I pace back and forth, worried for my matesprit. What happened to her? I turn and see John, his blue eyes hidden behind his scratched up glasses.

"How is she?" I ask.

He shakes his head. I look at him, gasping.

"No, John, tell me the truth!"

He puts his head down, I could see his tears coming out of his eyes, hitting the ground.

"kanaya."

"John?"

Karkat comes out of the tent, where Kanaya is; followed by the others. I glance up at them.

"What?" I pause, "What's wrong?"

Karkat bites his lip, his red tears forming in his eyes. My eyes are drawn down the line, watching their faces, their eyes forming tears.

"No . . ."

"I'M SORRY ROSE."

"What are you being sorry for?!" I pause, "What's going on?!"

"K4N4Y4 1S D34D."

I gasp, falling to my knees.

"No, she can't be."

"KANAYA IS DEAD, ROSE," Karkat pauses, "THERE IS NOTHING WE CAN FUCKING DO."

My tears come out.

"Damn it!" I cry out, "Kanaya . . ."

"c0me 0n r0se, g0 and see her," Sollux says, "bef0re we put her under the gr0und."

I look at him.

"This is not easy!" I yell, "My matesprit was murdered! There is nothing left!"

"CAPTOR'S RIGHT, ROSE," Karkat says, "GO SAY FAREWELL."

I look at him, slowly getting to my feet. I try hard not to make eye contact with my friends as I abscond to the tent, seeing my matesprit's body. Her eyes are closed as if she is asleep, her left hand was on her stomach, she is in her red dress, the one she wore when we got married, and her mouth holds a small smile. I look around the room, seeing flower petals scattered around, small lit candles are the only light, I walk to her, falling to my knees at the right side of her, I put my left hand under her neck, lifting her light, lifeless body to my shoulder, my tears fell out of my eyes, hitting Kanaya's cold, pale cheeks.

"K . . . Kanaya!" I cry.

I pet her hair, crying. I gently kiss her lips, hold her close to me. I can't believe that she is gone.

"I love you, Kanaya Maryam." I cry.

I slowly put her body back down like how it was when I came in, gently taking her right hand and place it on top of her left hand. I lean in and kiss her forehead, leaving my lips there for a few minutes as my tears fell from my cheeks. I hear someone enter the tent.

"ARE YOU OKAY?"

I didn't answer, I cup Kanaya's cold cheek with my hand, rubbing it with my thumb.

"YOU'LL SEE HER AGAIN, ROSE."

I turn to him, my water infested purple eyes look into his red eyes.