quinn than like you."
I shook my head and moved a little closer to her, "Besides the pregnancy thing, including the father of said baby, I don't think you and Quinn have that much in common."
"Thanks, I guess we do have some in common if we think about it," Sarah said softly.
I nodded, "Yeah, we do."
Sarah gave me a hug, which I returned, "Thanks for everything Rachel. For being a great almost sister-in-law. For understanding me right now. It means a lot to me."
"You're welcome, you are always welcome, I'll always be here for you," I smiled.
Sarah sat back on her heels, "Ok, so what do you want to do?"
I shrugged and grinned, "I don't know, do you need anything?"
"I could use some ice cream," Sarah said softly with a smile.
I laughed and stood up, "Alright, let's go get some ice cream."
The two of us walked into the kitchen to see Grace sitting on the counter watching Noah, Finn, and Kurt bake.
"What are you doing?" Sarah laughed.
The boys looked up, "Making cookies," Noah smiled at her as he put some dough on his finger, "Try some."
Sarah giggled and put Noah's finger in her mouth to have some of the dough, "Peanut butter," she smiled, "It's really good."
"Why are you guys baking?" I asked as Finn passed me a small bit.
"Because Kurt told us to," Finn told me.
"No, because Gracie wanted cookies and Carole wanted peanut butter so I decided to put the two together and be the best son/brother ever," Kurt stated.
Sarah and I nodded at him, "That's nice," Sarah replied, "I want ice cream though."
"Me too!" Grace yelled.
Noah glared at her, "Don't scream, it's annoying."
"Me too!" Grace whispered.
The rest of us laughed and Noah's hard expression cracked in a smile, "Fine, what kind?"
"Chocolate chip," Grace smiled.
Noah sighed while pulling bowls from the cupboard, "Sarah, what do you want?"
Sarah laughed, "Chocolate chip sounds good."
"You want some too Rach?" Noah asked.
I was surprised, "Um, ok."
Noah nodded and grabbed out the ice cream carton, "Finn? Kurt?"
"No thank you," Kurt said while scooping dough onto a cookie sheet.
"Yeah, here," Finn passed Noah the ice cream scoop and leaned against the counter next to me.
I leaned into his side and smiled as he wrapped his arm around my shoulders.
"Noah, can you put chocolate sauce on mine?" Grace asked.
Noah looked up and smirked, "Sure. Sarah?"
Sarah smiled, "Yes."
"Manners," Kurt stated without looking up from his cookies, "Both of you."
I laughed at how Sarah and Grace both rolled their eyes and groaned softly, "Please."
Noah chuckled as he squirted the syrup onto the ice cream, "Alright, I've got some for everyone, come and get it."
Finn passed out spoons and the five of us ate in silence while Kurt continued setting up the cookies.
I watched Sarah and Noah interact and really saw how protective Noah was of her. Sarah was sitting on Noah's lap who had one arm wrapped around her waist. Every move Noah would make was made in such slow movements and so carefully, that it was like Sarah was a baby herself, not carrying one. It wasn't done in a weird way though, it looked so natural for Noah to be doing, especially with someone that he loves so much.
"Want to go upstairs?" Finn whispered in my ear.
I looked up at him, then back down at my ice cream, "How about after I finish eating?"
Finn smiled, "Sure," he softly kissed my forehead.
I smiled and sighed at the feeling. I couldn't wait for our life to really start, but right now, in this moment, I wanted everything to stay still.
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A/N: So this one was pretty short compared to the last few, I hope you don't mind. I wanted to keep it just Rachel's point of view. What do you think of her knowing? Can she keep the secret? Next chapter will be in the story lines of the show, well, you know, in my own way. What'd you guys think of Prom-asuarus? I really liked it, it was cute and sweet. I can't believe season three is almost done. PLEASE REVIEW with any questions, comments, concerns, or suggestions! I'm so happy, I just saw that this story has 104 reviews! Please send more!
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TheAwkwardTurtle13 - There won't be too much baby drama for a while, but expect some when everyone else finds out. I hope this was updated soon enough!
Ace5492 - Thank you!
FinchelFan728 - I hope you like this chapter then!
raem9898 - Thank you! I've never been on the slides and stuff, but some of my cousins have and I did walk around the water park with my family to see everything. I really want to go there one day and actually go on the slides.
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Sneak Peak: I sat next to Blaine. I actually knew exactly how he felt and I owe it to him to help him or listen at least to what he says because he's done so much for me these past couple weeks and deserves it.
It's the Big Brother episode and there will be a song between some of the characters!
