First things first, questions two actually to respond to.
My Age: I'm 16, I still dont have my license :(
When did i start writing: started writing a few years ago, just really bored and i guess it just stuck, you can see two previous stories on my other old account (TwilightLover11-16-12) I've improved over the years havent I?
There still not in LA in this chapter, and i know i asked for one more review but i really wanted to post this. Hope you like it! Still accepting questions :)
Chapter 31
Bella's POV
I kept a grip on Edward's hand waiting for my sister to respond,
"Have…had you told James?" she asked
"No…are you mad?" I asked
She shook her head,
"It's your choice Bella not mine," she said
At least….at least she didn't react badly,
"James is gonna hate this" she said
"I know," I said
"He won't let you do it Bella, he…he doesn't trust Edward" she said her eyes flickering to him,
I grabbed Edward's hand, he knew that James did not like him since I explained it, it all happened in the dream I had on the way here.
"I don't care, it's my choice I'm not being forced to do this," I said
"I know but…," she said
"No buts…" I said
"Bella, you're my sister I care for you," she said
"Step-sister yes, but Leah…I'm not being forced to do anything I don't want to" I said
"What does Nessie think?" she asked
"She's slept the whole time, we don't know, she's 3 though Leah, she won't remember Forks or Seattle much" I said
"She was born here Bella! She's been here her whole life, the whole 3 years," she said kind of glaring at me
"Leah….no" I said
"But…" she said
I stood up and she stood up to,
"Leah, get this in your head, I'm going from choice not force," I said slowly
She sighed,
"Fine…I just don't want to see you get hurt again," she said
"I won't," I said
"Are you sure? Edward you won't leave her again wills you?" she said
"Not unless she forces me away," he said
I smiled, never again, I'm not going to let him leave me ever again, he's Nessie's father not just some random person I found, I may love him, I don't know, but I can't really love him after he left me and Nessie 4 years ago. Even though he did not know of his daughter, I still think he could have come back earlier then he did, maybe when Nessie was a baby so we did not have to worry about everything right now.
"Leah…can you watch Nessie while I go tell James?" I asked
She nodded,
"Yes of course, she doesn't need to hear yelling," she said
I sighed, I knew there would be yelling. I know he will get mad at me and want absolutely nothing to do with me after I tell him, he hates me…oh god Bella don't cry.
"Go before I change my mind" she said
"Okay" I said
Edward and I were out the door a few minutes later, and I shook my head,
"He won't hate you," he said
"Yes he will," I said
"No he won't, he may say it at first but he will still love you Bella," he said
"But…" I said
"No buts, he loves you Bella, he might not want to see me ever, but he will love to see you, he'll regret saying whatever he does," he said
I put my arms around him,
"I'm being stupid," I said
He wiped away the tears with his thumb, it was stupid, to even think my brother, my older brother could hate me because of my decisions that don't include staying in forks or Seattle, I mean I want Edward to be in Nessie's life that means I…I have to make descions. Edward and I got in my car, and he drove off as I told him very quietly where to go, but he listened to every word I said to him, I know he loves me but can I admit to myself that I still love him? Can I….can I love him at all? On the other hand, do I just want to be with him because of Nessie? We have to take care of her…together, and I really cannot do this by myself anymore.
Ya I need him yes, but….what's going to happen when we move back to LA? What will his family think of me? What will they think of Nessie? He's famous….what will happen when we go out somewhere? What will happen if we ever get married or have more children? What will happen…
"Bella" He said
"What?" I asked
"You look worried, what's going on in that mind of yours?" he asked
"Just thinking" I said
"Thinking is an understatement Bella, tell me" he said
I shook my head, it's nothing,
"Bella…" he said
"I was just thinking about what's going to happen when we leave" I said
"Oh Bella…." he said
He didn't take time to grab my hand,
"Nothing bad will happen, my family will love you, I promise" he said
"You don't know that" I said
"Yes I do, my family wont hate you I know that they will love you, they'll love Nessie and you" he said
He didn't bother taking his hand off of mine and continued to rub circles on it.
"I'm sorry I'm being so dramatic" I said
"You're being a mother, worrying about things, worrying about Nessie and yourself" he said
I know I love him, but I won't saying it anytime soon…not until I know we've straightened things out. until I know we don't have much to worry about, life is so confusing right now.
Bella's just worrying about everything in her life, and she already knows her feelings are back that she felt so long ago. Still accepting questions, i also now have a facebook page now where i will post everything about my stories, please please review! 230+ until i post again? James reaction wont be the same as Leah's it wont say it but just remember the dream last chapter :)
