Chapter Five
Stefan hated to see Elena in so much pain. Guilty ran through him, momentarily replacing all anger and rage that Klaus had caused him to feel. The concern written on Stefan's face was concern that no one had seen on his face for months, not since he left with Klaus.
Elena saw it too, and she gasped under her breath, and only stared at Stefan. His look said so much, and she knew that he hadn't stopped loving her. She had never thought that he had, and she was filled with relief that it was true. That he could be saved.
And then she was filled with guilt, because she'd kissed Damon. Not just once, but the second time, when he kissed her, she'd let him and kissed him back. She felt guilt because Stefan was no longer the only person in her heart. Because sometime, during the summer without Stefan, Damon had came to mean more that a friend to her.
Elena loved Damon for his penetrating blue eyes that seemed to see into the pit of her soul. For the way that he had protected her and had continued to do so even though he knew that Elena was not his. She loved how he put her first, and could always see when she was upset. How he held her face in his hands and gazed into her eyes, not breaking eye contact until she knew that she was not alone.
There was no words to describe how guilty she felt for loving two people. There was no words to describe the broken, raw feeling that was eating at her from the inside out. How much she hated herself for this. Because she knew it was wrong. As a person you were only supposed to love one person. And saying she loved two made her feel beyond disgusted with herself. She felt like Katherine. And she understood why Katherine put herself first and let them both go. Because they both deserved better than someone who couldn't love just them singularly. They deserved someone who wouldn't love their sibling too.
The tears continued to fall as she tried to fight them. It was all just too painful. And she was too broken inside to hold them at bay. It didn't matter if she did, because anyone who looked at her would have, at that moment been able to tell that a blank expression on her face meant she was not okay.
She was alone, even though she tried to think she wasn't. All alone in her pain over which brother to chose. Because she just wasn't strong enough to let them go.
AN: Thank you for reading! I love you all! Please review! 3 PS. When I was writing this I started out writing this chapter I was leaning towards third person omniscent even though all the other chapters were in 3rd person limited, and then I mostly just wrote this chapter in limited. But anyways…that's my little rant about my writing style, sorry (usually I write my stories in 1rst person, not third)…
PPS I'm really trying to write this fanfic, however, I want to work on some of my other fics too. Any ideas for what I should start with? I'm already in the process of another Someone who loves you chapter, but if you have any others you'd really like for me to continue just ask and I will do so most likely. Oh, and I totally forgot I wrote a Delena fic called Holiday Time and I'll work on a new chapter right now :O
