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"Cockroach Cluster."
I mutter at the gargoyle outside Dumbledore's office, and it raises its stone eyebrows silently before moving for me to go up the stairs.
Knocking hesitantly, I wait until the Headmaster's voice echoes out, and then push open the door.
"Come in."

"Ah, Miss Evans. How may I help you?"
"It's kind of difficult to explain, Professor."
I'm suddenly horribly aware that my robes are somewhere out in the grounds, and I'm breaking school dress code by not wearing them.
"Well, I'm sure you will do admirably. Please, have a seat."
I perch awkwardly on the edge of the wooden chair, and take a deep breath.
"Is it possible for someone to leave the magical world, Professor?"
"I see," He peers at me over his half-moon spectacles. "Are you asking for yourself, Miss Evans?"
"Yes sir," I mutter. "I am."
"It is not preferred, of course. However it is possible. Why, are you considering this?"
"Yes sir."
"May I ask why?"
"I...it's too much, Professor. All of it."

"Now," Dumbledore's voice becomes gentle, and his blue eyes twinkle reassuringly. "Are you sure you would like to do this, Miss Evans?"
"Yes Professor."
He sighs heavily. "In the rare case that a witch or wizard wishes to leave the wizarding community, you would have to hand over your wand, and make an Unbreakable Vow to not reveal any of the wizarding world's secrets to the non-magic."
"Right. And could I do that?"
"Yes, of course, but may I suggest a trial period?"
"I'm sorry?"
"I am merely suggesting that you spend this weekend at say, the Leaky Cauldron, and see what the wizarding and Muggle worlds have to offer. I understand your reasoning, however I find a bowl of Tom's excellent pea soup can clear even the foggiest of minds. Would this interest you, Miss Evans?"
I close my eyes for a second, and think.
"Yes, Professor. I think that would be wise."

"Very well. May I suggest you go and pack a small bag containing some of your belongings for your stay, and I shall organise everything with Minerva."
"Professor?"
"Yes Miss Evans?"
"Will I be able to come back? You know, to say goodbye?"
"Of course."
"Thank you Professor."
"You're very welcome. Now, I have one question for you. Where are your robes?"
He sees my sudden panicked look, and chuckles.
"No, no, you misunderstand me. I am just curious."
"They are out in the grounds, Professor. Along with my wand."
"I see. Now, Miss Evans, may I ask you to go to Minerva's office in one hour, so you can Floo to the Leaky Cauldron."
"I will. Thank you very much Professor."

Standing up, I nod respectfully at him, and turn to leave.
"Oh, and Miss Evans?"
"Yes?"
"What will become of Mr Potter?"
"I...I don't believe he cares, sir."
"Ah." Inclining his head, his face grows sad, blue eyes grave, and I bite my lip as I descend the stairs back down to the corridor.


"So...basically what I'm trying to say is...I'm leaving." I finish, clenching my fists, waiting nervously for their reaction.
It's just like Alice's was.
"What!?"
Remus sits up, face incredulous, Peter pales, eyes wide, and Sirius jumps up off his bed with a snarl.
James is nowhere to be seen.

"I'm leaving."
Sirius starts to pace up and down between the beds, fists clenched, eyes dangerous.
"You're...what?"
"I said I'm going."
"Yes, I know. You're going to the Leaky Cauldron, and then you might leave the magical world but...why?"
"I can't do it anymore."
"But...you can't leave...you can't!"
Remus looks close to tears.
"What about us?"
Peter is biting his lip fiercely, big eyes watery and worried.

"Forget us!" Sirius snaps. "What about James?"
I wince as he directs his piercing glare at me.
"What about James? Huh, Evans? Found a block in your ingenious thought process? What about James?"
"He left me!"
"Because you left him!"
"Do you think I don't know that?" I shout, eyes blazing. "Do you think I don't know that it's my fault? Do you think I don't regret it?! Well, I do, Sirius, I do, every minute of the goddamn day! So don't you dare ask me what about James, because I have spent the past hour when I was supposed to be in Charms crying my eyes out because I can't cope anymore! I'm so busy caring about James and everybody else that I've forgotten to care about me! I can't do this anymore, Sirius, not like this, and you are not going to pressure me into staying here. Because if I stay here for much longer, there's not going to be a Lily to worry about!"

I don't know what happens for a second, and then Sirius is hugging me, rubbing my back as I cry into his shoulder.
"Hey, hey, it's okay, Lily. I'm sorry...it's fine...I'm so sorry. Shh...it's okay."
"It's not." I sob. "It's not okay."
"No," He pulls away, looking me directly in my bloodshot green eyes. "No, it's not okay. It's not okay at all."
I hiccough, wiping my eyes with my sleeve, then remember something.
"Would one of you mind getting my wand when you get the chance? It's with my robes."
"Where are they?"
"Out in the grounds. I went there after I left Charms."
"Right."

Remus passes me a handkerchief, and I take it gratefully, blowing my nose.
"I'm know I've already asked, but what about James, Lilybug? How are you going to tell him?"
"I've written him a note." I fish around my pocket for it, and hold it out to him. "Would you mind making sure that he gets it?"
"Of course." He takes it from me, and Remus puts a comforting arm around me as my tears subside.

James,
I don't know what to write.
I had it all planned out, you know, what I was going to write, but now it's all gone.
Sirius said he'd make sure that you get this, and he also said that I should have told you this in person. But I sorry, I can't. I wouldn't have been able to.

I'm leaving. Leaving Hogwarts. I'm staying at the Leaky Cauldron for the weekend, and if everything goes well, or not so well, I'll be leaving the magical world entirely. I know you probably don't care, but I just wanted to let you know.
If it means anything, I'm sorry for leaving at Christmas. I also want to thank you for catching me in the Hall the other day. That would have left a killer bruise.
I'm sorry too. You know, for everything else.
I also want to say thank you for the peppermint hot chocolate. It is now my all-time favourite drink.
Have a great seventh year, and win the Quidditch World Cup for Gryffindor!
Lots of love,
Lily x

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