Chapter Three
Lee never did come to my house again after Sasuke and I got together. In fact the only time he ever really talked to me was in class or if he saw me at school alone only to ask where Sasuke was. He was still his crazy energetic self, but he seemed a little awkward unless Sasuke was there. The loss of Lee, however, didn't bother me at all. With Sasuke around, I didn't care about anything else.
It was halfway through speech class when the teacher announced we were done for the day and could have the rest of the period to ourselves. Kankuro leaned over his desk closer to me before commenting, "It seems like you've gotten used to being here."
I chuckled at him and smiled. "Yeah. Everyone here is really friendly."
"Oh, so you've made a lot of friends, huh?" The emphasis on 'friends' set me back.
"Umm...yeah."
He leaned in closer. "Got anyone you like?"
I blushed and looked anywhere but at him. I didn't talk to him about this sort of thing ever and didn't know exactly how to respond. Sasuke came to mind and I thought of how he would react if I tried to hide us from anybody.
"Actually..."
"Oh, so you do like someone?"
"Well, I'm seeing someone."
He sat back upright in his chair, shock clear on his face. "Already? Who is it?"
"His name is-"
"His? You're...you know...that way?"
I blushed furiously at that. I hadn't even thought that I'd be confessing to being gay or whatever.
"He's the first guy I've ever liked. It's a first time thing."
"Oh, well I'm not judging. So, who is he? Is he better looking than me?" We both laughed at that comment.
"His name is Sasuke."
And then his face went blank.
"Sasuke Uchiha?"
"Oh, you know him?"
"Yeah, everybody knows him."
"Oh, well. Yeah. That's the guy."
Before he could say anything, a classmate came up to us and handed me a game I'd lent him the week before.
"Thanks for letting me borrow it man, I'd been dying to play this."
"Anytime." Then Kankuro seemed to snap out of it.
"Woah! That's one of my favorite games ever! I wish I still had it."
"You can come over and play if you want. I don't mind at all."
He lowered his voice as though he was afraid to be heard. "No, I don't think Sasuke would like that at all. Thanks, though."
After that, we just talked about games, but I never got over how strange he started acting after I told him Sasuke was my boyfriend. He didn't seem to care that I was dating a guy, but the name drop had him almost wishing he didn't know me.
Today instead of last period, we'd been told to go to our advisory class instead. Apparently we had to be given some special handouts and told some information regarding an upcoming test. So, I walked slowly to advisory, the only place I'd yet to make any friends.
Luckily, I'd known in advance about the schedule change and had brought some I Spy books with me to pass the time. Once our teacher had finished talking to us, I took out my books and set them on the desk before opening one. I was completely into finding the hidden objects, I almost didn't hear my name being called. I searched the room to find the person calling me until I realized it was a girl sitting a few seats behind me. I was surprised when I realized I'd never seen this girl before.
"Hey, Naruto right?
"Yeah."
"Do you think...I could borrow one of those books?"
I smiled wide. "Of course."
I handed her the book and she completely shut me out after opening it. It was as though she had had the book all along and had no idea there was anyone else in the room. Weird.
Once the bell rand, she simply stood and slid the book on my desk then briskly left. I didn't even know her name.
I stopped worrying about the girl after I realized school was out and I could finally see Sasuke. Unfortunately, I couldn't find him anywhere. I stood around the front entrance to the school and saw Lee and his group of friends, but no Sasuke. For about 15 minutes, I stood around waiting but eventually, I gave up to go home.
It wasn't the first time Sasuke didn't go home with me, but it was the first time he didn't let me know in advance. I suddenly felt so alone. Being away from Sasuke had never hurt so much. Even though I knew I'd see him the next day, I missed him now. The walk home led me to realize that I'd never felt about anyone the way I did about Sasuke. All I could do was tell myself I'd see him soon.
That afternoon, I sat around my room not doing much of anything. I felt so incomplete, so alone. I lazed around until I got tired enough to fall asleep. My phone lay silently in my hand as I let sleep grasp me, hoping I'd be awoken by ringing.
I really did end up waking up to my phone going off. I checked the screen and didn't recognize the number. I got pissed off realizing some random person had interrupted my sleep at...SIX IN THE MORNING. Who is calling me so early?! School doesn't even start for another three hours!
I answered the phone and snarled into it. "What?!"
"It's me."
His voice shot me back into comfort and I relaxed completely. "Sasuke...Why are you calling me so early?"
"Hurry up and come to school."
"It's six am. It's not even open yet is it?"
"The janitor let me in. There's no one else here. Hurry."
Before letting me reply, he hung up. I stared at my phone, dazed. I completely forgot about how miserable I felt the day before and quickly changed, grabbed my stuff, and ran out the door.
When I arrived at school, Sasuke was waiting at the main entrance to let me in. He led me to the cafeteria where, like he'd told me earlier, there was no one but us. He sat us down at the table closest to the exit and held my hand tightly within his. I watched him. He was more handsome than the last time I saw him and I was soon glad we were alone. I felt so vulnerable.
"Sasuke...why are we here so early?"
"I didn't see you yesterday." He said it as though he didn't think anything of it. I felt a wave pass through me and felt myself weaken to him.
"But still, what are we going to do until school starts. I always get here 10 minutes before first period."
"Just sit here."
As amazing as it was to see and be near him, I was still sleepy. I scowled and laid my head on the table. "I'm still tired, it's way too early for me."
"Get used to it. I'm going to do this every day from now on."
I turned my head to face him. "Every day? You're gonna wear me out."
He didn't reply but I felt his eyes wander over me. Sasuke's watching me.
We sat in silence until I recalled some of yesterday's events. "Sasuke?"
"hmm?"
"Do you know a guy named Kankuro?"
"Yes."
"I told him I'm dating you."
"Okay."
"But he was weird."
"Oh?"
"At first he seemed really interested, but when I told him it was you he got all weird, like he didn't want anything to do with me."
"Good."
I sat up at that and stared him straight in the eyes.
"That's not good! Did something happen between you two?"
"No. We go way back."
"So, why was he being like that?"
"Because you're mine."
He almost growled those last words and in my surprise, I withheld from speaking. I still didn't understand why Kankuro would act differently because of Sasuke, but for the moment, I didn't care.
Slowly, more and more people trickled into the cafeteria. Friends of Sasuke's and I joined us at the table but no one commented on how close and comfortable we were being with each. Most acted as though we weren't even there and casually talked to one another. I thought it very strange.
When the first bell went off, Sasuke walked me to my first period, never letting my hand go. He didn't speak much but when we neared my class, he kissed me lightly without a care who was watching and coolly said, "See you later." He made me melt and I felt like running around and shouting with all the feelings he filled me with.
Sasuke informed me in CS that he couldn't come over again, but that he'd call me later. Feeling at least a little better than the day before, I walked home alone. I was stopped by Shikamaru just outside the school and walked alongside him for a bit.
"Hey, Naruto. You live this way?"
"Yeah, just two blocks. You?"
"I take the bus that's on that same block."
Just then, I spotted the mystery girl from my advisory walking ahead of us. I pointed at her and nudged Shikamaru's side.
"Hey, who's that girl over there?"
"Oh, it's Ino. Ino!" He waved a hand lazily at her.
"You know her?"
"She's like my best friend you could say."
Ino turned and smiled at him. Her smile looked as though she were annoyed to see him but happy at the same time.
"What do you want, Shika?"
"Just saying hi."
"Oh, you're in my advisory class right? Thanks for the books that day."
"No problem. You live this way too?"
"Yeah, just down the street from the bus stop."
"Wow we all live in the same direction."
"Wait wait. You two have advisory together?"
Ino pushed him with her shoulder playfully. "Yeah, jealous?"
He scoffed. "Not at all. I just didn't know."
"So, Naruto, you're new right?"
"Yeah."
Ino looked at me mischievously; it almost scared me.
"Are you seeing anyone yet?"
Shikamaru pushed her back. "Yeah right, he hasn't been here that long."
I tried to slink into my jacket when I heard that. "Actually...I am."
They both looked at me in surprise before Ino spoke up.
"Wow! Who is it?"
"Sasuke."
"No idea who that is."
Shikamaru sighed and rubbed the bridge of his nose slowly. "Yeah, you do. You just don't remember him. Ino's lost in her own little world. Anyway, congrats."
"I've been wanting to know something about him though."
"Hmm?"
"This guy in my class was really friendly with me until I told him I was dating Sasuke. What's up with that?"
They were both silent. Ino seemed too spaced out and didn't seem to even be listening to us anymore. He shrugged before finally replying. "I'm not too sure, but it might be because he's a violent guy."
"Like...he hits his SO?"
"No. Actually he's never dated anyone before that I know of. He used to get in a lot of fights but he hasn't in a long time because most people know his reputation and are afraid of him."
"Wow. I never would have guessed. But here's my street guys. I'll see you later!"
Back home, I paced around my room trying to figure out what could be so scary about Sasuke. I couldn't help but want to see him fight. I wanted to know everything. And then I clashed with myself. When did I become so immersed in Sasuke? I hadn't even called anyone in Konoha since I got with Sasuke. I pulled out my phone and dialed Kiba.
"H-Hello?"
"Hinata? Sorry, I meant to dial Kiba."
"Ah, this is K-kiba's phone. He's helping his mom with something. H-how are you, Naruto?"
"Oh. Well actually I wanted to talk to him about...relationship stuff..."
"I-if you don't mind, I'll listen."
"Well, I think I'm gay. Or bi."
"W-w-what makes you s-say that?" It was obvious she was even more nervous now.
"Heh. It's cause I'm sort of dating a guy."
"...I-I'm very happy for you, N-Naruto!"
"Thanks, Hinata. But I wanted to know, how do you feel about Kiba?"
"I- That is- I care about him v-very much."
"It's just that, I'm always thinking about Sasuke. I can't stop. Is that normal?"
I plopped down on my bed. Just saying his name had me feeling weak and needy for him.
"Y-y-yes. It's normal. Ah- Kiba's here."
"Oh, great!"
I heard shuffling and her whispering to Kiba what I'd just told her before Kiba spoke.
"So you really were gay!"
"Shut up! I wasn't before."
"Haha! I knew it! So what's this about guy problems Hinata tells me?"
"It's a little weird. I just can't get him out of my head."
"Yeah, this is weird. Hold on."
Shuffling again, then Hinata was back on."
"N-naruto?"
"Like I was saying before, I-" BEEP
I looked at my phone and saw the call waiting text flashing.
"Hinata someone's calling me, I'll call you guys later okay?"
"Okay. Bye Naruto."
I clicked over and answered again.
"Hello?"
"It's me."
Would he always answer this way, automatically assuming I knew who it was? Regardless, I sank into my bed. All my worries faded and the only thing on my mind now was how much I wanted to be held by him.
"Hi, Sasuke."
"Were you busy?"
"No."
"Oh."
Was this it? What a dull conversation. Why couldn't he be here? Why hadn't he been coming over? Did he not miss me as much as I missed him? Why am I even obsessing over it...?
"I heard something about you today."
"Hmm?"
"You used to get in a lot of fights."
"Mm."
"Is that why Kankuro was being weird to me?"
"Maybe."
"I want to see you fight."
"No."
"Why not?"
"I said no."
"That's not a real reason."
"Tch. I can't be held responsible for what happens to people who piss me off."
And immediately, I thought it was an act. There's no way this guy can scare so many people just because of fights. It was probably just his bad attitude or the way he speaks so distantly to everyone. I decided I didn't care. If he wouldn't tell me then I would just move on. I didn't want to focus on something that seemed so bogus, anyway.
"Why haven't you been coming over?"
"My dad has me doing things at home."
"Oh...I miss you."
I dug my face into my pillow. Why did I say something so embarrassing?!
"We'll talk later. I love you. Bye."
What? What?!
"Woahwoahwoahwoah! What did you say!?"
"You heard me."
"You can't be serious."
"Why?"
"We haven't even been together that long! How can you know in such a short time that you love someone?"
"Because I know myself. Don't question it again."
"...I can't say it back."
"Fine."
"I need more time for something as serious as that."
"Okay. See you tomorrow."
And he hung up. But...tomorrow is Saturday. There's no school. And he loves me now? I almost wished he hadn't called. He only made this day more confusing than it already was.
Completely forgetting about Kiba, I focused all my time into playing games. Sasuke had too much of an effect on me and it was bothering me. I wasn't myself with him. I gave all my thoughts to him and I didn't know what to feel about it.
The next morning, I awoke from Sasuke calling my phone. He'd told, not asked, me to come over to his house today. I was intimidated. I thought back on my encounters with Sasuke. He'd never asked me to date him, he just announced it by himself. He'd done everything on his own. I had no say in anything and while that was exciting in its own way, it was also scary.
He was on the phone with me while I sat on the bus to inform me of which way to go. I'd never been on a bus before since back home I had my own car. It was actually really fun. I hadn't known how much fare I needed nor where to put it. I didn't know how to announce that I wanted to get off but Sasuke actually laughed when I told him that and it was nice to hear him laugh. My favorite part was definitely pulling the string to get off. When I exited the bus, Sasuke was sitting on the stop bench looking nonchalant and dazzling. I hated the way he made me feel and thrived on it at the same time.
He walked me to his house and upon walking in, I was surprised at what I saw. It was nothing like my apartment. Jiraiya kept all the shades open and sunlight filled every room. Sasuke's house was dark, as though no one lived there. I stumbled inside, bumping into furniture and he grabbed my hand to lead me to his room. To my surprise, Lee was sitting on the edge of Sasuke's bed and I felt myself sulk realizing we wouldn't be alone.
We did nothing out of the ordinary, simply played video games while Lee and I talked. Sasuke gave input every once in a while but all in all, it was a guy's hangout. Despite my disappointment, it was nice just hanging out with guys doing guy things, but I couldn't help wishing Lee would leave.
A few hours later, the front door opened and I wondered who it could be. Moments later, a tall strict looking man walked into Sasuke's room completely unannounced.
"Sasuke, you didn't tell me you would have people over."
This guy had a more menacing look than Sasuke did. Sasuke didn't really scare me, but this guy...I wanted nothing to do with him.
"Is it okay?"
He looked around the room then at Lee and I. "It's fine." Then promptly left, shutting the door behind him.
"Is your dad upset, Sasuke?"
"No."
I stared at him. "That was your dad?"
"Yes."
He reminded me somewhat of Tsunade. Except, Tsunade wasn't scary, she was just a mean jerk. Sasuke's dad looked frightening.
After another hour or so of gaming, Lee decided to call it quits. I'd agreed in being sick of games for the day and had said I'd go home. We agreed to all walk partways to the bus stop before separating. Lee's stop was in a different direction than mine, and really only walked with us to the end of the street. As soon as he left, Sasuke grabbed my hand and led me to the stop bench. I wanted to say something. Anything. The silence around us was suffocating but I felt as though if I said something, it would shatter this serene stillness around us. I wanted more and more of him. When the bus pulled up, he stood with me and nonchalantly said, "Bye. I love you."
I felt torn simply saying 'bye' in return before getting on the bus. I watched him until he was out of sight and sulked. I hated being sad. I hated how much I wanted him. I hated the feeling of helplessness he gave me.
The next day, Sasuke had called me saying he was outside my complex. He'd surprised me but I got up quickly to let him in. We didn't spend too much time together before Jiraiya came home. Sasuke looked pissed off and before I could ask him what was wrong, he took me into my room and let me know there'd be no one at his house all day. I didn't even have to think about how to reply. I got properly dressed and left with him.
The ride there with him was much more different than when I went by myself. It felt like I was publicly announcing that I was with him, and like he was declaring ownership over me. We walked to his house silently like always and when we arrived, he led me through the darkness. I sat nervously on the edge of the bed wondering what to say or do.
He looked lazy but at the same time ready for anything. I asked him what we'd be doing and he wasted no time in pushing me softly onto his bed and kissing me.
"Are you cold?"
"Just a little..."
He slid out the blankets carefully from underneath me and laid it comfortably over us. His arm slid around my side and me pulled to him. My palms rested against his chest as I leaned up to continue our kiss. He'd tried slipping his tongue into my mouth and I pushed away from him.
He looked at me completely in surprise. I couldn't tell whether I'd offended or confused him.
"Sorry, I've never done that. Used tongue, I mean."
"That's fine."
He pulled me back into him and kept kissing me, not once did he try to slip in again. I smiled into him as I realized he didn't want to make me do anything I wasn't comfortable with.
It was enough for me to just lay there with our lips pressed together. I couldn't help but think this was so much better than Sakura. He didn't move much but instead held me tight, a strong force against my melting body. His hand moved from my waist to under my shirt before he laid his palm flat against the small of my back. I sank into his touch and relaxed. I'd never felt so peaceful. He would pull away from me enough to breath and I would take the time to look at him. His handsome features, the way his hair fell over his eyes, and his heavy breathing intoxicated me.
We didn't speak at all. We lay there looking at each other as though we couldn't understand how we came to be in each others' arms. I hugged him close and my eyes opened wide at what I felt. I'd never felt another guys'...thing...before.
"Sasuke...is that..."
He simply nodded. My hand hovered over it before lightly resting on it. I felt him tense up and relax all at once. I slid my hand up into his pants slowly and found it. His gaze on me grew intense. I wrapped my hand around it and lightly moved it back and forth. Not too much, but just enough for him to know I was there.
"Wow...You're...crazy."
He smirked tiredly, "What does that mean?"
"It's huge."
His eyes looked away from me as he whispered 'thanks'. Not really sure what to do in this situation, I let my hand rest in his pants and pulled closer to kiss him more. He responded by tightening his arm around me and caressing my back.
The feel of his hand moving over my back relaxed me more than anything he'd done prior. I let my head sink into a pillow and breathed his name. He whispered into my ear, "Does that feel good?"
I nodded and felt myself drifting away. He pulled my hand out of his pants and placed it comfortably on his hip before continuing his massage on me. After a few minutes, he stopped and lay flat on his back. He pulled me into him and rested my head onto his chest. My body subconsciously fit itself against his and before I knew it, I was falling asleep. The last thing I could think before sleep took over was, I could stay like this forever.
