Never Forgotten Past
Last Time: Puck was able to pass his geography final. Each of the seniors graduated from McKinley. Shelby wants Beth to know her new brother or sister. Ruth returned to congratulate her son. Grace wants to start saying Mom and Dad. And that's what you missed on Never Forgotten Past.
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Final Decisions
Sarah's Point of View
I sat in the middle of the living room looking at different pregnancy books and comparing the facts. Most were the same, but some were slightly varied.
"Sarah Rose Hudson, I just heard from Grace that everyone has joined forces on the name thing and I have no partner to do so with," Kurt walked into the room.
I looked up, "Be your own partner or be with Rachel."
Kurt sat on the couch with a sigh, "I guess I could beat Gabriella Abigail with Sophia Ava."
I smirked, "Anything could beat Gabriella Abigail. Definitely Samantha Paige."
"Are you dissing Gabriella Abigail again?" Puck came and lowered himself next to me.
"No," I leaned into his side, "Just saying that she'd rather be named Samantha Paige."
"Stop with the baby naming for one second, I have an announcement," Finn walked in with Grace over his shoulder and Mom in one hand while Burt trailed behind.
"Can you put me down?" Grace asked.
Finn plopped her down on the chair, "You all might want to take a seat, this may take a while."
"Finn, what is going on?" Mom asked while sitting next to Kurt.
Finn stared at all of us, "You all know that Rachel is able to go to New York, but Kurt and I can't."
"Thanks for that," Kurt muttered.
Mom rubbed his back, "Finn what does this have to do with anything?"
"Rachel is putting her career on hold, but I hate that. Which is why I'm going to send her to New York without me," Finn continued.
All breathing stopped in the room.
"But dude, you're crazy about her," Puck eventually said.
"That's why I'm doing it," Finn nodded.
"And the wedding?" Mom asked.
Finn took a deep breath, "It's not going to happen."
We all stared at him. I was having a hard time believing him, but I was starting to think he was telling the truth.
"Did you tell the bride?" Kurt asked, "Because she's going to be devastated."
"I'm going to just stick her on the train and let her go," Finn said softly.
Grace went over and gave him a hug, "Are you sad?"
Finn smiled, "This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do."
"What are you going to do then if you're not marrying Rachel?" I asked, confused on when the whole shock factor that seemed to be looming would come down and hit us.
"I'm going to join the army," Finn stated.
My heart dropped. It was like he was just throwing away his future without even giving a second glance.
"No you're not," I said, "I won't let you."
"It's my way of trying to represent Dad, Sars, you can't stop me," Finn whispered.
I stood up and walked right in front of him, "You wrote a letter, that's enough! You don't have to join the army and die!"
"I won't die! I'm going to training the end of June, I'll be fine!" Finn stepped backwards.
Puck came up behind me and pulled me close to him, "Why?" he asked Finn.
"It's what I want and need to do," Finn answered.
There were soft sobs and we turned to see Mom crying into Burt's shoulder.
"Mom," Finn sighed and went to her, "Please don't cry."
"Finn, did you think this through?" Mom choked out.
He nodded, "After I'm out, I'll be able to go to any school I wanted. I can meet up with Rachel if she still wants me and we can start our life."
"I don't get it, you have so much going for you," Burt muttered.
"It's the right thing to do if I want to honor my dad," Finn answered with all seriousness.
I started crying myself and hid my face in Puck's arm.
He held me tightly, "It'll be alright."
"Don't let him do this. Please Noah," I cried.
Puck softened before squeezing me again tightly, "Don't worry."
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
I laid on my bed looking at old picture albums. The one I had out right now was of all the Halloweens over the years. I smiled at how a tiny pumpkin and dinosaur eventually turned into a princess and a fireman then a witch and a pirate.
Finn can't join the army. I'm going to try and stop him any way possible. It's not fair. He thinks he can just go and redeem our father when the man killed himself.
There was a knock on my door and Puck walked in, "Hey."
I sat up, "Hey."
Puck sat next to me, "I talked to Finn."
"And?"
"He's not budging."
I groaned and fell back against my pillows with small tears slipping from my eyes.
"Sarah, it's what he wants to do," Puck said softly.
"He's not strong enough," I argued.
"He'll be taught when he goes into training," Puck reasoned.
"Now you're on his side?" I sat up and glared at him.
"He made a good argument," Puck muttered.
I rolled my eyes and picked up the album again. Ironically, I flipped to the year Puck and Finn had dressed up to be soldiers. I even dressed up as a nurse to help them. I specifically remember Mom and Ms. Ruth not really liking the idea, but Dad told them it was all for fun. Now Finn was really doing it.
"You look cute," Puck whispered as he looked at the picture over my shoulder.
I dropped the book on the ground, "It's disgusting."
Puck stared at me, "The picture? Sars, you were eight you can't-"
"Not that, the part that you and Finn dressed up as soldiers and now Finn's actually going to dress up as a soldier, but it'll be his job," I fell into Puck's side.
He gently brushed my hair, "Wanna hear something good?"
I nodded and slid down so my head was resting on his thigh.
"I'm staying in Lima and I'm going to go to the community college so I can get a degree in something and help you," Puck said.
I smiled and sat up, "That's great," I kissed him softly, "You're staying here over the summer too?"
Puck nodded, "I can just clean pools here. When Mom signed Grace over the other day, she also gave us all savings and even whatever she's saved for us over the years, so I can use that money too."
I kissed him again, "Thank you."
"For what?" Puck asked.
"Being the best boyfriend to me and the best dad to this little guy or girl," I smiled.
Puck smirked, "I am the best."
I laughed and hugged him, "I love you."
"Love you too," Puck whispered in my hair.
The door flew open and Kurt came running in, "I got in!"
Puck and I pulled apart, "To what?" I asked.
"American Musical and Dramatic Academy!" Kurt yelled and ran over to hug us.
Puck awkwardly patted him on the back, "That's cool."
"So now you'll be going to school with Rachel?" I asked.
Kurt nodded, "Not in the same school, but they're close. I have to tell Finn!" he ran from the room and up the stairs.
"Isn't the kinda like spitting in Finn's face?" Puck muttered.
I shrugged, "Finn already planned his future, it doesn't matter."
Puck groaned and pulled me onto his lap, "Let's forget about Finn and the army for tonight. Ok? I just want to spend time with you without your brother being a central part of it."
"Ok," I muttered.
"Good, now," Puck pulled over the books I was looking at earlier in the living room, "What do we need to know?"
I barely paid attention as Puck rattled off random pregnancy facts. I couldn't stop thinking about Finn and how angry he was making me. I know that the whole idea is good and I have great respect for the soldiers, but it is so hard to watch Finn do that to himself.
"Sarah, are you paying attention?" Puck asked, pulling me out of my trance.
I nodded, "Yeah, totally. You can't smoke while pregnant, that's pretty obvious."
Puck sighed, "That's not at all what I was talking about. I was just talking about the different options we have with the baby."
That struck a cord and I tuned in, "What?"
"Sarah, listen to me," Puck groaned.
"I am. I'm just wondering why we need to consider different options when it's obvious which one were choosing. We're keeping the baby, I don't care if it's going to be hard. They're our's and deserve to be raised by us!" I fought.
"You're not even listening to me!" Puck yelled in frustration and stood up, "Gosh, I wasn't even saying that!"
I shrunk back into my bed, "What do you mean?"
"I was talking about breast feeding versus bottle feed. Sleeping in our room versus a different room. Getting help or doing it ourselves. You have to listen!" Puck glared at me.
I was quiet as I stared down at my comforter, "I'm sorry."
"No, give me a second. I know that you're upset about Finn, I am too, but I'm not going to focus on that when the decision has already been made," Puck sat next to me and picked up my chin, "We have six and a half months to prepare for a baby and as an almost nineteen year old, that's not enough time."
A tear slipped down my cheek, "I'm so sorry."
"Don't apologize, it's not your fault," Puck muttered.
"You don't think I can help you with this baby, that hurts Noah," I whispered.
"I just want you to think about the future that you can change and not one that you can't," Puck said softly.
I nodded and stood up, "Excuse me for one minute, I need to do something," I walked from the room and up the stairs.
I heard Puck follow me, but I ignored him as I went to Finn.
He looked up at me, "Yeah?"
"I just want to say that I'm proud of you for joining the army and I will support you," I choked out the words as I tried to remain calm.
Finn smiled and hugged me, "Thanks Sarah."
I nodded and pulled back, "Good luck."
Finn's eyes scrunched together, "Are you not talking to me for the next month? Because I'm not leaving for a while..."
I shook my head, "With Rachel."
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I held Puck's hand as we waited for Finn and Rachel to arrive at the train station.
"I can't believe this is happening," Kurt whispered.
"She deserves it," Mr. Schue said.
"There they are," Tina pointed out.
As Rachel started walking towards the train, we all gave her a hug and said goodbye. We started waving goodbye as the train moved away. Finn ran along with it until it went too far. He fell defeated onto his knees and I tugged Puck along with me to go get him.
We sat next to Finn and I pulled him close to me, "It's alright."
"She's gone," Finn sobbed.
"You'll see her again," Puck assured.
Finn shook his head, "She's too good for me."
"No, Finn, no girl is too good for you. You're the best boyfriend, you loved her so much," I said softly.
Finn held me tight against him, "It hurts so bad."
Puck put a hand on his back, "How about we go out to eat or something? We should leave now."
Finn nodded and shakily stood up with our help. Everyone rushed forward to us.
"It's for the best," Mike told him.
"She'll be back," Blaine added.
"You'll hear from her," Mercedes nodded.
"Can we just go?" Finn asked quietly.
Puck grabbed his shoulder and tugged him away from everyone. I ran to catch up and caught a bit of their conversation.
"You'll find another girl," Puck said softly.
"I want Rachel," Finn whispered.
"And you'll get her when you finish in the army and she finishes at NYADA."
"I don't want to wait."
"I'm sorry man."
"Maybe I can just not join the army."
Puck jolted to a stop, as did I, and stared at Finn, "What?"
"Not joining the army is pretty much a guarantee that I'll see Rachel in the future," Finn told him.
"You...Finn...you understand what this means?"
I ran forward and hugged the back of Finn, "Do you mean it?"
Finn turned around and looked at the both of us, "I don't think I want to go. I mean there are other ways that I can redeem Dad, right?"
I quickly nodded, "By being a great dad to your own kids. By doing something great with your life. Following your dreams. Finn, please."
"Maybe you should take a night and think about this," Puck suggested.
I slapped the back of his head, "Shut up."
Finn chuckled, "I'll take a few days to think about."
I glared at Puck, "Thanks a lot. Don't expect any action if he decides to go in the army."
Puck's eyes widened, "Finn, you better stay home."
Finn laughed and wiped his face, "Give me a few days."
I nodded and dragged him to our car, "Come on, we have to go home and tell Mom, Burt, and Gracie the good news."
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"Mom, can you pass the spaghetti please?" Grace asked.
Mom smiled and nodded, "Of course."
We were sitting around the dining table eating dinner. It had been three days since Finn put Rachel on the train and he had yet said anything about the army. I've been waiting impatiently the whole time.
"Dad, can I have the cheese?" Grace asked.
Burt looked up and passed her the parmesan, "I'm still not used to you calling me Dad."
Grace smiled, "I like it."
"Sounds weird," Puck muttered under his breath.
I elbowed him in the stomach, "Shut up."
"I'm going to go to Lima Community College," Finn suddenly announced.
Everyone stopped moving and looked towards him.
"What?" Mom asked quietly.
"I'm not joining the army, I cancelled my enrollment this morning," Finn told us, there was a hint of a smile on his face.
"You're gonna go to school with me?" Puck smiled.
"Yeah and I figured maybe I could work at McKinley as an assistant choir director or something," Finn was really smiling now.
I let out a small scream and pushed back against the table to run and hug my brother, "Yay! Even though you'll be going to school with me, this is amazing!"
Finn laughed and hugged me back, "I'm glad you're happy."
I nodded and was going to answer back when more bodies were thrown on top of us. I squeezed Finn tightly and laughed when Grace managed to wiggle herself between ourselves. For the first time in days, everyone was happy at the same time and we were actually looking forward to our future.
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I passed Grace the can of pink paint and a paint brush so she could write her name on the boulder at the river bank. Kurt was on the other side doing the same thing. Actually, the whole glee club was here writing our names on different rocks to remember everything and everyone. Sure Rachel wasn't here and she left a void, but we all managed to remain happy.
Puck's hand grabbed my own and he started dragging me away, "Come here."
I giggled and followed him to a grassy spot under a tree. I remembered the placed as the night we had spent together before Beth's stitches which had resulted in Puck and Grace moving in.
I sat next to Puck, "What are we doing?"
He pulled a medium sized rock out from behind the tree along with a can of red paint and two paint brushes, "We have to sign one just us."
I smiled and reached forward to grab a paint brush from his hands, "What are we going to write?"
Puck shrugged and twirled his brush.
I pulled the rock towards me and carefully started writing. Puck watched as my paint brush glided across the dark grey rock writing the first few words that brought us together.
Lookin' For a Good Time
Sarah Hudson and
Puck smiled and took the rock from me. Once he was done, I looked at the rock and smiled at his finishing touch.
Lookin' For a Good Time
Sarah Hudson and Noah Puckerman
Oh My My My
I looked up, "Why'd you write that?"
Puck shrugged, "Remember when you sang that to me?"
I thought about it. We were at the old house on our bed in the basement. I was telling him why I would want to name our daughter Taylor. I nodded.
Puck smirked, "Remember what happened after?"
I bit my lip and the memory came back to me. That was when we made our little baby. I hugged him, "Thank you."
Puck pulled away, "For what?"
"For being the best thing in my life," I smiled.
Puck grinned back and kissed me. We fell backwards onto the grass. Soon, we rolled a little to the side, but stopped when there was a small ding. We pulled away to see that we had knocked over the small paint can and it had spilled onto the rock and grass. We both tried to get up, but resulted in getting the red paint on our pants and hands.
Puck laughed and stared at his hands before wiping them down my arms. I gasped and did the same to him. Before we knew it, we were laughing and tossing paint at each other.
Within seconds, it seemed as if everyone else noticed and joined in on the war. Paint was being thrown across the river bank in a blur of colors. Screams of destroyed clothes and hair were sure to come later, but for now, nobody cared as we all made the most of one of the last moments we had together.
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A/N: The last official chapter! The epilogue is next and I'll try my hardest to get it up asap. What'd you think? I know that some of the stuff that happened in this chapter might not happen when Season 4 rolls around (ex. the no army, the music college) but I'll just keep it my story. The sequel should be fun and I can't wait to start writing it. It might not come until end of July or beginning of August, but I could use a small break to get the ideas together. PLEASE REVIEW with any questions, comments, concerns, or suggestions! I would greatly appreciate any last thoughts you guys have!
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Ace5492 - Thanks for all the reviews each and every time!
Madie - Thank you! That really means a lot that it's one of my best. I'm never sure when I post it what everyone will think, so thank you! I'm so so sorry, please don't be mad. Spoiler, when I post the epilogue, read it to be happy again, it'll tie up all the loose ends (one of which being Finn and Rachel, you'll like it ;)).
raem9898 - What'd you think of the ending? Thanks for sticking around and helping me! I loved hearing from you!
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Stick around for the epilogue! You'll enjoy!
