I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT!

CHAPTER 10

(Bella)
"Who is that?" Alice asked.

"That's Sam and Emily, Jake's friends."

"Doesn't he wear a shirt?" Alice asked.

"He's got it tucked into the waist of his jean shorts, when it's nice out he takes it off."

"Nice," She muttered.

"Bella, oh my God how are you doing?" Emily asked hugging me tightly. I glanced over at Sam, who was hanging back looking out at the water.

"I'm hanging in there," I said.

Emily looked down at Jaycie. "Is this Jaycie?" She asked. I nodded. "Oh Bells, she's beautiful."

"Thank you. Would you like to hold her?"

"Sure," She said grinning.

I quickly introduced Alice and Emily and Alice placed Jaycie in her ams. "She looks just like him."

I swallowed the lump in my throat. "I know."

I looked around noticing Sam had wandered off towards the water. "How's he doing?" I asked Emily.

"Not good, he blames himself for Jake's death, he's been really depressed. I'm really worried about him, I've caught him drinking and he's just, he's shut down Bella."

"But Emily, it wasn't his fault, it was an accident," I said looking back at him.

"Bella, he really believes that it's his fault Jake is dead."

Did I believe that to? Was I angry at Sam? At some level maybe I did, but I would never ever let him know that. I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone.

"Is Jaycie okay with you guys? I'm going to go talk to him."

"She's fine," Emily said hugging her.

I walked over to Sam and touched his arm. "Hey," I said quietly.

"Hi," He said not looking at me.

"Sam," I said pulling him so he would look at me, when he did, I noticed how he had aged, he looked horrible, worse than me. "It's not..."

"Bella don't, had I not been goofing around in the car we wouldn't have flipped, and that beautiful baby girl would have had her daddy and you wouldn't be alone."

"You and I both know that you didn't mean to flip that car. You were like a big brother to him, it was an accident Sam."

He shook his head. "I lost everyone that day."

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"I lost him, I lost you and your baby, Leah wont speak to anyone everything is just so fucked up."

I stood there staring at Sam, I'd never seen him so down, struggling. "Somedays I just don't know if I have the strength to keep going."

"You can't give up, Jake would kick your ass if he saw you like this."

"Emily is pregnant," He blurted out. "I'm going to have a child, but it just doesn't seem fair when I know how much you lost. Someday, I honestly believe that God took the wrong one."

"Stop it!" I yelled. "I miss Jake more than you could possibly imagine, I had to give birth to her without him there, but you get the chance to be there for Emily and watch your child come into the world."

Sam pulled me into a bone crushing hug. "I've really missed you Bella."

"I've missed you to Sam, it's just been too hard, I'm not ready to go to La Push."

"I understand," He said softly.

"But Sam, Emily needs you right now, you have to stop drinking and take care of her, she really needs you."

"I know," He whispered.

I pulled away from him. "How far along is she?" I asked.

"8 weeks, we came here for a doctors appointment."

"Did you wear a shirt?" I asked grinning at him.

"No, I let my inner animal out," He smiled at me, but it didn't reach his eyes.

I jokingly punched him in the arm. "You're such a dork."

"Think I could meet your baby girl?" He asked.

We were just about to walk over to them, when I stopped and turned to him, I was feeling very overwhelmed and wrapped my arms around him. I couldn't stop the tears as they came on too fast. "I miss him Sam."

He tightened his hold on me allowing me to cry myself out. "I'm here Bella if you ever need me, I know its hard, but you know Emily and I will be there to help you out."

"I know Sam," I said wiping my tears away.

Sam wrapped his arms around me and we walked back over to Alice and Emily. "You okay?" Alice asked eyeing me.

"I'm okay," I assured her.

"Emily, can I hold her?" Sam asked.

"I suppose," Emily said smiling. She gently placed Jaycie in Sam's arms and I could see him instantly relax and walked around whispering to her.

"He's going to make a great dad," I told Emily.

She rubbed her stomach. "I know he will, I just don't know if he knows that or not."

"Jaycie, your dad was like my little brother, I have so many stories on him and your mom and if you ever want to know them call me." He leaned down and kissed her head. "And Jayc, you need to call me if you or your mom ever needs anything, I will be there I promise."

Emily and Alice wrapped their arms around me, I was so tired of crying, but just couldn't stop it.

We stayed talking to them for awhile longer and promised to get together.

"They seemed really sweet," Alice commented.

"Sam and Jake were like brothers."

"Jake really must have been a great guy."

"He was," I said sadly.

By the time I got back home, I was exhausted. I'd had a great day with Alice and was thankful she was there when I ran into Sam and Emily. It was hard, but I realized how much I truly missed them both.

"Did you have fun?" Sue asked.

"I did, I really like Alice. We went to Port A for lunch and ran into Sam and Emily."

Sue gasped. "Seriously?"

"Yah, Emily is eight weeks pregnant, they were there for a doctor's appointment."

"How are they?" Sue asked.

"Sam's really struggling, he's been drinking some and just feeling a lot of guilt."

Sue nodded. "This is going to be hard for you, but I really recommend that you go spend some time with them."

"I know," I said softly. "Jaycie needs them to, they are the key to her dad."

"You'll figure this out Bella," Sue said hugging me.

I gave Jaycie and bath that evening and couldn't stop staring at her. Jake's parents were both gone and he didn't have any brothers or sisters, which was why him and Sam had such a strong bond. Jaycie really needed Sam in her life.

I dressed her and gave her a bottle, then went an sat in the rocking chair cuddling with her. "Bella do you need anything?" Dad asked quietly.

"No we're okay, she's almost asleep."

Dad came in and kissed me on the head. "I'm really proud of you Bells," He said.

"Thanks dad," I said.

Jaycie released the bottle and I burped her. "Good night angel, I love you." I said laying her down in her crib.

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