I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT!

CHAPTER 16
(Bella)

I had been a month since Edward and I had gone on our first coffee date and a lot had changed. We'd gone out for dinner a time or two, but mostly met for coffee after work several times. I'd gone from crying a lot with him, to acually laughing. I really enjoyed our time together.

Matt had come a long ways too, he had started making friends and becoming more outgoing. He was quite the character in class and seemed to enjoy being there.

I was also talking to Emily again, I'd told her about Edward, at first I think it bothered her, but after a while she wouldn't get off my case about wanting to meet him as long as I brought Jaycie with us. I still hadn't been to La Push, the thought of going there still bothered me, but I knew I should go see her.

I picked up my phone that evening and called Edward. "Hey beautiful," He answered.

I smiled. "Hi yourself," I said. "What are you doing?"

"Hanging out with my family, Rose and Emmett are here with Alice and Jasper. What's up?"

"Well, I was talking to my friend Emily a few minutes ago and she wants me to come visit her and her husband in La Push tomorrow."

"Ok, is there a catch?" He asked.

"She wants me to bring you and Jaycie."

"Let me call you back," He said quietly.

"Okay," I said. We said our goodbye and hug up.

I sighed, I really wanted him to come with me, but wasn't sure if he would or not. I hadn't mentioned Sam and Emily before to him not that he would care, but part of me was a bit uncomfortable with it.

Dad had Jaycie laying in his arms, her eyes wide open as they watched the ball game on tv. I rolled my eyes and went into the kitchen.

"Did you call him?" Sue asked starting the dishwasher.

"I did, he's going to call me back," I sighed.

"You really want him to go don't you?" She asked.

"I do."

"He'll call you," She said.

"I see Jaycie is enjoying dad and his game."

"Oh I know, I wouldn't dare try to move her, she'd probably cry." Sue laughed.

Sue came over with two cups of coffee and sat down at the table with me. "So you and Edward seem to be pretty serious now."

"We're getting there," I agreed.

"Can I ask you a personal question?" She asked.

"Sure, I guess."

"Since we did catch you making out on the couch, I'm pretty sure its even more intense between you now."

I blushed shrugging. "Um, yah, I guess."

"Have you two been intimate?"

I blushed. "Oh my God Sue!" I gasped. "No, we've just kissed a lot."

"I know it's none of my buisness," She said. "I was just curious and wanting to make sure you were using protection. I know you're an adult and all, I just worry."

"I'm on the pill, I take it the same time every day."

"Good as beautiful as your babies with him would be, I don't think now is time to be adding another baby to the mix."

"Sue!" I gasped. "We are so not having this conversation!"

"What? I've thought about it." She said.

"That's really creepy," I said.

"What?" She asked.

"You've thought about us having sex."

"No Bella, I've thought about what a baby would look like if you were the baby's mom and he was the dad."

"I guess that's a little better, still weird though."

"What's creepy is you thought I was thinking about your sex life," Sue laughed.

"Lack there of is more like it," I laughed.

My phone rang. "Hello," I giggled.

"Hey Bella," Edward said.

"How are you?" I asked trying to contain my laughter.

"I'm good. Are you okay?" He asked.

"Yah, Sue was being creepy. Seems like she has sex on the brain."

"She's talking to you about her and your dad's sex life?" He asked.

"Ew!" I gagged. "Not theirs, ours!"

The other end of the line got silent. "I can't believe you just told him that!" Sue exclaimed.

"Are you there?" I asked.

"I'm here," He sounded very weird.

"Sorry, I shouldn't have told you that," I said walking out of the kitchen.

"Bella," He groaned. "Can you actually say you've never thought about it?"

I'd never heard him talk like that and it shocked me. I wasn't sure how to respond.

"Um, yah," I said softly.

"Good," He said. "Cause I know I have."

"Anyway," I said feeling very uncomfortable.

"Rose and Emmett are taking Matt tomorrow, so I'm all yours."

"Okay," I said. "Is 3pm okay?"

"That's perfect, I don't mind driving either."

"Alright," I said. "It will be fun Emily is really sweet."

"I'm not too worried, I can get along with most everybody," He said softly.

I couldn't believe how strained and awkward this conversation was. "I should go," I said.

"Okay," He said. "Hey Bella."

"What?"

"I do think about you and our relationship a lot. I'm not going to lie, I really care about you Bella."

"I care about you to," I sighed.

"Sleep good my love, and I'll see you tomorrow."

"You to Edward, I can't wait to see you tomorrow."

Saturday morning, I helped Sue clean up the house while dad played with Jaycie. He had her in her bouncy seat in the garage with him as he changed the oil in my car and his. I could hear him out there talking to her telling her just because she was a girl, she still needed to know how to do these things.

"How did my mom walk out on me like she did?" I asked Sue. "I wasn't much older than Jayc."

"I don't know Bella, I could never understand that either, but I'm glad she did."

"Why is that?" I asked.

"I have a beautiful daughter and a gorgeous granddaughter."

"Thanks Sue," I said hugging her.

Around 12:30 there was a knock on our front door. I went to answer it and found Edward standing there. "Hi, come on in."

"Sorry I'm early, Emmett came and picked up Matt already so I thought I would come on over," He said leaning down and kissing me on the lips.

"That's fine, I'm really glad you're here."

I took his hand and led him to the kitchen. "Where's Jaycie? She's going with us right?" He asked.

"Yah, just be quiet and open the door," I said pointing to the garage door.

He opened it up and looked, then closed the door. "That's great, she's really close to him isn't she?"

"Very," I said.

"Oh Edward, how are you doing?" Sue asked coming back into the kitchen.

"I'm great Sue," He said.

Edward turned to me. "I thought maybe we could go out to eat before we went to see your friends."

"Okay, do you want to come with me to help get her stuff ready?" I asked.

"Lead the way," He said.

We walked into my room. "She has her own room, but when she wakes up in the night I bring her in here."

"I guess that will keep me from sneaking into your room at night."

I blushed. "Edward, I'm sorry about last night. I shouldn't have said some of that stuff to you."

"Not a problem Bella," He said hugging me.

I worked around the room packing her diaper bag. "Is this Jake?" He asked.

I turned around to see him sitting on the bed holding a picture. "Yah, that was taken just a couple days before he died."

"How far along were you?" He asked.

"3 1/2 months. I um, keep it here for Jaycie."

"I have pictures of Lauren to," He said. "She was Matt's mom, I don't want to take that from him."

"No and no matter what Jaycie needs to know about her dad just like Matt needs to remember Lauren."

"Mhmmm," He said still staring at the picture.

"What?" I asked.

"You looked so happy Bella, you were glowing."

"Pregnancy remember?" I laughed.

"That to, but your eyes had that sparkle in them, Bella, I'd love to put that sparkle back in your eyes."

I took an unsteady breath. "I'm happier than I have been in a very long time Edward."

"Me too," He said leaning over to kiss me.

Something in the atmosphere changed and I couldn't stop myself, I moved, never breaking our kiss, I climbed on top of him straddling him. "Bella," He moaned into my mouth, he ghosted his hands up under my shirt rubbing up and down my back. His hand moved around to the front of me slowly going up to my breast cupping it.

"Edward," I gasped breaking the kiss. I gripped his shoulders grinding down against him. I could feel his erection pressing against me. "Oh," I moaned as he cupped both breasts through the thin layer of my bra, my nipples hardened causing him to moan. I gripped his hair kissing him forcefully pushing my tongue into his mouth.

Edward pushed me off of him and down on the bed where he climbed on top of me settling between my legs. I wrapped my legs around him pushing him closer to me as he began grinding against me.

"Bella, Jaycie needs a diaper!" Sue called from the other side of the door.

I took a deep breath. "Coming!" I yelled blushing. Wishing that in on sense I actually had been.

"Shit," He muttered leaning his forehead against mine.

"Sorry," I whispered.

He climbed off of me. "Bella, we will, just not when anyone is home." He said kissing me.

I brushed through my hair, fixed my clothes and grabbed a diaper. "Can you get her bag?" I asked.

"Sure," He said winking at me.

Sue was eying me when I took Jaycie from dad, but didn't say anything. I couldn't help but blush and walk away quickly. I changed Jaycie's diaper and handed her over to Edward, who was waiting to hold her.

"Hey cutie," He said nuzzling her cheek with his nose. "You're getting so big." She patted his face.

"Are you ready?" I asked him.

"Sure," He said tickling Jaycie's tummy while she smiled at him.

"I've been traded in for a younger cuter girl," I said to Sue.

She gave me the mom look. "I seriously doubt that."

"Okay, lets go," I said quickly.

"Have fun you guys," Sue said. She hugged me. "This will be hard, but you have a lot of support and I know you can do this."

"Thanks Sue," I said softly.

Edward helped me get the base of Jaycie's car seat into his car and then I snapped her seat in it. I was nervous about this trip for many reason and was ready for it to be over with. Part of me was nervous about how Sam would react to Edward since he was so close to Jake, I knew Emily would be okay with him though.

We stopped a small diner outside of Forks and Edward carried Jaycie inside. "Three," The waitress said.

"Yes ma'am," Edward said kindly.

"Right this way," She said grabbing our menus.

Edward slid Jaycie's seat in the booth with him. "Are you sure you don't want her sitting over here?" I asked.

"She's fine, I'll give her to you if she needs her diaper changed."

"Gee thanks honey," I laughed.

"What can I get you to drink?" Our waitress asked smiling at Edward.

"I'll have a coke," He said totally oblivious to the waitress flirting with him.

"What about you?" She asked.

"I'll take tea," I said.

"I'll be right back to take your order." She said winking at Edward.

I rolled my eyes. "Whore," I muttered under my breath.

"I didn't even notice," He said and Jaycie started to fuss. I immediately started to get up to go to her. "Bella, sit down, I've got her." He picked her up and put her up to his chest patting her back, she let out a loud burp. "Oh sweet girl, that's not lady like," He joked.

"She never is," I giggled.

"She needs to hang out with Emmett, a burp like that would put him to shame."

I watched Jaycie grab his shirt as she sucked on her fist. "Good thing I showered this morning, she's sucking on my shirt."

"She really does like you," I said.

"Bella, the feelings are very mutual," He looked down and smiled at her. "I loved Matt as a baby and tried to enjoy every minute, but with Lauren so sick it was hard to care for both of them."

"Did you have help?" I asked.

"Yah my parents flew back and forth a lot, and her parents were there, but after she died they moved to Florida and I haven't heard from them since. They said it was too hard to be around us without her being there. What they will never understand was how selfish they were, Matt needed them, but they didn't see that."

"That is awful."

"I can't look back, I just have to keep going forward with Matt and keep her memory alive from my stories as well as my families."

"What could I get you to eat?" Our waitress asked.

"You order first," Edward said.

"I'll take the grilled chicken sandwich."

"And for you sir?"

"I'll have the cheeseburger and fries."

"She's awfully cute, how old is she?" The waitress asked Edward.

"She's 4 months," I answered.

"You two are very lucky." With that she walked off.

"I, um, uh."

"Bella stop, don't worry about it, we don't owe anyone any explinations."

I knew he was right, and I was glad it didn't bother him.

"So tell me about these friends we are going to be visiting." Edward said.

"I should have probably told you last night, but Sam was best friends with Jake. Sam was driving when the car flipped. Emily, his wife is very sweet, she's around 4 months pregnant now."

"Jake's friends?" He asked.

"I'm sorry, I should have told you."

"No, that's okay, I'm wondering what they will think of me being the new boyfriend."

"Emily knows about you and was begging me to get you to visit, Sam has struggled with Jake's death, but Em said she'd talk to him," Edward sat there quietly. "Listen if it's too much you don't have to go."

He smiled. "Bella, do you want me to go?" He asked.

"More than anything."

"Then I'm fine with going."

"Thanks Edward."

Halfway through lunch Jaycie started to cry. "What's the matter sweetpea?" He asked picking her back up.

"She probably needs a bottle before we get back on the road," I said reaching into her diaper bag.

"Can I feed her?" He asked suddenly.

"Sure." I don't know why it surprised me, but it did. I handed him her bottle and watched how he gently laid her back in his arms and gave her a bottle. The way he looked at her, as if she was the only person in the room. I silently prayed that we could make this work, I knew Edward would be devistated to lose her.

"When you get a bit bigger, you can have my french fries," He said smiling at her. "They would taste much better than this nasty stuff in the bottle. She reached up grabbing his pinky finger. "Yep, I've got you wrapped around my finger don't I?"

Once she was fed, Edward paid our bill and we got back in the car. The ride was silent, but he reached over and took my hand, lacing our fingers together, he brought them up to his lips kissing my knuckles. "I'm falling in love you Bella," He whispered.

I slid over as close as I could to him and rested my head on his shoulder. "I'm scared that I'm going to wake up and this will all be a dream."

"Um Bella, earlier in your room, that wasn't a dream."

"No, that wasn't a dream," I admitted.

I tensed as we pulled into La Push, I knew the cemetery was only a couple miles up the road. "Honey," He said softly.

I fought the tears, but couldn't stop them. "I haven't been here since, the funeral and we are about to pass the cemetery."

Edward pulled over to the side of the road. "Bella, yes it's going to be hard. I wish I could tell you that it wasn't and that me being here would be enough to take away the pain, but I can't. I'm here for you, but it's still going to hurt like hell."

I unbuckled and buried my face in his chest crying. "I'm going to be right here," He whispered. I nodded. "Just let me know when you're ready and I'll start driving again."

I wiped my eyes. "Lets just go."

The closer we got to the cemetery the harder it was to maintain control, Edward wrapped his arm around me and I leaned into him not looking at the cemetery as we drove by. "We're past it," He whispered. I didn't move, I stayed as close to him as I could, letting my tears dry.

I calmed down and was able to tell Edward where they lived. I felt sick, I wasn't sure I could even do this, but I knew I couldn't turn back, I'd promised Emily we'd be there. Edward kept a firm grip on my hand, it was as if he was afraid I would jump out of the car.

Edward pulled down their long driveway. There sitting next to the house was his truck, "Jake," I whispered choking back a sob.

"What honey?" Edward asked.

"His truck," I whimpered. "It hasn't been moved since the day Jake came here to see Sam's new car and then they wrecked."

"Take slow deeps breaths honey and just remember I'm right here with you." He leaned over and kissed my cheek. I took a deep breath and sat there for a minute looking out the window.

Edward got out and came around opening my car door. "Introduce me to your friends," He said smiling. He got Jaycie out of the carrier and handed her to me, I guess he figured I needed all the comfort I could get and he grabbed the diaper bag. I grabbed his hand needing to feel him.

"Bella!" Emily gasped coming outside and hugging me awkwardly. Edward took Jaycie from me and I hugged her back tightly. "I'm so glad you're here."

I pulled her back and looked at her, she had a small baby bump sticking out of her shirt. "You look so cute," I said.

"Nothing fits anymore. I'm wearing Sam's shirts at night, I can't handle anything tight on my stomach."

"Can I?" I asked.

"You're aunt Bella, of course you can." I placed both hands on her stomach. "He's been moving around a lot lately."

"Boy?" I asked.

"Gut feeling," She said looking to Edward and Jaycie.

"Oh my God Bella, she's getting so big!" She exclaimed.

"She's 4months old," I laughed.

"And I'm being rude," She said. "I'm Emily, you must be Edward?"

"It's nice to meet you," He said shaking her hand.

"Why don't you come on in? Sam had to go to the store, but he'll be back soon."

We followed Emily into the house and once again I was fighting back the tears. "It's hard isn't it?" Emily asked.

"Yes," I whispered wiping my eyes. "I didn't realize you had his truck."

"Sam couldn't part with it, he doesn't drive it though." Emily said walking over and taking Jaycie from Edward.

I walked over to Edward and wrapped my arms around his waist. "So Edward, you treating her right?" Emily asked sitting down with Jaycie.

"I'm trying to," He said kissing my head.

"Bella, are you treating him right?" She asked.

I blushed. "Yep there's the blush," Emily laughed.

Edward and I sat down on the couch together. "How have you been feeling?" I asked.

"Really good," She said. "The baby is been really active."

"How is Sam doing?" I asked.

"He's getting better, really excited about the baby." She said smiling down at Jaycie.

"I'm glad." I said. "Did you tell him about Edward?"

"Yes, Bella, he didn't say much. You know how close him and Jake were, but he'll give Edward a chance."

We all made small talk until we heard Sam's truck pull in. "I'm going out to see him."

I got out and went outside in time to see Sam getting out of his truck. "Sam!" I exclaimed running to him.

"Bella!" He gasped grabbing into a huge bear hug. "You look great."

"You do to," I said.

"So did you bring your baby girl with you?" He asked.

"Emily's got her," I said smiling.

"And you brought him to didn't you?" He asked looking towards Edward's car.

"Be nice," I pleaded.

"Is is treating you right?" Sam asked.

"Yes Sam, he lost his wife to breast cancer last year, he knows how I feel."

"You aren't with him because you think Jaycie needs a dad, because she doesn't Bella, I'll be there for her."

"No, it's not that at all, just like I'm not trying to be a mother to his son!" I said defensively.

"Chill Bella, I'm just asking," He said. "I know how lonely you've been and I would hate for you to jump for the wrong person."

"He'll never be Jake, no one will Sam, but he's amazing and he is good with Jaycie."

"Well, take me into Mr. Wonderful," He laughed.

"Will you be nice?" I asked.

He looked at me "Nope," He said grinning.

"Hey Sam, I have the title to Jake's truck at the house."

He stiffened. "I don't drive it, I just wasn't sure what to do with it."

"If you want it I'll give you the title and all."

"Are you sure?" He asked.

"Sam, I don't want the truck, it brings back too many memories."

"Bella, I still wish it would have been me, or that I could have saved him"

"Sam stop, he wouldn't have been able to live with himself if you would have died."

He looked down. "I know that Bella, he was just that type of guy."

"Now, can you go in there and be okay with Edward?"

"I'll be fine," He assured me.

(Edward)
"She's still struggling isn't she?" Emily asked me.

"She's getting better slowly, but she couldn't even look at the cemetery on the ride here. I had no clue she hadn't been there since the funeral."

"No, after the accident everything changed. She hasn't come to visit, I've only just recently started talking to her again and our friend Leah doesn't talk to us. We used to all be very close, but not anymore."

I nodded sadly. "She's cried in my arms many times over Jake," I said.

"Are you supportive of her when she cries?" Emily asked as Jaycie started getting fussy.

"Absolutely, I know what she's going through."

"I know you do," She said. "She's told me your story."

Jaycie started crying. "Um, Edward I'm not really sure what to do with her."

"It's easier when they are your own," I said getting up and walking over to her. I took her from Emily and craddled Jaycie to my chest as her cries turned into soft whimpers.

"I like you Edward, but you see that little girl in your arms?" I looked down and kissed her on the top of the head. "Do not hurt her!"

"Emily, I don't plan on leaving the two of them."

"Edward," Bella said. I turned around to see her standing there next to who I assumed to be Sam. "This is Emily's husband Sam, Sam this is my boyfriend Edward."

"Nice to meet you," I said shaking his hand.

"Same to you," He said.

Jaycie heard Bella's voice and looked to her whimpering. "She wants you."

Bella took Jaycie, it was amazing to watch the bond between them. Lauren and Matt had a strong bond, yet with her being so sick, she didn't have such a strong bond as Bella and Jaycie had. "Does she need a bottle?" I asked.

"No, she needs her diaper changed," Bella laughed.

"You can change her in our room," Emily said.

"Well come on, I'll teach you, you are going to need some practice."

Emily rubbed her stomach. "Yah I think so."

Sitting alone in the livingroom with Sam was uncomfortable and very awkward. "So how long have you and Bella been together?" Sam asked.

"2 months, it's still fairly early, my son doesn't even know yet."

"Why is that?" Sam asked me.

"Because if for some reason this doesn't work I don't want him to get hurt."

"You know Jake was my best friend, I feel responsible for those two girls in there since it is basically my fault that Jake is dead."

"I don't think Bella sees it that way," I said.

"She might not, but I do," He said. "So I will tell you this one time and one time only, DO. NOT. HURT. HER!"

"I give you my word Sam, I care for both of them very much and want nothing more than to see her happy again."

He nodded. "She's a good girl Edward."

"I know she is," I looked at Sam. "I was the one holding her on the way here when she was sobbing as we drove past the cemetery. I pick up the pieces a lot for her Sam."

"Good, cause I sure haven't been there to do it for her."

"No you haven't." I said.

I sat there for a few minutes. "Can you and Emily watch Jaycie for a few minutes?" I asked.

"Sure, why?" Sam asked.

"Bella said she hadn't been to the cemetery since the funeral and I know for me that it helped when I would go to the cemetery to see Lauren's grave."

"It really helped?" He asked.

"I went to talk to her a lot, it was hard at times, but it did help after awhile."

"If she'll leave Jaycie, we'll watch her."

"What are you talking about?" Bella asked coming back into the room.

"Lets go for a drive," I said softly. I was nervous, I wasn't sure how she was going to react to this.

"Where to?" She asked.

I pulled her into my arms. "Just trust me."

"Edward?" She asked.

"I want to show you something, but I need you to trust me." She truly looked scared. "Bella, please trust me, I would never hurt you."

A tear slipped down her cheek as she stared into my eyes. "You promise?" She asked.

"Yes honey."

She turned to Sam and Emily and gave them quick instructions for Jaycie. Emily looked excited to get to spend time with Jaycie an Sam looked a bit nervous.

I walked Bella out and opened her the car door for her. "Please tell me where we're going," She begged.

"We're going to go to the cemetery," I said pulling out of the driveway.

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