I DON'T OWN ANYTHING TWILIGHT!
Chapter 55
(Bella)
"How could a person be so tired?" I asked Edward as we snuggled on the couch watching a movie.
Dad and Sue had taken the kids out for supper that night and were giving us some alone time. Matt was doing pretty well, he didn't have his energy level back yet and would get tired easily, but all and all he was doing well during the day. At night however, he would have horrible nightmares of the accident or just being left alone. There were nights we were up and down with him three different times. The past night, while sleeping with us, he dreamed that he was playing basketball and got hit by a car. He woke up screaming and ended up having an accident.
"God Bella, I don't know," Edward yawned.
"Is he even going to be ready to go back to school on Monday?" I asked.
"When we take him back for his checkup we will ask. I know we need to get back to work and he needs to get back to school, but damn he's not sleeping any better than we are."
"What are we going to do?" I asked.
"I guess we just keep talking to him," He sighed.
I wrapped my arms around Edward and held him. We hadn't been together since the night we got Matt out of the hospital and it didn't appear we would be taking advantage of our alone time, we were just too tired.
Edward's phone rang and he reached over for it. "Hi mom," He said. "Yes, she's here too. I'll put you on speaker."
"Can you hear me?" Esme asked.
"We can hear you," I laughed. "How are things going?"
"Alice is awake," Esme said.
I felt like fifty tons had been moved off of my chest "How is she?"
"She's really scared, but talking. They took her down for a CT scan and they said if the results were good, they would put her into a regular room soon."
"Good," Edward said.
"Can we come up to see her?" I asked.
"Tomorrow would probably be better," Esme said. "When she woke up, she immediately asked about the baby, so they went ahead and told her."
"How did she take it?" Edward asked.
"She got really upset, I don't know if it has really sunk in for her yet," Esme replied. "Oh guys, I need to get off here. Carlisle just got a text from Jasper I'll call you when we know something."
"Ok, we love you," Edward said.
"Love you guys too, and kiss the kids for me."
(Sue)
We had taken the kids to Chuck-E-Cheese in Port Angeles. Jaycie didn't care anything about it, but we thought it would do Matt some good to have some fun and since it was a weeknight they weren't that busy.
I gave Jaycie her bottle and watched as Charlie and Matt played Skee ball. I could tell by watching him he was getting tired. He wore out so easily since the accident. Jaycie spit out her bottle and tried to sit up to look around. "Pretty soon you will be able to play with Matt," I said earning a huge grin.
"Can we get more tokens?" Matt asked coming over to where I was sitting.
I glanced at my watch, it was getting close to 8pm and from the dark circles under Matt's eyes, he needed to go home and get into bed. "Why don't we come back another time," I suggested. "We need to get you guys home."
He frowned. "Okay."
"Did you have fun tonight?" Charlie asked him.
"Thank you for bringing me here papa and nana."
"You're welcome," Charlie and I said in unison.
As we were heading out to the car, Matt suddenly stopped. "What's wrong, Matt?" Charlie asked.
"No, no, no," He said shaking his head.
"Matt," Charlie asked.
Matt stood there trembling as he stared at the car. "I don't want to get in the car."
Charlie walked over to Matt. "It's okay Matt."
Tears started streaming down his cheeks. "Sue, get Jaycie in the car," Charlie said.
(Charlie)
"Come on Matt, it's okay, let's go home," I said.
"No!" He cried backing away toward the building.
A couple people coming out of the place stopped at stared at us. "Matt, it's okay," I said.
"No papa, please don't make me go," He cried.
I walked over to him and pulled him into a hug. "Everything is going to be okay," I said hugging him close to me. I could feel his little body shaking as I held him.
I carried him over to a bench and sat down with him. I'd never dealt with a small child's panic attack and it was scary.
"Matt," I said softly. "Are you scared of getting in the car?"
"We were singing funny songs, and all of a sudden, the car started to turn around and I hit my head really hard on something."
Up until now, he hadn't remembered the accident. It really hurt to see how scared he was. "Matt, do you want Sue to sit in the backseat with you?" I asked.
"I don't know," He whispered.
"We'll let Sue sit back there with you and I will drive slow," I promised.
"Do you promise?" He asked.
"Yes Matt," I said.
The ride back was long. Sue held him close to her as he cried all the way back. I could hear her talking to him and telling him he was okay, but it wasn't helping. I just wanted to get him home so Edward could help him through this.
I carried Matt inside, he had his face in my neck and I could still feel his tears. Edward and Bella were curled up on a blanket in front of the fire place with cups of hot chocolate next to them. They were both sleeping against each other. I stood there watching them. I couldn't believe how different Bella was.
I had always really like Jake and never had a doubt that he would take care of her. They joked around a lot and had a very young and innocent kind of love. Edward was different. Yes, they were older and had been through a lot, but there was a love and respect in his eyes when he looked at her. I couldn't wait to see her in her dress as I walked her down the aisle.
I set Matt down and reached down shaking Edward's arm. "Edward," I whispered loudly.
"What?" He asked sitting straight up.
"We're home," I laughed.
He looked over at Bella. "Shit, I didn't mean to fall asleep."
"Daddy," Matt cried going over to him.
Edward pulled him into his arms. "What happened?"
"He panicked and remembered the accident tonight."
"Oh Matt," Edward said rubbing his back.
"I was scared daddy," He cried.
"Sue sat in the back with him," I said.
"I'm going to take him upstairs," Edward said.
I hugged Matt goodnight and patted Edward on the back. I liked my future son-in-law a lot more than I did the first time I met him and I came home finding them groping each other.
Sue had just finished changing Jaycie's diaper and sat down on the bed with her. "Edward took Matt upstairs, but Bella is still sleeping."
"Good, she needs to sleep," Sue yawned.
"You do too," I laughed.
"I'm really okay. I'm just not as young as I used to be."
"I know that feeling, but I'm glad they are letting us help," I said.
"Can you get me a bottle for her?" Sue asked snuggling with Jaycie.
I made her the bottle and took it back to Sue. "Want me to give it to her?"
Sue smiled. "Sure."
I took Jaycie and sat down in the chair. "Hey pretty girl," I said kissing her.
"Does she remind you of Bella?" Sue asked.
"A lot," I sighed. "Renee was okay with her at first, she would feed her, but it wasn't near how Bella is with Jaycie. She didn't talk to her much. She was content to feed her and set her down."
"That's really sad, she missed out on an incredible woman," Sue said. "I wish Bella was mine."
I looked over at her. "She is your daughter Sue."
"I know, but when I hold Jaycie, I wish I could have held Bella like that and watched her grow up."
"Me too, Sue. Renee sure didn't give a damn."
"How long have you guys been home?" Bella asked coming into the room. She still had dark circles under her eyes and she looked like she had aged ten years in the past four days.
"We haven't been home long. Edward is upstairs putting Matt to bed," I told her.
She came in and took Jaycie from me and went and sat down on the bed with Sue. "Are you not sleeping?" Sue asked her.
"Not really, Matt wakes up every night having a nightmare."
"He had a panic attack tonight, Sue had to ride in the back with him, but he's starting to remember things from the accident," I told her.
"Is he okay?" Bella asked.
"In time, I think we need to encourage him to talk about it," I told her.
Bella brought Jaycie up close to her and burst into tears. "Oh honey," Sue said going over to her and putting her arms around them both.
"I feel so helpless," She cried. "Nothing seems to be working. He's not sleeping at night and now he's having panic attacks."
"Bella, just keep loving him and talking to him, he will be okay. It's just going to take time," I said.
"Alice woke up this afternoon," Bella said softly. "She immediately asked about the baby and didn't take the news well at all."
"Does she remember any of it?" I asked.
"I don't know. Esme just called with a quick update," Bella replied.
"Maybe you and Edward could go visit her tomorrow and spend some time together just the two of you," Sue said.
"I hate to leave the kids with you guys, you have helped so much already."
"Don't worry about it, we can help and that's what counts," I said.
(Edward)
I peeked into the room where Charlie and Sue were staying and found Bella holding Jaycie and talking to her parents. "Can I come in?"
"Sure," Sue said.
Bella stood up allowing me to kiss Jaycie, who was already asleep, then put her in her pack-n-play. I sat down in the seat and pulled her into my lap. "Is Matt okay?" She asked.
"He will be," I said. "We talked about it some and he seemed calmer."
Bella yawned. "You should get some sleep," I whispered.
"I know," She sighed
"You two go to bed, Edward, you look just as bad as Bella does," Charlie said.
"Thanks dad," Bella groaned.
"He's right, go to bed," Sue said.
Bella stood up and we said goodnight to everyone.
"Dad and Sue offered to keep the kids so we could spend some time together," She said as we walked up the stairs.
"I've been thinking about a weekend getaway," I admitted.
"Better hope I get some sleep or I will sleep the whole time."
"I wouldn't complain," I said kissing her cheek.
"Sure you would," She said grinning at me.
"I'm sure we'd make something work out," I laughed.
Bella was asleep the minute her head hit the pillow. I covered her up and snuggled in against her vowing to get her away for a weekend so we could sleep and reconnect.
AN- SORRY THIS UPDATE HAS TAKEN SO LONG! IT HAS BEEN TWO WEEKS OF HELL HERE! THE ER DIAGNOSED MY DAUGHTER WITH A MILD CONCUSSION, HOWEVER, IT WAS DETERMINED SEVERE SINUS INFECTION. LAST WEEK WE WERE AT THE STORE SHE ABOUT PASSED OUT. ANOTHER TRIP TO THE DOCTOR REVEALED SHE ALSO HAD VERTIGO ON TOP OF THE SINUS INFECTION. SHE HASN'T BEEN ABLE TO WALK IN A WEEK. I'VE BEEN READY TO PULL MY HAIR OUT, BUT TODAY SHE SEEMS BETTER!
