I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT!
Chapter 52
(Carlisle)
"I want to see my wife!" Jasper snapped "They wont let me see her!"
"I know Jasper," I sighed. "Once they release you I will take you down there."
"I don't want her to wake up alone," He said.
"Jasper," I sighed sitting on the edge of the bed "She's not going to wake up on her own. Due to the swelling in her brain they have her in a medically induced coma."
The doctors felt that Jasper needed to rest and heal a bit, before he saw Alice. He'd felt extreme guilt and depression from the accident and they were worried what seeing Ali would do to him.
"I mean it dad, you better get me a fucking wheelchair and get me down there or I am going to walk myself!"
I sighed. "Alright Jasper, here's the deal. I will see what I can do to get you down there, but you have to know a few things."
"What?" He snapped. "Is she dead?"
"Why would you ask that?" I asked.
"No one will tell me anything," He said. "It's like they don't think I can handle it."
He was right, I didn't think he could handle it. He was pretty upset with everyone at that point. He'd done great when Matt was in there with him, but once they left, he seemed to lose it.
"Listen to me Jasper, she has a breathing tube and looks pretty bad. Are you sure you can handle that?"
"She's my wife, let me see her."
"I'm going to go see what I can do, but I need you to promise me that you will not freak out down there."
"Okay," He said.
I went down the hall to the nurse's station. "Well Dr. Cullen, how can I help you?" Cindy the nurse asked me.
"I want to take Jasper down to see his wife, I'll take him in a wheelchair and stay with him," I said.
She hesitated for a moment. "I don't know."
"Then turn your back and don't watch what I'm about to do," I said.
Cindy smiled at me and pulled his charts. "It looks like this evening he's about to be discharged. Go ahead and take him down."
"Thank you," I said grabbing a wheelchair.
I got back down to Jasper's room. "Alright, let's go."
He winced as I helped him out of the bed and into the chair. "You are going to have to take it very easy the next few days," I warned.
"I will," He said.
I wheeled him down to the ICU. "Is anyone here?" He asked.
"I sent them all to get food, no one has eaten much."
He nodded. "I'm nervous."
"I know and that is totally normal," I said. "She has a breathing tube and she's got some bruising on her face."
"How long will she be in a coma?" He asked.
"They will continue to monitor the swelling and once the swelling is down they will bring her out of sedation."
"Then she'll wake up?" He asked.
"Hopefully," I said.
"What do you mean hopefully?"
"Jasper, sometimes it takes a person awhile to totally come out of it," I explained.
"What will she be like when she wakes up?" He asked.
I hesitated. "Jasper, we don't know. She could come out fine or experience memory loss, there is no way to know until she wakes up."
"Memory loss, as in she might not remember the accident or me?"
I knealt down in front of him. "Jasper, I know this is a lot to take in and no matter what happens we are here for you."
"I wish it would have been me, dad. She doesn't deserve this."
I watched tears build up in his eyes. "And you wouldn't deserve this either," I said putting my hand on his shoulder.
"Let's go in," He said softly. "I need to do this."
(Jasper)
Dad wheeled me over as close as he could to Alice, but with the wheelchair, it didn't seem close enough. "Can I touch her?" I asked.
"Of course Jasper, talk to her, let her know you are here."
I stood up carefully, trying not to show how bad it really hurt. I gently took Ali's hand and kissed her knuckles. "Hey baby," I said softly. "I'm right here and I love you." I moved my hand gently over her stomach and couldn't stop the tears.
I felt dad's hand on my shoulder. "Why couldn't it be me in this position? Why did she have to lose the baby?"
"I don't know Jasper, nothing about this is fair," Dad said quietly.
"How am I going to tell her?" I asked caressing her cheek.
"Jasper, we will cross that bridge when we come to it, but Esme and I will help you."
"I just want to pull her into my arms and hold her. I want to go back and keep them all at home. Had I not been driving that night I would have never hit the ice and flipped the car. I could have killed Alice and Matt."
"Or yourself," Dad said softly.
"Maybe it would have been better," I said.
"Don't you dare say that," Dad said. "Yes, you both lost the baby, but you guys didn't lose each other or Matt."
"What if Alice blames me?"
"Jasper, Alice isn't going to blame you. She's going to be thankful that everyone is alright."
"Why couldn't it be me lying here in a coma?" I asked.
"Jasper, listen to me. What if the situation was reversed, but she still lost the baby? She would be dealing with all of that and worried about you. You didn't do any of this on purpose."
I didn't say anything for a while. I just stood there watching my wife sleep as dad walked around looking vitals. "What if it was Matt lying here?" Dad asked.
"I kept thinking about that as he laid in bed with me earlier."
"Jasper, we need to get you back to your room. They are going to discharge you later on today and then you can come visit as much as you want," Dad said.
"I don't want to leave her," I said.
"I know, but Jasper you also need to rest so you can heal."
I carefully leaned over and kissed her. "I love you, Ali."
After getting back to my room and sleeping for a couple hours, the doctors released me, telling me to take it easy.
How the hell was I supposed to take it easy when I needed to be with my wife? She needed me, hell, I needed her.
I headed down to Alice's room and sat in the chair next to her bed. "You must be Jasper, I'm Sarah, I'll be taking care of your wife tonight."
"How is she?" I asked.
"Her vitals are stable which, is a good thing, and sometime this evening, they will take her for another CT scan to check the swelling," She explained. "Do you have any questions?"
"No," I said softly.
"Listen, she is young and healthy, I don't see any reason that she wont recover from this. It might take some time, but I believe she's going to be okay."
"Thank you," I said softly.
"I'm going to leave you alone for a while, don't hesitate to page me if you need anything."
"Alice, you have to be okay," I pleaded holding her hand. "I can't lose you. I'm not as strong as Edward and Bella, there is no one else I could ever love the way that I love you."
I heard the door open, but didn't turn to see who it was. Two hands rested on my shoulders. "Hey man."
"Hi," I said softly. "Where is Rose?"
"They are all in the waiting room. No one wants to leave," Emmett said.
"Wow," I whispered.
"So how is Ali doing?" He asked me.
"They said that her vitals were good and they would take her for a CT scan tonight," I said.
"How are you doing?" He asked.
"I'm fine," I said.
"No you aren't, you have two broken ribs and I know that has to hurt like hell."
"Seeing Ali this way hurts worse," I said.
"When was the last time you have eaten anything?" Emmett asked as Sarah and a few other people came into the room.
"We are going to take her for a CT scan now," Sarah said.
"Can I go with her?" I asked.
"No, we need you to stay here and you can see her when she's done," Sarah said.
"Why don't we go get food while they have Ali," Emmett suggested.
"No, I,"
"Mom, dad and Rose are all here in the waiting room, they can come in and sit with her until we get back," Emmett said.
"Fine."
Emmett and I went down to the cafeteria. I hadn't realized how hungry I was until I smelled the food. We grabbed our food and paid for it. "I know you don't want to think about this right now, but you are going to need to sleep," Emmett said.
"I'll sleep here," I said.
"Jasper, you aren't going to get much rest if you stay here," He said.
"I can't leave her," I said.
"Jasper, once she comes home you are going to have to help take care of her. How are you going to do that if you haven't had a chance to heal yourself?"
I knew he was right. "I just don't want to leave her," I said. "Not yet anyways."
"I understand that, but you have to think about you too," He said.
"I really don't want to go home," I admitted.
"Rose and I have already talked about it, you're coming to our house."
"I can't intrude," I said.
"You aren't, you are going to allow us to help you get better."
"I just really don't want to leave her," I said softly.
"I know Jasper, I wouldn't either," He said.
They hadn't brought Alice back yet by the time we got upstairs, so we went back to the waiting room to sit with our parents and Rose. "The nurse said they would come get us when they brought her back," Dad said.
"Okay," I said groaning as I sat down.
"Did they give you pain meds for your ribs?" Dad asked.
"They did, but I haven't taken any yet. I know they will knock me out and I need to be alert to be with Ali."
"That is where you are wrong. You need to rest up so you have the strength and energy to help her," Dad said.
"I tried to tell him," Emmett said smiling.
"Emmett is right," Dad said. "Let's wait and see what they say when they come out and then we will decide what to do from there."
We watched the clock intently; seconds seemed to turn into minutes that turned into what seemed like hours. "Should it take this long?" I asked.
"Jasper, you've only been back like five minutes," Dad said.
"They were getting ready to wheel her out as I left," I said.
"It takes a few minutes to get there. Doing the scan doesn't usually take long, but they are going to really look at her brain, so they will take their time."
I leaned back nodding. "Has anyone talked to Bella and Edward since they got home?"
"No, it's 11pm, hopefully they are all sleeping," Mom said.
"Maybe you could call them in the morning," Rose suggested.
"I will," I sighed.
"Jasper," Sarah said coming out into the waiting room. "You can come back now."
"I'll go with him and then we can trade off," Dad said.
I took my spot holding her hand. "How did things go?" Dad asked.
"They will be bringing the results into you," She said.
"I just wish there was something I could do," I said.
"You are here," Sarah said.
"They want me to go home and rest," I said.
"Your family is right," Sarah said. "Being over tired will not help anything."
I ran my hand up and down Alice's arm telling her over and over again how much I loved her. The thought of leaving her made me physically sick to my stomach. What if something happened to her and I wasn't there.
"Jasper," Dad said softly.
"I know you don't want to leave her, I can tell what you are thinking."
"What if something happens to her and I'm not here?"
"They will call you immediately," Dad said.
"How are you so calm? This is your daughter?"
Dad smiled softly. "Outside I'm calm, inside, I'm scared too, but what good does it do to get all worked up and freak out?"
"It doesn't," I sighed.
"If I stayed, would you go home with Emmett and Rose?" He asked me.
A doctor came in with Sarah. "Dr. Cullen, it's good to see you," He said shaking my dad's hand.
"Good evening, Dr. Michaels," Dad said. "This is my son in law Jasper."
He shook my hand. "We have the results of the CT Scan."
"Okay," I said nervously. I felt dad's hand on my shoulder.
"We were hoping for better results, however, it could have been a lot worse."
"What does that mean?" I asked.
"We were hoping to see a reduction of swelling, with that being said, it's not getting any better, but it's not getting any worse."
"That's good right?" I asked.
"It just means that it could take time for the swelling to go down. I'm encouraged when I see that it hasn't gotten worse."
I breathed a sigh of relief. "Okay."
"Now, I'm going to suggest that you go home and sleep. You are needed here, but only after you've had sleep."
I rolled my eyes. "I,"
"I'm staying the night at the hospital, he's going home with my other daughter and her husband," Dad said.
"Good plan. Things always seem the darkest in the night," Dr. Michaels said.
I felt sick, I didn't want to leave. I knew we were only a few minutes from the hospital, but it still seemed too far. I leaned over feeling more pain the before. "Ali, I'll be back in the morning. I love you so much." I kissed her and dad and I left.
"Emmett has your pain pills, take them Jasper, I mean it and get some sleep tonight."
"I will dad," I said. "Thank you."
"You are more than welcome and I promise to call you if anything happens."
AN- YOU GUYS ARE ALL AMAZING AND I DON'T THINK I CAN THANK YOU ENOUGH. HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS CHAPTER AND GETTING INTO JASPER'S HEAD A LITTLE BIT
