Chapter 10
Logan groaned, blinking his eyes open when he heard his alarm clock beep loudly. He'd forgotten to turn the thing off, and now it was beeping like crazy. Logan sat up groggily, slamming his fist onto the clock, silencing it. He lay back down and stared at the ceiling.
The room felt so lonely without Kendall's loud snores. Logan felt like he could actually feel the emptiness of Kendall not being there in the bed next to him. James and Carlos had invited him to sleep with them, but Logan had told them that he wanted time to himself. But that didn't mean it wasn't lonely in his bedroom. Logan just needed some alone time… but that alone time just made Kendall's absence even more obvious that it was before.
The genius got out of bed, rubbing his eyes tiredly. It'd taken him a couple hours to go to sleep the night before, and even longer the night before that. He was exhausted, but he had no idea how he could fall asleep again. The idea of not being there with Kendall when the hospital was opened was hard to bear. He had to be there with Kendall. He just had to.
Kendall was their leader, he'd always been there for them when they needed help. Kendall was the first one to arrive at James's house when his parents divorced. He was the first one to visit Carlos at the hospital after he got beat up by some bullies in 8th grade. And Kendall was the first one to give Logan a much needed hug when he failed his first test in middle school.
Kendall was everyone's rock, the one that held them together. Logan didn't even want to imagine how much their friendship and their bond would be affected if Kendall wasn't there. Kendall was always there, no one could imagine him not being there with his friends. But now Kendall wasn't there. He was lying in a hospital bed, in a stupid coma.
Don't get him wrong, Logan really wanted to be a doctor. But there were some times when he really wished that he hadn't done that much studying about medical things. Some times like now.
Logan knew things that James and Carlos didn't. Logan knew what could happen to Kendall if he ever woke up. It was bad, and it gave him nightmares. But his friends didn't have to deal with that. They were oblivious to what was even wrong with Kendall. But Logan knew almost all the consequences and diseases Kendall could end up with. He knew so much that he scared himself all the time, imagining worst case scenarios of what could happen to Kendall.
There were obviously negative sides of wanting to be a doctor. Logan realized that the hard way. He quickly took a shower and went downstairs, smelling the smell of eggs and bacon.
"Good morning, Logan." Logan looked up to see James grinning at him. Carlos just sat in his chair, forking his bacon around.
"Good morning, guys. Thanks for making breakfast." Logan added, smiling at James. James shrugged.
"No problem. You ready to go to the hospital? The doctors say Kendall has a chance of waking up sometimes this week." James said. Logan's spirits rose. Maybe Kendall would wake up today.
But what if there was something wrong with Kendall when he woke? What if Kendall was never the same again? Logan didn't know if he wanted Kendall to just stay in a coma or wake up and be different. He didn't think he could bear it if he didn't have Kendall, or if he had Kendall but... not Kendall.
"Yeah, I guess I'll be ready as I'll ever be." Logan replied, sitting down and taking a bite of his egg and ham omelet. "You ready to go, Carlos?"
Carlos looked up from his plate. "Yeah, I guess…" He said in a small voice.
Logan shrugged, glancing at James. Carlos had grown quieter than usual. And Carlos was never quiet. "Alright, then, let's go."
When the three arrived at the hospital, they were immediately greeted by a doctor.
"Hello, boys, I'm afraid we have some good news and some bad news." Logan didn't know what to think about that. Was the bad news really bad, and was the good news really good? What if the bad news, was horrible, and the good news wasn't so good after all? But then, on the other hand, what if the good news was really good and the bad news wasn't so bad at all? What if-
Logan shook his head. He had to stop over thinking things. It was getting him nowhere. It was just causing him worry and stress, and he didn't need anymore of that. "So what's the news, doctor?" James asked boldly.
The doctor looked at them with some unreadable expression on his face. "The good news is that… the doctors think Kendall's waking up." Logan's spirits rose at the statement. Kendall was waking up, he was alright.
"But the bad news is that… I'm sorry boys, but the doctors were doing another scan of Kendall's brain… and they found that the bleeding in his brain got so bad that some of the blood bled into different places of his brain. Places where there shouldn't be bleeding. And we're afraid that… when there's unnecessary bleeding in specific parts of the brain, then the person is affected. I'm so sorry, but we think that when Kendall wakes up, there going to be something… different about him."
Logan felt his breath catch in his throat. James gasped, and Carlos whimpered. "What… what'll be different about him?" Logan asked cautiously.
The doctor shook his head. "We can't know for sure yet. We'll just have to wait until he wakes up. But it may not even be serious. It may just be that he'll have a slightly higher blood pressure than normal, but that won't really affect his life all that much. Maybe a few headaches here and there, but nothing serious."
Logan bit his lip. "But… what if it's not something small like that?"
The doctor stared Logan in the eyes. "I… we can't know anything until Kendall wakes up. Which will be soon, we're almost sure of it."
Logan nodded somberly, taking a seat in one of the chairs. He hated it when he couldn't know something for sure. Almost sure of it, maybe, can't know for sure yet… Those words just made Logan even more worried. He like direct answers, like "we know he's going to wake up" instead of "we're almost sure he's going to wake up."
Logan had always liked math the most, because in math, there was only one answer. One plus one always equaled two. But in cases like this one, no one was sure of anything, they could only guess what would happen next. It was all dependent on Kendall's body and his brain. No one knew anything until Kendall woke up. And they weren't even sure if Kendall was going to wake up yet. Even the doctors were completely helpless. And Logan hated that.
"Hey, Logan, you okay?" Logan shook out of his thoughts when James put his hand on his shoulder.
Logan nodded. "Yeah… I'm just frustrated that the doctors know pretty much nothing, ya know?" James nodded, staying silent.
"Do… do you th-think Kendall's gonna wake up?" Both James and Logan turned and looked at their youngest friend.
"I… I don't know, buddy. The doctors say he'll have a pretty good chance, though." Logan added, trying to stay optimistic. But it was hard.
Carlos nodded. "And he'll be okay, right?" Logan froze. He was really hoping that Carlos wouldn't ask that. Because Logan had no idea how to even start answering that question.
James seemed to sense Logan's discomfort, for he stepped in. "Carlos, we're not sure yet. We'll just have to see. Kendall's strong, I'm sure he'll be fine. But…" James stopped, blinking back the tears in his eyes. "But if Kendall's not alright, then we still have to promise to stick together. We can help Kendall. We can stay strong for him."
Logan smiled at James. If Kendall wasn't their leader, then James could have taken his place. James may have been a little narcissistic sometimes, but inside, he was caring and loved his friends. He'd do anything for the people he loved.
Carlos sniffled. "James… I'm scared. Kendall has to be okay… he h-has to…" Carlos buried his face in James's chest, sobbing quietly. James rubbed his back, looking defeated and scared. Logan watched them sympathetically. This whole Kendall thing was taking its toll on Carlos. And now it was going to take its toll on James and Logan, too.
They were broken without Kendall to encourage them on. They were broken without Kendall's support. They needed Kendall, just like they needed one another.
Without Kendall, Logan wasn't sure if they could keep going.
A/N- Oh my gosh. Please don't be mad at me for not updating in like… almost a month. I've just started my first year of high school, so I'm still adjusting to that. It's been a little crazy in our house these days, so yeah… that's my lame excuse. I'm so sorry.
I really hope this chapter was worth the wait… but I'm not really sure this was one of my best chapters… I'm sorry. For the third time. Please review and tell me what you liked about this chapter, what you hated, and anything I could improve on (cuz I know there's at least something I could do better). ;) Please review? Maybe I'll update faster.
Peace, Love, and Giraffes,
Anonymous Skrtle
