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Nathaniel

The class was quieter today. I assumed it was from my akumatization yesterday, but I wasn't 100% sure. Marinette wasn't talking to Alya about Adrien, Nino wasn't talking to Adrien about music or something, Chloe wasn't complaining to Sabrina-oh wait, she's standing in front of me.

"What Chloe?" I sighed, exasperated. I really didn't want to deal with this right now, I just wanted to go home and cry with Hayley about Elissa.

"You're upset. I don't know why you should be, Daddy is talking to your mum about you and your sisters staying at the hotel. So explain why you're upset, tomato."

The bell saved me. It rang just as I was opening my mouth to give an excuse why I wouldn't tell her. Thank you whatever is good and holy.

I shoved all of my stuff in my bag and headed outside to walk home. Crap, looks like I wasn't safe from Chloe's questioning just yet. She had latched herself to my arm, and was now looking up at me with her big anime eyes.

"Please tell me?" Oh my god, she was like Viktor from Yuri! On Ice.

I shook her off and as I was walking away, replied over my shoulder, "My sister committed suicide a year ago today."

*************MIRACULOUS TIME SKIP****************

I walked as quietly as I could up the old wooden stairs leading to my room. I silently opened the door to my shared room, seeing Hayley laying flat on her back on the bed. Claire and Ellie were half-heartedly playing with dolls on the floor by the bed. Even from the doorway I could see the tears glistening in her eyes. I walked over to her kicked off my converse, dumped my blazer on the desk chair, and grabbed a box of tissues. I laid down next to her and passed her a tissue. She blew her nose, dropping the tissue off the side of the bed.

"You okay?" I asked her quietly, trying not to disturb the rare silence.

"Not really. How did you last a whole school day though? You were just as close to her as I was." Sh replied, her normally musical voice thick with tears.

"Honestly, I have absolutely no idea." I stared up at the plain white ceiling with that one strange blue spot. I felt a warm pressure on my legs. Claire was sitting on them.

"I miss E." her voice sounded so small, it broke my heart a little more.

"Are you okay from yesterday Nathan?" Ellie asked me from Hayley's legs.

"I..don't know. This would be easier with Elissa here. She would know what to do." god, now I was crying too. Hayley grabbed my hand as Claire and Ellie curled up with us and together, as siblings, we all cried together.

Elissa-Exactly a year before our story began.

I didn't want to do this anymore. I loved Nathan and Hayley and Claire and Ellie, but I couldn't deal with them and mum all by myself. Nath could mostly take care of himself, and so could Hayley, but even they needed help occasionally. And Claire and Ellie were so little, they couldn't take care of themselves yet. Ever since dad died mum had been getting worse. I remembered her from before, when she was still that happy, loving artist mother. She was the first one Nathan had told about being Transgender, she comforted me when I got my first period, she took me to therapy for my depression. She was an amazing mother, then it went downhill. She stopped working, started drinking.

I stared at myself in the bathroom mirror with the cracked glass. I hated my too red hair, my eyes that couldn't decide what color to be, my pale skin, my freckles, how you could see my ribs but I was still over 100 pounds(49 kg), my big ass thighs, EVERY. SINGLE. THING. ABOUT. MYSELF. I watched the tears roll steadily down my gaunt cheeks and made my decision. I reached into the bathroom cabinet, grabbed one of Nath's unused art knifes, raised it over my chest, and STABBED. Ah, the sweet relief of death.

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