I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT!

CHAPTER 29

"Bella, you okay?" Carlisle asked coming outside.

"I guess," I said.

"I'm guessing you're very embarrassed over what Matt said?"

Carlisle was not the one I really wanted to be talking to about this, in fact, I didn't want to talk about it with anyone. I wanted it forgotten.

"He's young Bella, he didn't understand what he was saying."

"I know that Carlisle," I said softly. "I feel horrible for it even happening. I'm just not used to all of this and it's happening so fast."

Carlisle leaned up against the railing of the porch crossing his arms. "Are you having regrets Bella?"

"Last year on Thanksgiving I spent the whole morning nauseous. We knew I was pregnant, but we were really enjoying just us knowing. Then it happened so fast. We announced my pregnancy and he was gone. I never got to say goodbye to him. Now a year later, I have Edward and Matt."

Carlisle smiled gently. "And last year you looked into the future and saw you and him and your child."

"I sound pretty damned selfish right now don't I?" I asked.

"No Bella, not at all. Answer me something though, do you think you and Edward are moving too fast right now?"

"I'm not rebounding Carlisle," I said defensively."

"I didn't mean it that way and I'm sorry you took it that way. I'm just asking you if you feel like your relationship is moving too fast?"

"No, I mean, I don't know. I love him Carlisle, I feel like I can breathe when I'm with him. I guess I'm just not used to having an older child around. I love Matt and all I really do, he's a great kid I'm just not used to worry about locking doors and watching what I say when I'm not at work."

Carlisle laughed. "Bella, you are such a good mom to Jaycie and you are playing a wonderful role with Matt. He loves you as much as you love him and you will get used to it. Now saying all of that, you will quickly learn to lock those doors, because what happened today will happen again and it's even worse when they are teenagers."

I laughed. "I just can't believe he announced it at the dinner table. In front of my dad!"

"Did you ever walk in on your dad and Sue?" Carlisle asked.

"No way! I was too careful about that, I didn't want to be scarred for life."

Carlisle wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tightly. "I know today is hard for you, but I'm very glad you are here with us. Esme and I really love you and Jaycie and if you ever need anything, we're here for you to."

"That means a lot Carlisle, thank you," I said hugging him back.

(Edward)

Bella and my dad had been outside for a long time. Matt was sitting between Emmett and Sam playing Super Mario Brothers on the Wii. "Alice, can you take Jaycie, I'm going to check on Bella."

"Sure," She said gently taking the sleeping baby out of my arms. "Come to Aunt Alice," She cooed quietly.

I walked outside and found my dad and Bella hugging. "Is everything okay?" I asked.

"Yeah," She said breaking out of dad's hold.

"I'll leave you alone so you can talk," Dad said patting me on the back and going inside.

Bella and I sat down on the porch swing and she curled into my side. "I'm sorry Edward, I was just so embarrassed about what Matt said."

"I know, but he didn't mean anything by it."

"Oh I know, I'm just not used to having to worry about locking doors and stuff."

"I'm not either," I admitted.

I wrapped my arms around her. "Are you sure you're okay?"

"I've been thinking a lot about Jake," She said his name so softly I barely heard it.

"Bella, don't feel guilty for admitting that."

"It's just I feel like since I have you, I shouldn't be sad anymore," She said.

"Listen, what you are feeling is normal and I know the year anniversery of his death is coming up, that's going to be hard for you. I just want you to know that I am here for you."

"Last year, I was pregnant with Jaycie I was so happy, I never imagined that he would be taken from me."

"I know Bella, as Lauren and I held Matt that night he was born and we talked about his future and our future kids, I would never have thought that 6 weeks later we'd learn that she had breast cancer. Life sucks sometimes Bella, and it's okay to feel that way, but at some point we have to move on."

"I can't imagine my life without you," She said looking up at me.

I took a deep breath and looked at her. "I'm not saying right now or tomorrow, but at some point I'm going to put a ring on your finger and we are going to get married and be a family."

"That sounds wonderful." She looked out into the yard and back up at me. "And have babies."

"I'd like that Bella, when the time is right though."

She wrapped her arms around me as we sat there quietly with her head on my chest. I loved her more than I ever thought I would love anyone again.

I felt Bella shiver. "We should get back inside so you don't get sick again."

"I know," She sighed.

We got up and she turned to face me. "Edward, I love you so much it scares the shit out of me."

"I think it's about the same for me. I'm so excited to see where life takes us."

She wrapped her arms around me kissing me. She broke away and grinned. "I want to have a baby with you."

"Wait! What?" I gasped.

"I'm serious Edward."

"And I'm all for it, but honestly I want to be married to you first."

"Vegas now!" She said smiling.

I stood there shaking my head smiling at her. "No," I said.

"What?" She asked looking as though she was going to cry.

"No marriage until after Matt gets out of your class. Jaycie will be a year old and then we can start on trying to have a baby."

"You're right it's really fast isn't it?" She asked.

"Bella, right now, I'm having the time of my life dating you. I love hanging out with you and our kids."

"And our families actually like each other."

"We're very blessed Bella, I know it doesn't always seem that way, but we are."

We walked back inside to see Matt curled up asleep next to Sam and Jaycie asleep in Emily's arms. "Do you want me to take them?" Edward asked.

"Matt would probably sleep better in his bed," Sam said.

Edward reached down and gently picked up Matt while I picked up Jaycie. "Night angel," Emily said kissing her head.

"We'll be back," Edward said.

I kissed Matt's cheek before Edward took him to his room. "Love you Matt," I whispered.

Edward kissed Jaycie on the head. "Love you angel."

Once the kids were tucked in bed Edward and I made our way down stairs to join everyone. "So Bella, we're all getting up at 4:30 and doing the Black Friday Sales," Alice said.

"Go, have fun," I said.

"No, come on Bella, we want you to go," Rose said smiling.

I thought about it for a minute. "I think I'm going to skip this trip. I'd rather spend the day with the kids. Besides, it's supposed to snow."

"Bella, you should go, have fun," Edward whispered.

I shook my head. "Getting up that early isn't my thing. I'll go shopping the next time you all go, just not tomorrow."

Emily laughed. "Would it help to know that Sam and I are staying with your dad and Sue so I can go shopping with them?"

"Seriously?" I asked her.

"Yes, she needs things for the baby," Alice said rolling her eyes.

"You all go and have fun, Emily, we'll do coffee when you're done if you feel like it."

"That sounds good Bella," She said smiling.

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