A/N Thank you to Angelscaite for being my first reviewer, I have four chapters to upload today, I hope that's enough for you...I will just say that before I get my ass ended and kicked to the other end of the verse, I like Ziva, I think Cote is a good actress and wish her well in whatever chosen field she ends up in. I can take Tiva either way although I would love DiNozzo to be happy and settle down. I am not a Ziva hater, one of the points in this story is to step out of my comfort zone and see if I can write her with a different sort of personality than that we are used to.

for those who while I have written this note have followed, thank you.

There is a time jump in this and the last one is in the start of the next chapter.

Disclaimer...huh?


Chapter 2

Tony leant against Ziva as McGee laughed, "Did you see the looks as we left...they were speechless!" he said.

"It was the end of an era." Tony agreed.

"What of Gibbs...Does anyone know where he is?" Ziva asked.

Tony shook his head; "I checked his cell, his personal one it was switched off."

"I do not have a phone anymore; I only had my company one." Ziva told them.

"You don't have a personal back up phone?" McGee asked stunned.

"No?" Ziva said, "Should I have."

Both boys produced private cell phones, "Rule 29." They said together.

Ziva resisted the urge to roll her eyes, Gibbs' rules again.

"I have to go home." McGee said, "Need to walk Jethro." He explained.

They bade him goodbye and Tony and Ziva left the bar and walked along the street.

"Ziva..." Tony said turning to her.

She had known this was coming, Rule 12 no longer applied and she didn't have that to fall back on, neither could she turn Tony down...she still needed the contact that he had in all forms of law enforcement.

She smiled as she turned to him, "Tony?"

"I...I am in love with you, you know that?" He said, the alcohol fuelling his bravado.

"I love you too, but, Gibbs rule. 12." Ziva said suddenly finding herself in his arms.

"We aren't co-workers anymore," Tony said and leant down and kissed her.

Ziva allowed herself to melt into his kiss, closing her eyes she imagined it was Adam in her arms, that and the alcohol that she had ingested and the fact that she missed Adam greatly meant that not only did she melt, she completely lose herself in the kiss.

"My apartment?" Tony asked.

Ziva looked up shocked, Tony never asked a woman back to his apartment, but it was nearer and Ziva needed a release of her own. So she nodded.

Ten minutes later, the door to the apartment was kicked open as Tony and Ziva groped with each other, tongues and hands moving between them and the air getting more heated by the moment.

Within moments Tony touched her and all thoughts of Adam fled as she got caught up in the passion between them.


Waking up she looked over at Tony, she felt disgusted with herself and left while he slept.

Tony woke hoping to see the woman he loved lying beside him, he was disappointed and listened to see if she was still in the apartment. He realized she had gone and he sat up in the bed. 'Maybe she's just gone for a run.' He thought although he knew it wasn't likely. He had broke his own rule, he had brought the one woman he really had feelings for back to his apartment, his sanctuary and she hadn't stayed. He felt betrayed but vowed not to mention it again unless she brought it up and he definitely was never telling McGee.

He showered, dressed in jeans and a sweatshirt and toed on a pair of sneakers, feeding Kate he went for a walk.

An hour later he found himself outside Gibbs' house. Gibbs wasn't there, that he knew. Gibbs had sent him a message to tell him he'd been recalled to active service on a top secret mission. Knowing that Tony wouldn't tell anyone and that had he not been told he would have moved heaven and earth to find Gibbs.

Cleaning the house up after Parsons and his goons had trashed the place searching it, Tony busied himself for a few hours. When he was finished he ended up in the basement.

He poured himself some bourbon in a mason jar and leant against the bench.

"I fucked up boss." He said sadly to himself.

"What'cha do?" A voice came from the top of the stairs.


Tony jumped and nearly dropped the jar he was holding.

"B...Boss...?" He stammered.

Fornell grinned, "I keep asking, yet you keep turning me down." He replied.

"Gibbs isn't here." Tony said sadly.

"I know, he sent me to tell you to get out of his basement." Tobias said pouring himself a drink as Tony's cell phone went off.

Tony opened the message and smiled and handed the phone to Fornell who burst into laughter at the message that said.

*Tell Tobias not to drink all my bourbon.*

"So what did you do?" Tobias asked sitting on a stool as Tony took the bottom step.

"I slept with Ziva..." Tony said, he hadn't planning on talking to Gibbs or Fornell about this, but he had been friends with Fornell since Gibbs had taken his hiatus to Mexico.

"Tony, WOW!" Tobias said stunned, "At your place?" he asked and looked shocked as Tobias nodded.

"Toby...she wasn't there...when I woke up she wasn't there, I called twice, once unlisted, she hung up on me...I really screwed the pooch on this one." Tony sighed.

"Wow..."

"You got anything more than that?" Tony asked looking at Tobias askew.

"I haven't been more shocked since I found McGee in bed with my wife!" Tobias admitted.

"He said he never slept with her..."

"Ok so they were on the sofa, but still...WOW!" Toby continued.

"TOBY!" Tony yelled. He walked up and down the length of the basement and sat down again. "I really thought that after the elevator, Ziva and I were finally on the same page..."

"You really love her?" Tobias said softly.

"I do...I did...I...God! Toby, I thought that now Gibbs was gone, Rule 12 didn't apply and she would feel the same way I did...I don't know now." Tony let a tear roll unabashed down his face.

"Come on son, I'm cooking pasta," Tobias said and led the way upstairs, Gibbs may not have been there, but Toby was his friend and would not let his boy down when he needed help.


It had been two months since that night, finally Ziva had located Gibbs, and he was apparently, in training for some secret mission, needing more answers Ziva only knew one place to look.

Vance's office looked exactly as she had seen it last, breaking into his filing cabinet was easy, her lock picks still worked.

She got the file out and started taking pictures when the shadows moved.

"Is that enough proof Parsons?" Vance asked.

Richard Parsons looked over at Director Vance who sat on a chair in the shadows looking angrier than ever.

"Yes director." Parsons stood up as Ziva jumped and DiNozzo and McGee walked in with their guns raised.

"Ziva David...You are under arrest for Espionage, your status as a United States citizen will be revoked and I have an order to have you deported back to Israel." Parsons said smugly.

"Eshel." Ziva spat. "My name is Ziva Eshel." She said smiling at the shock that crossed Tony's face.

Tony stood at the window watching in disbelief as the woman he had loved tore down everything they knew about her and threw it in his face knowing he was watching.

McGee and Abby stood either side of Tony in a group hug as she happily revealed that the killing of Ari had been designed to get her into a federal agency in the US, although she had been unable to move to one of the bigger agencies, she had managed to destabilized NCIS enough to get Homeland security and the FBI involved causing chaos in the country.

"Why?" Parsons asked.

Ziva smiled, not the smile they were used to seeing but an evil, feral smile. "Because the US sticks their noses in Israeli affairs far too much, it was about time we gave you a taste of your own medicine."

Parsons leant back, "I need to know what you learnt from us...you will tell me before you leave."

"You cannot lay a finger on me, my men will be here to escort me back to Israeli soil and then I will return home to my real job as head of Mossad."

"Miss David..."

"Mrs. Eshel. My name is Mrs. Eshel; I have been married to Adam Eshel for ten years now."

Tony tensed at that.

"Well at least you two never got together." McGee said quietly.

Tony turned and walked out of the room, the last thing he heard was... "McGee!" followed by a thump and'oomph.'


Walking her to the plane and with Gibbs, finally back where he belonged at NCIS all three men had requested the task of deporting their ex-teammate.

"Ziva Eshel, you are hereby ordered to leave the United States and are, unless exceptional leave is granted to you, never to set foot in the United States of American or any of her territories." Gibbs read from the court order and handed it to her.

He was still hurt as he had let her in as family and thought of her as a daughter only to find out she had played him all these years.

"I am not sorry Gibbs. I was only doing my duty to Mossad and my country."

"You left Mossad!" Tim snapped undoing her cuffs.

"No one EVER leaves Mossad Tim." Ziva said, "But I did like you that wasn't' faked." She admitted.

Gibbs glared and turned away taking Tim with him.

Ziva turned to her men and put one finger up in the worldwide 'wait' gesture. She turned to Tony and stood close so no one could here.

"So what we had was a lie." Tony said sourly.

"You were a Job DiNozzo, nothing more." She said snidely. "However, at least you gave me something to take back to Israel with me..." She turned to go and then said "I'm pregnant...it's yours...Goodbye Tony."

She turned and walked away not even bothering to look back as Tony stood shocked staring after her, one hand shooting out and grabbing the wall for support lest his knees buckle and betray him.

Getting his mask back in place he turned, 'she was lying, she had to be...' he thought and turned back to his family and his team.