A World Without You
Prompt: Loss
Disclaimer: I don't own Gray or Juvia unfortunately. I really love them though, and I want to relive the angst and beauty that is Ch. 499.
[Setting: Ch. 499 – 500]
Her voice resonated everywhere, and he wish he had way to keep it from fading away, because he is pretty sure her body isn't moving.
"Juvia will live on in Gray-sama's body…"
No…
"So please don't be sad…"
No… Not after Ur and his father. Don't take her… His breath was coming in short pants, his vision blurred by the tears rolling down his cheeks, and his whole world seems to shake. His hands trembled as he crawled to Juvia's side. He gulped, trying to keep the pain in his chest at bay, "This… This can't be happening…"
"Juvia…" he cradled her body, limp and lifeless, growing colder with each passing second.
"…because Juvia's life will always belong to Gray-sama."
That doesn't mean a – He held back a gasp that turned into a gulp as Juvia's hand that transferred him her blood loosened in grip and dropped to her side. It wasn't supposed to end like this… She wasn't… He couldn't stop the tears that came now, his whole body shook. He screamed into the abyss. He didn't care who heard him. Juvia…
His mind told him she is long gone but his heart wanted to bargain with death, with fate. One last time. Gray cupped her cheeks, pleading, "Juvia…Wake up. Please…. I'm going to take your… Our feelings more seriously…"
"You can always just crash at my place if you want."
"What?"
"I-I mean… until Fairy Hills gets renovated…" He looked away, feeling his cheeks getting hotter. Another slip of tongue, damn it. She's going to freak out…
"Juvia will like that."
"Wha…Um, yeah. Cool then." And he left it at that.
He held her closer, his forehead touching hers, "so please… Juvia…" Don't leave me as well.
Gray slowly lifted his head, drawing out the seconds in the hopes that fate would answer this one and only miracle he wanted. But Juvia's eyes remained closed. He breathed in, wiping away tear streaks and tear marks. His thumb brushed gently against her cheeks too, then the loose strands of her hair. Gray lifted her up and – out of instinct or habit, he wasn't sure – had expected a yelp of surprise in return…
"G-Gray-sama?!" her grip on his shirt tightened, her head fitting surprisingly well on the crook of his neck.
"You're going to hurt your feet even more walking in those," It was an excuse and he mentally slapped himself for doing it again. He liked keeping her close. Her warmth and scent of her calmed him, and she was lighter than he thought.
Though he quickly regretted the idea… he could hear every little gasp she made, and her breath fanning his neck was doing…things.
…But there wasn't. His hands around Juvia tightened.
Once he found a spot where he believes she will be somewhere out of the ways of battles, he went off in search of Invel. He took Juvia away… His resolve hardened, he walked away. Away from her and into the chilling darkness of his heart that slowly consumed him. He released his demon slaying magic. Watched as the black blots taking a life of its own, marking his hands and arms.
Gray did find him. Invel be damned. He had thrown all his attacks, his punches, and eventually his fists at Invel. This is all him. Him and his magic that caused this gnawing pain in his chest that won't go away. With each punch and fist was the reminder that she will never come back. There is nothing he can do to bring her back anymore.
"Welcome back, Gray-sama!"
As Invel lay on the ground defeated, he thought he would feel better.
"Juvia made Juvi-bread again, Gray-sama!"
But he didn't. Tears were rolling down his cheeks again and his heart still feels cold and empty. Invel, face swollen and bruised, chuckles as he lay on the ground, taunting him still, with old wounds and loss.
"As long as E.N.D. lives, your fate of misfortune and loss continues."
He already knew that…
"Etherious Natsu Dragneel, is the strongest demon from the Books of Zeref, that man is your true enemy."
So fate decided he will have to fight his best friend, huh?
"Juvia won't go easy on you, Gray-sama!"
It doesn't matter. Juvia is gone, and so too, has any hopes he had left of a future worth living.
A/N: BAM. GRAY ANGST. MUAHAHAHAHAH. Also DOUBLE DRABBLE UPDATE, WOOOO. I actually wanted to upload one yesterday but FFNet was being weird and I couldn't. Anyway! It seems like the problem is fixed, so two drabbles for all of you lovelies!
I don't know if the flashbacks were a bit much. Otherwise, I am quite happy with this… As always, how was the drabble? Too short? Just right? Hated it? Loved it? Let me know your thoughts! ^^
